Chapter 153 – Going to the Competition.

I felt my heart sink.
I definitely remember closing the door when I went into the bathroom with my mother, but the door was now open.

If any of my younger siblings saw my mother and I in love, how would I explain this?
It’s fortunate if you understand, but what if you don’t understand and this fact is known to the world?
No matter how much I say, I couldn’t make the right decision in this situation.

‘Who is it? Who stole it?’

I was in a hurry, so I quickly laid her mother on her sofa, took a blanket from her empty room, covered her with it, and looked for her clothes to put on.

Omg! But aren’t my mother and my clothes neatly gathered in one place?
It was clear that either Seonghoon or Jinhee had come out.
And judging from the collection of clothes like this, it was much more likely that it was Jinhee.

I carefully opened the door to the room where Sung Hoon was sleeping and entered.
Seonghun was asleep, not realizing how tired he was, calling his name several times while snoring and shaking him slightly.
Then, the conclusion was Jin-hee.

What if Jinhee saw it? No, you will definitely see it.
I quietly opened the door where Jinhee was sleeping and entered.
Unusually for Jin-hee, I saw Jin-hee crouching over her body with the blanket covering her face.

“Jinhee, are you sleeping?”

I shook my shoulder slightly and called out, but there was no answer.
However, seeing Jinhee’s body tremble slightly, it was clear that she was awake.
I had assigned Jinhee and her mother a room with a bed out of consideration for her pregnant mother.
I climbed onto the bed and sat quietly next to Jinhee.
I could see Jinhee flinching.

“Jinhee, I know you’re not sleeping. Let’s talk.”

Even though I was talking, Jinhee just pretended to sleep while holding on to the blanket.
I grabbed Jinhee by the shoulders and lifted her up.
Jin-hee tried hard not to wake up and held on, and I hugged her and raised her up.
Jinhee, who was forced to sit down, turned her head away without even looking at me.

“I’m sorry Jinhee. You saw something you shouldn’t have seen.”

As I stroked Jin-hee’s hair, I spoke to her. Jin-hee shook her head wildly and tried to remove my hand.

“Jinhee, don’t be like that, look at me. I have nothing to say to you, but look at me anyway.”

I covered Jinhee’s face with both hands and forced her to lift her head to look at me.
Jin-hee put strength on her neck. She somehow tried not to see my face, but she couldn’t overcome my strength and she ended up seeing my face.
Then, all of a sudden, tears began to flow and weep.

“Don’t cry. Jinhee, don’t cry. Sorry. I’m sorry brother.”

Tears like chicken droppings flowed down, so I held Jinhee’s cheek and continued to wipe away her tears with my fingers.
Jin-hee, who had been crying for a long time, suddenly got angry as she punched me in the chest with her fist.

“You bastard. How can you do that with your mother? How could my brother do that with my mother?”
“Jinhee, I know. I fully understand your heart. But I love my mom So she had no choice but to do it.”
“Are you a person? Is she a person? How could you do that with your mother?”

Jin-hee again tried to get out of my hand by thrashing her hard, and when she couldn’t do it, she beat me hard.
I hugged her tightly and waited for her to calm down.

Jin-hee struggled with her for a long time, as if she couldn’t get out of my arms, and eventually stopped her movement as she wept uncontrollably.
I held her tightly while stroking her hair until she stopped crying.

After a long time passed and Jinhee’s crying gradually subsided, I spoke quietly.

“Jin-hee, you know how much your mom worked hard for us, right? Her father’s business went bankrupt, so she ran away at night and came to Seoul to raise us in a single room without running water. She went to work at someone else’s house every day and wore a wig until late at night. But my father didn’t come home often, and he didn’t bring money. You know how hard your mother was, right? But one day I overheard my father and mother fighting. Your father cheated on you. My father made it even harder for my mother, who already had a hard time raising us.”

Jin-hee stopped crying and just winked at her while she was quietly listening to me while holding her in my chest.
In keeping with Jin-hee, I called her mother more affectionately as her mother.

