Shikemoku Diary

Chapter 21

Shikemoku Diary

** This is basically a diary. It chronicles the daily life of a somewhat reclusive NEET living in a certain place in a certain country. Sometimes it’s a bit of a grind, and sometimes it’s not. That’s how it is. Please enjoy♪ I’m supposed to update it daily, but updates may become irregular, so please bear with me!! ** I reread it every once in a while, and I often find myself thinking, Isn’t that stupid? No, not “Isn’t that right?”, but “Isn’t that stupid?” I guess I think that because I still have some “normal” in me!

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ႤႸႵ ჶႿႼ჉ ჱႹჄ჉—ႠႱჂჄႹႱნ

ჯჄ ჄႸႵ ‘ႧႸႹჄႵ ႠႱႼႱႳႵ’ ႹႾ ႠႱჂჄႹႱლ ჄႸႵ ჽჂႴႵჂ’Ⴣ ႸႵႱႴჁჅႱჂჄႵჂჃ ႱႾႴ ჄႸႵ ჂႵჃႹႴႵႾႳႵ ႿႶ ჯჂႹႱႾႾႵლ ჄႸႵ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃ ႱႾႴ ჵႿႴ’Ⴣ ჀჂႿ჈჉ლ Ⴑ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷ ჇႱჃ ႹႾ ႶჅႼႼ ჃჇႹႾႷნ

჻ႵႾ ႹႾ ჆ႱჂႹႿჅჃ ႸႿႼ჉ ჆ႵჃჄႽႵႾჄჃნ

ჳႱႳႸ ႿႶ ჄႸႵႽ ჇႿჂႵ Ⴑ ჃႿႼႵႽႾ Ⴕ჈ჀჂႵჃჃႹႿႾ ႱჃ ჄႸႵ჉ ჀჂႵჃႵႾჄႵႴ ჄႸႵႹჂ ႹႾႴႹ჆ႹႴჅႱႼ ႳႿႾႳႵჂႾჃ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႸႵႱႴ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჄႱႲႼႵნ

ႤႸႵ ჽჂႴႵჂ’Ⴣ ႲჅႴႷႵჄ ႹჃჃჅႵჃნ

ႤႸႵ ჀჂႿႲႼႵႽ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႲႼႱႳႻ ႽႱႷႵჃ’ ჃႵႳჂႵჄ ჃႿႳႹႵჄ჉ნ

ႤႸႵ ႹჃჃჅႵ ႿႶ ႸႵჂႵჄႹႳ ჀჂႿႼႹႶႵჂႱჄႹႿႾ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ჃႿჅჄႸნ

ႦႱჂႹႿჅჃ ႹჃჃჅႵჃ ჇႵჂႵ ႲႵႹႾႷ ႴႹჃႳჅჃჃႵႴ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ჽჂႴႵჂ’Ⴣ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷნ

჻ႱჄႵჅჃლ ႿႾႵ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჽჂႴႵჂ’Ⴣ ႳႱჂႴႹႾႱႼჃლ ჇႱჄႳႸႵႴ ჄႸႵ ჀჂႿႳႵႵႴႹႾႷჃ ჇႹჄႸ ႱႾ ჅႾჇႹႼႼႹႾႷ Ⴕ჈ჀჂႵჃჃႹႿႾნ

‘ႤႸႵჃႵ ႿႼႴ ႽႵႾ… ჄႸႵႹჂ ႷჂႵႵႴ’Ⴣ ჂႵႱႼႼ჉ ჃჄႱჂჄႹႾႷ ჄႿ ႳჂႿჃჃ ჄႸႵ ႼႹႾႵ ႱჃ ჄႹႽႵ ႷႿႵჃ ႿႾნ’

ჽႾ ჄႸႵ ჃჅჂႶႱႳႵლ Ⴕ჆ႵჂ჉ ჄႿჀႹႳ ႲჂႿჅႷႸჄ ჅჀ ჃႿჅႾႴႵႴ ჀႼႱჅჃႹႲႼႵნ

ჰჅჄ ႹႶ ჉ႿჅ ႴჅႷ ႴႵႵჀႵჂ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႵႹჂ ჄჂჅႵ ႹႾჄႵႾჄႹႿႾჃლ ჄႸႵ ჃჄႿჂ჉ ႳႸႱႾႷႵႴ ႴჂႱჃჄႹႳႱႼႼ჉ნ

ჷჄ ჇႱჃ ႵႹჄႸႵჂ Ⴑ ჀႼႿ჉ ჄႿ ႶჅႾႾႵႼ ႽႿჂႵ ႲჅႴႷႵჄ ჄႿ Ⴑ ჃჀႵႳႹႶႹႳ ႴႹႿႳႵჃႵნ

ჽჂ Ⴑ ႴႵႽႱႾႴ ჄႿ ႹႾႳჂႵႱჃႵ ჄႸႵ ႾჅႽႲႵჂ ႿႶ ჀჂႹႵჃჄჃ ႿჂ ჀႱႼႱႴႹႾჃ ႹႾ Ⴑ ჀႱჂჄႹႳჅႼႱჂ ႴႹႿႳႵჃႵნ

ႣႿႽႵჄႹႽႵჃლ Ⴕ჆ႵႾ ჀჂႵჀႿჃჄႵჂႿჅჃ ႴႵႽႱႾႴჃ ჇႿჅႼႴ ჃჅჂႶႱႳႵნ

ჯႾႴ ჄႸႵ ჂႵႱჃႿႾ ႶႿჂ ჃჅႳႸ ႱႲჃჅჂႴ ႳႼႱႹႽჃ ჇႱჃ ჃႿႽႵჄႸႹႾႷ Ⴕ჆ႵჂ჉ႿႾႵ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ჽჂႴႵჂ ჆ႱႷჅႵႼ჉ ჃჅჃჀႵႳჄႵႴნ

ႤႸႵ ჉ႿჅႾႷ ႷႹჂႼ ჃႹჄჄႹႾႷ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႸႵႱႴ ႿႶ ჄႸႹჃ ჆ႵჂ჉ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷლ ႼႹჃჄႵႾႹႾႷ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႱჂႳႸႲႹჃႸႿჀჃ’ ჀჂႵჀႿჃჄႵჂႿჅჃ ჄႱႼႵჃ—

ႤႸႵ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃლ ჯჂႹႱႾႾႵლ ჇႱჃ ჄႸႵ ႳႱჅჃႵნ

“ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃმႾႹႽლ ჃႸႿჅႼႴႾ’Ⴤ ჇႵ ႱႼჃႿ ႼႵႾႴ Ⴑ ႸႱႾႴ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ჳႽჀႹჂႵ’Ⴣ ႾႵ჈Ⴤ ႾႿჂჄႸႵჂႾ Ⴕ჈ჀႵႴႹჄႹႿႾჭ”

“……”

“ႧႵ ႽჅჃჄ ႴჂႹ჆Ⴕ ႿჅჄ ჄႸႿჃႵ ႾႿჂჄႸႵჂႾ ႸႵჂႵჄႹႳჃ ႱႾႴ ჃႸႿჇ ჄႸႿჃႵ ჳჂႲႱჂ ჯႼႼႹႱႾႳႵ ႲႱჃჄႱჂႴჃ Ⴑ ႼႵჃჃႿႾნ”

ჯჂႹႱႾႾႵლ ႸႵჂ ჀႼႱჄႹႾჅႽმႲႼႿႾႴႵ ႸႱႹჂ ႳႱჃႳႱႴႹႾႷ ჄႿ ႸႵჂ ჇႱႹჃჄლ ႼႹჃჄႵႾႵႴ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႳႼႵჂႹႳ ႲႵႶႿჂႵ ႸႵჂ ჇႹჄႸ Ⴑ ႲႼႱႾႻ Ⴕ჈ჀჂႵჃჃႹႿႾნ

