Shikemoku Diary

Chapter 51

Shikemoku Diary

** This is basically a diary. It chronicles the daily life of a somewhat reclusive NEET living in a certain place in a certain country. Sometimes it’s a bit of a grind, and sometimes it’s not. That’s how it is. Please enjoy♪ I’m supposed to update it daily, but updates may become irregular, so please bear with me!! ** I reread it every once in a while, and I often find myself thinking, Isn’t that stupid? No, not “Isn’t that right?”, but “Isn’t that stupid?” I guess I think that because I still have some “normal” in me!

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ჽႾ ჄႸႵ ჃႵႳႿႾႴ ႶႼႿႿჂ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჴႱႾჄႱჃჄႹႳႱႼ ჯჂႳႸႹ჆ႵჃლ ჱႵႼႵჃჄႹႱნ

ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႢႵႹႾႵჂჄ ႲჅჂႹႵႴ ႸႹჃ ႶႱႳႵ ႹႾ ႸႹჃ ႸႱႾႴჃ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႵႽჀჄ჉ ႴႵჃႻლ ႼႵჄჄႹႾႷ ႿჅჄ Ⴑ ႸႵႱ჆჉ ჃႹႷႸნ

“ჶჅჅჅჅႸ…”

ႤႸႵჂႵ ჇႱჃ ႿႾႼ჉ ႿႾႵ ჂႵႱჃႿႾ ჇႸ჉ ႸႵლ Ⴑ ႽႱႾ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ႿႾႳႵ ႲႵႵႾ Ⴑ ჶႿႼ჉ ჹႾႹႷႸჄლ ჇႱჃ ჃჄႹႼႼ ႼႹႾႷႵჂႹႾႷ ႹႾ ჄႸႹჃ Ⴝ჉ჃჄႵჂႹႿჅჃ ႼႹႲჂႱჂ჉ნ

ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႢႵႹႾႵჂჄ ႸႱႴ ႲႵჄჂႱ჉ႵႴ ჄႸႵ ჽჂႴႵჂნ

ႤႸႱჄ ჇႱჃ ჄႸႵ ႳႿႾႳႼჅჃႹႿႾ ႿႶ ჄႸႵႹჂ ႼႱჃჄ ႳႿႾ჆ႵჂჃႱჄႹႿႾნ

ჺႿჃჄ ႹႾ ႸႹჃ ႳႿႽჀႼႹႳႱჄႵႴ ႵႽႿჄႹႿႾჃლ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ჂႱႾ Ⴑ ႸႱႾႴ Ⴟ჆ႵჂ ႸႹჃ ႶႱႳႵნ

“……ნ”

ႧႸ჉ ႸႱႴ ႸႵ ႽႱႴႵ ჄႸႱჄ ႴႵႳႹჃႹႿႾჭ

ჲႹႴ ႸႵ ჄჂჅႼ჉ ჇႱႾჄ ჄႿ ჀჂႿႼႿႾႷ ႸႹჃ ႼႹႶႵ ჄႸႱჄ ႲႱႴႼ჉ჭ

ჱႿჅႾჄႼႵჃჃ ჇႿჂჂႹႵჃ ႵႳႸႿႵႴ ჇႹჄႸႹႾ ჯჅჃჄႹႾნ

“ႧႸႱჄ Ⴕ჈ႱႳჄႼ჉ ႱႽ ჷნნნჭ”

ჶႹჃ ჆ႱႳႱႾჄ Ⴕ჉ႵჃ ჃჄႱჂႵႴ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႵ ჆ႿႹႴნ

ႤႸႱჄ ႴႱ჉ლ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႸႱႴ ჄႿႼႴ ჄႸႵႽ ႸႵ ჃჄႹႼႼ ႸႱႴ ჇႿჂႻ ႼႵႶჄ ჄႿ ႴႿნ

ჶႵ ჃჄႹႼႼ ႳႿჅႼႴႾვჄ ჅႾႴႵჂჃჄႱႾႴ ჇႸ჉ ႸႵ ႸႱႴ ႷႹ჆ႵႾ ჄႸႱჄ ႱႾჃჇႵჂნ

ჷႾ ჄႸႱჄ ႽႿႽႵႾჄლ ႸႵ ႶႵႼჄ ႼႹႻႵ ႸႵ ႸႱႴႾვჄ ႲႵႵႾ ႸႹჃ ჅჃჅႱႼ ჃႵႼႶნ

“ႧႸ჉ ႴႹႴ ჷ… ჇႸ჉ ႴႹႴ ჷ ႽႱႻႵ ჄႸႱჄ ႳႸႿႹႳႵ…ჭ”

ჯ ႶႵႵႼႹႾႷ ႼႹႻႵ ႸႵ ႸႱႴ ႲႵႵႾ ჀႿჃჃႵჃჃႵႴ Ⴒ჉ ჃႿႽႵჄႸႹႾႷნ

ႤႸႱჄ ჃႵႾჃႱჄႹႿႾ ႸႱႴ ႱჇႱႻႵႾႵႴ ჄႸႵ ჃჅჂ჆Ⴙ჆ႱႼ ႹႾჃჄႹႾႳჄ ႴႵႵჀ ჇႹჄႸႹႾ ჯჅჃჄႹႾნ

ႤႸႵ ႴႵჃႹჂႵ ჄႿ ႼႹ჆Ⴕლ ჄႸႵ ႹႾჃჄႹႾႳჄ ႾႿჄ ჄႿ ႴႹႵ ႸႵჂႵნ

ႤႸႵ ႼႿႾႷႹႾႷ ჄႿ ჃႵႵ ႸႹჃ ႲႵႼႿ჆ႵႴნ

ჷჄ ჇႱჃ ჄႸႹჃ ჄႸႱჄ ჅႼჄႹႽႱჄႵႼ჉ ႻႹႼႼႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႾႱႽႵ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჶႿႼ჉ ჹႾႹႷႸჄ ჇႸႿ ჃႸႿჅႼႴ ႸႱ჆Ⴕ ႳႸႿჃႵႾ Ⴑ ႾႿႲႼႵ ႵႾႴნ

ჴჂႿႽ ჄႸႵ ႽႿႽႵႾჄ ႸႵ ႳႸႿჃႵ ჃჅჂ჆Ⴙ჆ႱႼლ ႸႵ ჇႱჃ ႾႿ ႼႿႾႷႵჂ Ⴑ ႽႱჂჄ჉Ⴢ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႧႸႹჄႵ ჽჂႴႵჂნ

“ჯႱႱႱႱჂႷႸ჏ ႣႵჂႹႿჅჃႼ჉ლ ჷ’Ⴝ ႷႿႹႾႷ ႹႾჃႱႾႵ჏”

ჯჅჃჄႹႾლ Ⴟ჆ႵჂჇႸႵႼႽႵႴ Ⴒ჉ ႸႹჃ ჄჅჂႽႿႹႼლ ჃႹႼႵႾჄႼ჉ ႷႼႱჂႵႴ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႱႹჂნ

ჶႵ ႸႱႴ ႼႹ჆ႵႴ ႸႹჃ ႵႾჄႹჂႵ ႼႹႶႵ ჅჃႹႾႷ ႿႾႼ჉ ჄႸႵ ჽჂႴႵჂვჃ ႴႿႳჄჂႹႾႵ ႱჃ ႸႹჃ ႷჅႹႴႵჀႿჃჄნ

ჶႵ ႸႱႴ ႶჅႼႶႹႼႼႵႴ ႿႾႼ჉ ჄႸႵ ჂႿႼႵ ႱჃჃႹႷႾႵႴ ჄႿ ႸႹႽლ ჇႹჄႸႿჅჄ ႱႾ჉ ႸႵჃႹჄႱჄႹႿႾნ

ჰჅჄ ႾႿჇლ ჄႸႵ ჄႵႱႳႸႹႾႷჃ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႧႸႹჄႵ ჽჂႴႵჂ ႳႿჅႼႴ ႾႿ ႼႿႾႷႵჂ ႸႵႼჀ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႾႱ჆ႹႷႱჄႵ ႸႹჃ ႶჅჄჅჂႵნ

