Chapter 127 – Relationships (1)

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My younger brother and I ended up leaving the room later than planned, past check-out time.
I couldn’t take a shower again and washed my sweaty body roughly and came out. My younger brother also washed up in a hurry and slowly left the room holding hands while feeling ashamed as we felt that we were gradually losing our reason.
Even after that, we kissed each other in the elevator when we had a short break, and when we had a moment when we were together even after walking for a bit, we kissed…

As I kissed my younger brother, I kept getting a strange feeling, which made me feel cramped.
Even though I was obviously dressed comfortably, I kept feeling uncomfortable with my clothes and having my hair tied up.
I want to lie down again, I want to lean on it wet with sweat, I want to be hazy… It was difficult because I wanted to lose my reason.
Even as I walked out of the resort and walked down the street, holding hands with my younger brother, feeling happy, that feeling didn’t go away at all.

“Shit… Side… Ha… S, people… Come…”
“… I’m gone.”
“Yes… Side, side, ha… I’m sorry…”

I became an idiot and could only think of being with my younger brother…
Brother and sister… Being treated as a newly married couple keeps my heart pounding.
Even though I thought it couldn’t be done, thinking that everyone looked like that, I was even glad that there was a height difference between me and my younger brother and that I wasn’t so similar.

They don’t look like siblings, they look like normal couples.
… Since no one knows, wouldn’t it be okay to act like a normal lover?
Is it really okay?

“… I like you.”
“Me too…”

Hiding on the street, we whispered that we liked each other, and the more we leaned in, the more we matched, the more and more I felt like I was falling into a dream.
I didn’t mean to do this, but the more I get misunderstood as a married couple, the more happy I am, the more troubled I feel, and the more I feel like this is an illusion right now, I’m very annoyed and upset… I feel good…
I kept wanting to not go back like this.

It’s only been a day or two now… I never thought that having the thought of dating a younger brother would make me feel so good and happy.
Even so, something is lacking, and in the end, the fact that I’m a younger brother hurts so much… Still, I like that…
I didn’t tell my brother, but I don’t know.
I really don’t know.

Why is it that the person I fall in love with is my younger brother? .
And it’s so good that I can’t stand it so much that I can’t stand it. It’s hard, it’s painful because it’s good, but I’m happy that my sister likes me, so my head is confused.
Can it really be like this… ?

Can I really like you?
Can I be happy even for a moment… ?
In my heart, I keep thinking about it, but I just want to be a fool like this.
Without thinking about anything, I like my sister a lot, have sex… My heart trembled because I wanted to get entangled.

So good that you can’t see the scenery, so good that you forget where you are…
There are times when I don’t feel the taste of the food we eat together, and there are times when simply eating together makes it so delicious.
I worry about every single thing I breathe, every bloodline, every single part of my skin…
If there is even a small dot on my arm, hand, or neck, it’s so good that I remember the location of each one.

What should I do if I like it and it ends badly… ?
Someday, someone caught me… What should I do when it gets really hard?
Even though I kept worrying that I might ruin my sister’s life…
I just didn’t think about it because I liked it so much just by looking at her face.

Like an idiot, I just like it… But I’m afraid that something bad will happen again…
As much as I already saw that result up close, I was anxious enough that my relationship with my brother could be worse than that.
If it’s a younger brother, I can be with him for the rest of my life, but as long as I like him as a younger brother, I can be satisfied…
I thought so, but since we keep seeing each other as the opposite sex…

Thinking that it’s okay to be a younger sister, thinking that it’s okay as long as it’s not sex, she keeps crossing the line, showing a side she shouldn’t show as an older sister, revealing a lot of embarrassing desires…
Even if you think it’s ridiculous, because you’re my younger brother…
I just want to be a fool.
Still, if I fall for a while, I’m anxious, I’m afraid I’ll fall, so I wonder if it’s better not to even start… I was having trouble.

