Chapter 2 – Sister Living Alone (2) [Modify]

That said, nothing much has changed since then.
Her mom stopped coming to her house even more as I became an adult and she became a college student.
She became someone I could only see through texts occasionally.

I didn’t have any complaints because they paid for my living expenses generously, but maybe because I grew up in that kind of environment, I wasn’t interested in what other kids say about a harmonious family or a romantic relationship where each other trusts each other.
Dating for a while with a close male friend I’ve been working out with since middle school… It wasn’t that I didn’t have a curiosity about dating, so there were a lot of things going on, but I wasn’t particularly interested in having a physical relationship.
I felt the physical desire, but I didn’t think that I had to deal with it with a man.
As much as the cause of my mother’s divorce was infidelity… She was interested in pleasure, but she didn’t believe in the relationship itself, which was necessary for it.

Certainly, as my mother said, the women in my family have strong desires, so I also felt that way a lot.
However, psychologically, there was a reluctance to create a relationship that would break up someday, and I even thought it was pathetic to see men who only thought of dating in that relationship, perhaps because of the resentment of her mother’s divorce.

In college, I blocked a lot of contact with the opposite sex, to the point that some kids thought of me as a lesbian.
It wasn’t that I didn’t have the experience of being in a relationship with someone, even for a short time, but rather after that experience… I fell more into self-defense devices.
I didn’t have a lot of knowledge about masturbation devices, so at first I only had one simple suction type dildo, but as time passed, I bought more and more… I was even more satisfied with masturbation.

That was all there was to anything weird or exciting about me during my college life.
One person confessed 8 times, and I have been in a relationship with the condition of not having a relationship at all because I was exhausted, but… In the end, when I saw him asking to break up, I thought that he was just wanting to date for a short time because of his sexual desire.

In the end, I didn’t really care about a relationship that would break up someday.
When I wanted to date, I thought it was just because of sexual desire, and it was all the more so because after masturbating, I no longer thought of dating.

Like that, I graduated from college without a big relationship, and I was in the middle of deciding whether to become a research student on the recommendation of a professor or prepare for a job soon.
It’s been a while since her drunk mother came to her house with her new boyfriend.
He was earning money interpreting contracts and legal issues for various overseas companies, so he didn’t come home often and was constantly moving here and there, but he made a lot of friends with foreigners. I also make a lot of money.
The house is big enough to live alone, but… I was living alone in a house with another small bedroom that felt like my mom’s sex room, and my mom took care of everything when I wasn’t drunk, such as tax problems.

That day, my new boyfriend, who came to support my mother, seemed excited even when I opened the front door, and came in with my mother, who was still only in her 30s, showing affection to each other. When I said one word, my mom, my face became very embarrassed.
And it just went back.

Sometimes there were people who were rather excited, but I guess it wasn’t my boyfriend this time.
Having gotten used to this already, I made her drunk mother lie down on her couch and sent her flustered mother’s new boyfriend away.
And when I saw her drunk mother, she sighed and drank her honey water.
And that day, for the first time in a drunken state, my mother brought up a serious story.

“That… Oh, I’m sorry. Mom called Dad today, and she’s had some drinks.”

When she heard the word dad for the first time after graduating from middle school, at first I wondered if I had heard it wrong, but before Mom got drunk and went to bed, she unilaterally said that she wanted to say everything.

“Uh… Second, going to college this time… I failed, but I heard that I studied Chinese a lot separately… Is it possible to enter through the special admission process for international students? Do you? So, that… The second is still mother and son… You? I can’t wait to see… Your younger brother also wants to study abroad, and he… I was supposed to come next week, but it’s a little sudden… ?”

Like I said, it was sudden.
It was absurd and embarrassing, but at first I thought it might be some drunken nonsense.

And the next day, my mother called again and said that her sister would come to live with us and to tidy up her mother’s room a little. I let go.
Sometimes, when I wanted to sleep while watching the night view, her mother’s room, which I came in to, was a small studio-like room with only her window, bed, desk, and closet, and it was definitely… It was a structure that could be used as a study room immediately if all traces of her mother were removed.

And after a while, she goes to the airport with a large piece of paper with her sister’s name written on it… Even then, she hadn’t realized it at all, and her head was in a daze.
I remember that I have a younger brother, but since I haven’t seen him for too long, do I really have a younger brother? It was like I wanted to.
However, for some reason, I wanted to be friendly.
I also really liked the word brother.

I was looking forward to living together because I lived alone for a long time.
Studying must be stressful, but should I serve you something delicious? I often clean and do laundry… I’m resting anyway, and with my mom… My dad seems to be sending me because he wants me to help my younger brother, who fell out of college once, to focus on his studies.

Anyway, her parents are her parents, and it wasn’t that her mom didn’t pay for her living expenses or that her dad didn’t contact me at all.
He sent me a short message with pocket money on every birthday.
I thought it was worth it and thought I should do it well, then I heard the notification that the plane had arrived and I was watching people coming out of the airport exit.