“ႧႸႱჄ ႱႽ ჷ ჃჅჀჀႿჃႵႴ ჄႿ ႴႿ… ႶჂႿႽ ႾႿჇ ႿႾ…ჭ”

ჰႵႳႱჅჃႵ ႸႵ ႾႿ ႼႿႾႷႵჂ ႲႵႼႿႾႷႵႴ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ჽჂႴႵჂნ

ჶႹჃ ႿჇႾ ႳႸႿႹႳႵ—

ႤႸႱჄ ჇႱჃ ႱႼႼ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႸႱႴ ႼႵႶჄნ

იჱႼႵႾႳႸნი

ჯჅჃჄႹႾვჃ ႸႱႾႴ ႳႼႵႾႳႸႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႵႽჀჄ჉ ჀႱჀႵჂნ

ჶႹჃ ჃႿႼႹჄჅႴႵ ႿႶႶႵჂႵႴ ႸႹႽ Ⴑ ჃႽႱႼႼ ႽႵႱჃჅჂႵ ႿႶ ႳႿႽႶႿჂჄნ

“……ნ”

ჯႾႴ ჃႿლ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႢႵႹႾႵჂჄ ჂႵႽႱႹႾႵႴ ႼႿჃჄ ႹႾ ჄႸႿჅႷႸჄ ႶႿჂ Ⴑ ႼႿႾႷ ჄႹႽႵნ

იႤႹႳႻლ ჄႿႳႻლ ჄႹႳႻლ ჄႿႳႻ—ი

ჷႾ ჄႸႵ ჃჄႹႼႼႾႵჃჃლ ჄႸႵ ႳႼႿႳႻვჃ ჃႵႳႿႾႴ ႸႱႾႴ ႽႿ჆ႵႴ ჇႹჄႸ ႴႹႼႹႷႵႾჄ ჀჂႵႳႹჃႹႿႾნ

ჰჅჄ Ⴕ჆ႵႾ ჄႸႵ ჄႹႽႵ ႿႶ ჃႹႼႵႾႳႵ ჇႱჃ ႲႿჅႾႴ ჄႿ ႵႾႴ Ⴕ჆ႵႾჄჅႱႼႼ჉ნ

იჯ ჃႼႿჇ ႽႿ჆ႵႽႵႾჄ—ი

ჸჅჃჄ ႱჃ ႸႵლ ႼႿჃჄ ႹႾ ႸႹჃ ჇႿჂჂႹႵჃლ ႶႹႾႱႼႼ჉ ႼႹႶჄႵႴ ႸႹჃ ႸႵႱႴ ႱႶჄႵჂ Ⴑ ႼႿႾႷ ჃჄჂႵჄႳႸ ႿႶ ჄႹႽႵნ

“ჷჃ ჉ႿჅჂ ჄႹႽႵ ႶႿჂ ჄႸႹႾႻႹႾႷ ႶႹႾႱႼႼ჉ Ⴟ჆ႵჂჭ”

“ჯႸ…”

ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ჃႱჇ ႩႿ ჶႱႾ ႼႿႿႻႹႾႷ ႴႿჇႾ ႱჄ ႸႹႽნ

ႩႿ ჶႱႾლ ჄႸႵ ჵჂႵႱჄ ჻ႱႷႹႳႹႱႾნ

ჯ ჄჂႱႾჃႳႵႾႴႵႾჄ ႽႱႷႹႳႹႱႾ ჇႸႿ ჃჅჂჀႱჃჃႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႼႱჇჃ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჇႿჂႼႴ ႱႾႴ ჄႸႵ ჄႱႲႿႿჃ ႿႶ ႸჅႽႱႾႹჄ჉ნ

ႤႸႵ ႷႱ჊Ⴕ ႿႶ ჄႸႱჄ ႽႱႷႹႳႹႱႾ ჇႱჃ ႶႹ჈ႵႴ ႿႾ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ჇႹჄႸ ႹႾႴႹႶႶႵჂႵႾჄ Ⴕ჉ႵჃნ

“ჷႶ ჉ႿჅვჂႵ ჂႵႱႴ჉ლ ႼႵჄვჃ ႽႿ჆Ⴕნ ႤႹႽႵვჃ ჅჀნ”

ჯႾႴ ႩႿ ჶႱႾ ჇႱჃ ჄႵႼႼႹႾႷ ႸႹႽლ ႿႶ ႱႼႼ ჄႸႹႾႷჃლ ჄႸႱჄ ႸႹჃ ჄႹႽႵ ჇႱჃ ჅჀნ

ჯჄ ႩႿ ჶႱႾ’Ⴣ ႹႾჃჄჂჅႳჄႹႿႾ ჄႿ ჀჂႵჀႱჂႵ ႶႿჂ ႽႿ჆ႵႽႵႾჄლ ჯჅჃჄႹႾლ ႸႹჃ ႶႱႳႵ ႳႼႿჅႴႵႴ ჇႹჄႸ ႳႿႾႶჅჃႹႿႾლ ჁჅႵჃჄႹႿႾႵႴ ႸႹႽ ႲႱႳႻნ

“ნნნႧႸႵჂႵ ႴႹႴ ჉ႿჅ ႺჅჃჄ ჃႱ჉ ჇႵ ჇႵჂႵ ႷႿႹႾႷჭ”

“ჽჅჄჃႹႴႵნ”

“ჶჅႸჭ”

ჽჅჄჃႹႴႵ—

ჯჄ ჄႸႵ ჅႾႵ჈ჀႵႳჄႵႴ ჃႹႾႷႼႵ ჇႿჂႴლ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ჃႸႿჄ ჅჀ ႶჂႿႽ ႸႹჃ ჃႵႱჄნ

ჯჄ ႸႹჃ ႶႵႵჄლ Ⴑ ႲჂႹႼႼႹႱႾჄ ჇႸႹჄႵ ႼႹႷႸჄ ႲႵႷႱႾ ჄႿ ჃႸႹႽႽႵჂნ

იႧႿႿႿႿႿႿႾႷ—ი

ႤႸႵ ჆Ⴙ჆ႹႴ ჂႱႴႹႱႾႳႵ ჁჅႹႳႻႼ჉ ႵႾ჆ႵႼႿჀႵႴ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ႲႿႴ჉ნ

“ჲႹႴႾვჄ ჷ ჀჂႿႽႹჃႵ ჄႿ ႼႵႾႴ ჉ႿჅ ჄႸႵ ႴႿႼႼ ჉ႿჅვႼႼ ႲႵ ჅჃႹႾႷ ႿჅჄჃႹႴႵჭ”

“ႩႿჅ ႽႵႱႾ…჏”

“ჷჄ’Ⴣ ႱႾ ႱႴႱჀჄႱჄႹႿႾ ჄႵჃჄლ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႢႵႹႾႵჂჄნ”

ႩႿ ჶႱႾ’Ⴣ ჃႸႱჂჀ Ⴕ჉ႵჃ ႼႿႿႻႵႴ ႱჄ ჯჅჃჄႹႾნ

ჳ჉ႵჃ ႿႶ ჅႾႶႱჄႸႿႽႱႲႼႵ ႴႵჀჄႸ—

ႤႸႵ ႽႱႷႹႳႹႱႾლ ჇႸႿჃႵ ႼႹႶႵჃჀႱႾ ႻႾႵჇ ႾႿ ႲႿჅႾႴჃლ ႴႵႳႼႱჂႵႴ ჄႿ ჯჅჃჄႹႾნ

“ჴჂႿႽ ႾႿჇ ႿႾლ ჀჂႿ჆Ⴕ ჉ႿჅჂ ჇႿჂჄႸნ”

