Chapter 141 – Anxiety (1)

… What is this?

A strangely hazy and unrealistic feeling.

It felt somehow familiar.

Before going to bed, she had something to ask the goddess, so she looked for her, but a completely different person, not even her goddess, appeared before her.

“…”

A young child sitting quietly in a corner of a stylish room.

Her somewhat familiar brown hair was neatly tied up.

The child who was staring at me suddenly got up, approached me, and spoke quietly.

“… Dad.”

… Oh, Dad?

I was extremely embarrassed by my child’s name.

“… “Dad, why are you always like that?”

“… Ugh, huh?”

I couldn’t figure out what the child was talking about, so I looked a little puzzled.

The child ignored me and continued speaking with her arms crossed.

“… That’s why my mom is so obsessed. “Dad, do you know how much I get treated by Mom?”

“… I’m sorry…”

I felt somewhat sorry for the child who was looking at me with a truly disapproving expression, so I gently offered an apology.

… Are all kids like this these days?

He clearly looked like he was in the lower grades of elementary school, but his familiar folded arms and clear speaking habits made him seem very mature for his age.

“… If you’re sorry, don’t be nice to the other kids today. Just worry about your beloved daughter.”

“… Uh…, Okay…”

She ended up answering the child’s words, but she realized later that there was something strange.

Another kid? No, mom?

… Wife?

Incomprehensible things came to her all at once and her mind became jumbled.

“… Dad. Today, I get scolded if I kiss other kids. Got it?”

The brown-haired child who had been preaching to me for a long time to take care of herself finally seemed to be satisfied, uncrossed her arms and offered me her hand as if she were being generous.

I gently grabbed her hand, and her child dragged me out of her room.

She came out of the room and looked around, finding that the interior was very clean and sophisticated. It probably seemed like a house.

At the time I was talking to my child, I had already vaguely realized that this was a dream.

However, this was my first time in my life to have such a vivid dream, and it gave off a strong, strangely unrealistic feeling, as if I was looking at a record of the past.

As I walked slowly at the child’s pace, I was able to leisurely look around her house and find out that the house extends to the second floor and basement.

The child led me out of the house without saying a word, and it turned out that this house was a luxurious house with a yard.

I exclaimed inwardly and followed the child to the back of the house, and there…

“Hey! Won’t you let go?!”

“Let go first!!”

Two children were fighting, pulling their hair.

… Huh?

A black-haired child with a somewhat familiar face was grabbing the child’s hair from the ground and pounding it on the lawn.

The white-haired child on the floor was pulling and biting the hair of the child on top.

It looked too rough to be considered a children’s fight.

… It’s a mess.

The moment I was about to step forward, wondering if I needed to stop the fight, the brown-haired child who was holding my hand pulled me gently.

For some reason, it felt like it meant to stay still.

At that time, the two children noticed that we had appeared and rushed at me, throwing each other away at the same time…

“Daddy!!!”

Both children were calling me dad.

… Huh?

The two children clung to me without even looking at the brown-haired child standing next to me and began pouring out their own words.

“Dad! “He keeps making fun of me because I can’t sing!”

“Dad!!! “He always makes fun of me because I can’t study!!!”

I couldn’t concentrate on what the children were saying because there was so much noise coming from both sides.

Three daughters? No, are you a patriot?

The brown-haired child let go of my hand and disappeared somewhere, and I had to be caught between the children and wrestled for a while.

“… “Don’t pull my dad.”

“Why, it’s your dad, it’s my dad!!!”

… Yours? Us?

I became more confused by the children talking to each other as if they were strangers.

At that time.

“… Guys, stop.”

A familiar female voice was heard from behind.

We paused momentarily at the low voice and turned around at the same time…

… Huh?

As if I had been hit with a hammer, I was in great shock and began to doubt my eyes.

Centered around Lee Ji-yeon, who appeared holding the hand of a brown-haired child, Hyeon Hayeon and Baek Ga-eun appeared, looking more mature.

At the same time, the children ran out and shouted at me, leaving me dumbfounded.

“Mom!!”

The white-haired child is to Baek Ga-eun.

The black-haired child is Hyeon Ha-yeon.