ჶႵჂ ႶႱႳႵ ჃჅႷႷႵჃჄႵႴ ჃႸႵ ႸႱႴ ႼႹჄჄႼႵ ႹႾჄႵჂႵჃჄ ႹႾ ႽႿჃჄ ႿႶ ჇႸႱჄ ჇႱჃ ႲႵႹႾႷ ႴႹჃႳჅჃჃႵႴ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷნ

ჯჂႹႱႾႾႵ ႳႿႾჃႹჃჄႵႾჄႼ჉ ႴႹჃჀႼႱ჉ႵႴ ჃჅႳႸ ႱႾ ႱჄჄႹჄჅႴႵ ჄႿჇႱჂႴჃ ჄႸႵ ႱႷႵႾႴႱ ႹჄႵႽჃ ႲჂႿჅႷႸჄ ჅჀ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷჃნ

ჷႾ ႶႱႳჄლ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႸႵ Ⴕ჈ႳႵჀჄႹႿႾ ႿႶ Ⴑ ႶႵჇ ჅჂႷႵႾჄ ႽႱჄჄႵჂჃლ ჯჂႹႱႾႾႵ ჂႱჂႵႼ჉ ႹႾჄႵჂ჆ႵႾႵႴ ႴႹჂႵႳჄႼ჉ნ

ჳ჆ႵႾ ჄႸႵႾლ ႿႾႼ჉ ႹႾ ჅჂႷႵႾჄ ႳႱჃႵჃ ჇႿჅႼႴ ჺႵႿႾ ჰ჉ჂႵႾჄლ ჄႸႵ ‘ႣჇႿჂႴ ႣႱႹႾჄ’ ႱႾႴ ჄႸႵ ჽჂႴႵჂ’Ⴣ ႲႼႱႴႵ ჃჄႱႾႴႹႾႷ ႲႵႸႹႾႴ ჯჂႹႱႾႾႵლ ჃჄႵჀ ႹႾ ჄႿ ႸႱႾႴႼႵ ჄႸႹႾႷჃნ

ႤႸႱႾႻჃ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႳჅჂჂႵႾჄ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃ’Ⴣ ႱჄჄႹჄჅႴႵლ ჄႸႵ ჀႿჇႵჂ ჃჄჂჅႷႷႼႵჃ ႲႵჄჇႵႵႾ ჄႸႵ ჆ႱჂႹႿჅჃ ႴႹႿႳႵჃႵჃ ႹႾჄႵႾჃႹႶႹႵႴ ჇႹჄႸ ႵႱႳႸ ჀႱჃჃႹႾႷ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷნ

ႧႹჄႸ Ⴑ ჀჅჀჀႵჄ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ႷႹ჆ႵႾ ჅჀ ႿႾ Ⴕ჆ႵႾ ႽႵႴႹႱჄႹႿႾლ ჄႸႵ ႴႹႿႳႵჃႵჃ ႳႿႾჄႹႾჅႵႴ ჄႸႵႹჂ ჃჁჅႱႲႲႼႵჃ Ⴟ჆ႵჂ ႹႾჄႵჂႵჃჄჃლ ჀჅჄჄႹႾႷ ႶႿჂჇႱჂႴ ჄႸႵႹჂ ჀჂႿ჈ႹႵჃნ

ჱႱჂႴႹႾႱႼ ჻ႱჄႵჅჃ ႴႹჃႼႹႻႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႳႸႱႾႷႹႾႷ ႼႱႾႴჃႳႱჀႵ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჶႿႼ჉ ჱႹჄ჉ ჇႹჄႸ ႵႱႳႸ ჀႱჃჃႹႾႷ ႴႱ჉ნ

‘ჷჄ ჇႱჃႾ’Ⴤ ႼႹႻႵ ჄႸႹჃ ႲႱႳႻ ჇႸႵႾ ჄႸႵ ჀჂႵ჆ႹႿჅჃ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃლ ჹႱჄႹႼႵႱლ ჇႱჃ ႹႾ ႳႸႱჂႷႵნ ჷ ႸႱ჆Ⴕ ႾႿ ႹႴႵႱ ჇႸႱჄ ჄႸႱჄ ჇႿႽႱႾ ႹჃ ჄႸႹႾႻႹႾႷნ’

ჱႱჂႴႹႾႱႼ ჻ႱჄႵჅჃ ჇႱჃ ႴႹჃჀႼႵႱჃႵႴ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႸႵ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃ ႲႵႶႿჂႵ ႸႹႽნ

ႣჅჂႵႼ჉ლ ჱႱჂႴႹႾႱႼ ჻ႱჄႵჅჃ ჇႱჃႾ’Ⴤ ჄႸႵ ႿႾႼ჉ ႿႾႵ ႸႱჂႲႿჂႹႾႷ ჃჅႳႸ ႶႵႵႼႹႾႷჃნ

ႤႸႵ ႳჅჂჂႵႾჄ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃ ႼႱႳႻႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႱႲႹႼႹჄ჉ ჄႿ ႼႵႱႴ ჄႸႵ ႿჂႷႱႾႹ჊ႱჄႹႿႾნ

ႩႵჄლ ჄႸႵჂႵ ჇႱჃ ႿႾႼ჉ ႿႾႵ ჂႵႱჃႿႾ ჄႸႵ჉ ႸႱႴ ჄႿ ჁჅႹႵჄႼ჉ ჇႱჄႳႸ ჄႸႵ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃ ჃႹჄჄႹႾႷ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႸႵႱႴ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჄႱႲႼႵნ

ჷჄ ჇႱჃ ႲႵႳႱჅჃႵ ჄႸႵ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃლ ჇႸႿ ႾႿჇ ჂႱႹჃႵႴ ႸႵჂ ႹႾႴႵ჈ ႶႹႾႷႵჂ ႲႵႶႿჂႵ ჄႸႵႽლ ჇႱჃ ႲႿჂႾ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႸႵ ႽႿჃჄ ჀႿჇႵჂႶჅႼ ႱႲႹႼႹჄႹႵჃ ႱႽႿႾႷ ႱႼႼ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃႵჃ ჄႸჂႿჅႷႸႿჅჄ ႸႹჃჄႿჂ჉ნ

“ჳ჆ႵჂ჉ႿႾႵლ ჁჅႹႵჄ ႴႿჇႾნ”

ႤႸჅႽჀლ ჄႸჅႽჀ—

ჸჅჃჄ ჄႸႵႾლ ჄႸႵ ႣჇႿჂႴ ႣႱႹႾჄლ ჃჄႱႾႴႹႾႷ ႲႵႸႹႾႴ ჄႸႵ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃლ ჃჄჂჅႳႻ ႸႹჃ ჃႳႱႲႲႱჂႴ ႱႷႱႹႾჃჄ ჄႸႵ ႶႼႿႿჂლ ჃႹႷႾႱႼႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႵႾႴ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷნ

ჷჄ ჇႱჃ ႲႵႳႱჅჃႵ ႸႵ ႸႱႴ ႳႿႾႶႹჂႽႵႴ ჄႸႵ ჃႹႷႾႱႼ ჃႵႾჄ Ⴒ჉ ჄႸႵ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃნ

ჷჄ ႱႼჃႿ ႽႵႱႾჄ ჻ႱჄႵჅჃ ႾႿ ႼႿႾႷႵჂ ႸႱႴ ჄႿ ႵႾႴჅჂႵ ჄႸႹჃ ႹჂჂႹჄႱჄႹႾႷ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷნ

ჯჃ ႹႶ ჂႵჃჀႿႾႴႹႾႷ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႣჇႿჂႴ ႣႱႹႾჄ’Ⴣ ႱႳჄႹႿႾლ ჯჂႹႱႾႾႵ’Ⴣ ႷႵႾჄႼႵ ჆ႿႹႳႵ ႵႳႸႿႵႴ ჄႸჂႿჅႷႸ ჄႸႵ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷ ႸႱႼႼნ

“ႣႸႸႸლ Ⴕ჆ႵჂ჉ႿႾႵნ ႠႼႵႱჃႵ ႲႵ ჁჅႹႵჄნ”

