Chapter 213 – Episode 213 VS Shin Seo-Ah (5)

Shin Seo-ah, staring at Kim Si-woo, recalled her own past.

She liked flashy things since she was young.
She especially liked being the main character and being loved by everyone under the colorful lights.

She was the kind of woman who couldn’t do anything if she didn’t attract attention.

She was like that at school too.
If she felt like she wasn’t going to be the main character, she didn’t hesitate to show her hurt to the kid who got the special attention at school.
As long as she can become the main character, she doesn’t mind if the place becomes a ruin.
That was her life motto.

Since when did it start?

She did not hesitate to destroy others in order to become the main character.

It’s probably because of an unfavorable family environment.

She didn’t want to use that as an excuse.

Because she was complete because she had such a life.

The only thing she was dissatisfied with was.

The point was that she, an ordinary person, could not become the main character in this world full of awakened people.

She realized that after she entered the school that only ordinary people attended.

That woman didn’t work no matter what she did.
She played on top of her head, as if she knew all her tricks.
That’s when I realized.

Even if she becomes a main character among ordinary people, she has no value.

In order for her to become the main character, she needed to be stronger than anyone else.
A higher honor than anyone else.

It must have been from then on.

I began to explore the existence of the Watcher.

When she turned 18.

The Watcher descended before her.

She said it gave her strength.
He also said he would use her instead.

It doesn’t matter.

If only she could be the main character.

It was from then on.

She began to strengthen her position by trampling others.
In the process of becoming stronger, he founded a new religion called Salvation Church and received many members.

Among them, she was the main character.

I liked that.

‘I have to go higher.’

Then she met the shadow mask.

He was a very easy person to use.

The less friendly you are with other people and the more hostile you are, the more likely you are to take advantage of them if you break down the wall. …

It was because of the charm that the man had.

The unknown charm that comes from the part covered by the mask.

‘Attractiveness… ? ‘I was attracted to the Shadow Mask?’

No.

Obviously, she wanted to use him…

She wanted to see inside the shadow mask.

What kind of face does he have?

What kind of expression will you make?

What kind of person is this?

What kind of past is it hiding?

Do you have a painful past like hers? …

‘No! I didn’t think of that…’

No.

That’s what she thought.

I feel dizzy.

‘Obviously I…’

So she approached him.
Because she wanted to have a deep relationship with him.

They became the lovers of her dreams, but a part of her heart was heavy.

Every time I saw him, my heart throbbed.
Because I have to use him someday.

She had a great task that Odin had told her to do, and she had no choice.

The moment she saw Kim Si-woo under the shadow mask while fawning over him, Shin Seo-ah realized.
I really like this guy…

‘No! I’m not like that! My love is only for Odin…’

I hear a voice in my head.

A voice that denies one’s past.

But she knew.

That voice was also an excuse to hide her own shameful feelings.

Cause and love.

She had to choose one or the other.

With tears in her eyes, she chose Odin and left Siu.

It was sad to see his despairing life, but in the end she turned away.

If there comes a time when I can achieve everything and confess to him again…

Shin Seo Ah opened her eyes.

In front of her was Kim Si-woo, who had taken off his mask.

His face was hot.
We were clearly spewing hateful words at each other just a moment ago.

‘Why am I like that?’

I like it like this.

But is that really the case?

Me… Me…

“Shin Seo-ah, how are you feeling?”

“What, what?”

Now I can’t even hear Odin’s voice.

Now that she is free from all the shackles of her cause, can’t she now be honest about her own feelings?

“What comes to your mind first?”

“That…”

She reacted to each and every voice of Kim Si-woo.

I was reacting so sensitively to his voice and hand gestures that I couldn’t even remember what kind of expression I used to have.

Why am I like this?

It definitely wasn’t like this before.

‘I told you so. She said she liked Kim Si-woo. I always had a hard time hiding my true feelings.’

That’s why I called him here.

But, but…

“I can’t speak.”

“I see. It was caught correctly.”

I don’t know what you mean when you say it was caught correctly.

But I knew one thing for sure.

Now she likes Kim Si-woo.

I finally realized that.

“Hey, it’s Siwoo.”

“What is it?”

“That’s it… This is what happened, but we can’t start over…”

“Why me?”

But what came back was cold rejection.

***

I thought about it many times.

How can Shin Seo-ah feel endless despair and suffer?

So what I chose was inner pain.

What made people suffer the most was emotional pain rather than physical pain.

It was only natural that if the mind collapsed, the body would also collapse.

So I tried to manipulate her memory through hypnosis.

Made the lies she told me true.

The lie that he liked me, that he had a crush on me, and that he was waiting for us to get back together someday.

Shin Seo-ah went into a coma due to my hypnosis.

What am I seeing in the dream created by my hypnosis?

“Wow, we liked it.”

She muttered, her body shaking.
There was even a sense of desperation in her voice as she shouted in disbelief.

“Go, don’t go. Me, don’t leave me. If you leave too…”

Did he at least confess to me?

Well, if that were the case, I would never have accepted it.

What she was seeing now was not a bad dream, but a kind of hypnosis video that I had intentionally created through hypnosis.

“What kind of magic did you do?”

Seonhwa Chae approached me and asked.

A natural wizard, she began to show interest in the magic I called.

“It’s like pseudo-hypnosis. I put her consciousness to sleep and let her consciousness wander within the framework I created. “It’s closer to a skill than magic.”

“So now she’s still wandering in the dream you created?”

“Okay. “It will be more painful than anyone else.”

I have planned every despairing situation she could have.

Starting with falling in love with me, we will see a future in which all of her plans have failed, and a scene where she changes positions with the people she has committed.

“It means inflicting more pain than simply killing.”

“That’s right.”

“You’re terrible.”

