Chapter 142 – Anxiety (2)

I carefully opened the door, and there he was standing.

“… “You came.”

I relaxed my neck and said hello, and instead of returning the greeting, he handed me something he was hiding behind his back.

It was a bouquet made of red roses.

I already knew that he bought it in a hurry at a nearby flower shop before he arrived home, but when I actually received it, I didn’t feel too bad.

Isn’t it important that my brother gave it to me as a gift?

Thinking like that, my heart suddenly became warm and a sincere smile slipped out.

“… Thank you.”

I took the bouquet of flowers and led my brother into the living room.

While I sat my brother down in the living room and went to the kitchen to prepare something to drink. My brother, who was supposed to be in the living room, suddenly appeared in the kitchen.

He glanced at the tray I was holding, then strode over and took my tray away.

“… I will do it.”

Seeing him like that, I smiled faintly and slowly followed him.

We sat down on the sofa in the living room.

“… Ga-eun.”

My brother seemed to be quite sweet, so he started talking right away.

“… Yes.”

“… Came too late…, I’m really sorry.”

My brother apologized with a truly sorry expression on his face, and I forgave him, saying it was okay.

After accepting the apology, a subtle silence fell in the living room.

My brother seemed like he wanted to say something, so I waited quietly, and after hesitating for a while, he quietly spoke.

“… Ga-eun, this time…, It happened like this…”

… What are you trying to say?

Since I was such a person who didn’t know where I would end up, I couldn’t guess how I would end up.

As I watched quietly, my brother continued his speech while gently holding my hand.

“… I’m so glad.”

“… Yes?”

… Fortunately?

Surprised by the unexpected words, I reflexively asked back, and he quickly added.

As I remained silent, my brother continued talking.

“Actually…, I was surprised too. “I suddenly stopped getting my period.”

It was the truth.

My brother didn’t show his habit of showing it when he said something he didn’t mean.

“… First, I was very happy that our Ga-eun depended on me.”

…

“… Still… “When I actually thought about it, it wasn’t that bad.”

…

“The person I love has my child…” .”

Lie.

There was no sincerity in his words.

Hands that are hot due to increased body temperature and strangely rough breathing.

It seemed like I was very nervous, trying to make up something I didn’t even mean to say.

As he continued speaking, his older brother slowly stretched out his hand and carefully placed his hand on his lower abdomen.

“… “I’m so glad that Ga-eun got pregnant before Ji-yeon Lee.”

He must have been smart in his own way, but for something he made up to deceive me, it was sweeter than I expected.

But…, The meaning contained in it was not pleasant.

Even though I expected him not to be happy about the news of my pregnancy, when I actually met him in person, I felt more upset than I expected.

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“… So, I don’t think I’m going to the hospital right away.”

My brother gently massages my shoulders and speaks softly.

I was a little surprised by my brother’s secretly revealed feelings.

My brother must have come up with a plan of his own, and he started making excuses to persuade me.

In a situation where it is not clear whether you are pregnant or not, if you visit the hospital for no reason, this may become known to the outside world.

The idea was to start filming next week, and to move cautiously since we had to film for a long time.

At this point, I began to understand what my brother was hoping for.

Out of a sense of relief, I secretly wished my brother some luck.

“… “Oppa, will it take long to film the movie?”

He seemed to think for a moment, then spoke carefully.

“… “You have to think about half a year to spare.”

A generous half year.

Without knowing anything, my brother took the bait.

… It’s hard to pretend not to know when you show it off like this…

People tend to unconsciously speak to their advantage in the direction they want.

The movie I’m going to shoot is not a very large-scale movie, nor is it a difficult movie to shoot.

Even with the filming schedule delayed, it took half a year…

My brother was strongly insisting that he did not want to become a father, even without realizing it.

… It’s cute.

My brother’s mischievous behavior turned out to be cuter than I thought.

Isn’t it like a spoiled child, desperately trying to turn your head and boil me in any way possible?

Anyway, I seriously have no intention of having children.

It’s not enough for me to have my brother’s love all to myself, and I don’t have any love to share with my child.

Still…, If my brother really wants to get pregnant, he is willing to give birth at least once.

… Raising it is a separate matter.

I was wasting time pretending to be worried, and at just the right time, I spoke to my brother.

“… Brother, then first…, Let’s wait two weeks… ?”

“… “2 weeks?”

“… Yes, there isn’t much footage at the beginning of filming.”

I gently leaned my head on my brother’s shoulder and whispered carefully.

“… Me, my brother…, I want to give birth.”

I felt my brother’s body flinch.

… Once here.

I continued speaking slowly, taking the time to make the lingering impression longer.

“… Still, it’s a little scary.”

“… “Which one?”

I felt like my brother was desperately trying to ignore anything.

“… I promised to stand on stage as the main character someday…, I was wondering if I would come down without accomplishing anything…”

… Since I said this much, you must have understood.