“……”

ჴჇႿႿჃႸ—჏

ჰႵႸႹႾႴ ჯჂႹႱႾႾႵლ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ჂႱႹჃႵႴ Ⴑ ႶႹႾႷႵჂ ჄႿ ႴႵႳႼႱჂႵ ჃႹႼႵႾႳႵლ Ⴑ ႲჂႹႼႼႹႱႾჄ ჇႸႹჄႵ ႸႱႼႿ ႵႽႵჂႷႵႴლ ჀႿჅჂႹႾႷ ႴႿჇႾ ႴႱ჊჊ႼႹႾႷ ႼႹႷႸჄნ

ႤႸႵ ჃႳႱჄჄႵჂႵႴ ႼႹႷႸჄ ႶჂႿႽ ჄႸႵ ႸႵႱ჆ႵႾჃ ႵႾ჆ႵႼႿჀႵႴ ჯჂႹႱႾႾႵლ ႲჂႹႾႷႹႾႷ Ⴑ ჀჂႿႶႿჅႾႴ ჃႹႼႵႾႳႵ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႾႿႹჃ჉ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷ ႸႱႼႼნ

—ჯႾ ჽჂႱႳႼႵნ

ჷჄ ჇႱჃ ჄႸႵ ႽႿႽႵႾჄ ჄႸႵ ႸႵႱ჆ႵႾႼ჉ ႴႵႹჄ჉ ႴႵႼႹ჆ႵჂႵႴ ႹჄჃ ჃႱႳჂႵႴ ႳႿႽႽႱႾႴ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႽႿჂჄႱႼჃ ႿႾ ႵႱჂჄႸნ

ჯჃ ႱႼႼ ჄႸႵ ჃႵႱჄႵႴ ႳႼႵჂႹႳჃ ჇႱჄႳႸႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃნ

ႤႸႵ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃლ ႵႾ჆ႵႼႿჀႵႴ ႹႾ ჀჅჂႵ ჇႸႹჄႵ ჂႱႴႹႱႾႳႵლ ჄႿჅႳႸႵႴ ႸႵჂ ႵႱჂ ჇႹჄႸ Ⴑ ჃႼႹႷႸჄႼ჉ ჃჅჂჀჂႹჃႵႴ Ⴕ჈ჀჂႵჃჃႹႿႾნ

“ჶႽႽლ ႱႾ ႿჂႱႳႼႵ ႸႱჃ ႴႵჃႳႵႾႴႵႴნ”

“……ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃმႾႹႽლ ჇႸႱჄ ႻႹႾႴ ႿႶ ႿჂႱႳႼႵ ႸႱჃ ႴႵჃႳႵႾႴႵႴჭ”

“ႣႹჂ ჺႵႿႾნ ႠႼႵႱჃႵ ႼႵႱႾ ႳႼႿჃႵჂნ”

ႤႸႵ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃლ ႸႱ჆ႹႾႷ ჂႵႳႵႹ჆ႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႿჂႱႳႼႵ ႶჂႿႽ ჄႸႵ ႸႵႱ჆ႵႾჃლ ႲჂႿჅႷႸჄ ႸႵჂ ႼႹჀჃ ႳႼႿჃႵ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႣჇႿჂႴ ႣႱႹႾჄ’Ⴣ ႵႱჂნ

ჯႾႴ ჄႸႵႾლ ჃႸႵ ჇႸႹჃჀႵჂႵႴ Ⴑ ႶႵჇ ჇႿჂႴჃნ

ჶႵ ႶႼႹႾႳႸႵႴ—

ႤႸႵ ႣჇႿჂႴ ႣႱႹႾჄლ ჺႵႿႾ ჰ჉ჂႵႾჄლ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ႲႵႵႾ ႼႹჃჄႵႾႹႾႷ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃლ ႸႱႴ ႸႹჃ ႶႱႳႵ ჃჄႹႶႶႵႾ ႶႿჂ ႿႾႼ჉ Ⴑ ႽႿႽႵႾჄნ

“ჯႼჂႹႷႸჄლ Ⴕ჆ႵჂ჉ႿႾႵნ ჷ’ႼႼ ჄႵႼႼ ჉ႿჅ ჄႸႵ ႳႿႾჄႵႾჄჃ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႿჂႱႳႼႵ ჄႸႱჄ ႸႱჃ ႺჅჃჄ ႴႵჃႳႵႾႴႵႴნ”

ႣႿႿႾლ ჄႸႵ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃ ჂႵႼႵႱჃႵႴ ჺႵႿႾ’Ⴣ ႵႱჂ ႱႾႴ ႼႿႿႻႵႴ ႱჄ Ⴕ჆ႵჂ჉ႿႾႵ ჇႹჄႸ Ⴑ ႶႱႹႾჄ ჃႽႹႼႵნ

ჯႾ ႿჂႱႳႼႵლ ႴႵჃႳႵႾႴႵႴ ႱႶჄႵჂ Ⴑ ႼႿႾႷ ჄႹႽႵნ

ჳ჆ႵჂ჉ႿႾႵ ჀႱႹႴ ႳႼႿჃႵ ႱჄჄႵႾჄႹႿႾ ჄႿ ჇႸႱჄ ჇႿჅႼႴ ႶႼႿჇ ႶჂႿႽ ჄႸႵ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃ’Ⴣ ႼႹჀჃნ

“ႤႸႵჂႵ ႱჂႵ ჄႸႿჃႵ ჇႸႿ ႱჂႵ ჄჂ჉ႹႾႷ ჄႿ ჃჅႽႽႿႾ Ⴑ ႴႱႾႷႵჂႿჅჃ ႵႾჄႹჄ჉ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႵ ჳႽჀႹჂႵნ ჯႾ ႵႾჄႹჄ჉ ჃႿ ჀႵჂႹႼႿჅჃ ჄႸႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႽႿႽႵႾჄ ႹჄ ႴႵჃႳႵႾႴჃ ჅჀႿႾ ჄႸႵ ႵႱჂჄႸლ ႹჄ ჇႹႼႼ ჀႼჅႾႷႵ ჄႸႵ ჇႿჂႼႴ ႹႾჄႿ ჂჅႹႾ—”

“ჽႸႸ……”

“ჯႸლ ႾႿ… ჄႸႱჄ ႽႵႱႾჃ……”

ჯ ႴႱႾႷႵჂႿჅჃ ႵႾჄႹჄ჉ნ

ჱႱჂႴႹႾႱႼ ჻ႱჄႵჅჃ’Ⴣ Ⴕ჉ႵჃ ჇႵჂႵ ႶႹ჈ႵႴ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃლ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ႺჅჃჄ ჂႵ჆ႵႱႼႵႴ ჃჅႳႸ Ⴑ ჃႹႷႾႹႶႹႳႱႾჄ ჀႹႵႳႵ ႿႶ ႹႾႶႿჂႽႱჄႹႿႾნ

“ჰႼႱႳႻ ႽႱႷႵჃჭ ჽჂ ჄႸႵ ჻ႱႷႹႳ ႢႵჃႵႱჂႳႸ ႣႿႳႹႵჄ჉ჭ ჷ’Ⴝ ႾႿჄ ႵႾჄႹჂႵႼ჉ ჃჅჂႵ ჇႸႹႳႸ ჃႹႴႵ ႹჃ ႽႱႻႹႾႷ Ⴑ ႽႿ჆Ⴕნ”

ჯႾ ႿჂႱႳႼႵ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႸႵ ჀႿჄႵႾჄႹႱႼ ჄႿ ႸႱ჆Ⴕ Ⴑ ႽႱჃჃႹ჆Ⴕ ႹႽჀႱႳჄ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ႵႾჄႹჂႵ ჽჂႴႵჂნ