The children in their mother’s arms told exactly what had happened, and Baek Ga-eun and Hyeon Ha-yeon, who realized the situation, began pouring out verbal abuse at each other.

“■■ Ah, □□ looks like their mother…”

“… ■■ It’s because my mom is a bit stupid. “Don’t worry too much.”

I was mesmerized by the sight of the two women calming their child while naturally spewing out abusive language, regardless of whether each other heard it or not.

But…, Their closeness to each other was evident in their appearance.

It was not a bloody conversation between a hero and a demon king that I had seen once, but a conversation so sharp that it felt familiar.

Leaving Hyeon Ha-yeon and Baek Ga-eun behind, Lee Ji-yeon sneakily approached me and spoke to me.

“… Should we leave them behind and go eat by ourselves? “It’s all set up.”

I was once again surprised when I saw Lee Ji-yeon speaking with a slight smile.

It’s as if Baek Ga-eun and Hyeon Ha-yeon’s argument is familiar.

I couldn’t feel the venom that she had always harbored at all, and instead, her face was dripping with happiness.

…

I followed Jiyeon Lee’s lead, and before I knew it, we were sitting at a table in the corner of the yard, sharing a meal.

Three children and three women sitting side by side with me sitting in the middle.

Hyeon Hayeon was telling a story to her children with a bright face, and Baek Ga-eun was distributing food to the other two women.

Everyone looked happy.

At that time, Jiyeon Lee, who was watching her children, turned her head and looked at me.

We naturally made eye contact, and she smiled brightly at me.

During my school days, when I went on my first date with Jiyeon Lee.

When I first had a relationship with her.

When she started dating her officially.

A time when we hugged each other and dreamed of a happy future in a small single room.

One day, when we went to Hawaii alone.

The happy face she had seen every time, she had now.

And…, Seeing her like that, I was able to realize her reality once again.

… This is a dream.

That this is a dream that cannot come true.

*

The mind that had been sinking deeply, as if submerged in water, gradually rose to the surface.

When I naturally opened my eyes, the familiar ceiling of the master bedroom caught my eye.

It felt like I had a vivid dream a little while ago, but the moment I woke up, the memory faded.

The last thing I remember is Lee Ji-yeon drawing a happy smile.

I couldn’t remember anything else.

…

Lee Ji-yeon’s happiness. The only memory that came to her mind clung tightly to her heart, and it felt like it was clearing up her complicated mind.

… Yes, Jiyeon’s happiness.

It occurred to me that the hundreds of assumptions and thousands of hesitations that came to mind last night were useless in the face of Jiyeon Lee’s happiness.

What I am about to do today may be inhumane and may not be what a man or a man should do.

No…, This is something you should never do.

However, I have a reason to do it.

She slowly turned her head and looked at Lee Ji-yeon, who was sleeping soundly.

… You must do it.

I have to correct the mistakes I made.

I got up from the bed with a sense of duty.

I left the room and entered the bathroom, once again organizing the information I had put into my head last night.

No one knows Baek Ga-eun’s physical condition yet.

It means that you may or may not be pregnant.

Therefore, I decided to act on the assumption that I was not pregnant.

Considering the date when her relationship with Baek Ga-eun began, it is quite possible that the two faint lines appeared because it was very early or because she had a natural miscarriage.

It is said that even if you go to the hospital in this condition, you will not get accurate results, so you will have to spend 1–2 weeks drying your blood.

This is the last opportunity given to me.

Aim for a natural miscarriage by giving them natural abortion inducing agents sold overseas or forming as many relationships as possible.

… It really looks like garbage.

Are there any other disgusting men like this in the world?

Even though I thought it was against humanity, it couldn’t be helped.

My life, my life, is at stake right now…

“… Ha…”

He let out a deep sigh, but was buried by the water falling on his head and was sucked into the sewer.

… Let’s do it.

I once again made a resolute promise and turned on the water forcefully.

On one side of my mind, which was covered with all kinds of excuses and rationalizations, something unknown and heavy was gradually growing in size.

It was so heavy that I almost lost strength in my legs, but I desperately held on, deceiving myself by saying there was nothing I could do.