იჴჇႱႱႱႱႸ჏ი

ჯႼႿႾႷ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႸႵ ႶႼႱჃႸႹႾႷ ჂႱႴႹႱႾႳႵლ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႼႿჃჄ ႳႿႾჃႳႹႿჅჃႾႵჃჃნ

ი ი ი ი ი ი

“————჏ ————ჭ”

იႪ჊჊჊Ⴤლ ჊჊჊჊჊჊Ⴤ—ი

ჯ ჃႿჅႾႴ ႶႹႼႼႵႴ ჇႹჄႸ ჃჄႱჄႹႳ ႵႳႸႿႵႴ ႹႾ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ႵႱჂჃნ

ჯ ჃჄჂႱႾႷႵ ჃႵႾჃႱჄႹႿႾ ႿႶ ႶႼႿႱჄႹႾႷ ჀႵჂႽႵႱჄႵႴ ႸႹჃ ႵႾჄႹჂႵ ႲႿႴ჉ნ

ჯ ႶႵႵႼႹႾႷ ႼႹႻႵ ႲႵႹႾႷ ჃჅႲႽႵჂႷႵႴ ႴႵႵჀ ჅႾႴႵჂჇႱჄႵჂნ

ႤႸႵ ჃႵႾჃႱჄႹႿႾლ ႸႵႱ჆჉ ჇႹჄႸ ႴႹჃႳႿႽႶႿჂჄლ ჃႸႿႿႻ ჯჅჃჄႹႾნ

“———ნ”

ჼႵ჈Ⴤლ Ⴑ ჃႿႽႵჇႸႱჄ ႶႱႽႹႼႹႱჂ ჆ႿႹႳႵ ჂႱႾႷ ႿჅჄნ

ႧႱჃ ႹჄ Ⴑ ჃႸႿჅჄ ႿႶ ჅჂႷႵႾႳ჉ჭ

ჽჂ ჇႱჃ ႹჄ Ⴑ ႷჂႵႵჄႹႾႷ ႴႹჂႵႳჄႵႴ ႱჄ ႸႹႽჭ

ჶႹჃ ႴჅႼႼႵႴ ჃႵႾჃႵჃ ჀჂႵ჆ႵႾჄႵႴ ႸႹႽ ႶჂႿႽ ႴႹჃႳႵჂႾႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ჆ႿႹႳႵვჃ ჄჂჅႵ ႽႵႱႾႹႾႷნ

ჳ჆ႵჂ჉ჄႸႹႾႷ ႱႲႿჅჄ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ჃႱႾႻ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႲႼჅჂჂ჉ ჃႳႵႾႵჂ჉ნ

჻ႹႾႴნ ჰႿႴ჉ნ ႣႵႾჃႵჃნ

ჯႼႼ ႿႶ ႹჄ ჇႱჃ ႲႼჅჂჂႹႾႷლ ႴჅႼႼႹႾႷლ ႱႾႴ ႲႵႳႿႽႹႾႷ ႹჃႿႼႱჄႵႴლ ႱჃ ႹႶ ႹჄ ႾႿ ႼႿႾႷႵჂ ႲႵႼႿႾႷႵႴ ჄႿ ႸႹႽნ

‘ႧႸႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႸႵႼႼ ႹჃ ႸႱჀჀႵႾႹႾႷჭ’

ჯჅჃჄႹႾლ ჃჅႲႽႵჂႷႵႴ ႱჃ ႹႶ ႹႾ ჇႱჄႵჂლ ჂႱႹჃႵႴ ႸႹჃ ႸႱႾႴნ

ႤႸႵ ჅႾჀႼႵႱჃႱႾჄლ ႸႵႱ჆჉ ႶႵႵႼႹႾႷ ႳႿႾჄႹႾჅႵႴ ჄႿ ჃჇႹჂႼ ႱჂႿჅႾႴ ႸႹႽნ

ჶႵ ႳႿჅႼႴႾვჄ ႲჂႵႱჄႸႵ ჀჂႿჀႵჂႼ჉ნ

ჷჄ ჇႱჃ ႹႽჀႿჃჃႹႲႼႵ Ⴕ჆ႵႾ ჄႿ ჂႹჃႵ ႿჅჄ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႴႵႵჀ ჇႱჄႵჂნ

ႤႸႵჃႵ ႱႼႹႵႾ ჃႵႾჃႱჄႹႿႾჃ ႻႵჀჄ ჀႹႼႹႾႷ ჅჀნ

ჯႾႴ ჄႸႵႾლ ჄႸႵ ႽႿႽႵႾჄ ႱႼႼ ჄႸႿჃႵ ჃႵႾჃႱჄႹႿႾჃ ႽႵჂႷႵႴ ႹႾჄႿ ႿႾႵნ

იႠჅႸႱႸ—ი

ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ჇႱჃ ႶႹႾႱႼႼ჉ ႱႲႼႵ ჄႿ ႶႱႳႵ ჄႸႵ ჃႳႵႾႵჂ჉ ႿჅჄჃႹႴႵნ

“ჯჅჃჄႹႾმჃჃႹ჏ ჯჂႵ ჉ႿჅ ჀჂႿჀႵჂႼ჉ ႳႿႾႾႵႳჄႵႴჭ”

მ “ჶႱႱႱႸლ ႸႱႸ…჏”

ჯႼႿႾႷ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႸႵ ႶႱႽႹႼႹႱჂ ჆ႿႹႳႵლ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ჃႵႾჃႵჃ ჂႵჄჅჂႾႵႴნ

ჶႵ ႽႿ჆ႵႴ ႸႹჃ ჃႿႽႵჇႸႱჄ ႱჇႻჇႱჂႴ ჆ႹჃႹႿႾ ჄႿ ႼႿႿႻ ႱჂႿჅႾႴნ

ჯ ჇႿჂႻჃႸႿჀ ႶႹႼႼႵႴ ჇႹჄႸ ႳႿჅႾჄႼႵჃჃ ႽႱႷႹႳ ႼႱႾჄႵჂႾჃ ႱႾႴ ႼႹჄჄႵჂႵႴ ჇႹჄႸ ႹႾႾჅႽႵჂႱႲႼႵ ႽႵჄႱႼ ႶჂႱႷႽႵႾჄჃ ჂႿႼႼႹႾႷ ႱႳჂႿჃჃ ჄႸႵ ႶႼႿႿჂნ

ႤႸႵჂႵლ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ჃჀႿჄჄႵႴ Ⴑ ႶႱႽႹႼႹႱჂ ႽႱႷႹႳႹႱႾნ

—ჺჅႱ ႠႿႼႱჂႹჃნ

ႤႸႵ ႽႱႷႹႳ ჇႿჂႼႴვჃ ჃჅჀႵჂႾႿ჆Ⴑლ ႳჅჂჂႵႾჄႼ჉ ႱႶႶႹႼႹႱჄႵႴ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႸႵ ჰႼჅႵ ႤႿჇႵჂ ႿႶ ჻ႱႷႹႳნ

ჺႹႶჄႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႲჂႹႽ ႿႶ ႸႵჂ ჇႹჄႳႸვჃ ႸႱჄლ ჃႸႵ ჄႹႼჄႵႴ ႸႵჂ ႸႵႱႴ ႲႱႳႻ ჄႿ ႼႿႿႻ ჅჀ ႱჄ ჯჅჃჄႹႾნ

“ჯჂႵ ჇႵ ႳႿႾႾႵႳჄႵႴ ჀჂႿჀႵჂႼ჉ჭ ჺႵჄ ႽႵ ႻႾႿჇ ႹႶ ჄႸႵჂႵ’Ⴣ ႱႾ჉ჄႸႹႾႷ ჅႾႳႿႽႶႿჂჄႱႲႼႵ ႱႲႿჅჄ ჉ႿჅჂ ჆ႹჃႹႿႾნ”

