Chapter 77 – Wind.

Jiwoo doesn’t answer the phone.
I called several times, but I continued until the missed voice came out, but there was no answer to erase.

‘I’m sure it must have been vibrating…’

No matter how much you set your smartphone to vibrate, there are times when you don’t feel it if you play excessively. Even so, twenty times was too much. There’s nothing wrong with him, but he doesn’t come until 9:00 in the evening.
If it was something like an opening ceremony, you would have told me in advance. ‘I’ll be late today,’ he said. Jiwoo would have said so. But there is no such contact.

“Ha…”

I was going to ask you to go hang out when you come back, but there was a place I really wanted to go on a date with today. Jiwoo didn’t come.

‘I’m not going to sleep until you come!’

Apparently, things went wrong from the beginning of the semester, or I was caught by my seniors and was just having a second dinner. Even if the girls try to seduce Ji-Woo, Ji-Woo will not come over. Because I believe so

─I’ll go.

Because you said you were going will definitely come

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“…”

It’s 1:00 in the morning.
I didn’t even get a call, let alone come home.

“What are you doing…”

Won’t it come like this?
No, there is no place in Seoul where you can live with money. I can’t let my mother do that.
Then where did you go?
Seoul is the place to hang out, and the only things you can do until this time are clubs and bars. But Ji-ji doesn’t like alcohol very much, and if it’s a club… No. She can’t be with a woman Ji-woo doesn’t know.
So what about a girl you know?
The only woman Ji-woo knows is me… No, there was only one.

‘Choi So-young…’

The same school as Ji-woo, the same age as each other, but a year younger. Even the mere mention of his name still gives her goosebumps as she remembers what happened to him at her house. She even got caught, so it’s really embarrassing.
He has a good personality, is pretty, and is close to Ji-woo.
Even so, I wouldn’t touch it, my eraser, my own eraser. Jiwoo who gave me a reason to live.

“I’m sleepy…”

The eyelids become heavy and begin to close. I drank 3 cans of the energy drink I bought without knowing, but it seems to be useless because I usually eat a lot.

“Now… Um?!”

When I woke up, it was already 4 in the morning.

“…”

And Ji-woo, it hasn’t come yet.

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“…”
“…”

It was morning when I opened my eyes. A strange feeling that doesn’t seem like our home. Narrow, low and heavy. The lower part feels wet as if in a wet dream, and the body feels soft and soft, and it feels like human skin is rubbing.

‘I did it after all…’

Seeing the naked So-yeong reminds me of what happened yesterday. Really did everything. It’s my first time, and I hate it, but looking at everything I said, it seems like he really likes me.

‘Fucked…’

There are only 30 missed calls on my cell phone. It was clear that he was extremely worried. I hope it’s not too bad… I let out a deep sigh, imagining how my sister feels now, and So-young tapped me on the shoulder and said,

“I’m going?”
“I’ll go.”
“Jiwoo, you know… Us.”
“Huh.”
“…No. It’s okay. I’m sorry for all this time. I’ve been bothering you. You don’t have to contact me anymore.”
“…Put on some clothes.”
“Huh…”

When I woke up with my clothes on, So-young’s thin body, which was invisible at night because it was morning, seemed to stand out more. She was wearing pajamas as if she had no intention of going out, and both sides of her breasts were raised and wrinkled as if to appeal that she had no bra.
Fuck. I need to stop thinking about this.

“Bye.”
“Yes. See you again.”
“Yeah… What?”
“Goes.”
“What did you say now?”
“See you again.”
“…”
“Why?”
“No, usually this is… Don’t you even contact me?”
“You didn’t even fight?”
“…”

I have no intention of cutting off contact with Soyoung. There wasn’t in the first place I said that I like my older sister from a rational point of view, I don’t hate Soyoung.
If you choose between good and bad, it’s good. … More than friends.
This is why I’m such a piece of trash.

“…Assass. Pervert.”
“Lee Nam.”
“Flirt.”
“It is not.”
“What. Pervert, who barely succumbed to the temptation of his childhood friend.”
“Don’t you remember how you cried and cried and hung on?”
“… I never say a word, really.”
“Lend me your perfume or something.”

It won’t have any effect, but I sprayed it for prevention. Perhaps because it was a woman’s perfume, the scent was so strong that I coughed.

“Hey. Flirt.”
“Why.”
“I still like you?”
“…”

Attracted by So-young’s playful smile, I kissed her on the forehead and left the house. In the slightly humid and hot weather, the condition of her clothes was also uncomfortable.
Besides, I don’t get a call from my sister as if she was asleep.