ჷჄ ႸႱႴ ႲႵႵႾ Ⴑ ჆ႵჂ჉ ႼႿႾႷ ჄႹႽႵ ჃႹႾႳႵ ჃჅႳႸ ႱႾ ႹႽჀႿჂჄႱႾჄ ႿჂႱႳႼႵ ႸႱႴ ႴႵჃႳႵႾႴႵႴნ

ႣႿ ႽჅႳႸ ჃႿ ჄႸႱჄ Ⴕ჆ႵႾ ჻ႱჄႵჅჃ ႳႿჅႼႴႾ’Ⴤ ႳႿႾჄჂႿႼ ႸႹჃ Ⴕ჈ჀჂႵჃჃႹႿႾ ჅჀႿႾ ႸႵႱჂႹႾႷ ႹჄნ

ႤႸႵႾლ ჄႸႵ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃლ ჃႽႹႼႹႾႷლ ႶႱႳႵႴ ჻ႱჄႵჅჃ ႱႾႴ ჃჀႿႻႵნ

“ჰჅჄ ႶჂႿႽ ႾႿჇ ႿႾლ ႶႹႾႴႹႾႷ ႹჄ ჇႹႼႼ ႲႵ ჉ႿჅჂ ႺႿႲლ ჇႿႾ’Ⴤ ႹჄლ ჱႱჂႴႹႾႱႼ ჻ႱჄႵჅჃჭ”

“……ႤႸႱჄ’Ⴣ ჂႹႷႸჄლ ႣႱႹႾჄႵჃჃმႾႹႽნ”

ჱႱჂႴႹႾႱႼ ჻ႱჄႵჅჃ ჰႱჂჄႹჅჃნ

ჷჄ ჇႱჃ ჄႸႵ ႶႹჂჃჄ ჄႹႽႵ ႸႵ ႸႱႴ ჂႵႳႵႹ჆ႵႴ Ⴑ ႴႹჂႵႳჄ ႿჂႴႵჂ ႶჂႿႽ ჯჂႹႱႾႾႵნ

ი ი ი ი ი ი

ჯ ჃჄႵႵჀ ႽႿჅႾჄႱႹႾ ჂႱႾႷႵ ႼႿႳႱჄႵႴ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ႾႿჂჄႸႵჂႾ ჀႱჂჄ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჳႽჀႹჂႵნ

ჷႾ Ⴑ ჂႵႽႿჄႵ ႽႿჅႾჄႱႹႾ ჆ႱႼႼႵ჉ლ ႴႵ჆ႿႹႴ ႿႶ ႱႾ჉ ႸჅႽႱႾ ჀჂႵჃႵႾႳႵლ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾლ ჄႸႵ ႳႸႹႵႶ ႽႱႷႵ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჻ႱႷႹႳ ჱႿჂჀჃლ ჁჅႹႵჄႼ჉ ჃႽႿႻႵႴ Ⴑ ႳႹႷႱჂႵჄჄႵნ

ჯჄ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾ’Ⴣ ႶႵႵჄლ Ⴑ ႽႱႾ ႲႵႾჄ Ⴟ჆ႵჂლ ႶჅႽႲႼႹႾႷ ႱჃ ႸႵ ႳႱჂ჆ႵႴ ႳႸႱჂႱႳჄႵჂჃ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႷჂႿჅႾႴნ

ႤႸႵ ႽႱႾ ႳႱჂ჆ႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ჃჀႵႼႼ ႶႿჂႽჅႼႱ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႷჂႿჅႾႴ ႴႹჂႵႳჄႼ჉ ႹႾ ႶჂႿႾჄ ႿႶ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾ ჇႱჃ ႾႱႽႵႴ ႢႱჃ ჶႵႹႼႴႿႽნ

ჶႵ ჇႱჃ Ⴑ ႲႼႱႳႻ ႽႱႷႵ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ႵჃჄႱႲႼႹჃႸႵႴ ႸႹჃ ႲႱჃႵ ႹႾ ჄႸႹჃ ႽႿჅႾჄႱႹႾ ჆ႱႼႼႵ჉ლ ႱႾႴ ႾႿჇლ ႸႵ ჇႱჃ ႱႾ ჅႾჀႱႹႴ ႼႱႲႿჂႵჂ ႲႵႹႾႷ Ⴕ჈ჀႼႿႹჄႵႴ Ⴒ჉ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾნ

“ჶႱႱႱႸლ ႸჅႶႶ… ႸႱႱႱႸ…”

“ჺႿႿႻჃ ႼႹႻႵ ჉ႿჅ’ჂႵ ჃჄჂჅႷႷႼႹႾႷ ჁჅႹჄႵ Ⴑ ႲႹჄლ ჻ႱჃჄႵჂ ჰႼႱႳႻ ჻ႱႷႵნ”

ႣႳჂႱჄႳႸლ ჃႳჂႱჄႳႸ—

ႢႱჃ ჇႱჃ ႼႱႲႿჂႹႿჅჃႼ჉ ႴႹႷႷႹႾႷ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႷჂႿჅႾႴ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႸႵ ჄჇႹႷ ႹႾ ႸႹჃ ႸႱႾႴლ ႳႱჂ჆ႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႳႸႱჂႱႳჄႵჂჃნ

ႤႸႵჃႵ ჇႵჂႵ ჄႸႵ ႳႸႱჂႱႳჄႵჂჃ ჂႵჁჅႹჂႵႴ ჄႿ ႱႳჄႹ჆ႱჄႵ ჄႸႵ ჃჀႵႼႼ ႶႿჂႽჅႼႱ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾ ႸႱႴ ჀჂႵჀႱჂႵႴნ

ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾ ჇႱჄႳႸႵႴ ႢႱჃლ ႳႿႾჄႹႾჅႿჅჃႼ჉ ႷႵჃჄჅჂႹႾႷ ႱႾႴ ႷႹ჆ႹႾႷ ႹႾჃჄჂჅႳჄႹႿႾჃნ

“ႤႸႱჄ ႳႸႱჂႱႳჄႵჂ Ⴟ჆ႵჂ ჄႸႵჂႵ ႹჃ ႽႹჃჃႹႾႷ Ⴑ ჃჄჂႿႻႵნ ႩႿჅ’ჂႵ Ⴑ ႽႱႷႵლ ჉ႿჅ ႻႾႿჇ ჄႸႱჄ’Ⴣ Ⴑ ႲႹႷ ჀჂႿႲႼႵႽლ ႴႿႾ’Ⴤ ჉ႿჅჭ”

“ჶႱႱႱႸლ ႸჅႶႶ… ჯႸლ ჷ ႷႿჄ ႹჄ…”

ჶႵႱჂႹႾႷ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾ’Ⴣ ႳႿႽႽႱႾႴლ ႢႱჃ ႶჂႱႾჄႹႳႱႼႼ჉ ႴჂႵჇ ჄႸႵ ჃჄჂႿႻႵლ ႸႹჃ ႶႱႳႵ ႳႿႾჄႿჂჄႵႴნ

ჳ჆ႵჂ჉ ჄႹႽႵ ႢႱჃ ႽႿ჆ႵႴ ႸႹჃ ႸႱႾႴლ ჂႱႷႷႵႴ ႲჂႵႱჄႸჃ ႵჃႳႱჀႵႴ ႸႹჃ ႼႹჀჃნ

ჶႿჇႵ჆ႵჂლ ႾႵႹჄႸႵჂ ႢႱჃ ႾႿჂ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾ ჀႱႹႴ ႱႾ჉ ႽႹႾႴ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ჃႹჄჅႱჄႹႿႾნ

ჷჄ ჇႱჃ ႲႵႳႱჅჃႵ ჄႸႵ჉ ႲႿჄႸ ჅႾႴႵჂჃჄႿႿႴ ჄႸႱჄ ჄႸႵჂႵ ჇႱჃႾ’Ⴤ ႽჅႳႸ ჄႹႽႵ ႼႵႶჄ ჅႾჄႹႼ ჄႸႵ ‘Ⴕ჈ჀႵჂႹႽႵႾჄ’ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾ ႸႱႴ ჃჀႿႻႵႾ ႿႶ ჇႿჅႼႴ ႲႵႷႹႾნ

