Chapter 5 – Going to School

After dinner, I sat my younger siblings down and started teaching them their studies.
My younger siblings used to play with me on the rooftop every day, but when I suddenly told them to study, they screamed that they would die.
In the old days, I would have scolded and beat him for not knowing that while teaching, but now I have a father’s heart and teach my younger siblings very diligently and calmly.
My younger siblings, who didn’t want to do it at first, started to work hard, focusing on whether they liked it when I didn’t get angry and explained it kindly.
“My son has become a real adult after he entered high school. I know how to take care of my younger siblings.”
Her mother was proud, smiling at her with satisfaction.

Now it’s time to go to bed.
Mother packed her clothes, towel and soap for her change and she went down to the bathroom on the 4th floor.
I lay still and started thinking about this and that.
My father hadn’t come home for over a month already.
These days, there are fewer and fewer days to come home.
Before that, he would come home once every two weeks, give money for his work, and stay there for three to four days before leaving.
The more she did, the more her mother suffered.
She had to bring her money to live on, but since there was no news from her father for over a month, her mother made her wig and helped her with other people’s housework, so she was holding on somehow.

Thinking of my father, I felt a strange sense of alienation again.
My father, who had beaten me so severely since I was a child, was a typical patriarchal tyrant, like most heads of household at the time.
It seems that he was even more violent when his business failed.
He was such a fearful father when he was young, but the father he faced after being released was just a weak old man with no strength.
He had returned to the age of 17 and hadn’t seen his father yet, but for some reason he didn’t seem to be the scary father he used to be anymore.
He was such a frightened and hated father, but now my heart is at peace as the frail old father overlaps.
I just thought that it wouldn’t matter much whether my father returned or not, and rather felt a little hateful at the thought that he was causing trouble for his mother.
‘I don’t know when my father will come, but I can feel it when I see his face.’
Leaving behind my father’s thoughts, various other thoughts came to my mind.
‘It’s June now. It’s July in just a few days. I’ll have final exams soon. I smoked a cigarette for the first time at Dong-gu after the final exams. Will you quit smoking in this life?’
‘Wait, it seems that something important happened to Dong-gu around this time. Hmm! Right. Cho Young -rae, there was a dog. ‘
I suddenly became angry when I remembered Jo Young-rae, whom I had forgotten for over 20 years.

Jo Young-rae was, in a word, a corrupt bully.
He was the same age, same high school, different class.
Jo Young-rae lived near Dong-gu’s house.
Jo Young-rae was a little taller than Dong-gu, and his hair was very curly.
His skin was white, and his lips were exceptionally red, and he had a typical unlucky face.
In middle school, he was the guy who would follow the best guys around and carry their bags, but when he got into high school and had a gang fight with another high school, he smashed the head of another first year best student with the shovel next to him.
He was recognized as a quick-witted guy, and his seniors were very pretty.
As a result, this guy became a careless person, and he went around doing bullying outside of school.
I went to Dong-gu’s house after vacation after the final exams for the first semester, but Dong-gu was crying.
The reason is that Dong-gu’s house is near Jo Young-rae’s house, so Dong-gu was spotted by Jo Young-rae on his way out of the house, and his money was stolen and beaten.
Enraged, I immediately went to the street to find Cho Young-rae, and I had beaten him down in the middle of the street.
However, the incident reached the ears of my seniors and the best people at school, and I was called by the keuts and got beaten up a lot.
After that, Jo Young-rae often came to my classroom and made fun of me.
If I get pissed off and try to hit Cho Young-rae, the seniors of the 2nd and 3rd years, who don’t know when they came after Jo Young-rae, stand up and say, “Try to hit me. Hit me.” I was slowly putting the medicine up.
He even hit his calf with a broom from Jo Young-rae.
Just thinking about it made my teeth clench.
After graduating from high school, I lived with the thought of defeating Jo Young-rae when my seniors were not around.
Dong-gu grew distant from me after this incident, and eventually lived as Jo Young-rae’s Duk-gari until he graduated from high school.

