Chapter 137 – [Abduction] Masturbation – Younger Brother’s Point of View (1)

Unfortunately, he was a little taken aback when he was suddenly asked about studying abroad in China.

“Why me?”
“Your sister is over there too… Wouldn’t it be better there than preparing for another college here? The university ranking is much better than Korea.”
“Ha… Can’t I just not go to college? I am not very interested.”

To be honest, I wasn’t really interested in college.
If you don’t go to college this time, it’s difficult to get a job in the future… He was sure to say that it was difficult to earn money or have a stable job and family.
But even without that kind of thing, I was able to earn enough money just by working as a fitting model for a clothing store run by a hyung I know.
You don’t have to study to get a job… That kind of thinking is already too old.

“Wouldn’t it be nice if you said you wanted to be with your older sister when you were young and studied Chinese?”
“When are you talking about that?”

When I was a teenager, I hated a house with only my father and me, so I imagined living with my older sister and running away… I have already grown too much to have such childlike thoughts.
The older sister, who had never properly seen her face or photos since she was born, was already someone who had nothing to do with my life. The same goes for her mother, whom she contacts very occasionally.

The idea that I had to go to college in order to have a stable family, perhaps because I had been living alone in kindergarten, was nothing more than bullshit to me. What the hell does a stable home and job have to do with college?
All I can hear is that I am sorry that I have not been able to raise him properly until now, so I ask him to go to college as an indulgence.
This time, going to university in China felt a little new, but in the end, what I was saying would lead to the fact that the future will be difficult if I don’t go to university.

“I have already contacted your mother. That’s what her mother told me.”
“… Yes?”

But words came out of my father’s mouth that I could never have imagined.
You’re a mother It’s a word I haven’t heard from my father even once since I was in elementary school.
It is an incomprehensible couple relationship. Even though she seems to hate that she’s divorced, I know she’s on the phone every week. Her perverse love relationship, which seemed to like her but was sorry and distressed, and yet liked it, was irritating just to watch.

But what was certain was that even though we talked on the phone so often, my father didn’t carelessly use the word mom in front of me.
Are you a mother? Did I call my mom about my college?
I can’t believe I did something like that as a parent. I don’t know my father… She said that the mother who abandoned me shortly after giving birth was worried about me, so she said she would not go to China to go to college?

“Take a look… Please, I know I didn’t do it right… Please.”
“Your mother told you to go? Do you want to come and live together?”
“… I will live with your sister.”
“… Who is your sister?

I wonder what kind of person she would have said that. I’m dumbfounded. From his father’s mouth came another word he never thought of.
Even though I am the only one who has experienced the same experience as myself and is the same victim… No matter how much I wanted to meet him, my mother and father secretly rejected each other.
… An older sister whose face has never been seen except in childhood photos.

“… Ha.”

I don’t know anyone else… I want to meet my sister at least once.
It’s not like I want to live with my sister like I used to. I don’t even feel like a family anymore… It’s just a perception that I have an older sister.
But, I’m curious. I’m really simply curious.
What did he look like and who was he?
I don’t really want to go to college, but if you ask me to go on a trip for a while to give you money and meet my sister… I hope that will be ok

“So you’re going to China~?! Nonsense!”
“That’s right! Really… ! When are you going and coming back?”
“Hey, what makes no sense! He said he was leaving!”
“Mistress, you’re out of it!”
“That’s right! Ugly thing!”
“And… Is it really too much?”

I met friends from the same high school and talked about going to China, but it didn’t really feel real.
His father had already prepared a plane ticket to see if he really wanted to send me to China, and his mother… He even told me with a sweet, worry-filled voice that I didn’t want to hear, that he had prepared all the academies and colleges for me, so all I had to do was study hard.
I don’t know what kind of shame she is doing this now, but her mother says that her sister has already prepared a house for her and has not refused to live with her.
I just want to see your face at least once… What are you thinking?