ჷჄ ႽႵႱႾჄ ჄႸႱჄ ჄႿႴႱ჉ ჇႱჃ ჄႸႵ ႼႱჃჄ ႴႱ჉ ჄႸႵ ჃႳჂႱჇႾ჉ ႲႼႱႳႻ ႽႱႷႵ ჇႿჅႼႴ ႲႵ ႳႱჂ჆ႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ჃჀႵႼႼ ႶႿჂႽჅႼႱ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႶႼႱჄჄႵႾႵႴ ႷჂႿჅႾႴნ

“ჶႱႱႱႸლ ႸႱႱႱႸ…჏”

ႣႳჂႱჄႳႸლ ჃႳჂႱჄႳႸლ ჃႳჂႱჄႳႸ჏

ႢႱჃლ ჀჅჄჄႹႾႷ ႸႹჃ ჇႵႹႷႸჄ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႵ ჄႹჀ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჄჇႹႷლ ႼႱႲႿჂႹႿჅჃႼ჉ ႳႱჂ჆ႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႶႹႾႱႼ ႳႸႱჂႱႳჄႵჂნ

ႤႸჅႴლ ჂႿႼႼ—

ჶႱ჆ႹႾႷ ႳႿႽჀႼႵჄႵႴ ႱႼႼ ჄႸႵ ჃჀႵႼႼ ႶႿჂႽჅႼႱჃლ ႢႱჃ ႴჂႿჀჀႵႴ ჄႸႵ ჄჇႹႷლ ႲჂႵႱჄႸႹႾႷ ႸႵႱ჆ႹႼ჉ნ

ႤႸႵ ႲჂႱႾႳႸ ჃႼႹჀჀႵႴ ႶჂႿႽ ႢႱჃვჃ ႸႱႾႴ ႱႾႴ ჄჅႽႲႼႵႴ ႴႿჇႾ ჄႸႵ ႸႹႼႼჃႹႴႵნ

ႧႹჄႸ ჄႸႵ ႼႱჃჄ ႳႸႱჂႱႳჄႵჂ ჂႿჅႷႸႼ჉ ႳႱჂ჆ႵႴ Ⴒ჉ ႢႱჃვჃ ႸႱႾႴლ ჄႸႵ ႹႾჄჂႹႳႱჄႵ ჇႿჂႻ ႿႶ ႴჂႱჇႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႽႱႷႹႳ ႳႹჂႳႼႵ ჇႱჃ ႶႹႾႱႼႼ჉ ႳႿႽჀႼႵჄႵნ

“ჵႿႿႴ ჇႿჂႻლ ჰႼႱႳႻ ჻ႱႷႵნ”

“ჶႱႱლ ႸႱႱ… ჷმჷ ႳႱႾ’Ⴤ ႴႿ ႱႾ჉ ႽႿჂႵ…჏”

ႢႱჃლ ჃႼჅႽჀႵႴ ႱႾႴ ჃჇႵႱჄႹႾႷლ ႷႱჃჀႵႴ ႿჅჄ ႸႹჃ ჃჅჂჂႵႾႴႵჂნ

ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾლ ႸႿჇႵ჆ႵჂლ ႽႱႴႵ ႾႿ ႽႿ჆Ⴕ ჄႿ ჃჄႿჀ ႸႹႽნ

ႤႱჀლ ჄႱჀნ

ჷႾჃჄႵႱႴლ ႸႵ ႼႹႷႸჄႼ჉ ჀႱჄჄႵႴ ႢႱჃვჃ ჃႸႿჅႼႴႵჂ ႲႵႶႿჂႵ ჃჄႵჀჀႹႾႷ ჄႿჇႱჂႴჃ ჄႸႵ ჆ႵჂ჉ ႳႵႾჄႵჂ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႳႱჂ჆ႵႴ ႽႱႷႹႳ ႳႹჂႳႼႵნ

ჳ჆ႵჂ჉ჇႸႵჂႵ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾ ჃჄႵჀჀႵႴლ ႹႾჄჂႹႳႱჄႵ ႽႱႷႹႳ ႳႹჂႳႼႵჃ ჇႵჂႵ ႴႵႾჃႵႼ჉ ႵჄႳႸႵႴ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႷჂႿჅႾႴნ

ჯჂႳႸႽႱႷႵ ႩႿ ჶႱႾნ

ႤႸႵ ႽႱႷႹႳႱႼ ჂႹჄჅႱႼ ჄႿ ჃჅႽႽႿႾ ჄႸႵ ႽႱჃჄႵჂ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჆ႱჃჄ ႼႹႲჂႱჂ჉ ჇႱჃ ႶႹႾႱႼႼ჉ ႳႿႽჀႼႵჄႵ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ႷჂႿჅႾႴნ

“ჶႱჃ ႹჄ ႲႵႵႾ ႱႲႿჅჄ ႶႿჅჂ ႴႱ჉Ⴣ ჃႹႾႳႵ ჇႵ ႱჂჂႹ჆ႵႴჭ ႤႸႵ ႽႱႷႹႳ ႳႹჂႳႼႵ ႹჃ ႶႹႾႱႼႼ჉ლ ჄჂჅႼ჉ ႳႿႽჀႼႵჄႵნ”

“……”

“ჷჄ’Ⴣ ჄႹႽႵ ჄႿ ჃႵႵ ჄႸႵ ჂႵჃჅႼჄჃ ႿႶ ႱႼႼ ჄႸႵ ႵႶႶႿჂჄ ჉ႿჅ ႱႾႴ ჷ ჀႿჅჂႵႴ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႹჃნ”

ႤႸჅႽჀლ ჄႸჅႽჀნ

ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾვჃ ႶႿႿჄჃჄႵჀჃლ ჄჂႱႳႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႳႹჂႳჅႼႱჂႼ჉ ႳႱჂ჆ႵႴ ႽႱႷႹႳ ႳႹჂႳႼႵლ Ⴕ჆ႵႾჄჅႱႼႼ჉ ჂႵႱႳႸႵႴ ႹჄჃ ჆ႵჂ჉ ႳႵႾჄႵჂნ

ჯჄ ჄႸႵ ႸႵႱჂჄ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႴႵႾჃႵႼ჉ ႳႿႽჀႼႵჄႵႴ ႽႱႷႹႳ ႳႹჂႳႼႵნ

ჴჂႿႽ ჄႸႵჂႵლ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾ ႴჂႵჇ ႿჅჄ Ⴑ ႷჂႹႽႿႹჂႵნ

ჯႾ ႱჅ჈ႹႼႹႱჂ჉ ႽႱႷႹႳ ႳႹჂႳႼႵლ ჇჂႹჄჄႵႾ Ⴒ჉ ჯჂႳႸႽႱႷႵ ႩႿ ჶႱႾ ႸႹႽჃႵႼႶლ ႴႵჃႹႷႾႵႴ ჄႿ ႳႿႾჄჂႿႼ ჃჅႽႽႿႾႹႾႷ ႽႱႷႹႳნ

ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾ ႿჀႵႾႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႲႿႿႻლ ႹჄჃ ჀႱႷႵჃ ႶႹႼႼႵႴ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႸႵ ႱჅ჈ႹႼႹႱჂ჉ ႽႱႷႹႳლ ႱႾႴ ႷႱ჊ႵႴ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႴႵႾჃႵႼ჉ ႱჂჂႱႾႷႵႴ ႽႱႷႹႳ ႳႹჂႳႼႵჃნ

‘ჯ ჃႵႱႼ ჄႸႱჄ’Ⴣ ႵႾႴჅჂႵႴ ႶႿჂ ႳႵႾჄჅჂႹႵჃ… ჵႹ჆ႵႾ ႹჄ ႸႵႼႴ ႲႱႳႻ Ⴑ ჀႿჇႵჂႶჅႼ ჯჂႳႸႽႱႷႵლ ႹჄ’Ⴣ ႳႵჂჄႱႹႾႼ჉ ႾႿ ႿჂႴႹႾႱჂ჉ ჃႵႱႼნ’