‘Okay. Jo Yeong-rae, you bastard. It will be different this time. Sing back that you were lost.’
While I was thinking about how to stir up Jo Young-rae, I suddenly felt the urge to urinate.
I got up and went down to the bathroom on the 4th floor.
Seeing that the bathroom door was closed, she remembered that her mother had gone to the shower earlier.
I was about to call her mother at the door when I heard a strange noise from inside the bathroom.
“Ah.. Yes.. Ah yes..”
It wasn’t loud, but I could clearly hear a woman’s moaning.
I woke up.
A 17-year-old boy who knew nothing would have thought that his mother was sick, but as a middle-aged man, I knew very well what this sound meant.
‘Is this the sound of my mother masturbating?’
That’s understandable enough.
The mother was a woman in her thirties, a vigorous woman who had given birth to three children.
She was at the age when her sexual desire was at its peak, but her father hadn’t come home for over a month, so there was nowhere to go.
Hearing her mother moan, she immediately gave her erection as if her cock were going to pierce her pants.
My heart was pounding, and I wanted to see her mother masturbating, and she seemed crazy.
I quickly moved away from the door and fell on the floor.
When the door outside the bathroom is closed, there is a two-finger gap under the door.
I looked inside through the gap.
She had already taken off her clothes, and she saw her mother squatting down on her naked body, moving her hand eagerly between her crotch.
But her mother was sitting around her side, so only her left thigh, butt and side were visible.
“Ah… Ah…”
My mother’s moans seemed to be a little louder.
‘Look back this way, Mother..’
She screamed inwardly, but she stayed in that position and couldn’t see in front of her.
After moving her hands for a while, the mother let out a big sigh and raised her body.
She seemed to finish her off with a few more splashes of water on her body.
I couldn’t see the top of her thighs as if she was standing there wiping her water.
I somehow wanted to take a look at her mother’s fur side, but in the end I couldn’t.
She had no choice but to return to her room and lie down.

After a while, my mother came in.
She turned on the nightstand and turned off her thoughts, probably thinking of crocheting her wig instead of going to sleep right away.
“Mom, you must be tired, aren’t you sleeping?”
“Huh. Son. Are you okay. She wants to sleep after a little while.”
“Mom, don’t be too hard on yourself. But when will your father come?”
A look of sadness fell over her mother’s face.
‘Oops! I thought I was just asking.’
I thought of my mother’s raunchy moaning that I heard earlier, and I couldn’t just watch her mother’s pensive face, so I took out a book and lay down next to my mother and leaned on the lamp to read the book.
“Son go to bed early. Also, turn on the room lights to read the book. Throw away your eyes.”
“I just can’t sleep so I’m going to read a book. Also, there is a light on the stand, but why do you turn on the light so that the electricity bill goes up? And, the kids are sleeping.”
My mother stroked my hair like it was admirable.
I also liked her mother’s gentle touch, so I put down her book and lay down with her face on her mother’s thighs.
As she lay on her mother’s belly, her cheek against her thigh, a strange smell rose from her mother’s crotch.
I know for sure what this smell is.
Smells women can’t smell.
It was because in the past, when her ovulation period approached and she was in heat, she gave off such a tempting smell.
I could get a rough idea of ​​her mother’s current condition.
She turned and lay down on her mother’s thigh.
My mother was putting on her wig, and when I turned over, she ran her palms over my face.
“Oh my! Whose son is this handsome?”
My mother was smiling happily as she looked down at me.
“Aren’t you lonely, mother?”
I really, inadvertently asked.
After asking, I was surprised first.
‘This is why middle-aged men can’t do it. It’s a problem even if you know too much.’
My mother was startled by my question. She flinched and then she smiled.
“No. She is not alone How can you be lonely with such a trustworthy son next to you?”
Seeing her mother like that, she suddenly felt happy. She turned over on her mother’s stomach and hugged her mother’s waist.
“I love you mother.”
“Yes, son. I love you too.”

Today, after school was over, Dong-gu seduced me to go to his house and play.
But thinking that I shouldn’t leave her mother alone, I resisted Dong-gu’s temptation for several days already and came home right after school.
And honestly, isn’t it obvious that high school students are playing?
When I, a middle-aged man, thought of reading comic books and playing games in the room with Dong-gu, I felt pitiful.
I came home, played with my younger siblings for a while, and taught them to study.
Now, my younger siblings also play when they play, and focus on their studies when they study.
Because of my poor family situation, I rarely bought workbooks or daily workbooks.
The only thing he had was a textbook and a ‘convict’ that released the textbook.
So, I explained the criminal record to my younger siblings in great detail and made them understand.