“I thought a mother like that was too dangerous. That day, her father and her mother were fighting on her rooftop, and it felt like her mother didn’t want to live in the world anymore. Lets think. Even if she died saying that my mother was having a hard time leaving us alone, what would she have almost done if she did? Can you imagine that I had to make my dear mother live somehow. So I changed You know that your brother has suddenly changed since last year, right?”

At my question, Jinhee reflexively nodded her head.

“So it is. I decided to change because I thought that I should be good to my mother. And you know what happened to us after that. My mom started a business, and now it’s a big business. So we moved, and you can go to art academy to your heart’s content. If she thinks mom is wrong, what do you think we would be like?”

Jinhee raised her head and she stared at me.

“Then, since when did oppa get along with mom like that?”

“Huh. It’s from last summer. I couldn’t help it because my mom was fighting with her dad and it was so hard. I made her forget her father, and I thought what would happen to her mother if I didn’t comfort her. Fortunately, she accepted me, as if her mother was having a hard time too.”

I told the story to Jin-hee by adapting it in a similar but slightly different way.

“Jinhee, do you love your mother too? I love you too. You are my mother, the only one in the world. Please don’t look at my mother and me with strange eyes. Her mother is also a fragile woman, and she is someone who wants to be loved. But so far no one has done that to her mother but me. Jinhee, don’t be angry and think carefully. How lonely and difficult her mother must have been. Would you have been able to raise three kids in that poor life?”

“Still, how can a mother and son do that? Isn’t that a bad thing?”

“Who is bad? Why can’t we love a mother and son? Who decided that? Okay, let’s say that loving a mother and a son is a bad thing. So what about you and me in the water during the day? I touched your chest, and you touched my stuff. I love you Jinhee you love me too So aren’t we doing something bad? They say you can’t love between mother and son, but it’s okay to love between brother and sister? It’s not Then why did you do that to me? Can you love me, but can’t mom love me?”

When I pushed her hard, Jin-hee was startled and only stared at me with her eyes wide open without saying anything.
I softened my expression again and stroked Jinhee’s cheek.

“It’s Jinhee. Don’t think too badly, think carefully about how lonely and difficult your mother must have been. And in that situation, I just found myself as someone to trust and rely on and love. Imagine if mom divorced her father and married another man. Do you have the confidence to follow him while calling him your stepdad? I’m never sure But now that doesn’t happen. My mom is happy to be loved, and my father, whom you and we were so afraid of, doesn’t come home, and now I earn a lot of money and don’t worry about living. So Jin-hee, don’t necessarily think it’s bad, but can’t you understand her mother and her brother a little bit?”

Jinhee had an angry face, but she didn’t say a word and just stared at me.

“And, my mom and brother have become so in love now, what can I do if you get angry? Can you leave your mother and brother behind? Don’t you love us?”

Rather, I pushed through with guts.
Rather, Jin-hee looked at me screaming loudly and showed a puzzled expression.

“Jinhee, I know how much you love me and my mom. You may be angry now, but I know you’ll understand in the end, and I know you’ll keep it a secret from anyone else. We are family It is a family that has no choice but to embrace and help each other no matter what happens in the world. Oppa, if something happens to our Jin-hee, he will protect her, even risking her life. Why? Because we are a family, and because I am the younger brother whom I love.”

Jin-hee was silent and thoughtful.

〈 Jinhee’s perspective〉

Jin-hee wondered if she played too hard in the water today. She fell asleep early as soon as she ate dinner.
In her sleep, it seemed that her mother and her brother were going outside, so she tried to follow her, but she couldn’t stay awake.
Instead, the feeling of her brother touching and kissing her breasts during the day kept appearing in her dreams, so she couldn’t feel that good.

I don’t know when exactly, but Jin-hee was in love with her brother, Seong-jin.
It must have been last summer, when I first went to Gyeongbokgung Palace and Jongno while holding her brother’s hand.

My brother seemed so smart and cool that he knew so much about history.
Obviously, until then, he was an immature brother who only knew himself, but from then on, he became a very different person.
He was so cool, studied well, fought well, even played the guitar well and sang well.

