Chapter 237 – Petunia Titi (1)

I love Hero Wolf.

And now I live with the man who wants to kill Wolf.

Every time I thought about these two contradictory sentences, I felt like I was lost, like a gibberish excuse.

He strengthened the man who was about to kill Wolf, and put an arrow through Mobius’ heart.

And I love Hero Wolf.

“Love you. Wolf”

When no one was around, I called out Wolf’s name and said that. At first, it was a word that I spit out to catch my sincerity.

But when I went to the castle that day and met Wolf, when I saw that ugly beard and face, when I saw those eyes full of lust for me.

Only then did I realize that the expectations I had were nothing more than a meaningless delusion.

Wolf never loved me.

He was just a good colleague, and now he was just trying to treat me as a female elf with a good figure.

What was I expecting?

Did I meet Wolf and try to convince him that my love meant something?

[Go to sleep. Petunia.]

I was obviously special. Because he was an elf. To Wolf, who lives with a human woman in his arms in the human kingdom, elves were truly ‘special’ beings.

From Wolf’s gaze and words, I was able to realize what was special about me. I was a colleague When Wolf called the name of the woman he loved, he was nothing more than a tool to crush his pride to confirm his love, and now he was a weak being who could easily give himself up by relying on old affection.

“Love you. Wolf.”

When I called Wolf’s name, there was a moment when the mere fact of calling his name took my breath away. There was such a passionate period when I was dizzy and intoxicated with the ecstatic atmosphere as if I had jumped into a field of flowers.

“Wolf.”

When I call his name, it was always to confirm my love. Even now, it was to confirm love. Every time I said Wolf’s name, another question flew into my mind.

[Really? I really love you?]

An unanswerable question. When people have nothing to say, they deliberately repeat the same words. Because he knows that the moment he thinks rationally, an unbearable truth will come, he chooses to become a fool himself.

There was nothing else called an elf. All beings with blood flowing in their veins and beating hearts have a cowardly nature that tries to ignore the most painful truth.

“Love you. Wolf.”

What am I saying out loud to prove something? Are you doing this because you don’t want to end something?

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“I love you… ! Master… !”

Love is such an easy feeling for someone. The demons and residents who are holed up in this mansion spit out love too easily.

Thud! Thud! Thud!

Creak! Creak! Creak! Creak!

“Ah! Master! If you do that, you will die! Ah… ! Aaaaagh! Aaaaagh!”

A love in name only, consisting of simple physical relations, evil brainwashing and obedience. Their love was always accompanied by creaking and moaning of the bed. When he had a little break, Evan hugged the woman as if he wasn’t tired from her training.

Some days, hugging the maid and having sex in the kitchen

One day, they had sex while inviting the hostess of the mansion to attend to her bath.

One day he calls Sylvia who was studying her magic and attacks her, and the other day he dragged the succubus queen into bed and had sex all night long.

I didn’t like that kind of Evan. It was because he was a demon who did not know the definition of love. Anyone can speak love and justice with their mouth. I knew all too well that I shouldn’t trust people who tell such sham stories.

“Aaaaa!”

Even today, the woman’s voice, reaching its climax, echoed through the mansion. Every time I heard that groan, I made up my mind not to fall for Evan. My presence in this mansion was only a temporary alliance.

Only Evan and Mrs. Isabelle could stop the evil deeds of the hero Wolf and his relatives and prevent the ruin of this kingdom, so they had no choice but to be here.

“Evan is garbage.”

I said it in a low voice so that no one else could hear it.

Evan is trash Evidence that he was trash was everywhere.

The reason I remained in this mansion was to feed Evan an arrow into his body if he were to fall at the last moment. Until then, all I had to do was join forces and train them.

“It’s garbage. It’s trash.”

I said so and promised again.

I will never fall for Evan.

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“Great job.”

After making that promise, several days passed. Disturbing news came from the capital, but there was no talk that the war situation had changed. The aristocrats were still gathering together with like-minded people and keeping an eye on each other, and the pro-branch nobles seemed to be weighing their forces on where to run away.

The one who killed the hero can become king and open a new era. Now, the capital was an ideal land where the opportunity to become king was open to anyone the moment a hero died.

Even in the provinces, people blinded by the courage of the king steadily came up. There was a story that a local count who was trying to lead a large army to escort Hero Wolf had a conflict with another territory and a war broke out.

War broke out every day, for different reasons.

Even if I didn’t hear much news from the capital, I felt like my blood was drying up with each passing day.

“You worked hard today too.”

And Evan was drinking water today with an expression of no worries. He was taking off his top, and his toned muscles and outstretched limbs were impressive. I looked over his body, and I suddenly felt that Wolf’s poor body was overlapping, and I shook my head.

I don’t know why, but I got annoyed.

“Why are you so fine?”

Even after hearing my question, Evan tilted his head as if he didn’t know what I was talking about. Then he looked at me with a crooked gaze, then rolled his eyes and looked back at Sophia, who was sprawled on the floor. Then, he lay down on the grass, staring at me, and started acting awkwardly.

“Oh my… Sudden muscle pain… ! Ah… !”

“Not that. You know people keep dying out there right now. Why are you so fine? Aren’t you supposed to express something?”

Evan seemed to understand what I was saying. He got up, stared at me, and asked.

“What are you going to do? You want to go out and fight Wolf? Even if the nobles are still keeping each other in check, if we attack, they won’t fight among themselves and will target us first, right?”

That was right. So I, too, didn’t suggest to Evan go up to the capital, even though I was stomping his feet. But I was annoyed by his carefree attitude. If it’s for love and justice, shouldn’t we just stay still like this?

If you think about it logically, it was nonsense. If Evan is here grieving others, training won’t work out. Even if Evan was really sad, he had to work hard, controlling his emotions.

But I was angry.

Strangely, seeing him smiling made me annoyed.

However, it was difficult to logically explain why I was angry. Shaking my head, I spoke cautiously.

“It’s so, bar, bright. Uh? It makes people feel concerned… !”

“See who? Isn’t that a real deception? Who knows if I’m sad here. Petunia. The things that are happening outside right now are, strictly speaking, someone else’s business. It’s just other people’s business.”

“Is it someone else’s business that people die? When did you say love and justice, and after all, those were just empty words?”

I frowned at those words and shouted. Sophia glanced at us, then rolled and ran out of the yard. Elena, who had been sweeping the yard, gently opened her door, let Sophia in, and she cautiously disappeared into her mansion.

Evan got up and sat down in his chair. Then he looked at me with a crooked posture and said.

“What do you want to say? I don’t know why you’re mad at me As you said, people are suffering. That’s right. But the best way to solve this is for us to just rush into the capital right now and fight Wolf for life or death, right?”

“But that’s not realistic.”

“Then what are you angry about? Tell me to manage my expression in front of you? Then it will only make you feel better, will anything change? Do dead people live? Can I train better?”

I could feel Evan’s expression getting very crumpled when he said expression management. I had nothing to say about him.

Because what I was claiming was just nonsense. I just shut his mouth and stared at him. Evan stared at me and said.

“Petunia. We can’t protect everyone.”

And the words, oddly enough, came in even more painfully.

It made my chest throb even more, like a blade pushing through a gap in my armor.

“That, something like that…”

Unexpectedly, tears flowed.

“That means…”

“Oh, what the fuck? Hey! Fuck if you cry there!”

Even when I saw Evan’s flustered face, I couldn’t stop crying. Tears poured out like crazy for no reason.