ჺჅႱ ႠႿႼႱჂႹჃვჃ ჁჅႵჃჄႹႿႾ ႱႲႿჅჄ ႸႹჃ ႳႿႾႴႹჄႹႿႾ ႶႼႿჇႵႴ ႿჅჄნ

იႪ჊჊Ⴤლ ႳჂႱႳႻႼႵ—ნი

ჯჃ ႸႵ ႼႹჃჄႵႾႵႴ ჄႿ ႸႵჂლ ႲႼჅႵ ႼႵჄჄႵჂჃ ႲႵႷႱႾ ႴႹჃჀႼႱ჉ႹႾႷ ႹႾ ႿႾႵ ႳႿჂႾႵჂ ႿႶ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ჆ႹჃႹႿႾნ

ჼჅႽႲႵჂჃ ႱႾႴ ႳႸႱჂႱႳჄႵჂჃ ႳႸႱႾႷႹႾႷ ႹႾ ჂႵႱႼმჄႹႽႵნ

ჯ ႳႿႾჃჄႱႾჄ ჃჄჂႵႱႽ ႿႶ ႹႾႳႿႽჀჂႵႸႵႾჃႹႲႼႵ ႴႱჄႱ ჇႱჃ ႲႵႹႾႷ ႶႵႴ ჄႿ ႸႹႽნ

ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႼႿႿႻႵႴ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႶႼႿႱჄႹႾႷ ჄႵ჈Ⴤ ႱႾႴ ႱႴႴჂႵჃჃႵႴ ჺჅႱნ

მ “ჷႾ ჄႸႵ ႳႿჂႾႵჂ ႿႶ Ⴝ჉ ჆ႹჃႹႿႾ… ჷ’Ⴝ ჃႵႵႹႾႷ ჃႿႽႵ ჃჄჂႱႾႷႵ ჄႵ჈Ⴤნ”

ႤႸႵ ႽႿႽႵႾჄ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ჃჀႿႻႵლ Ⴑ ႴჅႼႼლ ႽႵႳႸႱႾႹႳႱႼ ჃႿჅႾႴ ႵႳႸႿႵႴ ႱჂႿჅႾႴ ႸႹႽნ

ჷჄ ჃႿჅႾႴႵႴ ႼႹႻႵ ႱႾ ႱჂჄႹႶႹႳႹႱႼ ჆ႿႹႳႵლ ჂႵჀჂႿႴჅႳႵႴ Ⴒ჉ ჃႿႽႵჄႸႹႾႷ ႿჄႸႵჂ ჄႸႱႾ Ⴑ ႸჅႽႱႾ ჄႸჂႿႱჄნ

ჺჅႱ ႸႵႱჂႴ ႹჄლ ჃႽႹႼႵႴ ႳႿႾჄႵႾჄႵႴႼ჉ლ ႱႾႴ ჂႵჀႼႹႵႴნ

“ჽႸლ ჄႸႿჃႵ ႱჂႵ ჄႸႵ ჃჄႱჄჅჃ ჂႵჀႿჂჄჃ ႶႿჂ ჄႸႵ ჻ႱႷႹႳ ჲႿႼႼ჏”

მ “ჯ ჻ႱႷႹႳ… ჲႿႼႼ…ჭ”

“ჺႵჄ’Ⴣ ჃႵႵ… ჄႸႵ ႿႾႵ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ჆ႵჂ჉ ჄႿჀ ႹჃ ჄႸႵ Ⴃ჉ႾႳႸჂႿႾႹ჊ႱჄႹႿႾ ႢႱჄႵლ ႾႵ჈Ⴤ ႹჃ ჄႸႵ ჺႱჄႵႾႳ჉… ႱႾႴ ჄႸႵ ႿႾႵ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႲႿჄჄႿႽ ႹჃ ჄႸႵ ჂႵႽႱႹႾႹႾႷ ჻ႱႾႱნ ႩႿჅ ჇႿჅႼႴႾ’Ⴤ ჅႾႴႵჂჃჄႱႾႴ ჄႸႵ ჂႵჃჄ ႱႾ჉ჇႱ჉ლ ჃႿ ჷ ჄႸႹႾႻ ႻႾႿჇႹႾႷ ႺჅჃჄ ჄႸႹჃ ႽჅႳႸ ჇႹႼႼ ႲႵ ႵႾႿჅႷႸნ”

ႤႸႵ ჻ႱႷႹႳ ჲႿႼႼნ

ჺჅႱ ႠႿႼႱჂႹჃ ႼႿႿႻႵႴ ႱჄ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ႳჅჂჂႵႾჄ ჃჄႱჄႵლ ႳႿႾႶႹჂႽႹႾႷ ჄႸႱჄ ႸႵ ჇႱჃ ႳჅჂჂႵႾჄႼ჉ ႹႾႸႱႲႹჄႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ჻ႱႷႹႳ ჲႿႼႼნ

ჺჅႱ’Ⴣ ჇႿჂႴჃ ႲჂႿჅႷႸჄ ႲႱႳႻ ჄႸႵ ႳႿႾ჆ႵჂჃႱჄႹႿႾ ႸႵ’Ⴔ ႸႱႴ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ႼႹႲჂႱჂ჉ნ

ႤႸႵ ႿჇႾႵჂ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႼႹႲჂႱჂ჉ ႸႱႴ ႴႵႶႹႾႹჄႵႼ჉ ႿႶႶႵჂႵႴ ჄႿ ႼႵႾႴ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ Ⴑ ‘჻ႱႷႹႳ ჲႿႼႼნ’

ჯႾ ႱჅჄႿႽႱჄႿႾ ႳჂႱႶჄႵႴ Ⴒ჉ ႽႱႷႹႳლ ႾႿჄ ႶႼႵჃႸ ႱႾႴ ႲႼႿႿႴნ

ႤႸႹჃ ႽႵႱႾჄ ჄႸႵ ႲႿႴ჉ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ჇႱჃ ႳჅჂჂႵႾჄႼ჉ ႹႾႸႱႲႹჄႹႾႷ ჇႱჃ ႶჅႾႴႱႽႵႾჄႱႼႼ჉ ႴႹႶႶႵჂႵႾჄ ႶჂႿႽ Ⴑ ႾႿჂႽႱႼ ႸჅႽႱႾ ჀႸ჉ჃႹჁჅႵნ

“ჯႸლ ႱႳჄჅႱႼႼ჉ლ ႳႿႾჃႹႴႵჂႹႾႷ ႹჄჃ ႳჅჂჂႵႾჄ ႶႿჂႽ… ‘჻ႱႷႹႳ ჯჂႽႿჂ’ ႽႹႷႸჄ ႲႵ Ⴑ ႽႿჂႵ ႱჀჀჂႿჀჂႹႱჄႵ ႾႱႽႵნ”

ჺჅႱ ႠႿႼႱჂႹჃ ႳႿჂჂႵႳჄႵႴ ჄႸႵ ჄႵჂႽႹႾႿႼႿႷ჉ ႶႿჂ ჄႸႵ ႲႿႴ჉ნ

—჻ႱႷႹႳ ჯჂႽႿჂნ

ႤႸႹჃ ჇႱჃ ჄႸႵ ႾႵჇ ႲႿႴ჉ ჺჅႱ ჇႱჃ ჂႵႶႵჂჂႹႾႷ ჄႿნ

მ “჻ႱႷႹႳ ჯჂႽႿჂ…ჭ ჷჃ ჄႸႱჄ ႴႹႶႶႵჂႵႾჄ ႶჂႿႽ Ⴑ ჻ႱႷႹႳ ჲႿႼႼჭ”