Every day, when my brother taught me to study, I thought he was a real teacher and even respected him.
After fighting the gangsters and winning, he also rescued Kyung-mi, who had been kidnapped without fear.
When I heard the news, I knew what a hero my brother was.

And recently, my older brother, who is only three years older than me, has been making headway in business.
Thanks to my brother, I moved to a nice house, got my own room, and was able to attend the art academy I wanted to attend without paying attention.
My brother was my sky and my idol.

Not too long ago, my brother and I went to Lotte World to play.
I walked around with my brother’s arms, and it felt so good that I became his lover.
Even though it was hard to walk around all day, I couldn’t feel the difficulty just by having my brother next to me.

I fell in love with my brother so much at some point, and my heart was filled with excitement just thinking about him.
When I hugged my brother’s neck and kissed him on the lips, I felt proud and happy as if I had the whole world.

I couldn’t tell anyone else, but at some point I started dreaming of marrying my brother.
In the past, when my mother went to work, I would cook for her brother and sister instead of her mother.
Just like back then, I dreamed that I would cook my brother’s meal every day, hug him and whisper love to him, and at night, under the blanket, in his big arms, I would be loved with all my body.
So I bought and read a book titled ‘How a woman is loved by a man’, read a women’s magazine, and heard from friends who said they had already had sex as a sophomore in middle school, so I researched a lot on my own.

I didn’t have much time to run into my brother because I was drawing until late while attending an art academy, but when I came home, I only wore a pretty skirt to impress my brother.
My brother also said that I was pretty every time he saw me, and stroked my hair.
You don’t know how much his heart fluttered when he saw his older brother, and how much he wanted to be embraced by his broad chest.

After hearing from my friends that women masturbate too, I masturbated almost every day, rubbing my genital area with the thought of being held in my brother’s arms.
The more I masturbated, the deeper my feelings toward my brother grew, and I wanted to convey my feelings to him somehow.

And today, my family, minus my dad, went on vacation to the beach for the first time in my life.

The thought that I could play with my brother to my heart’s content made me so excited that I couldn’t sleep properly from the night before.
As expected, the older brother I saw at the beach was so cool, and he didn’t leave me alone struggling in the water.

As he pushed the tube between my legs, the sight of him piercing my crotch made me proud and lifted my back while splashing with my legs to get a better look.
I thought I was going to wake up when my brother put his mouth on my stomach.
I didn’t know that my brother would bite my stomach, and the feeling was so thrilling that I couldn’t say anything.

When I went into the water, my brother wrapped himself around my waist and hugged me tightly, and I thought my heart was going to explode.
I was thinking of hugging my brother’s waist with my hands, but I held on to the tube because I was afraid that my brother would think it was strange.

When I was about to drown, my brother caught me, but he stopped and grabbed me by the chest.
But my brother was rubbing my chest.
I was embarrassed, but honestly more than happy.
Knowing that my brother likes me too, I felt that he was even more lovable.

I mustered up my courage and decided to put into practice what I had read about a man I had read and heard about from friends.
Fortunately, I was underwater so no one saw me.
So I mustered up the courage to hold my brother’s things with my hand.

My brother’s things I touched seemed to be as big as his brother’s height and size.
When I read it in a book and heard about it from my friends, it was clear that the average male penis in Korea was about 10 cm, but if I held it with my hand, it would only be a little bigger.
It was so thick that I could not touch it even when I wrapped it around it with my thumb and middle finger.

I felt like my heart would explode.
My brother was great even with his stuff, and even though I was touching his stuff, he didn’t say anything.

My brother also seemed to accept my heart.
My brother kissed me
Bravo, my brother was also in love with me.

I saw an opportunity on this holiday and decided to give my brother my love.
There was no need for things like brother and sister.
I just wanted to be a woman who was loved by my best-looking and proud brother.
So on the first day of vacation, I fell asleep dreaming of being hugged by my brother.

And I kept thinking about what happened with my brother in the water during the day, so I woke up from a deep sleep and habitually put my hand inside my panties and rubbed my clitoris before falling asleep again.