Chapter 82 – Distance (2)

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“No.”

The next day, my brother grabbed my waist from the morning, climbed on top of me, and tried to rub his body.
It seemed like it was in a little sleep, and as soon as I said it, ah… I said yes and went down to look at it, but after that, my brother kept looking at me, and even though I didn’t tell him, he tried to do something… He tried to cook or clean, as if he wanted me to relieve my anger.

After my brother came, I continued to focus on him, and I was in contact with my friends after a long time, promising where to meet. It was a little awkward because it seemed like it was the first time my younger brother showed his weak side.
No, if you think about it carefully, it seemed a bit similar to the first time I saw it.

I look very closely… He seemed like he wanted to do something, and the only difference from when we first met was that he was a bit more serious.
Every time I felt like I was going to get weak after watching that, I thought that I, my older sister, should wake up, and I got it done. It’s become a lot.

“Today… No?”
“No.”

My younger brother kept asking me if it was really okay at night, as if it was not accepted that it had suddenly turned out like this.
I really firmly refused, and each time my brother became more and more sullen… I was worried that I might be getting too depressed for some reason, but this time I really thought I had to make it clear, so I didn’t give in.

“Ah, sleeping in your arms… No… ?”
“… Because hugging is usually done a lot with family members…”

It was only after I was allowed to sleep while hugging him that I hugged him tightly as if I was a little relieved, and while I was very excited, I slightly avoided him whenever his brother’s thing touched my butt.
Then, for some reason, the younger brother became more sullen… We fell asleep holding each other in an A shape on the bed.

“So, what’s up with our queen’s boyfriend?”

And three days after that happened with my brother, I went to a bar with some of my close friends from college.
Fortunately, the girls I was close with, both those who went to Shanghai and those who were in Korea, all said that they came to hang out with their friends because they were all resting during Labor Day. It hasn’t changed at all from when I was in college, so it made me want to sigh a little.
Should I say that everyone is a little bit like a fly? Even a normally calm kid would talk dirty with me for some reason, and girls are pretty, but strangely, I only seemed to have less tolerance for the erotic side, so I just said that it was cute to be awkward when talking about dirty things.

“That’s right, is my baby finally getting out of masturbation and getting to know a man?”
“Isn’t it really funny? It’s the first time that a girl who looks like this has a proper dating rumor, or a rumor that she hugged a guy, and it’s so noisy among the kids who graduated.”
“Is the baby queen finally turning into a queen?”
“No… Because he’s my younger brother… That senpai talking about strange things…”

I expected it to be very loud, so I reserved a room and came to eat… It was really beyond my imagination that my friends were holding back for something as I hadn’t seen them in a long time.

“Do you and your younger brother hold each other’s shoulders and hug each other under the street lamp? Wow! Say something that makes sense!”
“Hey, no matter what, I’m not trying to call you my younger brother and move on. That photo is almost like a pictorial pictorial.”
“Even though that senior was ‘that senior’, he did come out with a picture. It was filmed well.”
“Looking at him, did you hear the rumors? They say that whenever you go out with a girlfriend, you take a picture… They say sex is art.”
“Crazy, I like art. Oh, this is a gift. I don’t see my queen very often~”
“… What about my gift? What about my gift?!”
“You sent me a birthday present before.”
“That chocolate? The insectivores in the house have eaten them all!”
“Ah… That brother? You are really good with your brother.”
“It’s a bummer to get along!”

Even though there were only 4 of us including me, we were talking really frantically… Everyone, in the end, the center of the conversation today was my younger brother, so the story ended up being about the younger brother.

“Really, but because he’s a younger brother… That is, the senior came to her house and bothered her, so her younger brother kicked her out.”
“Uh huh, there’s no way a picture with such a sweet and romantic atmosphere would come out when I kicked it out.”
“You think it’s a romantic movie poster. Looking at your senior account, someone wrote in English asking if you were working on a poster? I guess a non-Korean kid saw it and misunderstood it.”
“No wait… Did you see the picture of your brother? Why are you excluding me?!”
“You blocked the senior.”

For some reason, the conversation was about asking to see the picture of my brother, so everyone persistently asked to see the picture.