Then, for some reason, there was a tall man who caught my attention, and it was a really strange feeling.
His broad shoulders, his body looks good even to me, who likes sports, and his face… It looks sharp and nervous… Are you confused again? He was a man with a slightly cute impression.

“Uh… ? That, uh… Maybe, sister… Is it?”
“Uh? Huh? He, too, younger brother… Are you?”

And that man was my younger brother whom I had seen for the first time in 15 years.
And after that day, my brother and I started living together.

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After meeting him for the first time, I was very awkward, so I completely treated him like a stranger.
Actually, it was natural. Because I haven’t seen him in 15 years.
Still… Family affection? Maybe I’m starving for the same things, but for some reason, I want to keep doing good to him, and I want to look good, so my younger brother really became the first person I tried to be so good to.

But even if someone confesses to me or someone in college tells me that they have feelings for me, they still like me. I’m thankful, but I don’t really like it. It was very awkward and difficult for me to deal with my younger brother, probably because I only acted to the extent and never expressed that I liked him very much.
I want to do well, but I don’t know how to do it so that I feel like I’m doing well.

The first thing we did when we got home was to face each other and say hello.
We were both awkward and shy, so we introduced ourselves with blushing faces.

“That, ah… Hello, I… Sister, yes study… That’s it, fighting? Do… Phi, tell me if you need anything… ?”
“Ah yes… Uh, me too uh… Brother. Please take good care of me.”

It was a very stupid greeting to each other.
Even though I felt a sense of distance, it was a very strange feeling, a strange feeling when we said that we were sisters and brothers.
Although we said names, I would rather not call each other by names.
Of course, my sister only called me noona, and I also felt like I was a stranger rather than a younger sister, so at first I called her younger sister, younger sister, or hey.
It was a very strange title.

“Looks like we need to talk a little… ?”
“Um, yes. What should we talk about?”
“Just like each other’s hobbies? Likes and dislikes… ?”

In a very awkward atmosphere, I felt too much distance, so I asked to have a conversation first, and we greeted each other to some extent.

“My hobby is… Work out? I just like to use my body.”
“Uh… Then there’s a place I’d like to take you. It’s the athletic department of the university I went to, and a few of my friends are playing as players, so I can enter as I like. If you just keep studying, your stamina will deteriorate, so if it’s okay, let’s go together. Oh, what is your favorite food?”
“I like salmon. I seem to like all seafood, especially the salmon steak. Oh, not mayonnaise, just seasoned with salt.”
“Ah, it looks like something you eat while exercising. Then, shall we serve salmon steak the day after tomorrow?”
“Uh… ? I’m fine…”
“No, I have to study hard without worrying about anything else, so I want you to tell me about this often. And, because I, too, is the younger brother… I want to do it…”
“Oh, uh, then… Yes, please.”
“Then… What kind of exercise do you like?”
“Hmm… I think I like them all. You just like running, and you like moving your body or sweating itself? I feel a little need.”

I felt the need for exercise too, but for some reason I was ashamed to say it.
Certainly, on days when I have a lot of desire, it was great to feel refreshed after exercising.
Of course, it must have been for a different reason than me, and I thought it was a reason for wanting to build a body.

Most of the conversation led to my questions. At first, my younger sister was taken aback as to whether I seemed to be paying too much attention to her, but when it became clear that I wanted to do this and that, she smiled little by little as if she was happy.
It was a really nice smile that I was surprised by.

My younger brother had a very good body, and he wore clothes as if he wanted to show that he had a good body.
Overall, it should be called active clothes, but I also like hoodies and hoodie zip-ups… I felt strange because he seemed to like sportswear a lot.
Even at that time, I was wearing leggings, so I preferred very active clothes.

I don’t know what to say, but my younger brother looks like he could make a lot of women cry.
It made me guess how popular he must have been with women, with his height a half a head taller than me and his good proportions.
I automatically thought that I looked like someone with a lot of experience as a woman.
Maybe it’s genetic to like sports, but I also like to move my body, so we decided to go jogging together.

“Something is very strange. It must be different from what I thought.”
“Huh? Why… ?”
“Before I came, my friends told me various things about my older sister, telling me not to have illusions about her, that she was just a brother whose only gender was a girl.”

My younger brother seemed to have a lot of friends, but it seemed like he had heard a lot of things from his friends before coming to China, and he seemed to have talked about his situation to some extent.

“But um, how to say something… It’s like an ideal older sister.”
“Uh? Is this ideal? I… ?”
“Yes, um… Just? First Impressions? Ah oh… Really just?”

Hearing the words with both hands together as if embarrassed, I felt very good for some reason, and I thought about various things in bed while putting my younger brother to bed early, who must have been very tired from the flight.

Ideal sister.
I don’t know if it’s embarrassing because I didn’t tell you more, but it must have looked good.
I came to think that I want to look good in the future and I want to be close to you.