Chapter 212 – Meeting the Girl From the Past.

We sat together in front of the fireplace and indulged in conversation as Younghee noona served tea and fruit.
I was filled with loveliness and happiness as I watched the women laughing and talking about what was so good.

As we were chatting without knowing how much time had passed, her mother and I came out of the room one by one.
Everyone who approached me asked what was so fun about it.

Time passed quickly and it was time for dinner.

The snow had stopped outside, and once again the whole world had turned white.

I lit the charcoal and prepared the grill to grill the meat.
Because the weather was cold, I couldn’t eat outside, so I prepared a meal on the floor, and I grilled the meat outside and put it inside.

It was next to the fire, but it was quite cold because it was in the middle of the mountain.
Still, the women I love would eat it, so I cooked the meat wholeheartedly even though it was cold.

While the meat was grilling, her mother wrapped the meat in her lettuce and brought it to her.
Starting with the mother, the women took turns wrapping the meat and bringing it to them one by one.
The women came and went in and out without stopping, like a baby bird being fed.

Inside, there was already a simple drinking party and a riotous party.
I was cold because I was outside alone, and I was thirsty from eating meat all the time, so I asked for a drink.

Aunt Hyo-seon said that I should drink good alcohol, and poured the most expensive Western liquor I had prepared into a glass.

The taste of Yangju while grilling meat in the cold mountains could not be so good.

It would be nice to laugh and chat among people, but it wasn’t bad to have a drink alone while grilling meat for them.
Besides, the alcohol was too sweet, perhaps because it was good wine or because the atmosphere was good.

I hadn’t even had a few sips, but the glass was already empty.
After grilling the meat, I went inside and brought out a bottle of the liquor I had just been drinking.

The women told me to stop grilling and come in, but for some reason it was nice to create an atmosphere like this today by myself.
I went out again and grilled the meat, sipping liquor by myself.

In the cloudless sky, twinkling stars were dazzling as if they were about to pour down, and the pure white surroundings were so beautiful that twilight could be seen in the light shining through the window of the villa.

The sometimes-heard cries of unknown birds, the occasional sound of cold wind blowing, and the crackling sound of a burning fire right in front of me seemed to make the drink sweeter.

I was so intoxicated that I continued pouring alcohol into my glass and drinking non-stop.

Before I knew it, I was squatting by the fire, looking up at the sky and drinking.

I was so happy and felt good.
Laughter came out of his mouth without a break.
I made a toast, thanking someone for bringing me back to the past.

Loud laughter could still be heard from within.
They are all women who love me, but it seemed like a miracle to be able to gather and laugh like that.

In the hazy mood of getting more and more drunk, I suddenly thought that this situation might be a dream.
The current situation was unrealistic.

Is it realistically possible that so many women can understand and laugh at each other because they love one man?
I giggled and wished that if this was a dream, please don’t wake up.

“Sungjin. Why are you doing this alone here?”

An infinitely soft dreamy voice came to me in my haze.
I raised my clouded eyes and looked at someone.

“Uh? It’s mother Hi-Hi. My dear mother My dear Hee-Kyung. My beloved wife.. Hee hee.”

I was drunk and chattering back and forth.

“Okay. Okay. Our Sungjin is a loving mother. It’s cold, so don’t be like this, let’s go in now.”

My mother pulled me by the arm and tried to get me up.

As if he had finished drinking before he knew it, the large wine had become an empty bottle and was rolling around.
As the mother screamed inside, the women rushed out.

“No. When did you drink so much? Oops be heavy Seongjin-ah, calm down.”

Sister Suyeong came to my side and put her arm around her shoulder to help her mother get me up.

“Huh? Lol. My beloved future big star Sooyoung noona. Noona~ You know I love you~ Mouse? What did I say? Did your sister say you’d make it as a movie star? Didn’t you? Lol.”

“Okay. Okay. Okay. Speaking of our Sungjin, of course it will be like that. Stand up straight I have to go in now.”

Aunt Hyo-seon, Gyeong-mi-do, and Young-hee noona also came and helped me inside.
Since I was so big, the women grunted and carried me away, laying me down on a nearby sofa.

I could vaguely hear the women laughing and chatting among themselves, asking why they were so heavy or why they were drinking so much.
I wanted to answer, but I couldn’t open my eyes.

As I felt the sound of their laughter gradually receding, I felt like I was being sucked into somewhere in an instant.

I slowly came to my senses, but I couldn’t move my body.
It was as if my whole body was tied tightly to something.

I tried to speak, but my jaw wouldn’t move.
It was just a groaning, groaning noise.

“Uh? Uh? Sungjin. Are you out of your mind? Are you okay?”

Heard her mother’s voice.
As I thought I was lucky, my body felt weak.