“But why are you going? Are you really going to college?”
“That’s right! You decided to create a fashion brand with me! If you model, I’ll come out with Paddy! I can really feed you! With me… !”
“Really, he is not joking. How are you with me? My dad bought me this car as a college gift! Wanna go on a trip together? You can get your license!”
“… What do you guys have a weakness for? What do you want to give me so much?”
“Ah, why are you guys here?
“I called.”
“Ah, that… ! Welcome! It’s like a farewell party, but we should get together!”

Farewell party? I thought I was saying hello to someone who would never come back, so I sighed and laughed.
It should be about a month. I have no intention of studying. As the kids say, even if you just live as a model, the money will come rolling in… Well, I hate both my mother and father, but I like the fact that I inherited her good looks… Useful.

“However… Why are you going He said he had no intention of going to college.”
“… To see my sister.”
“Sister… ? Did you have a sister?”
“I am in China. It’s been over 15 years since I saw it.”
“O’clock, fifteen years… That… Sorry.”

My friend didn’t ask anymore if he sensed that there was something sensitive about the family. Well, it’s not a big deal, it’s just that I want to see the face of a person with only blood connections, so I’m going there… Be too careful

“Hey! Shouldn’t you be disappointed when you see your sister?”
“What are you talking about?”
“That’s right… You can tell just by looking at my older sister, but they’re just brothers! I have a lot of armpit hair, and without makeup, my skin is crispy and bumpy, like an oak-like apple peel on my face… Ugh… !”
“Isn’t it too harsh to talk to your sister? Are you reaching your sister?”
“Speak! Because I am proud!”
“Yaya, don’t expect to meet your sister too much~!”

I took a glass of vodka and drank it in silence at my friends’ words. I didn’t really want to study at all, so I almost gave out a blank page and failed to go to college, but thanks to the other kids studying hard… The meeting today was a day to celebrate the end of college exams, as well as greetings for not being able to see each other for a while in China.

“But why do you always drink vodka?”
“Shochu doesn’t taste good. Much better to drink vodka with ice water. The more you eat this way, the larger the quantity.”
“… Instead, they look bad at the store.”
“I asked if I could drink it earlier, and he smiled and said it was okay?”
“No… That’s the boss lady… Because of your face… Why do you keep drinking? Is it that delicious?”
“… Would you like to eat?”
“Me! Then mix the orange juice with me~”
“Me too~ That’s delicious~”

That day, after drinking and saying hello to the kids until the night, the date changed to the next day, and then we broke up.

“Hi~ I must come back~”
“Kaoliangju when you come!”
“Moutai when you come!”
“Xi Jinping hair when coming!”
“Ahahahahaha!”
“Okay, see you in a month or two.”

My friends went back excitedly to each other, probably still having energy even in their drunken state, and there were only two girls left next to me.
Both of them confessed to me, and they know each other… These are the kids who cared about me.
And both of them were kids who never had sex with me.

“Excuse me… That, too, when you come back… Can you choose who you are?”
“Me too… I will wait.”

The girl I first confessed to refused, but she drank and took me to a motel… Went right before
She didn’t even kiss, she almost did it out of lust… When he saw me, he was terrified and ran away.
Well, it was as thick and long as her own arm.

And the other one took me home drunk in a similar way and suddenly tried to attack me… He told me to stay still, unzipped the zipper, and tried to suck it into her mouth, but when I saw that it was much bigger than her face, I was so scared that I couldn’t say anything, but I woke up and apologized.
It’s cool because it’s manly, but it’s scary.

“… I say it several times, but I have no thoughts of dating.”
“That that… Because that’s fine.”
“Huh… Me too, that… It’s good to see me, but if you don’t like that… With him… Well, we’re both friends and we’ve talked about it…”
“Are you afraid?”

That’s absurd. It’s not that I don’t have sexual desire either, so I wanted to have sex if I wanted to, but both saw me and ran away.
Maybe it’s because we’re close friends, but after consulting with each other and finding out that both of them did that to me, it became a strange relationship.

I have no thoughts of dating… I don’t even believe in true love. I simply instinctively think that there is a female in front of me, so I think it’s just a vulgar animal desire to mate.
I want to have sex, but I don’t want to force it… Even if I didn’t cling to it, I didn’t feel the need to have sex because I wanted to do it here and there.