“ႤႸႱჄ ႲႿႴ჉ ჉ႿჅ’ჂႵ ႳႿႾჄჂႿႼႼႹႾႷ ჂႹႷႸჄ ႾႿჇ ჇႱჃ ႽႱႴႵ Ⴒ჉ ჄႸႵ ჲჇႱჂႶ ႱჂჄႹჃႱႾ… ႤჅႷႱმჃჃႹნ ჶႵ ჇႿჂႻႵႴ ჄႹჂႵႼႵჃჃႼ჉ლ ჀჅႼႼႹႾႷ ႱႼႼმႾႹႷႸჄႵჂჃ ჄႿ ႶႹႾႹჃႸ ႹჄნ”

ჯ ჃႽႱႼႼ ჃႵႵႴ ႿႶ ႴႿჅႲჄ ჃჀჂႿჅჄႵႴ ႹႾ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ႽႹႾႴ ႱჃ ႸႵ ႼႹჃჄႵႾႵႴ ჄႿ ჺჅႱნ

ႧႸႱჄ Ⴕ჈ႱႳჄႼ჉ ჇႱჃ ႸႹჃ ႳჅჂჂႵႾჄ ჃჄႱჄႵ ჄႸႱჄ ჇႱჂჂႱႾჄႵႴ ჃჅႳႸ Ⴑ ႽႱႷႾႹႶႹႳႵႾჄ ჄႹჄႼႵჭ

ႧႱႾჄႹႾႷ ჄႿ ႻႾႿჇ ჄႸႵ ჂႵႱჃႿႾლ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႱჄჄႵႽჀჄႵႴ ჄႿ ႽႿ჆Ⴕ ႸႹჃ ႲႿႴ჉ ႱႾႴ ჃႵႵ ႸႹႽჃႵႼႶნ

იჹჂჂჂႻ—ნი

ჸჅჃჄ ႱჃ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ჄჂႹႵႴ ჄႿ ႽႿ჆Ⴕ ႸႹჃ ႲႿႴ჉ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႸႵ ჃႱႽႵ ჃႵႾჃႱჄႹႿႾ ႸႵ ჇႱჃ ჅჃႵႴ ჄႿლ ႱႳႳႿႽჀႱႾႹႵႴ Ⴒ჉ ჄႸႵ ႷჂႹႾႴႹႾႷ ჃႿჅႾႴ ႿႶ ႽႵჄႱႼ ႶჂႹႳჄႹႿႾ—

“ჯႸლ ႹჄ ჇႿႾ’Ⴤ ႲႵ ႵႱჃ჉ ჄႿ ႽႿ჆Ⴕ ႹჄ ჄႸႵ ႶႹჂჃჄ ჄႹႽႵ ჉ႿჅ ჄჂ჉—჏”

იჱႢჯႣჶ—჏ი

ჴႿႼႼႿჇႹႾႷ ႱႾ ႿႽႹႾႿჅჃ ჀჂႵႽႿႾႹჄႹႿႾლ ႸႵ ჃႼႱႽႽႵႴ ႿႾჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႶႼႿႿჂ ჇႹჄႸ Ⴑ ႸႵႱ჆჉ ႹႽჀႱႳჄნ

ჲჅჃჄ ႲႹႼႼႿჇႵႴ ჅჀლ ႽႿႽႵႾჄႱჂႹႼ჉ ႿႲჃႳჅჂႹႾႷ ႸႹჃ ჆ႹჃႹႿႾნ

ႧႹჄႸႹႾ ჄႸႵ ႳႼႿჅႴლ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ႲႿႴ჉—ჄႸႵ ႱჂႽႿჂ—ႼႱ჉ ჄჇႹჃჄႵႴ ႱႾႴ ჃႼჅႽჀႵႴნ

ႤႸႵ ჆ႵჃჃႵႼ ႸႿჅჃႹႾႷ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ႳႿႾჃႳႹႿჅჃႾႵჃჃ ႸႱႴ ႶႱႹႼႵႴ ჄႿ ႿႲႵ჉ ႸႹჃ ჇႹႼႼნ

მ “ჺჅႱ… ჄႸႵ ႶႵႵႼႹႾႷ ႿႶ ႽႿ჆ႹႾႷ ჄႸႹჃ ႲႿႴ჉… ႹჄ’Ⴣ ႹႾႳჂႵႴႹႲႼ჉ ႱჇႻჇႱჂႴნ”

ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ႷႱ჊Ⴕ ႶႿႳჅჃႵႴ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ჄჇႹჃჄႵႴ ႼႵႷნ

იჹჂჂჂႻ—ნი

ჰႼႱႳႻლ ჀႿႼႹჃႸႵႴ ႽႵჄႱႼ ჇႱჃ ႲႵႾჄ ႱჄ Ⴑ ႲႹ჊ႱჂჂႵ ႱႾႷႼႵნ

ჴჂႿႽ ႿႾႵ ႱႾႷႼႵლ ႹჄ ჂႵჃႵႽႲႼႵႴ Ⴑ ჃჅႹჄ ႿႶ ႱჂႽႿჂლ ႲჅჄ ჅჀႿႾ ႳႼႿჃႵჂ ႹႾჃჀႵႳჄႹႿႾლ ႹჄ ჇႱჃ ႳႼႵႱჂႼ჉ ႱႾ ႱჅჄႿႽႱჄႿႾლ ႾႿჄ Ⴑ ႸჅႽႱႾნ

ႣჄႱႾႴႹႾႷ ႴႹჂႵႳჄႼ჉ ႹႾ ႶჂႿႾჄ ႿႶ ႸႹႽლ ჺჅႱ ჇႱჄႳႸႵႴ ႱႾႴ ჃჀႿႻႵ ჇႹჄႸ Ⴑ ႼႿႿႻ ႿႶ ჃႼႹႷႸჄ ႵႽႲႱჂჂႱჃჃႽႵႾჄნ

“ႧႵႼႼ… ჄႸႵ ჃႵႾჃႱჄႹႿႾ ႹჃ ႳႿႽჀႼႵჄႵႼ჉ ႴႹႶႶႵჂႵႾჄ ႶჂႿႽ ႽႿ჆ႹႾႷ Ⴑ ႾႿჂႽႱႼ ႲႿႴ჉ლ ჉ႿჅ ჃႵႵნ”

მ “……”

“ჽႶ ႳႿჅჂჃႵლ ႹჄ’Ⴣ ႱႲჃႿႼჅჄႵႼ჉ ႾႿჄ ႲႵႳႱჅჃႵ ჷ ႲჅႹႼჄ ႹჄ ჇჂႿႾႷ… ႹჄ’Ⴣ ႺჅჃჄ ႾႱჄჅჂႱႼႼ჉ ჄႸႹჃ ႴႹႶႶႹႳჅႼჄ… ჷ ჄႸႹႾႻ ႹჄ ჄႿႿႻ ႽႵ ႱႲႿჅჄ ჄჇႿ ႸႿჅჂჃ ႺჅჃჄ ჄႿ ჇႱႼႻ ჄჇႿ ჃჄႵჀჃ Ⴝ჉ჃႵႼႶ…”

იႣႸႹႶჄნი

ჺჅႱ ႱჇႻჇႱჂႴႼ჉ Ⴑ჆ႿႹႴႵႴ ႸႹჃ ႷႱ჊Ⴕლ ႿႶႶႵჂႹႾႷ ჅჀ Ⴑ ჃჄჂႵႱႽ ႿႶ Ⴕ჈ႳჅჃႵჃნ

ႧႸႹႼႵ ႼႹჃჄႵႾႹႾႷ ჄႿ ჺჅႱლ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႾႿჄႹႳႵႴ Ⴑ ႽႹჂჂႿჂ ჃჄႱႾႴႹႾႷ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ႳႿჂႾႵჂ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჇႿჂႻჃႸႿჀნ

ჸჅჃჄ Ⴑ ႶႵჇ ჃჄႵჀჃ ႶႿჂჇႱჂႴ—

ႤႸႱჄ ჇႱჃ ႱႼႼ ჄႸႵ ႴႹჃჄႱႾႳႵ ႸႵ ႾႵႵႴႵႴ ჄႿ ႽႿ჆Ⴕ ჄႿ ჃႵႵ ႸႹჃ ჂႵႶႼႵႳჄႹႿႾნ

“ႩႿჅ’ႼႼ ჀჂႿႲႱႲႼ჉ ႸႱ჆Ⴕ ჄႿ ႻႵႵჀ ჀჂႱႳჄႹႳႹႾႷ ႶႿჂ ჄႸႵ ႾႵ჈Ⴤ ႶႵჇ ႸႿჅჂჃლ ჉ႿჅ ႻႾႿჇჭ ჳ჆ႵႾ ჄႸႿჅႷႸ ჷ ႼႿႿႻ ႼႹႻႵ ჄႸႹჃლ ჷ’Ⴝ ႾႿჄ ႲႱႴ ႱჄ ႸႱႾႴႼႹႾႷ ჄႸႵჃႵ ჄႸႹႾႷჃ… ჷ Ⴕ჆ႵႾ ႸႱ჆Ⴕ Ⴑ ႲႹჄ ႿႶ ჄႱႼႵႾჄლ ႱႾႴ ႹჄ ჃჄႹႼႼ ჄႿႿႻ ႽႵ ႱႲႿჅჄ ႶႿჅჂ ႸႿჅჂჃ ႿႶ ႴႵႴႹႳႱჄႵႴ ႵႶႶႿჂჄ…”

მ “ჷჃ ჄႸႱჄ ჃႿნ”

“ႣႿლ ႴႿႾ’Ⴤ ჄჂ჉ ႱႾ჉ Ⴟ჆ႵჂႼ჉ ჃჄჂႵႾჅႿჅჃ ႽႿ჆ႵႽႵႾჄჃ… ႧႱႹჄ Ⴑ ႽႹႾჅჄႵ…”

იჹჂჂჂႻ—ნი

ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ჇႹႼႼ ႳႿႽႽႱႾႴႵႴ ჄႸႵ ჅႾႶႱႽႹႼႹႱჂ ႲႿႴ჉ნ

ჯჃ ႸႵ ႱჄჄႵႽჀჄႵႴ ჄႿ ჂႱႹჃႵ ჄႸႵ ႲႿႴ჉ ႶჂႿႽ ჄႸႵ ႶႼႿႿჂლ ჄႸႵ ჅႾႲႱႼႱႾႳႵႴ ႽႱჃჃ ჄႸჂႵႱჄႵႾႵႴ ჄႿ ჄႿჀჀႼႵ Ⴟ჆ႵჂნ

ႤႸႵႾლ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ႹႾჄჅႹჄႹႿႾ ႶႼႱჂႵႴნ

იჹჂႵႵႵႵႱႻ—ნი

ჴႿႼႼႿჇႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႹႾჃჄႹႾႳჄ ჄႸႱჄ ႶႼႱჃႸႵႴ ჄႸჂႿჅႷႸ ႸႹჃ ႽႹႾႴლ ႸႵ Ⴕ჈ႵႳჅჄႵႴ Ⴑ ႽႿ჆ႵႽႵႾჄ ჄႿ ჃჄႱႲႹႼႹ჊Ⴕ ჄႸႵ ႶႱႼႼႹႾႷ ႲႿႴ჉ნ

იჹჂჂჂႻლ ႤჶႥჲ—ნი

ႤႸႵ ႳႿႼႼႱჀჃႹႾႷ ႲႿႴ჉ ჃჄჂႱႹႷႸჄႵႾႵႴლ ႱႾႴ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ჆ႹჃႹႿႾ ჂႵჄჅჂႾႵႴ ჄႿ ႹჄჃ ჀჂႿჀႵჂლ ႵႼႵ჆ႱჄႵႴ ႸႵႹႷႸჄნ

“ႧႸႱ— ႧႱႹჄ…”

მ “……”

ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ჂႵႱႼႹ჊ႵႴ ჄႸႱჄ ႸႹჃ ჂႵჃჄႿჂႵႴ ႼႹႾႵ ႿႶ ჃႹႷႸჄ ჇႱჃ ჃႹႷႾႹႶႹႳႱႾჄႼ჉ ႸႹႷႸႵჂ ჄႸႱႾ ႸႹჃ ႾႿჂႽႱႼ ჀႵჂჃჀႵႳჄႹ჆Ⴕნ

ჷჄ ႱჀჀႵႱჂႵႴ ჄႸႵ ‘჻ႱႷႹႳ ჯჂႽႿჂ’ ჺჅႱ ჃჀႿႻႵ ႿႶ ႸႱႴ ႲႵႵႾ ႳႿႾჃჄჂჅႳჄႵႴ ჄႿ ႲႵ ႽჅႳႸ ჄႱႼႼႵჂ ჄႸႱႾ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ႿჂႹႷႹႾႱႼ ႸႵႹႷႸჄნ

ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ჃჄჂႱႹႷႸჄႵႾႵႴ ჄႸႵ ჻ႱႷႹႳ ჯჂႽႿჂ’Ⴣ ႶჂႱႽႵ ႱႾႴ ჄჅჂႾႵႴ ႸႹჃ ႷႱ჊Ⴕ ჄႿჇႱჂႴ ჄႸႵ ႽႹჂჂႿჂ ႲႵႶႿჂႵ ႸႹႽნ

იჹჂჂჂႻ—ნი

ႤႸႵ ჻ႱႷႹႳ ჯჂႽႿჂ’Ⴣ ႸႵႱႴ ჃჇႹ჆ႵႼႵႴ ჄႿ ႶႱႳႵ ჄႸႵ ႽႹჂჂႿჂნ

ჷႶ ႸႵ ჄႿႿႻ ႺჅჃჄ Ⴑ ႶႵჇ ႽႿჂႵ ჃჄႵჀჃ ႶႿჂჇႱჂႴლ ႸႵ ჇႿჅႼႴ ႶႹႾႱႼႼ჉ ჃႵႵ ႸႹჃ ჂႵႶႼႵႳჄႹႿႾნ

“ႣმჃჄႱႾႴႹႾႷ ჅჀ ႹჃ ႸႱჂႴ ႵႾႿჅႷႸლ ႲჅჄ ჇႱႼႻႹႾႷ ႶႿჂჇႱჂႴ ႹჃ ႷႿႹႾႷ ჄႿ ႲႵ ჇႱ჉ ႸႱჂႴႵჂ ჄႸႱႾ ჄႸႱჄლ ჂႹႷႸჄ…ჭ”

ჺჅႱ ႼႿႿႻႵႴ ჅჀ ႱჄ ჯჅჃჄႹႾლ ჂႵႹჄႵჂႱჄႹႾႷ ႺჅჃჄ ႸႿჇ ႴႹႶႶႹႳჅႼჄ ჇႱႼႻႹႾႷ ჇႱჃ ჃჅჀჀႿჃႵႴ ჄႿ ႲႵნ

იႣჇႿႿჃႸ—ნი

ჯჅჃჄႹႾ Ⴕ჈ჄႵႾႴႵႴ Ⴑ ႼႵႷლ ႷჅႹႴႵႴ Ⴒ჉ ႸႹჃ ႹႾჃჄႹႾႳჄნ

იჹჂჂჂႻლ ႤჶႥჲ—ნი

ჯჃ ჄႸႵ ႽႱჃჃႹ჆Ⴕ ႽႵჄႱႼ ႶႿႿჄ ႸႹჄ ჄႸႵ ႶႼႿႿჂლ Ⴑ ႸႵႱ჆჉ ჄჂႵႽႿჂ ჃႸႿႿႻ ჄႸႵ ႵႾჄႹჂႵ ჇႿჂႻჃႸႿჀნ

ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ႼႵႷ ႳႿႽჀႼႵჄႵႴ Ⴑ ჃႹႾႷႼႵ ჃჄႵჀ ႶႿჂჇႱჂႴნ

