Chapter 197 – Burning Down

Episode 197 – Burning down

This situation is all too familiar.

‘Why?’

Trying desperately to forget her Alyssa, her reality keeps forcing her to remember her.

It feels like her head is going to explode.

As I held her forehead, Deborah leaned closer and spoke to me.

“Now… You understand, right? Why do I… “Do you know Alyssa’s heart?”

“…”

Because we have the same heart.

Because she loved the same person, Deborah was able to know Alyssa’s true intentions.

The sharp thorns surrounding her rose there were no obstacles to her.

So I didn’t understand it any more.

‘Why are you telling me that?’

If you really love me, in the end, Alyssa is no different from your lover.

She was such a kind woman that she was so stupid that she went to the extent of revealing her feelings to save her rival from being eliminated.

So she can’t accept it even more.

Her heart was so happy and grateful, but I didn’t want to make the same mistake I made when Alyssa confessed.

I also have to keep my promise to Roxana.

‘This is why I told you to keep your distance.’

Since she is a teacher who has been with Deborah for a long time, she must have seen through Deborah’s heart.

He is truly a priest with a strong sense of friendship.

I smiled bitterly and forcibly took Deborah away.

“Ah, ah!”

Deborah groaned softly and stepped back from that brutal force.

She flinched and stared at me.

The beautifully sparkling purple eyes were filled with anxiety and scared dangerously. Through her previous actions, she predicted the future even though she did not use her foresight.

Before I could even open her mouth to say anything, she quickly hit her head.

“I’m sorry, I…” ” “I don’t like you.”

“… Yes?”

“I don’t have any feelings for you. Therefore… “Look for another man.”

After pouring out harsh words, I turned my back.

I didn’t have the courage or qualifications to face Deborah who was so sad.

The moment you are about to take a step.

“Now, wait a minute!”

Deborah rushed over and grabbed my collar.

She forced a smile and told her joke, perhaps trying to hide her sadness.

“Uh, where are you going? Are you afraid it might be awkward? It’s okay, it’s okay. I’m fine.”

“Is it just because you don’t want to be together?”

“Yes?”

“I feel uncomfortable being with you. “Did you confess without knowing this would happen?”

“Uh? Ahhh… Well, I see. It’s uncomfortable…”

Deborah was taken aback by her sharp retort and rolled her eyes back and forth.

Her eyes were moist, as if she would burst into tears at any moment.

I firmly shook off her collar.

“And don’t grab it carelessly. “Because the clothes stretch.”

“I-I’m sorry. I won’t do that next time.”

“Ah, that’s enough. “I don’t plan on meeting you anymore anyway.”

“Yes? Why, why?”

“What have you heard so far? Are you saying it’s uncomfortable? Do I really have to keep seeing you because of you?”

“Well, that’s…”

Deborah’s expression fell little by little.

She tried not to show it, but her tears were already hanging at the corners of her eyes, ready to fall.

Seeing that makes her heart tingle.

I thought enough was enough, so I turned my back and walked away.

She had just stood in front of the corner.

“Oh, no! “Don’t go!”

Deborah ran towards me, her tears streaming down her face, and she blocked my path.

Her eyes were blurred because she had cried so much in such a short period of time.

She squeezed my chest and sobbed.

“You’re lying, right? It’s a lie. Right?”

“…”

“Why are you saying that? The Luan I know doesn’t say things like that. Luan is kind, cautious, and… I mean, he’s a good person. Ugh!”

Deborah stumbled unsteadily, as if she would collapse at any moment.

Relying on me, I can barely maintain my balance and stand up straight.

That stimulated my protective instinct to the point where I wanted to immediately help her, but instead of comforting Deborah, I shook off her and touched her.

Percussion!

“Ahh!”

Deborah lost her support and fell to her floor.

I acted desperately while trying to calm down my wildly boiling emotions.

“I’m kind? Would a guy like that rape me? You just saw what you wanted to see. Come to your senses.”

“Luan…”

“And from now on, don’t pretend to know anything. Because it’s annoying.”

“Ah…”

Deborah bowed her head with a sigh as she received a cold glare.

Tears fall to the floor.

I walked past Deborah, struggling to keep her steady feet off her feet.

‘This is probably a good thing.’

Anyway, if we continue to be together, we will be harmed at some point. Keeping this distance is good for me and Deborah.

Even though it may be very sad and difficult now, eventually everything will be forgotten as time passes.

I continued to rationalize myself.

But no matter how much I convince myself, the pain in my heart does not go away.

At least I’m fine now.

“Black! Ugh… Haaaaa!”

At the sound of Deborah’s cries coming from afar, the core burned fiercely and turned into a ball of fire, burning my heart.

That intense pain leaves deep scars that will never go away.

“Shit…”

Just like that, I became lonely again.

*

Deep in the morning, I was sleeping soundly when suddenly I opened my eyes.

As I raised my upper body, the lights went out and a human figure was visible across the dark space.

As her figure took a step forward, the moonlight pouring in from her window illuminated her.

Light purple, curly hair, beautiful eyes as deep blue as the deep sea, and decadent yet mature features revealed her identity.

“Roxana?”

Startled, I jumped out of bed.

I never imagined that she would hide in her dormitory.

Roxana asked with a dark expression.

“Luan. “What happened with Deborah?”

“…”

“Please tell me. Ever since I got home, I’ve been confined to my room. Even when I asked, he didn’t answer. “I haven’t touched anything since evening.”

It looks like the shock was severe.