I’ve been lying until now, but in this short time, I finally said that I would go out with my younger brother… My anxiety grew.
Are you really okay?
If things get tough, won’t the younger brother cool down too?
When it gets difficult… Would you hate it?

In the end, a relationship between a man and a woman was inevitable, and a relationship between a brother and a sister was a relationship that could not be separated even if they tried.
Even if I love my brother so much that I can’t stand it, I don’t know if it’s okay for me to see him as a man.
I’m anxious about what to do if something bad happens and then we move away.
Still good…

“… It’s getting done.”
“Yes…”

It’s good to just walk around quietly with each other without making a lot of noise until the sun goes down, it’s good to buy snacks and laugh together, and it’s good to share something to eat while eating.
It’s good to kiss and joke around without others knowing, it’s good to really look at each other with excitement after playing dirty jokes, and it’s good to lean on a body that’s standing firmly…
It’s nice to put our hearts together and feel the quiet, pounding heartbeats gradually come into sync, and to mix and match our breaths.

Good.
I like it so much, because I like it now…
Because I want this to continue… I’m anxious.
The moment you have sex, you can never go back to a sibling relationship.

Although they are brother and sister, they completely change into a man and a woman.
I already thought I couldn’t stop, but…
As much as I love my brother, I was already scared of breaking up with him.

Even though I know that thinking like that is stupid, I wonder if it’s really okay…
It’s hard to know what to do, but when I keep looking at my brother, I feel like an idiot and feel weird.

I want to be possessed without thinking…
It’s just that my little brother… I wish I could force you to take it.
It’s so good I don’t even want to think about it.
But also…
In the future, when things get so bad that her brother doesn’t like me, she wonders what to do.

“… Shall we go to the ryokan?”

My brother and I sat in a clearing where we could see people passing by, leaning on each other, and watching the sun go down, we got up slowly.
I couldn’t make a reservation in advance via the Internet or by phone, but I already had a rough idea of ​​where it was.
I walked to the ryokan with my brother, thinking that there would be room left since the number of guests would have decreased because of the hot spring resort.

It was a place that could be reached in less than 10 minutes if I walked slowly, and I was able to arrive shortly after I thought.
And when I arrived at the ryokan I originally planned to go to… Even looking at the map, I was taken aback as I couldn’t believe the scene unfolding before my eyes.

“… Uh?”

In the place where the ryokan should be, there was a tent with a sign that it was under construction.
Reading the notice board written in front, it seemed that this ryokan had already been sold and was under construction to be used for a different purpose, and I cursed at myself in the past for not thinking of a reason not to be contacted later.

“… It looks ruined.”
“Now, wait a minute…”

I urgently turned on the internet and looked for other ryokans nearby.
My younger brother doesn’t speak Japanese, so he just watched what I was doing, and I made as many calls as possible to nearby ryokans.

However, there were already no vacant rooms among other ryokans.
A hot spring resort came in from one place, and several ryokans were either closed or merged with the resort, and I could understand why this was the case…
I felt like something bad was already happening to my sister and me, so my heart felt tight.

“Okay, it’s okay… Back to the resort… Stay there for another day.”

After going back to the resort with my brother, I told the lobby to book another room while looking outside as the sun had already gone down.
But again, I heard the bad news as if something was wrong.

“Sorry, all rooms in that price range are sold out…”
“Yes?”
“A group of Chinese tourists came, how about the rooms above it? Oh wait… Sorry, higher level… There are only rooms left.”

Unfortunately, due to poor timing, there was no room available.
I tried to swipe the card, thinking that I could pay with a card, but something bad happened again this time.

“Sorry, guest… The card is not read.”
“Everything, please try scratching again.”
“Will cash be difficult?”

As things continued to go wrong, I became more and more frustrated.
My younger brother didn’t understand what I was saying at all, but he stayed still as if he knew I was in a bad state by looking at my expression, and I sighed and looked for another card.