I tried to lie down comfortably, but suddenly my whole body ached and it was very painful.
Without realizing it, I moaned again.

Strangely, however, it was still the body and the jaw and could not be moved.

‘What… What is it? Something weird? Why can’t my body move?’

Because of the pain I felt in my body, I just let my whole body go limp and slowly opened my eyes.
My eyelids were so heavy that I couldn’t open them.

I had to blink quickly because of the sudden white light.

“Sung.. Seongjin, can you open your eyes? Here… Here… Sir… My son has come back to his senses.”

I heard my mother’s urgent voice.

‘Teacher? Mental? What? Did I drink so much that I passed out?’

As my eyes adjusted to the light, I saw a white grid ceiling.

I tried to turn my head, but I couldn’t move my head, as if it was tightly bound to something.
Besides, I tried to move a little, but I felt a tremendous pain in my neck and forehead.

‘Keuh.. What is it? Did I fall over from drinking? Why are you so sick?’

I heard the sound of footsteps and then a middle-aged man with glasses looked down at me.

“Mr. Lee Seong-jin. Are you awake? Can you hear me?”

“Ugh. Yes. But… My jaw… Won’t move… So I can’t… Speak.”

I gritted my teeth, and it took me a long time to speak in an awkward manner.

“Yes. It must be because I have bandages wrapped around my head and neck now. Do you feel any pain in your body?”

“Ugh. Yes.. My whole.. Body.. Is broken.. It hurts..”

I really struggled to speak.

“Huh~ Fortunately, my senses are alive. It’s a miracle that you woke up. Mr. Lee Seong-jin fell down the long stairs and broke his neck and suffered fractures throughout his body. It is very fortunate that he woke up like this.”

I couldn’t understand what the hell this guy was talking about.
I’m sure I drank a little too much, but I’m sure my mother and the ladies carried me inside, so what kind of stairs did I roll over?

“Sungjin-ah.. Oh, Sungjin-ah.. Thank God. Thank you teacher. Oh my..”

I could hear my mother crying next to me.

Then the doctor stepped aside and her mother came into my sight.

Huh~ But my mother’s voice was definitely correct, and I saw an old woman with dark spots in front of me.

‘No.. How did this happen? I’m sure my mother is right.. Why? Why is she looking so old? Maybe.. Maybe..’

I felt my heart sink.

‘This… How can it be… This is a hospital, and the appearance of my mother right now is definitely the same as before I rolled down the stairs and returned. What.. What.. Then you mean it was all a dream? Aww.. No.. This can’t be.. No.. Lord.. Please… Send me back. It can’t be like this. Please..’

I let out an animal-like groan and sobbed.
When I cried, my mother cried and called my name next to me.

What the hell is this nonsense?
Doesn’t that mean that I will never be able to see the women I love, including my beloved mother, Hee-kyung, and Yeong-hee, Kyung-mi, Jeong-hee, Hyo-sun, Hye-jeong, Su-yeong, Jin-hee, and Jung-a?

The businesses I’ve built, the gold medals in the Olympics, the wealth I’ve built…All of this was for naught.

According to the doctor’s words, now I have to lie down for the rest of my life.
It was a miracle, she said, that she survived falling down the stairs and breaking a vertebra in her neck.
He comforted me and said that he was fortunate to live like this.

But then what?
Now I have to lie down like this for the rest of my life as a sick person..

I wanted to die because my body couldn’t move, but I couldn’t.
His jaw couldn’t move, so he couldn’t bite his tongue even if he wanted to.

The figure of my mother, who had grown old without a good look, came into my eyes.
I couldn’t see any of that beautiful Hee-kyung.
Now the young mother was never to be seen.

I came back as a poor ex-convict.

I thought I was going crazy, but I couldn’t scream, move, or really do anything.

I was tired of crying and crying, so I couldn’t even cry anymore.

When I cried, my mother also shed endless tears.

The statement that food and drink were completely eliminated was not relevant.
It was because I couldn’t eat anyway, so I had to keep getting intravenous drips.

Even more embarrassing was that sometimes my mother would change diapers in my crotch.
I felt like going crazy.
I want to die, but I can’t, and I can’t even poop or pee, so my old mother is changing diapers…

Besides, I wanted to think about why I fell asleep so much and how to die, but I fell asleep so often that I couldn’t even think properly.

I don’t know how many days have passed.

In the meantime, it seems to have been an emergency room, but now it has been moved to a general hospital room.
In the meantime, his gray-haired father visited several times.

She hadn’t slept in a long time and was awake.

As time passed, I no longer thought of dying in my head.
I only thought of my women.
But, now that I recognized that it was a dream, it was about to fade.

As I stared blankly at the ceiling, I heard her mother’s complaints.

“Ego poor thing. He suffered so much because of Hee-eun, but in the end it ended up like this. Ehh~ You bitch.. Ehh~ You mean bitch..”