“Show me the picture! If I look like you, I think I would be a cute younger brother. He’s short and petite, his proportions are good and he’s cute… You call it shota?”
“It doesn’t seem like it at all… ? Looking at the picture, he has the body type of a swimmer.”
“Swimming player?! No… Uh, are siblings right… ? He practiced with a kid who is a track and field player. Is it hereditary to be talented in sports? ?”
“Oh that… Because of that, boys say they run together to become friends… I remember falling out.”
“That was a bit funny. Didn’t you have an ex-boyfriend then?”
“Don’t even mention that bastard’s name.”

One of my friends was very offended, so I noticed a little bit.
Originally, I was a kid who hated me for flirting with guys… At first, he approached me to swear at me or attack me, but after seeing that I really had no intention of doing so, he became a close friend.
It’s a story I accidentally told you after drinking… The reason we broke up was because he kept calling my name while with a friend, so I thought maybe he was cheating on me, but it turned out that I was imagining myself while I was with him, so I slapped my boyfriend who seemed to be treating me as a masturbation tool with all my might and broke my hair. Lost… I remembered what you did.

“Give me a little brother too! I can take good care of you too!”
“You guys are still like this no matter how you graduate… ?”
“Show me a picture, a picture. If you want them to believe it’s your brother, you’ll have to show them the picture.”
“Hey, do you have a picture? He’s my younger brother…”
“There is… Many…”

In the end, I showed my friends the pictures I took on my trip to Hong Kong.
A photo taken on the boat together, a photo taken by another tourist on the Avenue of Stars, and a photo of her younger brother hugging her from behind… After showing the photos of each other in swimsuits at the pool, the attitude of the friends changed dramatically.
In a playful mood… I must say that I have really changed my mind. Everyone seemed to be at a loss for words.

“Uh… This is worse than the photo taken by the senior… ?”
“Excuse me… I don’t usually take pictures between siblings… ?”
“There you are… I’m going on a trip with my brother and sister, but the bikini is a little… Wow, look at his silence followed. I’m about to break my swimsuit…”
“Boy friend… No, younger brother I think his shoulders and abs are going to break my heart… ?”
“And… Crazy, really, so sexy.”
“What is the decadent beauty of the face? Oh look at this silence followed… My sister doesn’t drink much, but I’ll get drunk.”
“For a moment… What are you looking at Don’t look at that.”

I saved my sister’s photo from the drooling foxes looking at her swimsuit photo.
Then my friends wanted to see me a little longer and tried to take away my phone, and I immediately locked the screen so I couldn’t see it.

“I’m crazy… ? Didn’t he say that his aunt was a model? Is that bloodline… ?”
“Isn’t it your father’s bloodline? I don’t have any pictures of my dad… ?”
“Hey, wait…”
“Ah… Sorry…”

My best friend in college was at least as close as I could have been because everyone knew that my parents divorced and I almost lived alone, so the friend who thought I had made a mistake apologized.

“No, how are you? It was 15 years ago.”
“15 years… That’s right. But then, I met my younger brother after 15 years… Did it look like this?”
“Hey, this… It must be difficult to see this as a younger brother.”
“Huh… ?”

But suddenly the conversation starts to get weird… I involuntarily pricked up my ears.

“Honestly, this one doesn’t look too gangly… ? No, not even the body…”
“Can you introduce me? Do you have a girlfriend? I will really take care of you as an older sister!”
“Crazy bitch… Crazy year…”
“Yeah, your ex.”
“You’re really behind…”
“No… Hey, it’s hard to see him as a younger brother… What are you talking about?”

When the conversation went back to the mountain, I stuttered a bit and asked a question, and my friends all tilted their heads at my words and thought about it, and then opened their mouths one by one.

“It’s really okay to talk like this… ?”
“I don’t know… We’ve never been able to filter words like this before.”
“No, that’s because our queen asked me how to masturbate in a cute way like a baby, so she was trying to make fun of me from then on…”
“It’s okay, so talk to me. What do you mean… ?”

When I definitely said that I was okay, my friends looked at me and told me if I was really okay.

“Hey, this isn’t weird… If we haven’t met in 15 years, if that’s when we were babies… Isn’t this almost a drama setting? Isn’t it a bit dangerous at home… ?”
“Is it dangerous?”
“No, um… I think your brother looks too naughty… This face or body is too violent. This is eye-gaze assault.”
“What do you mean again… ?”
“No, it’s really okay for me to say this… ? I have a friend’s brother… ?”
“Tell me first.”

Two friends suddenly whispered to each other, and the boy who heard the story jumped up from his seat and said in a loud voice.