I threw the bait to my brother once again.

I will create a way out for my brother…

And bait to tie the leash even more tightly.

She expressed her intention to have children, but not right now.

My brother gently stroked my head while I was leaning on him and spoke carefully.

“… It’s okay, I’m here.”

“… Brother…”

… I asked.

I immediately hugged my brother and snuggled into his arms.

After naturally covering my face, I squeezed out my tears and whispered in a wet voice.

“… I’m confused. Brother…”

My brother just embraced me without saying a word.

“… Uh, what should I do… I just don’t know…”

As I burst into tears, my brother started patting my back.

The corners of my mouth trembled without my knowledge at the gentle touch of my brother.

I shed sad tears and buried my face in my brother’s arms, and he just patted me and comforted me.

“… What if I’m really pregnant? … Oh, the baby… Hmm…”

If you don’t say anything after going this far, you probably have different thoughts than I expected.

Probably not.

After shedding tears for a long time, I slowly stopped crying and started sobbing.

Perhaps because he had been waiting for this moment, my brother who had been comforting me slowly began to open his mouth.

“… Ga-eun,”

“… Huh…”

I deliberately spoke briefly to stimulate my brother’s heart.

“… Actually. … No, no, Ga-eun…, I’m sorry brother…”

… Look at this?

My brother tried to say something but hesitated.

I thought he would suggest something right away, but it was very intentional to give me a choice by gently measuring it.

After making a sniffling sound, I slowly raised my head and looked up at my brother.

I had no intention of accepting the choice my brother gave me.

Since it was my brother who made her pregnant, it is also his responsibility to wean her off.

As I stared at him and gently applied pressure, my brother, who had been hesitating for a while shifting his gaze here and there, began to quietly speak while looking into my eyes as if he was reluctantly speaking.

“… Don’t misunderstand, listen… Well, I didn’t know, but nature…, There is a drug that induces miscarriage…, They said…”

“… Now, natural miscarriage?”

The moment I heard my brother’s words, the plans he had made began to appear in my mind.

It was unclear now, so I was certain that I had to go to the hospital at the 4th week, and I was sure because they talked about natural abortion inducing agents.

It was the worst idea for a man.

“… No, pretend you didn’t hear it. “I don’t think this is right.”

After telling me everything, my brother tried to explain it away by saying it wasn’t the right time.

Perhaps he was trying to show that he had no intention of doing so.

When I pretended to be deeply worried about something, my brother grabbed my body, pulled me in, and started talking to me.

“… Forget this, okay? “I’m sorry.”

He lifted me up and sat me down on his legs, grabbed my face, forced eye contact, and whispered sweetly to me.

“… No matter where our Gaeun is, she will always be the main character to me. … So, I hope you don’t overthink it. … Okay?”

I didn’t like my brother’s attitude of shamelessly telling lies.

But…

I felt like I could listen to a lie like this all day long.

“… Brother…”

My heart was pounding, and there was a faint heat in my gaze, and it seemed like my brother could sense my feelings.

My brother gently closed his eyes and slowly pressed his lips in, and I slowly stuck out my tongue and accepted his kiss.

“… Side, please…, Chureup…”

His scent lingering at the tip of my nose was suddenly mixed with my scent.

“Tsk…, Tsk…, Hehe…”

At first, he kissed me with affection and love, but gradually he began to mix his tongue deeply as if to excite me.

I gently embraced his tongue and gently hugged his body.

Since we were sitting facing each other, it was nice to have our bodies close together, and when he took his hand away from his face, he wrapped his arms around me and started kissing me fiercely.

My brother’s hands caressed various parts of my body, trying to excite me.

It was a signal that he wanted to build a relationship.

There is no way that someone who has even searched for natural miscarriage would not know that it is not a good idea to have sex in the early stages of pregnancy.

Perhaps this was an intentional action.

If I’m really worried about my child, I can quietly shake it off.

But.

I thought it would be important for a good wife to respect her husband’s wishes.

Because all of these things will add up and become the key to making you my man.

I, who had been reacting passively up until now, began to quietly stroke my brother’s body, and he seemed to be pleased with my touch, so he started caressing me even harder.

His reaction was so endearing that I thought that if he continued like this, he might become a spoiled brat.

He gently parted his lips and gently bit my ear before whispering softly.

“… “I love you.”

Her brother’s false confession of love rang in her head, and the bubbles of pleasure that had formed suddenly began to burst and flood her brain.

Beneath my floating heart, a desire arose to wonder how good it would have been if this confession of love had been real.

I suppressed the greed that had suddenly bloomed and desperately tried to control my mind.

… Let’s be patient.

Anyway, I’ll be the only one seeing it soon, so I can’t mess things up.

I followed him and lightly kissed his ear and whispered softly.

“… Me too…, I love you…”