Chapter 7 – Masturbation (2)

When I masturbate, I take off all my clothes like a habit.
You can wear it, but… I sweat a lot, and more than anything else, because of the habit of drool when I feel it, I’m concerned about the drool on my clothes, and the rubbing… There were many things to worry about.
I don’t watch pornographic videos, but rather read texts or cartoons, or watch videos with a lot of sound. I like listening to the sound and imagining it rather than watching the video as it is, so I often masturbated with my earphones plugged in with my eyes closed.

So, I usually liked masturbation, which blocked my vision and was stimulated through hearing.
Seeing it with your own eyes is a little, that… Should I be sensitive to the shape of things? If the size, color, or shape of the part gets stuck even a little… For example, if you put something strange that you see in the video sometimes, or if it’s too bent… If the tip is as sharp as a ballpoint pen, there was something I didn’t want to see.

In that sense, what I usually imagine in my head is something like a dildo made in an ideal shape… Or something vague and completely unrestrained that I imagined in my head.
It was like that until then, but I felt really strange that day…
While cleaning my younger brother’s room, I saw a lot more toilet paper than usual… After checking the time and thinking about it, I ignored the awkwardness of saying that I shouldn’t be like this…
Eventually, I started to masturbate again.
If there was a difference from before, it was that this time I really made up my mind and tried to masturbate properly.

I never looked at the door when I masturbated.
I had to completely turn my back to feel safe.
The thought that someone might come in was like a negative reaction from my mom’s boyfriend or my drunk mom opening my door and coming in from middle school.

Therefore… At that time, I completely took off my clothes… After attaching a dildo to the floor of my brother’s room, I climbed on it, put earphones in my ears, and put the cell phone on the floor next to me with a dirty video playing, and put my upper body on the floor with my legs on both sides while sitting down … It was a posture with both hands together.
In my gathered hands, there was a garbage bag containing my sister’s toilet paper, and in that state, I masturbated while shaking it up and down as if pushing only my buttocks with my leg strength.
I couldn’t even stand the sound properly… I’m very excited.

In fact, the picture of my younger brother masturbating came to my mind.
Awesome, the big stuff that keeps popping into my head is really more ideal than I would imagine… It’s embarrassing, but I keep going to that male masturbation device… When I pulled it out, it caught on too much, and I remembered the scene where it was pulled and then popped out.
I was too weak to the stimulation of scraping, so I was afraid that I would feel it too much if I shook my back, so I was avoiding it, but at this time, I didn’t have anything like that.

Shaking my hips completely at will, closing my eyes tightly, focusing on the erotic sounds in my ears…
It was coming out of its mouth like a completely breathless puppy.
I didn’t hear it with my ears, but felt it from inside my body.
Heck, heck, heck, sometimes when I felt too much, I made a cat-like sound like oh oh ong oh oh ong.

“Hoohhh… “

And just like that, like a habit at the moment when it seems like it’s about to climax… I lifted my buttocks as high as possible by standing on my toes as if I were doing yoga while lying face down.
This was the first time I felt that I had reached a climax where something was really completely released.

Should I say that the inside of my stomach melted? I felt a vibration like something melted and flowing out, and a little… I could feel that he was getting wrapped up in it, but rather than going to climax because he was packing up, it felt like it came out on its own as he flinched because he was so nervous that his bottom loosened up.

It was the first time I had gone like that, so it was a feeling I still remember… The clip is so stiff that it hurts, and the tip rubbing against the floor is strangely itchy and buzzing, and the hole… Do I have to say that I am shaking? Slightly, I could feel the lower part moving at its own will, as if it were getting bigger and smaller as I smelled the delicious food in front of me.
The hole in the back… I kept tightening and loosening it while twitching with the lingering aftertaste of my buttocks leaving on its own.

While meowing like a cat, I put my toes upright… Climax as it is… I slowly lowered my hips and, lying on my stomach, in a standing position with my knees lightly touching the dildo, soothed the lingering aftertaste.
Really, it’s embarrassing, but I’m so satisfied that I slowly open my eyes in a dazed state… He panted while rubbing his cheek on the floor…
All of a sudden, I had a very strange feeling.

I must say it’s cold… ? Should I say it feels like the wind is touching my butt… ?
I was closing the door, why can’t I feel the wind? And I really suddenly came to a thought, what am I? I slowly turned my head back.
Seriously, I almost screamed while passing out.