“And! My boyfriend and I are getting engaged next month! Have a friend’s younger brother! Just looking at her face made me feel like I was going to get wet!”
“You really die!”
“Trash! You are trash!”
“Hey!! Hey!! You, head, here, stand, die, you, really!”
“No, wait me too… I’ll confess my conscience, so don’t hit me! But honestly, I agree. Rather, is this little brother okay?”
“What are you talking about?”
“Looking at it from her point of view, her younger brother is erotic… My younger brother just finished high school and became an adult, but at the age of sexual desire, living with a sister like this? Is our queen all right?”
“No you… Hey that… To say that in front of the person…”

As I was lost in my thoughts without answering anything, my friends were looking at each other, and a friend who stayed in China and had a conversation with me right after my brother and I came up spoke up.

“I told him before, but his younger brother must masturbate a lot. If the older sister I saw after 15 years looked like this…”
“No, that… Hey, you crossed the line a bit.”
“Hey, there’s nothing I can’t say to my brother.”
“Wow, I’m the only one who treats trash…”

I couldn’t answer my friend’s words at all.
Maybe we thought we crossed the line a little bit, but we kept our eyes on each other… Rather than that, it was very shocking that not only me but also other people thought this way, so I was close to being at a loss for words.
In the end, after thinking about it, I drank a glass of alcohol that I don’t usually drink… After really thinking about it, I asked a strange question.

“Excuse me… Can I ask you one weird question?”
“… Why is the atmosphere like this all of a sudden?”
“Try it, try it.”
“Should I be?”
“Pooh!”

And as soon as I asked the question, one of my friends spewed out his drink, and everyone else looked embarrassed.

“Uh… Is this a real question?”
“… Huh.”
“Hmm…”

As I said, the friend was very serious, and then remained silent as if exchanging thoughts while looking at each other… One person raised his hand and said.

“Hey there, I’m not a lesbian… There were rumors that you were a lesbian, so I’m telling you in advance… Isn’t this a strange word?”
“Yeah, what is it?”
“I honestly think if I was a lesbian or a guy, I would have fucked you.”
“What?”
“No… Is he drunk? Aren’t you crazy?”
“No, you guys agree too! If you guys were a man, wouldn’t you fuck him?!”
“Why is he like this?!”
“Seriously think about it! If you are a man! How do you think he is!”

I’m suddenly confused as to why this has happened, right? I looked around at my friends, but unfortunately, all three of them kept their mouths shut, then looked at me and said softly.

“… I think I’m going to fucking eat it.”
“What?!”
“Honestly, your silence followed is crazy. As well as being small… He’s usually arrogant, but when he gets close to him, he’s so cute.”
“Ah, there it is. Are you talking about the gap? To be honest, the reason I want to keep close with him is that he’s still really picky with the other kids, but he’s only soft with us…”
“A bit like a cat. Because I think that way, if I were a man, I would want to go out with him…”
“I remember that, how did he masturbate after drinking all of a sudden to us at first? When asked.”
“Wow~ that, I know that, it was so cute and exciting like I suddenly became a man…”
“I knew then that I was a lesbian. How do you masturbate with your face red? And asking… Isn’t that a bit too much? Wow, if I were a lesbian, I’d drag her straight to the motel…”
“What are you talking about?! Aren’t you crazy?!”

I was so shocked that my friends were looking at me that way, so I wrapped my arms around my shoulders and pulled myself back.
But for some reason, all three of them didn’t pay attention to me and continued talking as if I was honestly saying something really obvious.

“No… Actually, if you think about it, the very existence itself is erotic.”
“From the hip…”
“To be honest, when I first saw him, I thought that he would be dating about five boyfriends. Playing with both legs. The boys confessed a lot too.”
“Oh that? Those kids were playing a strange game. They say that if you endure for a long time by confessing and making a difference after a while, you will be more attractive as a man.”
“Can’t you speak now as a party? Queen?”
“Well, I can’t think of what to drink…”
“I was thinking about the comment! Wow, this is really brutal…”
“Come to think of it, there was that among kids who really confessed. If a kid who seems to have some potential is trying to confess, he notices them and interferes with his confession or tells them to do it on their own and doesn’t help them. To restrain Oh, don’t you know? In the past, when you said you would confess at a bar the day before the graduation ceremony, a fight broke out over who you dared to confess to.”
“Do you remember when the guy I dated for a while got bullied? Boys get jealous too.”

