Chapter 136 – Past (3)

“… So, this time…, What number?”

I tried hard to hold back my anger, but my emotions got the best of me.

Illyana hesitated for a moment at the question I posed, but eventually she answered her question with a short sigh.

“… “This is number 8213.”

Number 8213.

It was the number of times I lived this horrible life.

… This is absurd.

It’s number 8000, a whopping 8000 times.

I got tired of the sheer number of times.

I wanted to know what on earth I had done in the past to be subject to such a ridiculous curse, and how serious the sin was that it was making me suffer so much.

I suppressed the anger that threatened to burst out and spoke carefully to the goddess.

“… “Show me why I was cursed.”

“… Well, that’s…, It’s still early…”

Illyana’s actions of vaguely avoiding her answer eventually caused her anger to burst out.

“Are you kidding me!! What? Early? “I lost my family because of crazy people I don’t know who I am!!”

Gil-gil was furious and urged me to show her the past, and eventually, as if she had no choice, she started showing me the past.

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A small clearing in a dense forest.

A boy had collapsed there.

Probably the ‘first me’.

“… Are you okay?”

And a brown-haired girl of similar age was taking care of me after I fell.

“… Ugh, uh…”

“… “Are you out of your mind?”

“… Eh, Eris… ?”

The boy, who finally came to his senses, called the brown-haired girl who was taking care of him ‘Eris’.

… Huh?

Coincidentally, it was the same name as my now deceased wife.

Having the same name was common, so I didn’t think much of it…

After a while, I was astonished by the shocking content unfolding before my eyes.

It turned out that the girl named Eris was the daughter of a noble family, and her past self ran away with her and ended up in a village.

When Eris and I were young, we didn’t know anything about the world, and there was someone who helped us…

… Huh? That person… ?

The village chief. Ironically, he had the same face as my current teacher.

The village chief took care of me and Eris like his own children and helped us settle in the village. Thanks to the village chief’s help, we were able to quickly integrate into the village.

Eris and me, who grew up spending such peaceful days, naturally became a couple…

… What is this…

The past me attacks the grown up Eris.

“Oh, no, I have to eat dinner…” .”

“Only once! The Morris guy next door brags about his wife like that, and my stomach hurts…”

The face of Eris, who pretended not to resist my past flirtation and touched her body, was very familiar.

… Oh, really… ?

She resembled my wife, Eris, even down to the mole on her pale chest.

Her mind was confused by the sight unfolding before her eyes.

… So, I am me, and Eris is Eris…, Sigh!

Suddenly, she felt like her head was splitting, and unknown information started flowing into her head.

I held my head and stared blankly at the scenes unfolding.

As time passed, Eris and me from the past shed our youthful appearance and became people of similar age to me now.

“So, I helped the hero…”

Eris bursting into laughter at the trivial sagas I tell from the past.

Her appearance resembles that of his wife who lost her life not long ago… No, she was exactly the same person.

… Eris…

The habit of slightly covering the corners of the mouth when smiling, the eyes that draw a pretty curve every time you smile… Even the habit of sticking out her tongue every time she kisses you.

Now that her wife, whom she could no longer see, was in front of her, tears began to flow freely.

“… Eris…, Honey…”

I reached out my hand without thinking, but I was just a spectator watching records of the past.

She couldn’t reach her.

The indifferent goddess did not wait for me to be lost in sadness, and soon moved on to another scene.

Me in the past, similar to what I saw a moment ago.

“… Hero, I have a family…”

“… Ha, just this once…, Just like last time, just once…”

“… “Didn’t I tell you back then that it was a mistake?”

And one of the criminals who killed my wife was clinging to me like a lover.

… Huh?

It was like my brain was broken, and I couldn’t follow the situation unfolding before my eyes.

I was able to understand the situation only after asking the goddess to read her records again.

The Demon King appears and begins to invade humans. After the war broke out, a hero possessed by the ‘Goddess of Fate’ appeared and set out to subdue the devil.

… That warrior was an accomplice in killing my wife.