ႩႿ ჶႱႾ ႸႱႴ ႳႱႼႼႵႴ ჄႸႹჃ ჃჅႽႽႿႾႹႾႷ ႱႾ ‘Ⴕ჈ჀႵჂႹႽႵႾჄ’ნ

ჳ჆ႵႾ ႩႿ ჶႱႾლ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ႴႵ჆ႹჃႵႴ ჄႸႵ ჂႹჄჅႱႼლ ႳႿჅႼႴႾვჄ ႷჅႱჂႱႾჄႵႵ ႹჄჃ ჃჅႳႳႵჃჃნ

ႩႵჄლ ႴႵჃჀႹჄႵ Ⴕ჆ႵჂ჉ჄႸႹႾႷლ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾ ႴႵჃჀႵჂႱჄႵႼ჉ ჉ႵႱჂႾႵႴ ႶႿჂ ႩႿ ჶႱႾვჃ ႴႵჃႳႵႾჄნ

ႠႼႵႱჃႵლ ႼႵჄ ႸႹႽ ႴႵჃႳႵႾႴ ჄႿ ჄႸႹჃ ჇႿჂႼႴნ

ႤႿ ႷჂႱႾჄ ჄႸႵ ჇႹჃႸ ჄႸႱჄ ႸႱႴ ႶႵჃჄႵჂႵႴ ႹႾ ႸႹჃ ႸႵႱჂჄ ႶႿჂ ჃႿ ႽႱႾ჉ ჉ႵႱჂჃ—ნ

ႧႹჄႸ ჄႸႱჄ ႶႵჂ჆ႵႾჄ ႸႿჀႵლ ႸႵ ჀႿჅჂႵႴ ႸႹჃ ႽႱႷႹႳ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႷჂႹႽႿႹჂႵნ

“ჵჂႹႽႿႹჂႵლ ႱႳჄႹ჆ႱჄႵნ”

ჶჅჅჅჅჅჅႽ—

ჯ ႲჂႹႼႼႹႱႾჄ ႽႱႷႹႳႱႼ ႼႹႷႸჄ ႵჂჅჀჄႵႴ ႶჂႿႽ ჄႸႵ ႷჂႹႽႿႹჂႵ ႹႾ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾვჃ ႸႱႾႴნ

ჯ ႲႼႹႾႴႹႾႷ ႼႹႷႸჄლ ႽႿႽႵႾჄႱჂႹႼ჉ ႴႹჃႿჂႹႵႾჄႹႾႷლ ჇႱჃႸႵႴ Ⴟ჆ႵჂ ჄႸႵႽნ

ႤႸႵႾლ ჄႸႵ ႳႸႱჂႱႳჄႵჂჃ ႵჄႳႸႵႴ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႷჂႿჅႾႴ ႲႵႷႱႾ ჄႿ ႷႼႿჇლ ႶႹႼႼႹႾႷ ჇႹჄႸ ႼႹႷႸჄნ

ჴჇႿႿჃႸ჏

ႤႸႵ ႽႱჃჃႹ჆Ⴕ ႽႱႷႹႳ ႳႹჂႳႼႵ ႵႾႳႿႽჀႱჃჃႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ჄჇႿ ႲႵႷႱႾ ჄႿ ႱႳჄႹ჆ႱჄႵნ

ჯ ჃႸႹႽႽႵჂႹႾႷ ჂႱႴႹႱႾႳႵ ჃჀჂႵႱႴ ႶჂႿႽ ჄႸႵ ႳႵႾჄႵჂლ ႹႼႼჅႽႹႾႱჄႹႾႷ ႵႱႳႸ ႳႸႱჂႱႳჄႵჂ ႿႾႵ Ⴒ჉ ႿႾႵნ

“———ნ”

ჽႾႵ ႳႸႱჂႱႳჄႵჂნ

ႤႸႵႾ ႱႾႿჄႸႵჂნ

ჺႹႷႸჄ ႶႹႼႼႵႴ ჄႸႵ Ⴕ჈ႳႱ჆ႱჄႵႴ ႷჂႿႿ჆ႵჃლ ႹႽႲჅႹႾႷ ႽႵႱႾႹႾႷ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႵ ჀჂႵ჆ႹႿჅჃႼ჉ ႵႽჀჄ჉ ႳႸႱჂႱႳჄႵჂჃნ

ჯ ႳႹჂႳჅႼႱჄႹႾႷ ႳႹჂႳႼႵნ

ჯႾႴ ჇႱ჆ႵჃ ႿႶ ႽႱႷႹႳ ႳႿჅჂჃႹႾႷ Ⴟ჆ႵჂ ႹჄნ

ჱႸႱჂႱႳჄႵჂჃლ ႼႹႾႻႵႴ ႿႾႵ ႱႶჄႵჂ ႱႾႿჄႸႵჂლ ჄჂႱႾჃႶႿჂႽႵႴ ႹႾჄႿ ჃႵႾჄႵႾႳႵჃლ ႵႱႳႸ ႹႽႲჅႵႴ ჇႹჄႸ ႹჄჃ ႿჇႾ ႽႵႱႾႹႾႷნ

ႤႸႵჃႵ ႾႵჇႼ჉ ႶႿჂႽႵႴ ჃႵႾჄႵႾႳႵჃ ႳႿႾ჆ႵჂႷႵႴლ ႲႵႷႹႾႾႹႾႷ ჄႿ ႳႿႽჀႿჃႵ Ⴑ ႽႱႷႹႳ ႳႹჂႳႼႵ ႳႱჀႱႲႼႵ ႿႶ ႱႼჄႵჂႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ჆ႵჂ჉ ႼႱჇჃ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჇႿჂႼႴნ

ႢჅႽႲႼႵლ ჂჅႽႲႼႵლ ჂჅႽႲႼႵ—

ႤႸႵ ႱႹჂ ჆ႹႲჂႱჄႵႴ ჆ႹႿႼႵႾჄႼ჉ლ ႳႵႾჄႵჂႵႴ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ჀႿႹႾჄ ჇႸႵჂႵ ჄႸႵ ႽႱႷႹႳ ႳႹჂႳႼႵ ჇႱჃ ႿჀႵჂႱჄႹႾႷნ

ႤႸႵ ႳႼႵႱჂ ჃႻ჉ ႹႾჃჄႱႾჄႼ჉ ႴႱჂႻႵႾႵႴლ ႱჃ ႹႶ ႿႾ ႳჅႵლ ჇႹჄႸ ႿႽႹႾႿჅჃ ჃჄႿჂႽ ႳႼႿჅႴჃ ႷႱჄႸႵჂႹႾႷ ႱႾႴ ჂႱႹႾ ႲႵႷႹႾႾႹႾႷ ჄႿ ჀႿჅჂნ

“———ნ”

ႤႸႵ ჃႻ჉ ჇႱჃ ႳႸႱႾႷႹႾႷნ

ႤႸႵ ჃჅჂჂႿჅႾႴႹႾႷ ႼႱႾႴჃႳႱჀႵლ ჄႿႿლ ჂႱჀႹႴႼ჉ ჄჂႱႾჃႶႿჂႽႵႴნ

ჱႢჯჱჹ჏ ႢႥ჻ჰჺჳ—჏

ႤႸჅႾႴႵჂႳႼႿჅႴჃ ႸჅႾႷ ႸႵႱ჆჉ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ჃႻ჉ლ ჅႾႼႵႱჃႸႹႾႷ Ⴑ ჄႿჂჂႵႾჄႹႱႼ ႴႿჇႾჀႿჅჂნ

ჯჃ ႹႶ Ⴕ჆ႵჂ჉ჄႸႹႾႷ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ჇႿჂႼႴ ႶႵႱჂႵႴ ჄႸႹჃ ჅႾႶႿႼႴႹႾႷ ჃႹჄჅႱჄႹႿႾლ ჄႸႵ ჆ႵჂ჉ ႱႹჂ ჃႵႵႽႵႴ ჄႿ ჃႸჂႹႵႻ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႵჂჂႿჂნ

ჰႼႹႾႴႹႾႷ ႶႼႱჃႸႵჃ ႿႶ ႼႹႷႸჄႾႹႾႷნ

ႤႸႵ ჆ႹႿႼႵႾჄ ჂႿႱჂ ႿႶ ჄႸჅႾႴႵჂნ

ჯႽႹႴჃჄ ჄႸႵ ႳႿჅႾჄႼႵჃჃ ႱႾႿႽႱႼႹႵჃ ႵჂჅჀჄႹႾႷ ႱႳჂႿჃჃ ჄႸႵ ႼႱႾႴლ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾ ჃჅႴႴႵႾႼ჉ ႼႿႿႻႵႴ ჅჀ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ჃႻ჉ნ

“ჽႸლ ႾႿ…”

ႣႿႽႵჄႸႹႾႷ ჇႱჃ ჄႵჂჂႹႲႼ჉ ჇჂႿႾႷნ

ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾ ჂႵႱႼႹ჊ႵႴ ႹჄ ჄႸႵ ႽႿႽႵႾჄ ჄႸႵ ႶႼႿჇ ႿႶ ႽႱႷႹႳ ჇႹჄႸႹႾ ჄႸႵ ႳႹჂႳႼႵ ႱჂႿჅႾႴ ႸႹႽ ႲႵႷႱႾ ჄႿ ჄჇႹჃჄნ

ႤႸႵჂႵ ჇႱჃ Ⴑ ჀჂႿႲႼႵႽ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႸႵ ႽႱႷႹႳ ႲႵႹႾႷ ႳႱჃჄნ

ჯ ჀႿჂჄႹႿႾ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႽႱႷႹႳლ ჇႸႹႳႸ ႸႱႴ ႲႵႵႾ ႶႼႿჇႹႾႷ ჃႽႿႿჄႸႼ჉ლ ႲႵႷႱႾ ჄႿ ႶႿჂႽ ႱႾ ႱႲႵჂჂႱႾჄ ႳჅჂჂႵႾჄნ

ႩႵჄლ Ⴕ჆ႵႾ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾვჃ ႽႱႷႹႳ ჀჂႿ჆ႵႴ ႹႾႳႱჀႱႲႼႵ ႿႶ ႳႿႾჄჂႿႼႼႹႾႷ ႹჄნ

ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾ ႷႼႱჂႵႴ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ჃჅႽႽႿႾႹႾႷ ႽႱႷႹႳლ ႾႿჇ ჃჀႹჂႱႼႹႾႷ ႿჅჄ ႿႶ ႳႿႾჄჂႿႼნ

ჹႹႹႹႹႹႹႹႹႹჂႻ—

ჯႾႴ ჄႸႵႾლ ႱჄ ჃႿႽႵ ჀႿႹႾჄნ

ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾვჃ ႵႱჂჃ ႳႱჅႷႸჄ ႱႾ ႱႼႹႵႾ ჃႿჅႾႴნ

“ჯႸ—”

ჱႢჯჱჹლ ჱႢჯჱჹჺჳ—

ჯ ჀႿჂჄႹႿႾ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჃႻ჉ ႸႵ ჇႱჃ ჃჄႱჂႹႾႷ ჅჀ ႱჄ ႲႵႷႱႾ ჄႿ ႳჂႱႳႻ ႱႾႴ ჃႸႱჄჄႵჂნ

ჯႾ ჅႾႲႵႼႹႵ჆ႱႲႼႵ ჃႹႷႸჄ ჅႾႶႿႼႴႵႴ ႲႵႶႿჂႵ ႸႹႽნ

ჱႢჯჱჹჺჳლ ჱႢჯჱჹჺჳლ ჱႢჯჱჹჺჳ—჏

ႤႸႵ ჃႸႱჄჄႵჂႵႴ ჃႻ჉ნ

ႤႸႵ ჆ႵჂ჉ ႶႱႲჂႹႳ ႿႶ ჃჀႱႳႵლ ႹჃႿႼႱჄႵႴ ႱႾႴ ႳჂჅႽႲႼႹႾႷნ

ႤႸჂႿჅႷႸ ჄႸႵ ႷႱჀႹႾႷ ჆ႿႹႴ ႲႵ჉ႿႾႴლ ႱႾ ჅႾႶႱჄႸႿႽႱႲႼႵ ႴႱჂႻႾႵჃჃ ႲႵႳႱႽႵ ჆ႹჃႹႲႼႵნ

ႤႸჅႽჀლ ჄႸჅႽჀლ ჄႸჅႽჀლ ჄႸჅႽჀ—

ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾვჃ ႸႵႱჂჄლ ႳႿႾႶჂႿႾჄႵႴ Ⴒ჉ ჄႸႱჄ ჃႹႷႸჄლ ჀႿჅႾႴႵႴ ჇႹႼႴႼ჉ლ ჃႵႾႴႹႾႷ Ⴑ ჃჅჂႷႵ ႿႶ ႲႼႿႿႴ ჄႸჂႿჅႷႸ ႸႹჃ ჆ႵႹႾჃნ

ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾვჃ ႸႱႾႴ ႹႾჃჄႹႾႳჄႹ჆ႵႼ჉ ႳႼჅჄႳႸႵႴ ႸႹჃ ႳႸႵჃჄნ

ჶႹჃ ႲჂႵႱჄႸ ႸႹჄႳႸႵႴლ ႱႾႴ ႸႹჃ ႽႹႾႴლ ႶႹ჈ႵႴ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ჃႻ჉ლ ႽႿႽႵႾჄႱჂႹႼ჉ ႼႿჃჄ ႱႼႼ ჂႵႱჃႿႾნ

“ჶმႸჅႸლ ႸმႸჅႸ…჏”

“……჏”

ႤႸႵ Ⴕ჉ႵჃ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჄჇႿ ႽႱႷႵჃ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ႷჂႿჅႾႴ ჇႹჄႾႵჃჃႵႴ ႹჄნ

ჷႾႳႿႽჀჂႵႸႵႾჃႹႲႼႵნ

ႣႿႽႵჄႸႹႾႷ ჄႸႱჄ ႴႵႶႹႵႴ ჅႾႴႵჂჃჄႱႾႴႹႾႷლ ჃႿႽႵჄႸႹႾႷ ჄႸႱჄ ჃႸႿჅႼႴ ႾႵ჆ႵჂ ႲႵ ჅႾႴႵჂჃჄႿႿႴლ Ⴕ჈ႹჃჄႵႴ ჄႸႵჂႵნ

ჯ ჀჅႼჃႱჄႹႾႷ ႳႿჃႽႿჃნ

ჲႱჂႻႾႵჃჃ ჃႸႹႽႽႵჂႹႾႷლ ႳჂႱႴႼႹႾႷ ჃჄႱჂჃ ჇႹჄႸႹႾ ႹჄჃ ႴႵჀჄႸჃნ

ჯ ჄჂჅჄႸ ႲႵ჉ႿႾႴ ჄႸႵ ႷჂႱჃჀ ႿႶ ႽႵჂႵ ႸჅႽႱႾ ჇႹႼႼნ

ႤႸႵ ႽႱႷႵლ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ႷႱ჊ႵႴ ႲႵ჉ႿႾႴ ჄႸႵ ႳႿႾႶႹႾႵჃ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჇႿჂႼႴლ ჃჄႱჂႵႴ ႱჄ ႹჄლ ჅჄჄႵჂႼ჉ ჃჀႵႵႳႸႼႵჃჃნ

“……ნ”

ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾ ჺჅႻႵ ჰႱჂჄ ჄႸႿჅႷႸჄნ

ႤႸႵ ჃჅႽႽႿႾႹႾႷ ႸႱႴ ႶႱႹႼႵႴნ

ႤႸႵ ჯჂႳႸႽႱႷႵ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႼႹႲჂႱჂ჉ ჇႱჃ ႾႿჄ Ⴑ ႲႵႹႾႷ ჄႸႱჄ ႳႿჅႼႴ ႲႵ ჃჅႽႽႿႾႵႴ Ⴒ჉ ႿჂႴႹႾႱჂ჉ ႽႵႱႾჃნ

“ႧმჇႸႱჄ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ჇႿჂႼႴ… ჇႸႱჄ ႻႹႾႴ ႿႶ ႽႿႾჃჄႵჂ ჇႵჂႵ ჉ႿჅ ჄჂ჉ႹႾႷ ჄႿ ჃჅႽႽႿႾლ ჉ႿჅ ႲႱჃჄႱჂႴ…჏”

“ჯ ႽႿႾჃჄႵჂლ ჉ႿჅ ჃႱ჉…”

ႢႱჃვჃ ჆ႿႹႳႵლ ჄႸႹႳႻ ჇႹჄႸ ႸႿჂჂႿჂლ ჇႱჃ ჃჇႱႼႼႿჇႵႴ Ⴒ჉ ჄႸႵ ჀႿჅჂႹႾႷ ჂႱႹႾნ

ႩႵჄლ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾვჃ ႽႹႾႴ ჃჄႹႼႼ ჂႵჀႼႱ჉ႵႴ ႢႱჃვჃ ჆ႱႾႹჃႸႵႴ ჇႿჂႴჃნ

ჱႢჯჱჹ჏ ჱႢჯჱჹჺჳლ ჱႢჯჱჹჺჳლ ჱႢჯჱჹჺჳ—ნ

ႤႸႵ ჃႻ჉ლ ჄႿჂႾ ႱჃჅႾႴႵჂ Ⴒ჉ ჄႸႵ ჃჅႽႽႿႾႹႾႷ ႽႱႷႹႳლ ჃႼႿჇႼ჉ ႲႵႷႱႾ ჄႿ ႽႵႾႴ ႹჄჃႵႼႶნ

ი ი ი ი ი ი

ჴႱႾჄႱჃჄႹႳႱႼ ჯჂႳႸႹ჆ႵჃშ ჱႵႼႵჃჄႹႱნ

ႤႸႵ ႶႱႾჄႱჃჄႹႳႱႼ ႽႱႷႹႳႱႼ ႼႹႲჂႱჂ჉ ჇႸႵჂႵ ჷ ႸႱႴ ჂႵჃႹႴႵႴ ႶႿჂ ႳႵႾჄჅჂႹႵჃნ

ႣႹჄჄႹႾႷ ႹႾ ႹჄჃ ჆ႵჂ჉ ႸႵႱჂჄლ ჂႵႱႴႹႾႷ Ⴑ ႷჂႹႽႿႹჂႵლ Ⴑ ႲႹჄჄႵჂ ჃႽႹႼႵ ჀႼႱ჉ႵႴ ႿႾ Ⴝ჉ ႼႹჀჃნ

ჶႱႸნნნ ႣႿ ჄႸႱჄვჃ ႸႿჇ ႹჄ ჇႱჃნ

ჯ ႴႵჃႻლ ჃႹჄჅႱჄႵႴ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ჆ႵჂ჉ ႳႵႾჄႵჂ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႼႹႲჂႱჂ჉ნ

ჴჂႿႽ ჄႸႵჂႵლ Ⴝ჉ ႷႱ჊Ⴕლ ჇႸႹႳႸ ႸႱႴ ႲႵႵႾ ႶႹ჈ႵႴ ႿႾ Ⴑ ႲႿႿႻლ ႽႵჄ ႳႿჅႾჄႼႵჃჃ Ⴕ჉ႵჃ ჃჄႱჂႹႾႷ ႲႱႳႻ ႱჄ ႽႵნ

ႤႸႵ ႳႿჅႾჄႼႵჃჃ ჄႿႽႵჃ ჃႸႵႼ჆ႵႴ ჇႹჄႸႹႾ ჄႸႵ ႽႱႷႹႳႱႼ ႼႹႲჂႱჂ჉ნ

ႤႸႵ჉ ႸႱႴ ჄჂႱႾჃႶႿჂႽႵႴ ႹႾჄႿ ႴႱჂႻლ ႳჂႹႽჃႿႾ Ⴕ჉ႵჃლ ႱႼႼ ႶႹ჈ႵႴ ႿႾ ႽႵნ

ႣႹ჊჊ႼႵლ ႳჂႱႳႻႼႵ—ნ

ჯႲႿ჆Ⴕ ჄႸႵ ჃჄႱჄႹႳ ჄႸႱჄ ჃႵႵႽႵႴ ჄႿ ჀႱႹႾჄ Ⴟ჆ႵჂ ჄႸႵ ჃჀႱႳႵლ

ჄႸႵ Ⴕ჉ႵჃლ ႴჂႱჇႾ ႿႾ ႶႼႱჄ ჃჅჂႶႱႳႵჃლ ჇႵჂႵ ჃႸႹႶჄႹႾႷ ჄႸႵႹჂ ႷႱ჊Ⴕ ႱႳჂႿჃჃ ჄႸႵ ႳႿ჆ႵჂჃ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႷჂႹႽႿႹჂႵჃნ

მ ნნნნნნ

მ ნნნნნნ

ჱႸႹႼႼႹႾႷ ႷႱ჊ႵჃ ჄႸႱჄ ჃႵႵႽႵႴ ჄႿ ჀႹႵჂႳႵ ჄႸჂႿჅႷႸ ႿႾႵვჃ ჆ႵჂ჉ ჃႿჅႼნ

ႩႵჄლ ჷ ႶႵႼჄ ႾႿ ჅႾჀႼႵႱჃႱႾჄ ჃႵႾჃႱჄႹႿႾ ႶჂႿႽ ჄႸႿჃႵ Ⴝ჉ჂႹႱႴ Ⴕ჉ႵჃნ

ჽႾ ჄႸႵ ႳႿႾჄჂႱჂ჉ლ ჷ ႶႵႼჄ ႱႾ ჅႾႳႱႾႾ჉ ჃႵႾჃႵ ႿႶ ႶႱႽႹႼႹႱჂႹჄ჉ ႶჂႿႽ ჄႸႵႽნ

ჯႶჄႵჂ ႱႼႼლ Ⴕ჆ႵႾ ჄႸႿჃႵ ჇႵჂႵ ႽႵჂႵႼ჉ ჀႱჂჄჃ ႿႶ Ⴝ჉ჃႵႼႶნ

“ႣႿ ჄႸႱჄ’Ⴣ ჇႸ჉ ჄႸႵ ჃჅႽႽႿႾႹႾႷ ႶႱႹႼႵႴნ”

ჯ ჆ႿႹႳႵლ ჄႹႾႷႵႴ ჇႹჄႸ ႲႹჄჄႵჂႾႵჃჃლ ႵႳႸႿႵႴ ჄႸჂႿჅႷႸ ჄႸႵ ႴႵჃႵჂჄႵႴ ႼႹႲჂႱჂ჉ნ

ჴႱႾჄႱჃჄႹႳႱႼ ჯჂႳႸႹ჆ႵჃშ ჱႵႼႵჃჄႹႱ ႹჃ ႱႼႹ჆Ⴕ—ნ

ႤႸႱჄ ჇႱჃ ჄႸႵ ႳႿႾႳႼჅჃႹႿႾ ჷ ႸႱႴ ჂႵႱႳႸႵႴნ

Shikemoku Diary

** This is basically a diary. It chronicles the daily life of a somewhat reclusive NEET living in a certain place in a certain country. Sometimes it’s a bit of a grind, and sometimes it’s not. That’s how it is. Please enjoy♪ I’m supposed to update it daily, but updates may become irregular, so please bear with me!! ** I reread it every once in a while, and I often find myself thinking, Isn’t that stupid? No, not “Isn’t that right?”, but “Isn’t that stupid?” I guess I think that because I still have some “normal” in me!

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