“Because I suffered that much.”

“It was unexpected.”

I looked at her when Chae Seon-hwa said that she was unexpected.

“What?”

“Everyone thought the teacher was going to kill this woman.”

Now, they knew that the shadow mask was me and the relationship between me and Shin Seo-ah.

“Really?”

“Yes. I thought she would be killed in as painful a way as possible…”

“That’s right.”

“Yes?”

“I will kill you in as painful a way as possible. But I don’t want blood on my hands because of this woman.”

“…”

If she dies in the dungeon like she did, no one will know.
I didn’t want to dirty my hands with the blood of a dirty woman.

That was the difference between her and me.

“There’s no need to be the same person, right?”

They nodded their heads at those words.

“That is correct.”

“Huh! Oh, no. Don’t do it… Ahhh…”

In the meantime, Shin Seo-ah’s body was shaking, and she was in pain on the other side of her consciousness.

“So what are you going to do when she wakes up?”

“… It’s simple. “I will make you confess yourself.”

“She’s the evil woman who deceived even Daesung?”

“Okay.”

It will force her to abandon her title as the hero of River Gate.

“Is it possible?”

“Maybe.”

If the hypnosis I applied worked properly, it would be possible.

“When will she wake up?”

“It will take a week.”

“Ah.”

And then.

“Are you okay?”

Another team, including Geomseong, came in through the door.

“It looks like it’s all over.”

“What is this…?” …”

They frowned as they looked at the miserable corpses on the battlefield.

“Really Shinseo…”

“I can’t believe that someone like that is a hero…” …”

“Huh…”

The faces of those who entered were filled with astonishment and despair.

Soon it won’t be just their story.

“It’s all over, let’s go back.”

I carried her unconscious Shin Seo-ah back as if I were carrying her.

***

Shin Seo-ah lived countless experiences and countless lives in her consciousness.

Even though she lived a countless variety of lives, one thing remained the same.

A being named Kim Si-woo.

And that she loves him.

In the course of hundreds of reincarnations and decades of life, Shin Seo-ah confessed to Kim Si-woo countless times, and she was rejected countless times.

There was never a single thing that followed that.

There was always a cruel rejection, and she despaired.

Her life became impoverished after that.

Her love for him, engraved in her hypnosis, was absolute, so not being able to connect with him was like falling into despair and hell.

‘It was engraved through hypnosis, so I like Siwoo. He and I are destined to love. Otherwise, there’s no way I could have loved the same person hundreds of times like this…’

However, the fact that her love could not be realized only made her suffer.

In the pain of heartbreak, when all emotions have become dull, and you can no longer feel anything.

Shin Seo-ah opened her eyes.

“Are you awake?”

It was Kim Si-woo.

“Uh, huh? Why are you here…”

She must have cried out in despair at her heartbreak, having just been rejected by him.
Where is this place and why is Kim Si-woo peeling her apples in front of her?

Shin Seo-ah looked at her own situation in hindsight.
She is in a hospital room and herself wearing a patient gown.
Kim Si-woo peeling apples there.

‘It’s back to that time.’

This is the first life of Kim Si-woo and her relationship.

She wandered through what seemed like decades.

Why?

Even though it had been such a long time since I returned, I felt the memories and emotions from that time so clearly.

“Siwoo…”

Tears flowed from the overwhelming emotions.

“I-I’m sorry. I did it all wrong. I will do well. What a crazy year it was. To abandon you and do something like that… I liked you so much…”

After coming to her senses, she poured out her words in rapid fire.
However, Kim Si-woo just calmly apologized to her.

“W-please say something. I’m really scared. Furthermore, I no longer believe in Odin or anything like that. Furthermore, I forgot everything. Furthermore, I will live a good life again. Furthermore, I regret all the sins I committed back then and now I have to go back. “To the time when we dated.”

“Is that all you have to say?”

“I really like you. Therefore…”

“You know it’s already over.”

“You know. But…”

Kim Si-woo said, placing a peeled apple on her plate.

“Then confess honestly to people. Then think about it.”

“Really?”

“Okay.”

Her voice was full of joy.

She didn’t even accept it.
Just thinking about it.

Even with those words, which were practically a rejection, Shin Seo-ah reacted so loudly that it seemed like she had accepted the confession.

Just because in her hallucinations, Kim Si-woo, who had always said complete rejection, spoke positive words for the first time.

“Tell me everything about what you did, that you are not the hero of River Gate, and about the Salvationists and the hunters who turned into monsters.”

“Oh, of course! I’ll tell you everything. If only I could receive your love…”

“Then let’s hold a press conference tomorrow.”

“Huh! I will do it.”

After hearing her answer, Kim Si-woo left without any regrets.

Shin Seo-ah received and ate the apple that Kim Si-woo had peeled.

Although the apple was not properly ripe, it was very delicious.

And the next day.

“… “Everything was done by me.”

Confessing her own atrocities in front of her reporters, she had the face of the happiest woman in the world.

Without knowing the future ahead.

‘It’s enough now. It came true. Me and Siwoo…’

All broadcasting stations and newspapers were indignant at Shin Seo-ah’s true appearance and published articles as she showed no remorse after committing the tragedy.

-What is Shin Seo-ah’s true appearance from the hero of River Gate to the worst villain?

-Were all the saint-like heroes we believed in a lie?

***

“Wow! Ha, grandpa…”

Choi Woo-seok glared at his grandfather, Choi Woo-sung, who had stabbed his heart with a sword.

“Why…”

“This is grandfather’s last lesson to his foolish grandson. In the next life, it would be better to let go of excessive greed that is not suitable for you.”

Chairman Choi Woo-sung looked down at his grandson who collapsed like that with cold eyes.

“There is still a way. There is a way to gain eternal life through Odin’s grace…”