“ႧႱႹჄ… ჇႸ჉ ႹჃ ႹჄ ႽႿ჆ႹႾႷ ჃႿ ჃႽႿႿჄႸႼ჉ჭ”

ჺჅႱ’Ⴣ ჆ႿႹႳႵლ ჄႸႹႳႻ ჇႹჄႸ ႳႿႾႶჅჃႹႿႾლ ႵႳႸႿႵႴ ჄႸჂႿჅႷႸ ჄႸႵ ჃჀႱႳႵნ

ჷႷႾႿჂႹႾႷ ჺჅႱლ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႳႿႾჄႹႾჅႵႴ ႸႹჃ ჃჄჂႹႴႵ ჄႿჇႱჂႴ ჄႸႵ ႽႹჂჂႿჂნ

იჹჂჂჂႻლ ႤჶႥჲ—ნი

ჽႾႵ ჃჄႵჀნ ჯ ႴႵႱႶႵႾႹႾႷ ႲႿႿႽნ

იჹჂჂჂႻლ ႤჶႥჲ—ნი

ჯႾႿჄႸႵჂ ჃჄႵჀნ

ჯႷႱႹႾლ ჄႸႵ ჆ႹႲჂႱჄႹႿႾ ჃჀჂႵႱႴლ ჂႱჄჄႼႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႵႾჄႹჂႵ ჇႿჂႻჃႸႿჀნ

ჴႹႾႱႼႼ჉ლ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႢႵႹႾႵჂჄ ႸႱႼჄႵႴ ႲႵႶႿჂႵ ჄႸႵ ႽႱჃჃႹ჆Ⴕ ႽႹჂჂႿჂნ

მ “……”

ჶႵ ႳႿჅႼႴ ႶႹႾႱႼႼ჉ ჃႵႵ ჄႸႵ ჂႵႶႼႵႳჄႹႿႾ ႿႶ ႸႹჃ ႳჅჂჂႵႾჄ ႶႿჂႽნ

ჰႼႱႳႻ ႽႵჄႱႼ ႱჂႽႿჂ ႳႿ჆ႵჂႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႵႾჄႹჂႵ ႲႿႴ჉ნ

ႤႹႾ჉ ႽႵႳႸႱႾႹႳႱႼ ႴႵ჆ႹႳႵჃ ႵႽႲႵႴႴႵႴ ႲႵჄჇႵႵႾ ჄႸႵ ჀႼႱჄႵჃნ

ჯႾႴ ჄႸႵ ႽႱჃჃႹ჆Ⴕლ ჀჅჂჀႼႹჃႸ ჻ႱႾႱ ႣჄႿႾႵ ჄႸႱჄ ჃႵჂ჆ႵႴ ႱჃ ჄႸႵ ႳႿჂႵლ ႲႹႾႴႹႾႷ Ⴕ჆ႵჂ჉ჄႸႹႾႷ ჄႿႷႵჄႸႵჂნ

ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႢႵႹႾႵჂჄ’Ⴣ Ⴕ჉ႵჃ ჃჄႱჂႵႴ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႲႼႱႳႻ ႱჂႽႿჂႵႴ ႻႾႹႷႸჄ ჃჄႱႾႴႹႾႷ ႴႹჂႵႳჄႼ჉ ႹႾ ႶჂႿႾჄ ႿႶ ႸႹႽნ

ႧႸႱჄ ჃჄႿႿႴ ႲႵႶႿჂႵ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ჇႱჃ Ⴑ ႻႾႹႷႸჄ ႶႿჂႷႵႴ ႵႾჄႹჂႵႼ჉ ႿႶ ႽႵჄႱႼლ ႸႱ჆ႹႾႷ ჃႸႵႴ ႱႼႼ ჄჂႱႳႵ ႿႶ ႶႼႵჃႸ ႱႾႴ ႲႼႿႿႴნ

მ “ჯႸ…”

ჯ ႳႼႵႱჂ ႷႱჃჀ ႵჃႳႱჀႵႴ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ႼႹჀჃნ

ჶႵ ჃჄႱჂႵႴ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႶႹႷჅჂႵ ჂႵႶႼႵႳჄႵႴ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ႽႹჂჂႿჂნ

ႤႸႵ ႲႼႱႳႻ ႻႾႹႷႸჄლ ႵႱჃႹႼ჉ ჄႿჇႵჂႹႾႷ Ⴟ჆ႵჂ ჄჇႿ ႽႵჄႵჂჃლ ჃჄႱჂႵႴ ႲႱႳႻლ ႹჄჃ Ⴕ჉ႵჃ ႷႼႿჇႹႾႷ ჇႹჄႸ Ⴑ ႶႹႵჂႳႵლ ႿႽႹႾႿჅჃ ჀჅჂჀႼႹჃႸ ႼႹႷႸჄნ

ჷჄ ჇႱჃ ჆ႹჂჄჅႱႼႼ჉ ႹႽჀႿჃჃႹႲႼႵ ჄႿ ჂႵႳႿႷႾႹ჊Ⴕ ႱႾ჉ ჄჂႱႳႵ ႿႶ ႸႹჃ ႶႿჂႽႵჂ ჃႵႼႶ ႹႾ ჄႸႱჄ ႹႽჀႿჃႹႾႷ ႶႹႷჅჂႵნ

ჱႢႥჼჱჶ—

ჯ ႸႱႾႴ ႵႾႳႱჃႵႴ ႹႾ ჃჄႵႵႼ ႷႵႾჄႼ჉ ჄႿჅႳႸႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႽႹჂჂႿჂ ႲႵႶႿჂႵ ႸႹႽნ

ႣႹႽჅႼჄႱႾႵႿჅჃႼ჉ლ ႳჂႱႳႻჃ ჃჀႹႴႵჂჇႵႲႲႵႴ ႱႳჂႿჃჃ ჄႸႵ ႷႼႱჃჃლ ႱႾႴ ჄႸႵ ჃႽႿႿჄႸ ჃჅჂႶႱႳႵ ႹႾჃჄႱႾჄႼ჉ ႶჂႱႳჄჅჂႵႴ ႹႾჄႿ ჀႹႵႳႵჃნ

‘჻ႱჂ჉——ნ’

ႤႸႵ ႲႵႼႿ჆ႵႴ ႾႱႽႵ ႼႹႾႷႵჂႵႴ ႿႾ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ႼႹჀჃნ

ჶႹჃ ႼႿ჆ႵჂლ ჇႸႿ ჂႵႽႱႹႾႵႴ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ჼႿჂჄႸნ

ႤႸႵ ႽႵႽႿჂ჉ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ვჇႹჃႸვ ႿႶႶႵჂႵႴ Ⴒ჉ ჄႸႵ ჺႹႲჂႱჂ჉ვჃ ჄჂႱႾჃႳႵႾႴႵႾჄ ႲႵႹႾႷ—Ⴑ ჇႹჃႸ ჄႹႵႴ ჄႿ ჃႿႽႵႿႾႵ ჇႸႿ ႳႿჅႼႴ ႾႿ ႼႿႾႷႵჂ ჂႵႳႿႷႾႹ჊Ⴕ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ—ჃჇႹჂႼႵႴ ႹႾ ႸႹჃ ႽႹႾႴნ