I was surprised.
He heard the name of her wife, whom he had forgotten for years.

Ah~~ I’ve been dreaming for years..

After hearing her mother’s words, it seems that her mother contacted her wife, Hee-eun, saying that I was hospitalized like this.

I was mad at her mother for doing naughty things.
I made a noise while making a noise.

“Sungjin, what’s wrong? Come on? Heukheuk.. Nurse.. Nurse.. Heukheuk.. Seongjin-ah..”

My mother thought I was having a seizure, so she grabbed me in surprise and called the nurse.

I screamed and tried to move my body.
Excessive pain ran through my body again.
Whether it was because of the pain or because of the sadness, I wept again.

A nurse rushed over and administered a sedative to the intravenous injection port.
I fell asleep again in a haze of consciousness.

I don’t know how long it’s been since I woke up.
When I woke up, it was the night that the lights were off in the hospital room.

I could hear my mother breathing next to me as if she was sleeping on the guardian’s bed.
I still couldn’t look around or move my body.

I stared blankly at the ceiling and cried endlessly.

I missed my women so much.
I wanted to feel their soft skin so much.
But… But… Now it was absolutely impossible.

My heart was torn apart.
Despite the pain, I couldn’t move.
All I could do was groan.

I couldn’t speak because my face and neck were tightly bound by splints and bandages, but now my jaw stiffened and I couldn’t speak at all.
I could only groan like an animal.

My mother jumped up, probably hearing my moaning, and called the nurse again.

In the meantime, I also thought that my mother was my mother.
Hearing her son’s groans and seeing him get up right away, it was true that my mother, who also loves me more than her life, was right.

The more I felt the pain in my chest, the clearer my mind was.

He suddenly remembered his wife, Hee-eun, whom his mother had mentioned.
As much as I missed the women in my dreams, I hated Hee-eun so much.

Still, we lived together for more than ten years, living together and loving each other. How could I not see my face once, even though I was about to die?
No matter how much I no longer have money as an ex-convict, can I just turn around and throw it away?

I was angry with resentment and hatred.
And I was angry with me again for not being able to do anything, no, not even move.

The pain in my chest got worse.
As my moaning grew louder, the nurse came and gave me a sedative.

I fell into a hazy sleep again.

It has become a habit for me to call my women’s names with my mouth when I wake up from a certain moment.
It was my struggle to remember their faces that were gradually fading.

And he gnashed his teeth thinking of Hee-eun, who was his wife.
Of course, my mouth didn’t open, so my voice sounded like a moan.

Then my mother thought I was in pain again and called a nurse to give me a sedative.
As time passed, I was always in a hazy state.

I was always on drugs, so I didn’t feel the time passing.
It seemed like months had passed.

The bandage that had been wrapped around the body was all loose, as if the bones were attached.
But I still had a splint and a bandage around my neck.
And still my body didn’t move.

During that long time, my mother never left my side for a single day.

I had completely given up now, so I didn’t moan anymore.
I just stared at the ceiling all day in a daze.

Several months passed again.

All the splints and bandages on his neck were gone.
However, his neck was crushed and his body was still unable to move.

I could speak now.
But I kept my mouth shut.

Even when the doctor talked to me and my mother told me to, I just lay there staring at the ceiling without saying a word.
My body is alive, but my soul is already dead.

As time passed, now the faces of my women also faded.
I miss them dearly, but I don’t miss them anymore.

A body that couldn’t die, I gave up on dying.

When he closed his mouth and stopped eating, his body dried up like a corpse.
It was barely alive only by Ringel.

Then one day I could hear my mother and father talking in my sleep.

My medical bills were too high, so I subtracted the rent for a house in Guro-dong and moved to a single room, but now the rent was gone.
So, at the father’s words to move home now, the mother was strongly objecting, crying and blowing.

Even if it was miserable, it was so miserable.
Until the end, I ended up being a guy who sucked my parents’ backs.

A few days later, while my mother was away for a while, I mustered up the courage to die one last time.
I felt like I could die if I fell headfirst under the bed like this.

I did everything I could in my skinny body.
Fortunately, I no longer felt the pain.

I squeezed out even the strength I was sucking on.
It’s a little bit, but like a miracle, my body moved.

“Aaaaa~”

I screamed as hard as I could and rolled to the side.

It seemed like a blessing from God to be able to move at least once like this one last time.

‘This dirty world. Goodbye now.’

Just like my last wish, I fell headfirst under the bed.
I felt my head hit the floor and my neck twisting backwards.

At the moment of death, I thought that I was so fortunate that I laughed.

‘Mother. Sorry. When we meet again in the next world, we will definitely meet as a couple. I love you. I love you forever.’

I faintly heard my mother’s screams and people’s running footsteps, and I lost my mind.