Chapter 348 – Jena Is a Shackle to Me

I had no intention of doing anything with Taeyeon. It was almost obligatory even when I was in another world, and I had girlfriends that I loved.

… Of course, their leader, the Demon King, allowed them to do it.

Anyway, anyway, again, I definitely had no intention of doing it with Taeyeon. But when I came out of her bathroom, the expectation that she would be waiting for me was hidden in her mind.

“Whoops”

With a sigh of vague anticipation, I opened the bathroom door. Then he saw a darkened living room.

“Oh, did you wash everything? Didn’t you use a hair dryer?”

Except for the light leaking from the bathroom, the light source was Taeyeon’s smartphone. She said while lying on her bed, looking at her smartphone.

“Don’t use that. People come up from downstairs. Noisy.”

“I heard it earlier.”

“If your hair is open, wash it again tomorrow morning. Come and sleep.”

Taeyeon, who said she was sleeping, turned off her smartphone and set it down at the bottom of her bed. Then I asked her to come in and pulled up the blanket from the seat next to her.

“Hey. And.”

“Hasn’t it been a while since you’ve been like this?”

She’s a little disappointed, but a little excited because it’s been a while since we’ve slept together.

“Ha, so.”

Seeing her laugh, it seemed like she was too.

Going into the duvet, I tossed and turned for a moment at the unfamiliar sensation of the pillow. In the end, I folded the pillow in half, roughly adjusted the height, and prepared myself to sleep.

Taeyeon sighed deeply next to her and assumed a sleeping posture.

“…”

“…”

I don’t know if she did too, but I decided to close my eyes and go to bed. However, I couldn’t fall asleep easily as if life didn’t go the way I wanted.

I opened my mouth to talk for a while until I fell asleep.

“But there you are.”

“I’ll be fine. Noisy.”

“… Just tell me what time it is.”

“Looking at it earlier, it was a little past 11:30.”

“Then you should be able to sleep a little over six and a half hours.”

“Ah, this bastard is real.”

As she nervously talked about how much she could sleep, Taeyeon jabbed her blade under the covers with her elbow. She laughed and hit me a few more times before finally giving up on sleeping.

“What, why, you bastard.”

It was a tone I didn’t hate even if I cursed at it.

I talked to her who seemed to be subtly delighted.

“I have a question from before.”

“What.”

“How does it feel to have a child?”

“… Well.”

“Okay.”

“I don’t even know, fuck.”

“I don’t know what. Isn’t that your daughter? Was the selection a daughter?”

“Stop it, you bastard.”

After Taeyeon hit me a few more times, she grumbled, “Let’s not name it that way.” But as she sighed, she returned my question with a question.

“Why?”

“Uh?”

“Why are you asking? Are you going to have a baby too?”

“I have to. But that’s not why I asked.”

“Then what is it?”

“No, you did that at the meat restaurant earlier. It sucks to live. But seeing as I met Yena, it didn’t seem like that.”

“You fucking ask something that doesn’t even sound like that.”

“What.”

“Ha, really.”

Taeyeon, who spoke in a pathetic tone, rustled beside me. As I opened her eyes and turned her head to her side, I saw her turn to see me in the darkness.

“Hey. Fuck you, what kind of life is the same?”

“Uh?”

“If it sucks once, it’s always fucked, and if it’s good once, it’s always good? It’s different depending on the time, you asshole.”

Having said that, she lay back facing the ceiling. I thought what a stupid thing I had said while she lay down.

“Sorry.”

“I’m sorry. But, well, it’s not exactly wrong.”

“Huh?”

“Hey…”

Her speech was muffled, and it took a little while for her to open her mouth again. Even her words, which came out after several tens of seconds had passed, had a tone of lamentation.

“Yena is a shackle to me. It has nothing to do with it.”

“Shackles?”

Taeyeon recalled the memory of her hugging her daughter earlier. At that time, she was making a face I had never seen before, raising the corners of her mouth.

“Uh, shackles.”

Even while I was thinking about it, she kept talking.

“You know what I was originally trying to be? Not the cops.”

“Well. Daechuung,”

“No, what the fuck, are you so uninterested in your ex-wife?”

“I was talking, little.”

“Then speak quickly. After Ji told me so damn late.”

It seemed like he did it on purpose to cut me off. Suddenly mixing curse words, it looked like he was trying to blow off the heavy atmosphere.

“Originally,”

The voice I heard again was a little locked. Then he cleared his throat and spoke again.

“Hmmmm, originally I wanted to design something other than the police. So I went to college and went to graduate school. Oh fuck, don’t go.”

I didn’t even respond to the words he muttered like a joke. I just listened quietly to keep her from taking on her burden.

“I went to graduate school, fuck. I met that bastard. That bastard. That fuck, a fucking baby. “

Because he cursed so much, I knew who he was talking about.

“That bastard didn’t do anything well. She didn’t have a great face, she didn’t work out so she didn’t like her body, and her sex was fucking bad. Just like the first time you did it.”

“Hey.”

“But did you improve? But that bastard won’t grow no matter what, fuck. But he just said fuck it, that bastard monkey.”

“Can we stop talking about that?”

“Shut up and just listen, you asshole. Anyway, that bastard only did one thing well. Do you know what?”

“…”

“Aren’t you going to answer me?”

“I told you to shut up.”

“This bastard is real.”

“Okay. What.”

“That kid did a good job. You gave me a gift called Yena.”

There was a slight emotion in my heart. Because she, who earlier called Jena her fetters, is her gift.

However, this impression was broken when he chewed his ex again.