In front of the door, my younger brother blushed so much… He was holding the doorknob and looking down at me with his mouth open.

At that time, I definitely felt what it felt like to have my head completely white.
Seriously, my mind went white and I blinked to see if I was seeing it wrong.
Trying to get up belatedly, she slipped slightly on the floor that had turned into a puddle, sat down like a startled cat, and ran away as if crawling on all fours, pulling the blanket from her sister’s bed…

“Uh? Uh? Uh? To? Uh? Uh? Uh? Why? Why why? Uh?”

I kept making sounds like something was broken, and while panicking with my face red enough to bring tears to my eyes, I eagerly grabbed the dildo on the floor and tried to remove it… It was so slippery that I held it in my hand and swiped it up several times, then I managed to regain my senses, grabbed the suction cup part, took it off, and put it inside the blanket that covered my body… We made eye contact and avoided each other while remaining speechless.

It was really confusing.
Why did you come here, I wonder if it’s not yet time, I wonder if I’ve been doing it for so long that I forget the time, I’m ashamed that I was caught, and I’m ashamed that I’m not wearing anything… My younger brother pointed her finger at her wallet, which had suddenly been dragged along as I was removing the bed covers, and said in a very trembling voice,

“Hey, your wallet… Leave it and go… It’s lunch time, so I want to go to the convenience store and buy something… Because Go, I’ll go! Sorry!”

The younger brother picked up her wallet and sprinted out of the room and out the front door as if running away.
I sat there blankly and later recalled the postures and sounds I used to masturbate to.

“Aaaaang! Ah ah ah ah ah!!”

And then I buried my face in the blanket and just screamed… When the time for her brother’s return came near, she belatedly took a shower and tidied up…
I was sitting on the sofa in the living room, staring blankly at the ceiling, completely distraught.

That, being a person is very… When you can’t believe reality much more than you think.
I’m not thinking of a solution, I’m upset, I’m not angry… Because I can’t think of anything in my head.
I just found out that I can’t think of anything, as if my brain blocks further stimuli to defend itself…

That day, my younger brother came back much later than the usual return time, which is rare, at the end of the night.
As soon as I entered, my younger brother ran into me sitting in the living room and hesitantly entered.
You seem to be having a hard time with me? I sat on the sofa and watched my younger brother standing at the front door without even entering the house, holding my knees in my arms, and slowly came to my senses as if power was turned on in my head.

Seeing my younger brother standing at the front door without even coming home, I suddenly felt extremely embarrassed, but more than anything, I felt like I had disappointed her younger brother, and I felt ashamed and embarrassed that I had thrown it away by showing it.
For that reason, the first thing I said to my younger brother was an apology.

“Hey, did you have a good time? Sorry, that, this, weird thing at lunch… For showing me.”
“Uh?! Uh? No, uh… ? That, yes?”
“Oh, take off your shoes and come in. Oh, I’m sorry. That evening… I forgot to do it, oh, would you like something delicious? Pizza? Oh, or should I boil ramen… ?”
“Uh… Oh yes…”

The younger brother, puzzled as to why, slowly took off her shoes and entered her house.
I was going to order pizza, but it was late, so I cooked ramen in case I would eat later if I delivered it.
Shin Ramyun is also very popular in China, and there are more ingredients than in Korea, so I put a lot of Shin Ramyun in the cupboard.

“Oh, thank you…”

And after the younger brother came, to save more space and use it, the younger brother, who saw that the ramen was put in a high place as he was tall, so he couldn’t take it out well, the younger brother came closer and took it out from behind, then raised his head up to see the younger brother’s face As soon as I said that, my face turned red and I immediately fell off.
When I saw that, I felt that he was avoiding me, and I was instantly upset.
Why did you do that…

After boiling the ramen, I brought it to the table, poured water for my brother, and sat across from him. While eating ramen from the same pot, I slowly tried to talk to my younger brother.

“Hey, where did you go… ?”
“A bit of a walk… A little bit, and
“Walk… ? Alone?”

I wondered if I had gone to play with the academy friends I had brought with me before, but my brother nodded to see if that wasn’t the case.
Did I ever get into a fight by beating a friend before? I was worried for some reason, so I asked without being able to hide my concern.

“Uh… ? Maybe it’s a little difficult with friends… ?”