Chapter 1 – Prologue

Sorry.
I tried to edit the work, but it seems to be meaningless compared to the time and effort, so I just upload the old work as it is.

Later, if I get a chance, I’ll remove some of the heroines, modify the content, and try to remake it altogether.

First of all, there are people who only watch Novelpia and want to see my work in Jo0ra, so I’ll just upload it.

When I read it now, I can’t say enough about the sentence and the probability that I really want to see how easy it was to write, but I still feel the emotion that I felt at the time, so I don’t think it’s bad in a way.

There will be a lot of things to point out, and maybe a lot of parts that will make you angry while reading it, but I would appreciate it if you read it with a generous understanding. ^^

I will work hard to become a better writer. Thank you!!!

Ah!! I will upload 5 episodes a day.
Then let’s begin.

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We will definitely let you know for those who see it for the first time.

From episode 15, violent and trashy scenes suddenly appear.
This is because the main character’s character setting is a trash with ability only for himself.
I should have set the main character to trash in the beginning, but I couldn’t.
So, don’t be too immersed in the violent and trashy parts, just read the story lightly and pass by.
Thank you..^^
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I can’t even control my body right now, I’m drunk and I’m staggering here and there, walking dangerously as if I’m about to fall.
Just thinking about the phone call I had before going to the stall made me mad.
So, I drank soju at a nearby stall.
If the target of the call is in front of me right now, I just think that I will kill it right away.
So, I drank soju again.
I drank until I died so much that I couldn’t win.

2017, I am 45 years old this year.
He was released from prison two weeks ago.

I graduated from the Department of Business Administration at Seoul National University, and have several licenses related to CPA and investment.
He was a well-to-do elite who earned more than 1 billion won a year while running an investment advisory company that invested in real estate, stocks, and futures from his 30s.
There was also a pretty wife who graduated from music school.
Have no children
It was because I had very little sperm count and sperm movement was weak, so it was impossible to conceive.
Each procedure cost close to 10 million won, four times, but in the end, the baby was not born.
In order to have a child, there is no food or medicine that is said to be good for the body.
Her wife also wanted to have a child of hers, so she took care of her body and exercised steadily, and her mother prepared her really hard by making herbal medicines for her every season.
The parents didn’t say anything either, but they seemed to be expecting it, constantly applying subtle pressure on her wife.
The whole family desperately wanted a child, but in the end, no child was born.

Still, it was a happy marriage.
She was very beautiful because her wife was keen on her self-grooming.
Since her husband has been making good money, he has been steadily managing himself as a member of a famous skin and hair shop in Gangnam, and he has been exercising without missing a day at the fitness center.
And, my wife loved sex so much.
In a word, she was the kind of woman who couldn’t live without a wife.
Even when she was having a blowjob, she would thrust her dick deep into her throat and suck it, and during sex, she would demand all sorts of petting and positioning herself.
Even anal sex, she started it because she wanted to try it first.
I used to tease her every day, saying, “You’re a woman who can’t live a day without a man.”
Since I also like raw sex, I was very satisfied with such a wife, and her married life was quite happy.
Except for one thing, no kids…

But her downfall was fleeting.
In 2008, it faced serious difficulties due to the global financial crisis caused by the bankruptcy of Lehman Brothers.
Stock prices plummeted, and as the price of the US dollar plummeted, the large amount of investment in dollar-based futures crashed without knowing the bottom.
Fortunately, all kinds of funds were raised and somehow the crisis was passed.
After three years of hard work, the company managed to get back on track, but in 2011, the unprecedented U.S. Credit downgrade occurred, and as the dollar and stock prices plummeted again, 80% of the investment funds were lost in one month.
At this time, everything happened in such a short time that I couldn’t use my hands.
I had some pride in re-establishing the company for three years, but it turned into arrogance that made me overinvest.
I tried to hold on somehow by collateralizing all the property I had, such as my house and land, but… In the end, I failed.
Even his parents’ house he had bought in Seocho-dong was seized as collateral and the funds were snatched away, but he could not stop it.
Eventually, in 2013, I filed for bankruptcy, and angry investors and creditors sued me.
He was called to the police and prosecutors for investigation, and in the end in 2015, he was sentenced to two years in the first trial and put under court custody.
And, I was released two weeks ago.