“I’m afraid to say something…”

First of all, I was determined to get scolded for being left unconditionally, and headed home.

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“… Sister. I’m here.”

As soon as I opened the door, the atmosphere seemed rather serious. The dishes have not been washed, and the table is a mess. And through the opening of the door to my front door, I glimpsed my sister’s legs drooping as if she was asleep from exhaustion.

“…”

When I sneak in, my older sister is lying in a big shape. Fluffy hair, loose pajamas, a pretty belly visible through them, her eyes swollen, perhaps from crying all night, and she looked like she had passed out rather than asleep.
Should she wake her sister up or not, she stood there contemplating for five minutes,

“…”
“Everyone, I’ve been…”

I met eyes that seemed to have lost focus and showed no emotion. She was frightened and could not say anything. I couldn’t predict what she was thinking or how she would get scolded.
My sister looked at me intently, then threw her body and hugged me.

“… Smell.”
“Huh… ?”
“It smells.”
“… What smell?”

I masked the smell with perfume, but my sister’s sense of smell cannot be fooled. I didn’t know what I would do if I told the truth right away, so I pretended not to know for now, and my sister glared at me as if telling me not to lie.

“The smell of alcohol and the smell of women.”
“What?”
“It smells like a woman.”
“Nu, I don’t smell… ?”
“No.”
“…”
“Why didn’t you answer the phone?”
“…”
“Where have you been?”
“…”
“What did you do when you didn’t answer the phone?”
“…”
“Why did you come in now, smelling like a woman?”
“…”

I couldn’t answer any of my sister’s questions. Because it was an act that could not be forgiven.
The voice that seems to be eaten at any moment becomes more and more sad. Then he hugged me tighter and tighter so he wouldn’t let go.

“Are you cheating on me?”
“… .”

Being stabbed in the bone, the body trembles. I broke out in a cold sweat, and the air around me suddenly became cold.
It’s not up to 14,000,605, but no matter what I said, I couldn’t answer because I only thought of a bad future. No matter what the circumstances were, the result was cheating.

“What did you do? Why can’t you talk?”
“Mi–“

A crackling sound was heard in my ears. And the left cheek started to itch. Maybe it was because I was hit harder than I thought, but this feeling didn’t go away for a while.
It’s probably because of my remorse and sorry feelings rather than physical pain.

“Wind… I said it doesn’t bloom…”
“…”
“As promised…”
“…”
“I’m fed up… ?”
“… !”

At the same time as my heart flutters, my vision blurs. I felt a warm feeling on my tingling cheeks, and the tears that flowed down my chin fell between me and my sister like dew.

“Sorry… Sun… I must be crazy…”
“… Erase…”

The sound of sobbing overlapped, and they hugged each other tightly. Then I remembered one thing I forgot.
The fact that we are brother and sister by blood.
Your sister will know too. That I’m not tired of my sister. And who the opponent is.
So I just cry. Because we can’t get married. Because it’s normal for me to like someone other than my older sister.

“Huh, huh…”
“Haaa…”

I cried for a long time.
The first was because I was disappointed in myself, and the second was because I felt really sorry for my older sister.
Finally, the reality is that we don’t know our circumstances. Because it’s so upsetting Wept.
The cold air began to warm up again.

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“Ji-woo has become completely blind…”
“My sister is like that too.”
“Me too? Lol…”

When the crying stopped, we sat on the bed and talked. The faces of each other didn’t look like words, but laughter came out.

“Let’s wash our face.”

As I washed my face full of salt, the emotions that I couldn’t control subsided. It felt so good to feel the calming down on my face.

“How much I missed you. There were many things I wanted to say,”
“What do you mean?”
“There is a place I want to go… I was going to ask you to go on a date.”
“… Wouldn’t it be okay to go now?”
“Right…”
“Sorry.”

We are not special people.
Just an ordinary person born with God’s blessing. Ordinary people, only two out of seven billion people.
That’s why you can’t change it. My brother and sister can’t change the world. I can’t change it to a world where I can live with my sister for the rest of my life.

“I’m hungry.”
“I’m hungry too, so wait a minute. Do some dishes.”
“No!”
“…”

So I decided to admit it. The world is harder than you think. It cannot be changed by will alone like in comics or novels. No matter how much you struggle, you can’t change the fundamentals of human beings. Unless it can be demonstrated that inbreeding has little effect on the genetic alteration.
So I decided.
Let’s finish this game Let’s finish playing hide-and-seek in a world of just the two of us.

Let’s really live in this world.