“… You are over the limit.”
“Eww…”

I momentarily gave up halfway thinking about where to sleep if I couldn’t sleep here, and thought about countermeasures.
I want to have fun and feel good with my younger brother… Why do bad things like this happen all of a sudden?

“If you don’t mind, can I look for another inn nearby?”
“I already knew… Yes, please find out.”

The staff cared and told me whether they understood my situation, but I only got a headache.
Where to sleep… Originally, I wanted to sleep while taking a mixed bath with my younger brother…
Rather than not going the way I thought, I was afraid and anxious that I would leave a bad memory for my younger brother.
I want to share only good memories…

“Excuse me… Are you okay?”
“Uh… ?”

As I was immersed in such thoughts, I suddenly heard a memorable voice behind me.
Although he was wearing ordinary clothes, not a shaman’s outfit, he was a unique person who was memorable just by looking at his face, so as soon as he turned his back, he recognized who he was.

“I heard… I guess you don’t have a place to sleep…”

After listening to the priestess’s words, I pondered for a while, but I was already a little tired and didn’t know what to do, so I nodded without thinking.
During the conversation with her staff, she must have been listening to her story. The priestess, who stood silently, looked at me and her brother, and she nodded as if she had made up her mind.
She cautiously approached me and whispered softly so that only I could hear.

“Excuse me, but does her husband know about the situation?”
“… No.”
“I know it sounds strange, but I want to help.”

I was a little taken aback by the priestess’s words that she suddenly appeared and wanted to help me, as if someone had made it up.
And she didn’t even know how she could help, so when she stood still, the shrine maiden blushed and said to her.

“They’re the first newlyweds I’ve met at the shrine since I started working as a shaman.”
“Yes?”
“I know you will think it’s strange, but I think this is also a connection…”

I was very embarrassed, but I was hesitant to help.
It’s a strange thing… Helping out like this was not unheard of when traveling.
But it’s still really rare, and it’s a nuisance…

“Coincidentally, today is also the day I come back from managing the old ryokan for a while… But I think seeing someone who is just right in trouble has led me to something.”
“Uh? Yes…”
“Sorry for the suddenness. It may be inconvenient, but I’d like to provide you with a place to sleep. Is that okay? ?”

I was fascinated by the story of the shrine maiden, forgetting the melancholy and anxious feelings I had just a moment ago.
If you help… If you do that, I’d appreciate it…
Can it be like this?

“What are you talking about?”
“Ah, that… That, Mister… If we don’t have anywhere to go, they’ll let us sleep…”

When my brother, who couldn’t understand the conversation at all, asked, I immediately told him what he was talking about.
Then, as if her younger sister was worried about me, who was still anxious, she immediately put her hands together to the priestess, put them together, and bowed her head.

“Thank you.”
“Oh, oh, oh… Her husband seems to be all right.”

I was ashamed to say hello to her sister and she blushed, but in the end I closed her eyes and bowed her head slightly with her brother.
I walked around with my younger brother without thinking about anything for a day, and I was already losing the sun, and I had to find a place to sleep, so I thought there was nothing I could do.
Even so, I felt so sorry that when I tried to give the shaman the remaining money she had intended to use for her lodging, she said as if the shaman was in trouble.

“It’s just giving because you’re led, don’t do this.”
“Still…”
“I… My family has a lot of money.”

The shaman was somehow shy, and I eventually put my hand in her pocket and put her money back, thinking that if I didn’t want to take it at all, I would hide it in the house and come out.

“Wait a minute, please wait here.”

The priestess just as suddenly walked into her resort, and she really came out a moment later with a rusty key in her hand.
It was not an ordinary key, but a key big enough to fit into an old lock, and at the end was a wooden plaque with the words ‘Moon Pond’ written on it.

“Did you eat?”
“Yes.”
“Then… Shall we go?”

I followed the shrine maiden out of the resort with her brother.