Chapter 86 – Distancing (6)

After saying goodbye to my brother’s friend, I went back home through the subway station, lost in thought.
It’s also true that my younger brother cares more than I thought, but I kept feeling like the facts I already knew and the situation were colliding.

It feels really good to listen to my sister’s request… As much as I feel that my younger brother is a man, I am constantly drawn to him, and my heart beats so much when he is led, so I was trying to be careful because I didn’t think I would really be a noona at this rate… I wonder if this is not it
All of my friends, as it should be, only say that I can’t feel my younger sister as a member of the opposite sex, and as an older sister, I wanted to make my younger sister feel comfortable… On the contrary, they say that they are so stressed out that other people are even worried about it…
To me, that sounded like I was increasingly disqualified as an older sister.

I am anxious about those words, but I am in a state of confusion, not knowing what to do… I wish someone would give an answer for me, but I also knew that my relationship with my brother would not be understood by others.
As I sat on the sofa and thought about the things my younger brother was doing, it became more and more like I was falling into the past and my mind became hazy.

And increasingly… My sister’s words came to mind as if they were ringing in my head.
Since it’s just the two of us, this isn’t even Korea… Even if someone on the outside morally says that brother and sister shouldn’t be like that, it’s just the two of us…
It’s natural for a man to have his younger brother’s needs piled up, and it’s also natural that his studies will go well only when his needs are satisfied…

My younger sister said that it was wrong for me to be naughty, and that my older sister couldn’t stand it because she was naughty… As a woman, her body is so erotic, but she said it was natural that she couldn’t stand it… You said to me, “Don’t you see yourself as a man?” Actually, it was natural. My younger brother was masculine to anyone’s eyes, and it seemed like he would have a lot of desires.
Rather, because I am the older sister, the desire as a man that I usually feel in my younger sister was very great, to the extent that I felt that forcing her to restrain herself by telling her to be patient was forcing her to mentally castrate.
I felt those things not only in my body odor, voice, eyes, and gaze, but also in each and every one of my brother’s attitude towards me.

Even though I keep thinking that I shouldn’t do it because I’m an older sister, as a woman’s body, I react like an animal… When I thought about that, I pictured my brother’s body in my head.
Tall, broad chest… Shoulder… Even my bloodline, it seems like I won’t be able to overcome it no matter what I do… I can tell that you are much superior to me physically, but the eyes that clearly show that you are holding back your desire while handling me delicately like glass before it breaks… Breath, a huge erection, pounding non-stop… Cock…
While I was on a trip to Hong Kong, the words and actions of saying that I wanted to conquer me without hiding it at all, and that I wanted to crush me… Even so, when I kept saying no, the gestures and attitude of being considerate and putting up with it…

Although it made me feel very guilty, I kept thinking about the liberation and pleasure of accepting even a little bit of my brother’s masculinity, and the feeling of being really dangerous made my whole body shudder.
It’s definitely not possible, but it shouldn’t be, but even while thinking about it, my sister’s friends and my friends keep saying… It seemed as if I was saying that my judgment was wrong, and the shocking sensation of my brother’s reaching deep, entering a depth I could never have imagined, made my stomach tense without realizing it.
Doing such an immoral and risky act with my younger brother led to a sense of liberation for the pleasure that I longed for even though I had avoided it alone until now.

“Huh… Whoa… Haaaaa…”

When you come to your senses… Before I knew it, I brought a dildo from my room, sat down on the sofa, lifted my legs up, and spread them apart, frantically inserting the dildo into my place.
I wasn’t riding on it, but in the position of driving the dildo deep down, the sound of the gurgling water leaked out without a break, and I remembered my brother’s voice and words in my head.
When I went to Hong Kong, I remembered how we couldn’t stop feeling each other as the opposite sex as if we were building a tower little by little.

Compared to then, I think I am more comfortable, happy and in a good mood now… Not really.
While forcibly restraining my brother’s desires, I feel sorry for myself because I am not satisfied even at this moment… The mental pleasure and physical desire that can’t be satisfied with a dildo like this keeps pitying, regretting, and thirsting… I suddenly pulled out the dildo, and feeling the eagerness in my pussy tingling, I thought of my sister’s very naturally.

“Haaaaa… Haaa…”

I know it doesn’t work, but… My mind was confused.
I know, but that… What’s wrong?
As an older sister, I was happy when my younger brother was happy… If you’re in a good mood, it’s only natural that I’m in a good mood too…

“Ha…”

When I took out the dildo and the pleasure stopped, I felt a lot of thirst.
However, as the sense of reality rushes in… I thought that I shouldn’t be like this, so my head was confused again, and I read my mind once again thinking that since I’m an older sister, I should do well as an older sister.
I definitely feel that something is getting weird, and I feel like it’s really dangerous anymore, but the more I feel like that, the more I feel, the more I feel, the more the sense of crisis that I have to stop, the more I feel cramped.