It’s no exaggeration to say that I don’t react at all to my teacher, whom I think is the most precious thing in the world.

The guilt floats around again, and the core in my heart burns fiercely.

I answered bluntly without realizing it.

“I just did what Roxana wanted.”

“As I want? What does that mean?”

“… In the afternoon, Deborah confessed to me. She says she she loves she. So I refused. That’s all.”

“She refused to confess? Is that really the end?”

“Yes. Her words she were a bit harsh. But she wouldn’t have given up if she had n’t.”

Roxana fell into silence.

She stared at me with complicated eyes, wondering what she was thinking, and then sighed.

“Ha… Okay. Thanks for telling me. I am also grateful that she kept her promise.”

“It was just something that had to be done. There is no need to feel too burdened. Well, if we’re done talking now, let’s go. No matter how much time you wait, even Roxana might get caught.”

I secretly stared at the bed on the other side.

There, Kenneth was sleeping in a strange position, scratching his stomach.

She didn’t really shake her fuss, nor did she lower her voice, but seeing as she didn’t wake up, it seemed like Roxana had played her part of her.

At that time, Roxana asked an unexpected question.

“But are you okay?”

“Yes?”

“I know that’s not what I’m going to say. You might think it’s shameless. Still, I want to ask. Are you okay? You… Are you satisfied with this?”

Guilt was evident on her face.

Although she said it was for the sake of her student, it must have pricked her conscience that she ruined the relationship between me and Deborah like this.

I chuckled.

“It’s not okay. I’m sad. In my heart, I want to accept Deborah.”

“Then…”

“But it won’t happen. Because it would be dangerous if you were with me. I really hate the idea of ​​​​​​letting it go because I love it, so what can I do? There is no other way.”

“… I see okay. Then I’ll just leave. Later… See you again.”

Roxana left her promise and disappeared in an instant, engulfed in her deep blue magic.

All that remains is me standing under the pale moonlight.

*

[Thank you all students for your hard work. I hope that next year we will do our best and have an even more rewarding year. I will end my remarks with this.]

─Wow!

Clap clap clap clap!

The school vacation has ended.

The students cheered as the speech ended at a different pace.

Afterwards, freedom came to them.

“Hey! “What are you going to do during vacation?”

“Me? “I was planning to go skiing with my fiancee?”

“Oh really? “I decided to go to the hot springs.”

“Okay? When?”

The students formed into groups and shared various stories.

Among them was my story.

“Do you think you two broke up after all?”

“Huh. “I haven’t seen you talk once today.”

“Aren’t you having an affair without Deborah knowing?”

“Oh, no way. Would she leave Deborah alone and find another woman in her sights? “I guess it was just a fight.”

Deborah and I were known as the representative couple of Class 3, so our reputation was considerable.

So, other people also sensitively caught the changes between us.

‘It’s different from summer vacation.’

At that time, there were rumors of a romantic relationship with Deborah, coinciding with the break-up of the engagement with her with Scadia, but now, the opposite is true and rumors are circulating that she has broken up.

This is a truly ironic fact.

Ignoring all the whispers, I moved to the place where I had planned to meet with Abel and his group.

The group that came first was waiting there.

“Hey, Luan. “This way.”

Yas, who had already changed into the traditional clothing of a desert tribe, waved his hand.

From what I heard, he said he was going back to his hometown with Serlin this time.

Are you planning to get married right after graduation?

I heard that he was trying to get permission from his father, the tribal chief, in advance, but on the contrary, I was amazed at how Serlin persuaded the Count of Madres.

If she has the same level of qualifications as she does, she should be able to pick up a decent married woman.

Perhaps the Count of Madres would have shed tears of blood over the fact that he had to hand over his daughter, whom he had worked hard to raise, to the Nabulangi of the black desert.

After chatting with Yass for some time, I turned my attention to Abel.

“Abel. “You said you would stay here too, right?”

“Huh. My parents are planning to move to the capital next month. “They said there was no need to come, so I’ll just do some training in the meantime.”

“Okay? “Aren’t you going to uni?”

“Yes. Yuni’s family is also moving to the capital.”

Abel laughed awkwardly.

Even if they are childhood friends, it is too suspicious for families to move to the same place as a group.

However, if all of this is said to be the church’s consideration for Abel, a warrior candidate who was divined by the goddess, it is all understandable.

It’s hard to protect them if they’re far away, so they’re probably trying to use this opportunity to gather everyone.

Abel would never dream that I knew this, so it is natural for her to hide it.

‘My family can feel completely at ease.’

I was always worried that the Dark Church would target Abel’s family, but I’m glad.

As I was sighing in relief, Abel asked again.

“And you, Luan? “What are you going to do during vacation?”

“Me? I am… I guess I’ll just train here. “There is no specific schedule.”

“Okay? Then maybe?”

“Huh? “Tell me.”

“That… “Why don’t you go see Alyssa?”

“What?”

“Let’s visit the Alisan family. “We can’t just leave it like this.”

“…”

I guess this guy still hasn’t given up even after hearing such harsh words from me.

‘Well, this is how a protagonist should be.’

The characteristic of a protagonist is that he or she can do things that others cannot do without any hesitation. I shook my head, admiring his grit and perseverance.

“I’m sorry, but I’m not going.” You guys go by yourselves.”

“Luan…”

“Anyway, since that’s what happened, I’m leaving. “I have to go to training.”

“Ah, Luan!”

After saying hello to my group, I left the auditorium without any regrets.