While in prison, her wife was divorced.
About 7 months after his arrest, divorce papers came from his wife.
I said no divorce, but since arrest itself is a reason for divorce, a divorce proceeding was carried out through a lawyer, and the divorce was unilaterally obtained.
I wrote and sent letters from prison, and called whenever I had time, but her wife did not reply, nor did she answer the phone.
Before sending the divorce papers, I had only visited once to ask for a divorce.
After being released from prison, I kept calling her, asking her to meet me just once, and saying that I still love her.
But her wife never met her.

I called earlier and asked to meet.
Her wife kept saying no, she just told her to quit quickly.
Then, a man’s voice came through her wife’s phone…
It seemed that her wife was already living with another man.
She was a woman who couldn’t live a day without a man…
Hearing the man’s voice, he hung up the phone helplessly and drank so much that he became a piece of cake.

It seemed like there was nothing left of me.
I felt betrayed and angry like crazy.
The owner of the stall stopped me from drinking any more, and I had no choice but to leave the stall as if I was kicked out.
Unable to walk properly, I staggered toward the house where my parents were.
Currently, I have no place to go, so I am living with my parents.
I ate up all of my parents’ property, so now they live in a 10-pyeong, two-story basement room in the corner of Guro-dong.
My old father, who is almost 70 years old, recently applied for public work at the district office, and went out to clean the streets every morning.
Since there was no money coming in, and the eldest son had just been released from prison and was only drinking alcohol, he started working to make a living even at his old age.

I opened the door lock and pressed the number key, but I kept getting errors, probably because I was drunk.
Then there was a sound from inside and someone opened the door.
It’s mother
I love my mother so much…
Even though it was past 2:00 in the morning, her mother must have been waiting for me.
“Why are you so late?”
“Why did you drink so much?”
She asked as my mother supported me with her pitiful face.
“It happened. I’m sorry mother.”
I answered helplessly, and sat down on the floor.
Immediately, she brought a cup of cold water and gave it to me while my mother sat down next to me.
“Isn’t it very difficult? Are you okay. You’ll do just fine Mother believes in our son.” As she did, she stroked my face.
I couldn’t say anything and looked at her mother and shed tears involuntarily.
“Don’t cry. Don’t cry. My son are you okay. Are you okay.”
As my mother wiped away the tears with her hand, she endlessly stroked my cheeks.

Even though I am over 40, my mother still thinks I look like a child.
Actually, it was my mother who had an exceptionally deep love for me since I was little.
Even though she has two younger siblings, she only gave me deeper attention and love.
Even if I didn’t eat a single meal because I had no appetite, my mother wouldn’t leave my side right away, asking me where she was in pain with her worried face.
Really thinking about it now, my mother’s love for her eldest son was unusual.
My mother used to do anything for me.
However, her father’s business went bankrupt, and after moving to Seoul, her financial situation became difficult enough to make a living.
Then, my mother’s love for me only grew so much that it looked like an obsession.
For my mother, the existence of me was a man she could trust and rely on instead of her father, who was always out of the house because of work.
The eldest son, who was handsome, unusually tall, and also studied well in the midst of difficult circumstances, was my mother’s only idol, faith, and love.

I looked at my mother’s face.
My mother, now sixty-four years old, was such a pretty mother, but now the corners of her eyes and forehead were wrinkled, and the sides of her eyes and the backs of her hands showed the age-old age spots.
My mother’s height is 165 cm.
He is quite tall for a woman his age.
She was so beautiful that people at the factory asked Miss Koreana to look at her when she was a virgin.
She was in such good shape that even after giving birth to three children, she kept a size 24 waist.
She went to Seoul right after graduating from middle school, and her mother got a job at a factory. She was only 18 years old. .
That’s how her mother met her incompetent father and suffered all her life, but eventually she became old and suffered again because of her son…
Seeing her mother’s dark-stained face looking at me as if she were crying, I suddenly remembered that I hadn’t even had a party for my mother’s 60th birthday.
I had never held my mother’s hand properly in my entire life.
I’ve never said I love you, and I’ve never hugged you warmly.
There was no unfilial person like this.
Why did that? My mother is so devoted to me, so why have I never treated her properly? Why?
Maybe it’s because of that summer incident…