Rather, whenever I see girls like this, I just think that my mother wanted to be with another man like this and then broke up.
I never said it outright, but I guess.
When I was on the phone with my dad, sometimes I had conversations as if I was meeting someone else… Because I could hear the noise.
Dirty.

“No, I’ll try…”
“I don’t need it, so just go find another guy.”

How many times have you both confessed at the same time? Although other women sometimes confess… They are a bit persistent.
Even though we keep seeing each other because we’re friends, I kicked her again, thinking that maybe we should keep our distance if we go back to China.

In the first place, it was just that I was worried about my sexual desire for a while, but I didn’t even mind.
I have no intention of liking, and I am not interested in dating. It’s good if it’s just a friend, but I only question why I’m in a relationship.

It’s like he suddenly confessed again as if he thought that if he didn’t date now, he’d never meet again… I don’t really want it, but it’s a nuisance to confess again and again.
I don’t know if I’ll have other thoughts when I get older, but I’m not interested in dating at all right now. Just dirty

I don’t think anyone looks very pretty… Interest just doesn’t happen. He is a good person. I think it’s pretty, but I’ve never felt the emotion of wanting to date and beating my heart.
It’s not that I don’t understand that. I know that someone likes me or looks at me sexually.

“Excuse me… Maybe, a model… Do?”
“No, I am a student.”
“Oh… That’s over there… If you’re just traveling… Have it…”
“Ah yes. Thank you.”

Even when you get on the plane, the stewardess hands you chocolate… Give me more drinks or keep glancing…
It’s nice to be attracted to me and try to do something better, but it’s also uncomfortable.
Conversely, it is a very beneficial and convenient feeling to endure a little inconvenience.
As I was eating the chocolate, I saw a phone number and name written on the back. It happened often when I bought snacks at the convenience store. Even when I go to a PC room to play.

It’s annoying, but he pretends to put it in his bag with care. I’m not interested, but it’s useless… It doesn’t have to hurt.
Even though you know that the other person has feelings for you, you don’t like actions that hurt them.
It’s terrible because it seems like she’s talking on the phone with her moaning on purpose, just like her mother.
Dirty.

In the end, like a lie, I really arrived in Beijing, China.
As I got off the plane and went to the airport exit, a belated worry came to my mind.
I just came from the thought of wanting to see your face, but what if I’m a strange person?
Come to think of it, if my sister is also the daughter of my mother and her father… I thought it might be a little strange. Not to mention what my friends told me not to expect too much from my older sister…

If you really don’t want to, I think I should just look at your face and say that I want to go back to Korea next week or so.
Come to think of it, I’ve never seen your face before… Can I find it?
If I can’t find it, I know the name, so I came out through the entrance gate, wondering if I should call it at least.

“Uh…”

However… As soon as I came out of the gate, my eyes were drawn to one place, as if I was really drawn to something.
As long as people around you can’t see… A woman with heterogeneous proportions is visible. She looks like a crane standing alone between the people around her and really chickens… Her hair tied in a ponytail is very shiny, her proportions are so pretty that even though she is petite, she doesn’t look short at all, and her legs in leggings are really… Is that okay? The lines are strange yet charming and elastic.
I like sports too, but… Those are the legs of a real athlete. The waist is also narrow and the silence followed… No, more than a shoulder… It seems that the silence followed is almost twice as large… Is it a real model?

If you look closely at the men around you, they are all glancing at you. Are you a model? It’s a proportion that makes me want to… Her face is strangely cute It might be naive, but the lines are thick, so it looks resolute, but… The feeling of innocence is stronger. He made eye contact with me with an uneasy, searching look… Wait for a sec.
… Isn’t that what you’re holding in your hand a sketchbook with my name on it?

“Uh… Excuse me… Maybe sister… Is it?”

I really want to… When I approached and asked… The woman who was staring blankly into her eyes tilted her head hard and looked up at her with a height that only came close to my chest. As if in surprise, she opened her eyes wide and answered in a voice so sweet that her ears melted.

“Uh? Huh? He, too, younger brother… Are you?”

… This frighteningly cute and pretty thing is my older sister?