As the warrior heading to the Demon King’s Castle passed near the village where I was, she fell into a small trap, and my past self helped her.

Through that incident, my past self became acquainted with the hero…

She was having an affair with a warrior without her wife knowing.

… Isn’t this crazy?

In the past, I was not a beast wearing human clothing.

Natural, flowing skinship and sweet words.

The orphaned warrior was not immune to male affection, and naturally fell in love with his past self.

In the past, I told her wife I would earn her money, so I left her house, enjoyed secret relationships with her hero, and used her to extort money from her.

I could not keep my mouth shut at the shocking behavior.

But that didn’t last long either.

The warrior had an important mission, and he had to leave the village soon.

I was hoping to treat myself to some favors with the money I earned from being a hero…

“… “I’ll be back.”

“… Have a safe trip, … I’ll wait…”

I left the village with the warrior.

… Why?

I couldn’t understand my actions in the past, such as wanting to go down a dangerous path.

As it turned out, the warrior who was deeply in love with her had no intention of leaving the village, and in the end, the goddess of fate, who could no longer bear it, gave an oracle to leave quickly.

Although it was God’s command, the warrior who was blinded by love chose love over world peace, and I, who had no choice but to be pushed by God in the past, participated in the subjugation of the devil.

Meanwhile, my past self showed a shameless attitude of sincere concern for my wife and unborn child, and I felt disgusted by his disgusting behavior.

My head was confused, and I started to feel dizzy.

… Do I need to see more of this?

[… Now, it begins.]

The goddess’s words, “Now is the beginning,” Made me afraid.

When I wondered what crime I had committed, it was a piece of trash like no other in the world.

But now it’s just beginning…

I had no time to worry about why my wife was appearing in the past.

All I could do was barely follow the shocking content unfolding before my eyes.

The scene of the past has been changed.

Me from the past who went on a journey with a warrior.

They mixed together all the time, like animals in heat and let loose, to the point where it was difficult not to get pregnant.

And…

“Ah…, I feel good, Hera.”

“… Ugh…, Puha…, Joe, are you okay?”

“… Yes, I think I know how much Hera loves me.”

“… Yes, love…”

Every night, when I fell asleep, my past self was having an affair with the goddess of fate.

…

I no longer have the confidence to look.

As a man, I was so embarrassed.

In the past, my progress was slow because I was in love with the hero, and the Goddess of Fate, who was unable to persuade the hero, changed her target and began to persuade me.

Mysterious purple hair and attractive body.

She showed a slightly youthful appearance that did not fit her name, the goddess of fate.

Deciding that it was worth using, my past self began to approach the goddess in a planned manner, and eventually, after persistent attacks, the goddess fell.

A warrior by day and a goddess by night.

It was an extremely happy situation for a man, but he had a wife and a child.

My teeth began to tremble at the sight of him proudly cheating on his beloved wife.

… Illyana, I’ll see you later, so please stop…

[… Again, this is just the beginning.]

… What?

I was very embarrassed by the goddess’ words.

… It’s still the beginning. What else is there to add here? .

There was more.

The warrior had no talent for magic.

However, just because you don’t have talent doesn’t mean you can’t use magic.

She could use magic as simple as drawing a stream of water, but she used it to mix things up all the time.

In the forest, on a tree, in a carriage, at an inn…, They shuffled around in countless places, and used magic to maintain minimal cleanliness.

I looked at their actions in admiration at the amazing way they used magic.

Meanwhile, the hero secretly threw away the amulet gifted by Eris under the pretext of cleaning his body.

… Um, that crazy bitch…

What makes me even more angry is that I didn’t even notice that my beloved wife’s gift was gone.

It turned out that it was actually an amulet containing magic that protected the body, but since the magic disappeared, it was no wonder if I lost my life at any time.

However… Is there such a thing as luck, no matter how trashy it is? The night the amulet disappeared…

“… Godhead? What is that?”

“Divinity? It’s similar…”

In the past, I lured Hera and received her godhood.

… Crazy guy.

The body of an ordinary person who cannot even handle magic is filled with godliness.