“… It’s really dangerous… Yo. This.”

Roughly bringing a towel and wiping off the traces, wrapping the dildo in a towel and throwing it into the room, I lay down on the sofa and sighed in agony until I got more and more dazed… I fell asleep just like that.

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As I fell asleep on the sofa, I was dreaming at some point.
The background of the dream was a hotel I stayed in Hong Kong, where my younger brother… In the end, I couldn’t stand it and was pouring out my desires and desires as they were.

While squeezing the bed to the point of worrying about it, shaking the waist while restraining it at all… Absolutely beastly, while having sex with my older sister that I shouldn’t have, my younger brother greedily looked down at me like a predator… Really, as if to teach me what it means to conquer and rule, I taste, get drunk, and savor my body to my heart’s content… I was coveting…
In my dream, I was a fool who couldn’t think of anything and howled like an animal, like a beast.

A kiss that touches the lips without thinking, a kiss that touches the lips without a single condom, but it is different from the men I usually meet who disguised themselves only to suit my taste and to think about their sexual desire… Full of anticipation of receiving the seed of a male who really conquered me, I obediently allowed myself to be crushed, and I looked like a bitch who had no idea what to do.

“Ha…”
“Oh… Umm… Ha…”

And I suddenly hear… No, I woke up from the sofa in a dreamy state while remembering that the incident just before was a dream at the sudden sound of sighing.
My body was very hot, and my ears were burning, as if I had been there in a dream just a moment ago.
I couldn’t even breathe for some reason, so as soon as I woke up, I looked around and saw my younger brother looking down at me from behind the sofa.

“Oh, uh, when did you come?”

As if he had just entered the room, he felt a different temperature than in the room. It looked as if I had just entered, and my brother looked down at me without answering… He held out something to me while I was hurriedly trimming my hair.

“… Sister.”
“Yes?”
“This…”

What my brother hesitantly handed to me was a rectangular-shaped gift that was wrapped rather crudely, and I was surprised and asked while accepting the gift.

“Uh… ? Is it mine?”
“Gift… Are you. Hey, open it.”
“… Can I take it? Even open… Are you okay?”

When I said it nervously, my younger brother nodded slightly, and I carefully opened the wrapper so as not to damage it with my heart pounding.

“Uh? Wow…”

The gift was a ponytail holder set from a sports brand.
I used to only use ordinary rubber bands to tie my hair, so I didn’t even know there was such a thing.

“I like it?”
“Yes… Oh! Tie my hair with this.”

Suddenly excited, I immediately sat down on a chair at the table and stuck my hair out to my younger brother. He seemed to hesitate a little, then quietly came up behind me and combed my hair with his hands, then started tying my hair up in a ponytail.

“Why is it a gift all of a sudden… ? My birthday is still far away.”
“That is…”

My younger brother, who was combing my hair carefully, missed a little bit of the hair he was holding and combed it again, and it was clearly different from before… I said it in a slightly trembling voice, as if I was saying something I really didn’t want to say.

“Okay, wrong… I did it.”
“Uh… ?”
“Sorry… Sister, boyfriend… Gu, pretend to be… So…”

It’s really stupid in a way, but… My anger at my brother for acting without thinking about my position has already been released, and receiving the gift actually makes me feel better, and other thoughts gradually fill my head and become confused… I apologized so much that I was more than grateful.
I was very proud, full of confidence, and relaxed, but when I saw him now, I felt sorry, or it felt like it was because of me.
Rather than being in pain, I had a strong feeling that I had done something I shouldn’t have done. It was a little shocking, and I felt a sense of alienation.

“From now on… I won’t. My sister’s boyfriend… Same idea… Tea, no…”

I just sat there silently… My brother tied my hair up a little mess.
I tied it with care, but I didn’t pull it so much that it pulled my hair lightly, and I touched it carefully so it wasn’t tight at all, and it looked like I was really pulling it together rather than tying it up.
The more I listened to the apologies, the more I felt cramped rather than relieved. I felt something was wrong, and I should be relieved that my sister would do whatever I wanted, but… Rather, I felt a sad and painful sense of loss, as if something was being ripped off.

“… I won’t even have a desire. I will treat you like an older sister.”
“Uh… ?”

My breath went blank at my brother’s words, and I suddenly became very anxious and my heart beat fast.
I’m sure this was the answer I wanted, but I wanted… It would have been

“Why why… Yo. This?”

My mouth brought out the question about my younger brother treating me simply as an older sister so naturally that I couldn’t even feel it.