Chapter 129 – Relationships (3)

As if running away from my brother, I got up and walked out of the room to the washing area.
After taking off the clothes I was wearing in front of a wooden basket containing towels, I went into the small shower room, and as I watched my little brother follow me, I grabbed my hair and walked to the open-air bath.

“Wow…”

The baths were separated in the shape of a figure 8, and there was a sign saying that women’s baths were on one side and men’s baths on the other.
Although it was an open-air bath, it was strange that it was separated like this, but the two moons floating in both baths were very mysterious.
One side was slightly blue and the other golden, which seemed to show that the ingredients of the two baths were different even though they were very close.

I entered the women’s bath first before my younger brother came in, and my younger brother followed and entered the men’s bath after seeing the sign.
The hot spring was just the right temperature, not too hot, and my brother and I approached the place where the number 8 connected to each other, looked at each other, and kissed each other slowly without saying a word.

“Ha…”

Really… He kept kissing me whenever I had a chance, to the point where I was confused as to whether the lips were mine or his brother’s.
The younger brother silently kissed her, but quietly took her lips apart and looked me in the eyes, and I also looked at her younger sister and held her breath.
It felt like my brother and I were alone under the night sky… Actually, it was just the two of us here, but it felt very strange to be alone in the moonlit bath.
I felt something mysterious and very deep… Even though my head went blank, I kept feeling anxious.

I wonder if the reason I didn’t date until now is because I wanted to like my younger brother…
I wonder if I didn’t meet anyone properly, knowing that I shouldn’t do it, but keeping in mind that it would get better this far.
The fact that my younger sister’s things are so stimulating and fit me just as if they had been adjusted since I was born… I was very lovable and grateful to my body for being so big and satisfying and pleasing to my younger sister.

Sometimes I didn’t like the big silence followed and hips that drew other men’s attention, but just that my brother praised me, attracted me, and kept looking at me, I was so happy and it became a place I really liked.
Going on a trip was just to go around and see other places for a while and forget the feeling of being alone… But now I just want to be with my younger brother, so I came on a trip just the two of us.
Everything, everything… Just being with my brother was changing.

I like it that much.
But, after all, I’m sorry… I was worried because I was anxious.
I’ve come to love it so much that I can’t stand it anymore…
In the end, my younger sister was just excited about me, and what should I do if she hates me later?

I didn’t have any thoughts of marrying another man, and even with my younger brother… I didn’t know what to do, but I was still vaguely thinking that I wanted to be with him because I liked it…
My brother…
I don’t know

Being in a relationship is different from being together for the rest of your life.
If you stay as younger siblings, you’ll be together for the rest of your life, even if you don’t have to date… Because girlfriends are different.
Because I love you so much, because I can be with you even if I’m not dating…
In the future, secretly, secretly…Without having sex, trying not to cross that precarious line, just to that extent, a little upset, but just enough to remain as a younger brother, shouldn’t it be like that?

I don’t know my heart either.
It’s nice just to see you like this, but I want to get closer.
I know it’s greed, but it’s hard to hold back.

I know he’s a younger brother… But I only see him as a man, and I want to see him as a man…
I hate my brother
However, no matter how much I think about it, I can see that the end will not be good in the future. Is it okay?
I really don’t know.

“…Sorry.”
“Huh?”

I felt a little depressed, so I apologized to my brother.
I looked up and looked at the moon, then the gravel garden, then the wooden wall, then the water surface of the hot spring…
As I kept avoiding my brother’s gaze, I remembered what had happened during this trip.

“The trip to Japan…Wasn’t it great?”

It was the last day, but I finally came to the open-air bath and I think I did everything I wanted to do… But I felt that it was a little lacking, and I also thought it was a mess.
I couldn’t control myself in the slightest and poured out my sexual desire on my younger brother, treating him like he was in heat… Actually, I didn’t know what to do because I felt like I was going crazy when my younger brother touched me even a little bit.

“I just ask for patience, and I go to see strange things in Japan…”

My younger brother didn’t seem to be having much fun at the adult store, and other places… He wasn’t happy to look around, he was weird…
I didn’t sleep well on the first day, and yesterday was a bit okay, but in the end, I just kept asking for patience and made it difficult for my younger brother.
And still… I haven’t been able to say that it’s OK to have sex.
I was supposed to tell you that I passed, but selfishly, I kept my mouth shut because I was scared.

“Sorry for the mess, I want to do only good things together…”

The lodging on the last day was eventually resolved fortunately… But if I went really wrong, I would almost have to sit down and fall asleep on the street.
I just want to show my younger brother the ideal older sister, but during this trip I was really messed up.
She can’t stand her sexual desire, and at the same time, she only asks her younger sister to put up with it unilaterally, she couldn’t plan the trip properly, and she makes her younger sister have a hard time…
It wasn’t like this when I was in Hong Kong.

“…Is it really okay to date your sister?”
“Why?”
“Incest, isn’t it… If you do, you can’t…”

I kept my mouth shut and told my younger brother about the worries I had.
I don’t want to say these words when traveling and having fun… But I thought that I had already ruined this trip, so I said it out of my mouth without realizing it.

“Are you okay with me?”
“What do you mean?”
“Is it okay if I mess up like this?”

The words that came out a little continued to flow like water leaking out of a water bag with a hole in it, and even though my heart was lightened because the things I was worried about alone leaked out, I fell into guilt again at the thought of saying something bad to my younger brother.

“As you might think, noona is not an ideal person…”
“Are you okay.”
“If something bad happens…You might want to break up. But since we’re siblings, we might have to see each other again… A relationship we like may turn into a relationship we don’t like.”

I really didn’t want to say it, but I kept my mouth shut and said it while crying a little.

“Nu, nuna…If, maybe…Married to someone else, you could, really…Just like that…”

I had no intention of mentioning that I might marry someone else, and even though I knew that it was an idea that would annoy my sister, I said it out of my mouth… I couldn’t bear to mention that my younger brother might get married.
Selfishly, I didn’t want to take it out.

“Are you really okay?”
“What about your sister?”
“It’s okay, I’m fine… I, already… Can’t stand it. It’s so good, it’s so selfish, I can’t do it anymore.”
“Me too…”
“You can’t put it lightly… I knew that the future would be full of bad things…”

Her sister quietly reached her hand out of the tub and hugged my shoulder over the cut-out.
For some reason, I was very excited about it, and I suddenly had the thought that my sister really had no hesitation in going over a wall or something, so she raised her head and looked up at her brother.

“I’m not saying it lightly either.”

Her brother said a little angrily, and she looked down at me reprimandingly with sharp eyes.

“What if something bad happens? I think it would be nice to experience that too.”

As soon as I heard my brother’s words, I opened my eyes wide and looked at him.
I couldn’t even think of wanting to go through something bad together.
It was a thought I hadn’t even thought of, really… It was so surprising that my hands were shaking, and my head dropped by itself at the nonsense.

“Even when bad things happen, I just like being with my sister. It’s okay even if it’s hard, I just like watching you.”
“That, but…”
“You like me to the point of being selfish?”

My sister slowly leaned her upper body toward me from outside the bath, and put her hand on my cheek, forcing me to face her.
A little violent, a little beastly… But still kind and caring, and yet rough again, I came to like all of them, and I saw the younger brother’s face that made my whole body tickle just by looking at it.

“What is my relationship with you? Do you know that I am not?”

My younger sister showed sharp teeth and spoke in a slightly growling voice as if she was in a bad mood.

“I am more selfish.”