“I found one more thing that bastard can’t do, damn it. Don’t be a little contraceptive, a dog. I didn’t use a condom that day and my life was screwed up.”

“…”

“But, well, I have a responsibility too. That is unavoidable.”

Taeyeon, muttering as if in despair, continued. However, the words that started again were different from before.

“But you never asked.”

“What.”

“How I died.”

She finally thought she had come. She honestly didn’t mind the question. But as if her death wasn’t all that pleasant, she meant to ask if she had to say it first.

Perhaps recognizing my thoughts, after Taeyeon started talking about her, she let out a hearty voice for the first time.

“You are the same in this respect.”

Then, in a light voice, she spoke of her death.

“I committed suicide. After hearing that you died.”

“!”

At worst, she knew the end would be for her to be assassinated by the Kingdom. But she never thought of committing suicide.

Her surprise raised her upper body and looked at her.

“What, why? Do you need to pee?”

But she was too calm for saying that she had committed suicide.

“Lie down again. It’s not a touching story of someone dying saying he couldn’t live in a world without you.”

“Really?”

“You fucking want to lie to your ex-husband you haven’t met in decades?”

“Uh, uh…”

“Lie down, little. I’m going to tell you why you committed suicide.”

“Okay.”

I quietly lay down on the bed again. Taeyeon waited until I covered her with the covers before continuing her words.

“So, why did I die…”

No matter how calm she pretended to be, this story seemed a little difficult. She didn’t stop talking to her though she did.

“Because I know I am useless. So he died.”

“What are you talking about.”

“Hey. It’s not as romantic as it is here. Even if she was a hero’s wife, she is useless when the hero dies. When it is no longer useful, it is discarded. So she’s better off committing suicide. Better than being afraid of when she will die.”

She knew what she was talking about I died that way, and so did Mina who killed me. She didn’t want to agree, but she had to.

“That’s right, don’t.”

At the end of the agreement, I heard something I couldn’t agree with.

“That is still the case. I want to die.”

“… What?”

“Don’t worry. Because you won’t die I still want to die The work sucks, the money doesn’t come out, I want to drink soju like that when I’m pushed for a promotion or robbed by a superior. I want to eat and die.”

She struggled with which words to choose. It seemed that if I said the wrong words to her, who seemed to be incomprehensible, it would only hurt her.

“But I told you earlier.”

But it didn’t have to be.

“Jena is like shackles. That’s right, like shackles. Even if it’s the cause of my life being twisted, it’s like a shackle that binds me a little more to this world.”

Because Taeyeon is older than me.

“Yena is not alone. My mother, the staff I work with at the police box, the friends I still keep in touch with, all of those bastards are shackles to me.”

Taeyeon didn’t need my consolation. It seemed that if she tried to console her somehow, she would rather let her know that she was still just a chick.

“And there you are.”

Taeyeon, who was talking while looking up at her ceiling, turned her head towards me. Even in the dark, when I met my twinkling eyes, she held my hand. The hand held under the blanket was warmer than mine.

“Today, I found another shackle called you.”

When I said shackles, she squeezed my hand.

“Ah, you know I’m not talking about dating, right? We’ll just be friends like today. Sometimes we drink like this, talk, and hang out together. I mean that. Don’t get me wrong.”

He held my hand while we were talking and didn’t let go.

“Ah, that’s it.”

Only then did Taeyeon look up at her ceiling and let go of her hand.

“It’s the first time I’ve said something like this, really.”

She pulled her arms out of the covers and stretched her coolly.

“Huh, tea!”

Then, with her tone of relief, she put her arms down on top of her blanket.

“I’m glad I slept with you. I really couldn’t tell anyone about this.”

“Okay?”

It was fortunate. I was glad she met me. Even though she was a show-window couple, she was fortunate that her former wife found someone she could confide in.

With such a happy feeling, I closed my eyes again. It seemed that if I slept now, I would be able to have a good dream, a dream we had fun playing in another world.

Ugh! Ugh!

But life didn’t leave me like that.

“What?”

Taeyeon, who had closed her eyes like me, noticed whose phone was ringing.

“Hey, it’s yours. Turn it off quickly Or take it.”

“Sorry. I’ll pull it right away.”

After apologizing, I immediately found my smartphone on the bed. Recalling that I had left it by the head of the bed when I went to shower, I reached out for the sound of the vibration.

I looked at the smartphone I found in that way with a frown because of the bright light. A call from a group chat room appeared on the screen, just like a pork belly restaurant. It was true that the callers were girlfriends, but this time it was a voice call.

By the way, it’s almost bedtime now, are you calling me?

Missing the opportunity to sleep comfortably, I pressed the call button to speak.

-You.

However, when I heard the serious voice of the demon king, I was a little taken aback and missed the timing to get angry. In addition, Sehee’s voice mixed with sighs, as if it couldn’t be helped, followed by a dull voice as usual.

-Haaaaa, I can’t help it.

– I think it’s okay, Jiheon.

“Uh, what.”

When I tried to ask what it was, the demon king mentioned a word he had heard.

-Jim seems to be okay with you becoming Taeyeon’s shackles.

“Uh, hey.”

-However, you are well aware that Taeyeon’s own shackles are of course not allowed, right?

“What, how did you know that?”

I was going to ask more questions, but Sehee and Minah suddenly interrupted.

-Brother! I’ll hang up now!

– Good night, Jiheon. Excuse me.

Pop!

Now even the phone is disconnected. All I could do here was mutter two words in a puzzled tone.

“What.”