How am I at first? Uh? I was surprised to hear… The more I listened, the more dizzy I got, so I finally covered my face with both hands and sighed.

“Excuse me… I can’t listen anymore, won’t you stop…”
“Oh yeah Mama. I will not.”
“Mah~maa~~ We did it wrong~”
“No, but we need to talk about this… The two kids who confessed to you were drinking…”
“That… I said don’t do it, let’s stop talking? It’s so trashy…”
“Again, I’m the only one who treats garbage…”

I thought my ears would get dirty if I listened to it more, so I squeezed it while covering my ears and then removed my hands.
And… Even if the other kids think about it, it seems natural that I see my younger brother as a man, and they think I’m going to masturbate a lot… I kept thinking about it, so I brushed her hair from side to side, filled her glass and held it forward.

“Tell me about your current situation! Salty!”
“The Queen says toast~”
“Bad~”
“Bad salty~”

And without talking about my younger brother anymore, I heard about how my friends live in Korea, and what they do after hearing that my friend who went to Shanghai got a job at a game company… And while I was thinking about whether to become a research student or get a job, we were talking about what to do… We broke up when we drank moderately.

“See you next time~ See you again~”
“Wow… How long has it been since I finished college, I only drank this, but I’m drunk…”
“Queen bye bye! I’ll make you a crown next time!”
“When are you going to graduate from being called that queen… ?”
“It’s a nickname I made up! I like it!”

So, a friend from Korea and two friends from Shanghai said they were staying at the same lodging, so they took a taxi and sent a friend living in China together, walking around the streets at night together. I stopped at a convenience store to buy a cold drink and was drinking it on the street.
Then, just when I was about to break up, it was as if it was a lie that my friend who had been quiet all of a sudden was drunk… I hesitated as if I was worried for some reason.

“Excuse me… Hey.”
“… Huh?”
“I really… Hey, why are you doing this… Ha… I don’t know, you think he’s just drunk? I’m saying this while thinking about it.”

My friend let out a few sighs at a loss of words, then gulped down the drink, threw it on the floor, and crushed the can with his feet.

“That… Aren’t you too coquettish these days… ? I’m worried…”
“Yeah, bewitching… ? What do you mean that…”
“Hey, look at this… Is the way you talk different from before? Something sweet very… Oh Mr… Seriously, I’m going crazy.”

And… It was strange for some reason, but he told me a story that made me run away from alcohol without even realizing it.

“Hey, ha… Be careful.”
“What, what… ?”
“You… Because it looks really dangerous, just what you’re doing right now… Because it looks very dangerous for a man… Don’t tempt me.”

Suddenly, my heart was beating like it was going to explode, and I took a slight backward step without even realizing it… So as not to look strange, I walked forward again and helped my friend.

“What are you talking about all of a sudden? Are you drunk?”
“Ah… I don’t know, yes I’m drunk! I don’t know, I didn’t say anything, I don’t know anything, I don’t know!”

Hearing my words, my friend suddenly hit his face with both hands and raised his head with a sigh as if he had come to his senses.
And he came up to me out of the blue and bowed his head like a drunk and apologized.

“Sorry… ! I’m crazy… No, I thought of something strange…”
“… What are you thinking?”
“Oh, no… Do not be angry. Scared. I was really wrong.”
“Are you angry? What?”
“You… Who is wary of or dislikes… It’s a person, or when someone confesses… My eyes are not smiling…”
“… Okay?”

I smiled at my friend’s words, conscious of my eyes, and my friend said something in a very intimidated and downtrodden voice.

“Oh, no… No. I guess I’m drunk right?”
“Yeah, I think I was very drunk.”
“I’ll go… Sorry… Later, contact… What to do?”
“Yeah, be careful, shall we call you a taxi?”
“Oh, no. Brother… Call me and I’ll go with you. Go first.”

Saying that, the friend who had been crying for some reason hesitated and moved away from me, and I stood there still… I went home slowly.
I went to the front of the house, and I was surprised to see my younger brother at the entrance of the apartment.

“Hey, what are you doing here… ?”
“Ah, sister… I’m worried because it’s a little late.”

For some reason, looking at my little brother who seems to be getting downer lately, I remembered what my friends said, and I felt a little sorry… Holding her sister’s hand, she said with a little shy smile.

“Thank you… I’m still a little drunk… I won’t be afraid to go home.”