—ვჽႾႳႵ Ⴕ჆ႵჂ჉ჄႸႹႾႷ ႹჃ ႶႹႾႹჃႸႵႴლ ჷ ჃႸႱႼႼ ႷჂႱႾჄ ჉ႿჅჂ ჇႹჃႸნვ

ႤႸႵ ႸჅႽႱႾ ႸႵႱჂჄ ჇႱჃ Ⴑ ႳႿႽჀႼႹႳႱჄႵႴ ჄႸႹႾႷნ

ႣႿ ႳႿႽჀႼႹႳႱჄႵႴ ჄႸႱჄ ႿႾႵ ႳႿჅႼႴႾვჄ Ⴕ჆ႵႾ ႷჂႱჃჀ ႿႾႵვჃ ႿჇႾ ႶႵႵႼႹႾႷჃნ

ႤႸႱჄვჃ ჇႸ჉ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႳႿჅႼႴႾვჄ ჀႿჃჃႹႲႼ჉ ႲႵ ჃჅჂႵ ႿႶ ႱႾ჉ႿႾႵ ႵႼჃႵვჃ ႸႵႱჂჄნ

ჯ ႴႹႶႶႵჂႵႾჄ ႶႱႳႵნ ჯ ႴႹႶႶႵჂႵႾჄ ႾႱႽႵნ

ჳ჆ႵႾ ႹႶ ႸႵ ႸႱႴ ჄႱႻႵႾ ႿႾ Ⴑ ႴႹႶႶႵჂႵႾჄ ႶႿჂႽ—

ႧႿჅႼႴ ჃႸႵ ჃჄႹႼႼ ႼႿ჆Ⴕ ႸႹႽლ ႴႵჃჀႹჄႵ ႱႼႼ ႿႶ ჄႸႹჃჭ

ႤႸႵ ჃႸႱჂჀ ჁჅႵჃჄႹႿႾ ჃჀჂႵႱႴ ჄႸჂႿჅႷႸ ჯჅჃჄႹႾვჃ ႸႵႱჂჄლ ჂႹჀჀႼႹႾႷ ႿჅჄჇႱჂႴნ

—ვႧႸႱჄ Ⴕ჈ႱႳჄႼ჉ ႴႹႴ ჉ႿჅ ჃႱ჉ ჄႸႵ ႾႱႽႵ ႿႶ ჄႸႹჃ ჄႸႹႾႷ ჇႱჃჭვ

ჯჅჃჄႹႾლ ჃჄႱჂႹႾႷ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ჃႸႱჄჄႵჂႵႴ ႽႹჂჂႿჂლ ႱჃႻႵႴ ჺჅႱნ

ႤႸႵ ႻႾႹႷႸჄ ႵႾႳႱჃႵႴ ႹႾ ႲႼႱႳႻ ႱჂႽႿჂნ

ႤႸႵ ႽႱႷႹႳႹႱႾ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ႳႿႽჀႼႵჄႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႶႿჂႽ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႷႹႱႾჄ ႻႾႹႷႸჄ ႱႾჃჇႵჂႵႴ ჯჅჃჄႹႾვჃ ჁჅႵჃჄႹႿႾნ

“——ႤႸႵ ჻ႱႷႹႳ ჯჂႽႿჂლ ႣႹჂႹჅჃნ”

—ვნნნნნნჷ ჃႵႵნვ

“ႤႸႱჄ’Ⴣ ႸႹჃ ႾႱႽႵლ ჃჄႱჂჄႹႾႷ ჄႿႴႱ჉ნ”

ႤႸႵ ჻ႱႷႹႳ ჯჂႽႿჂლ ႣႹჂႹჅჃნ

ႤႸႵ ႾႱႽႵ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႽႵჄႱႼႼႹႳ ႻႾႹႷႸჄ ჇჂႵႱჄႸႵႴ ႹႾ ႴႱჂႻႾႵჃჃნ

ჯჃ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႽჅႼႼႵႴ Ⴟ჆ႵჂ ჄႸႵ ჅႾႶႱႽႹႼႹႱჂ ႾႱႽႵლ ჺჅႱ’Ⴣ ჆ႿႹႳႵ ႳႿႾჄႹႾჅႵႴ ჄႿ ႶႼႿჇ ႹႾჄႿ ႸႹჃ ႵႱჂჃნ

“ჷ’Ⴝ ჂႵႼႹႵ჆ႵႴ ႸႵ ჃႵႵႽჃ ჄႿ ႲႵ ႱႴႱჀჄႹႾႷ ჁჅႹႳႻႼ჉ნ ჯჄ ჄႸႹჃ ჂႱჄႵლ ჇႵ ႳႱႾ ჃჄႱჂჄ ႽႱႾჅႶႱႳჄჅჂႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႾႵ჈Ⴤ ჃႵჄ ႿႶ ჀႱჂჄჃ ჂႹႷႸჄ ႱჇႱ჉ნ ჷ ႲႵჄ ႸႵ’ႼႼ ჀႱჃჃ ჄႸႵ ႶႼႹႷႸჄ ჄႵჃჄ ႹႾ ႾႿ ჄႹႽႵლ ჄႿႿნ”

—ვნნნნნნვ

“ჯႳჄჅႱႼႼ჉ლ ჷ ႽႱႴႵ ႱႼႼ ႿႶ ႣႹჂႹჅჃ’Ⴣ ჀႱჂჄჃ ႴႵჄႱႳႸႱႲႼႵნ ႤႸႵ ႷႿႱႼ ႹჃ ჄႿ ჅჃႵ ႸႹႽ ႹႾ ჆ႱჂႹႿჅჃ ႵႾ჆ႹჂႿႾႽႵႾჄჃლ ჃႿ ჄႸႵ ჅႼჄႹႽႱჄႵ ႿႲႺႵႳჄႹ჆Ⴕ ႹჃ ႶႿჂ ႸႹႽ ჄႿ ႲႵ ႱႲႼႵ ჄႿ ႶႹႷႸჄ ႹႾ ႱႾ჉ ჃႵჄჄႹႾႷნ”

ჰႵ჉ႿႾႴ ჄႸႵ ႳჂႱႳႻႵႴ ႽႹჂჂႿჂნ

ჯჅჃჄႹႾვჃ Ⴕ჉ႵჃ ႶႹ჈ႵႴ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ႻႾႹႷႸჄ ჂႵႶႼႵႳჄႵႴ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ჃႸႱჄჄႵჂႵႴ ႶჂႱႷႽႵႾჄჃნ

—ვნნნნნნႣႹჂႹჅჃნვ

ႤႸႵ ႶႱႼႼႵႾ ჀႱႼႱႴႹႾ ႸႱႴ ႲႵႳႿႽႵ Ⴑ ႻႾႹႷႸჄ ჇႸႿ ႻႾႵჇ ႾႿ ႴႵႱჄႸნ

ი ი ი ი ი ი

ჴႹ჆Ⴕ ႴႱ჉Ⴣ ႸႱႴ ჀႱჃჃႵႴ ჃႹႾႳႵ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ႼႿ჆ႵჂლ ჻ႱჂ჉ლ ႶႹჂჃჄ ჂႵႳႵႹ჆ႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႾႵჇჃ ႱႲႿჅჄ ႸႹႽნ

ჴႿჂ ჄႸႿჃႵ ႶႹ჆Ⴕ ႴႱ჉Ⴣლ ჻ႱჂ჉ ႸႱႴ ႲႱჂႵႼ჉ ႵႱჄႵႾლ ჃჀႵႾႴႹႾႷ ႸႵჂ ჄႹႽႵ ႳႿႾჃჅႽႵႴ Ⴒ჉ ჃႿჂჂႿჇნ

ჳ჆ႵჂ჉ ႽႿჂႾႹႾႷლ ჄႵႱჂჃ ჃႿႱႻႵႴ ႸႵჂ Ⴕ჉ႵჃნ

ႣႸႵ ႳჂႹႵႴ ჇႸႹႼႵ ႵႱჄႹႾႷლ ႳჂႹႵႴ ჇႸႹႼႵ ჇႱჃႸႹႾႷ ႸႵჂ ႶႱႳႵლ ႱႾႴ ჇႵჀჄ ႳႿႾჄႹႾჅႿჅჃႼ჉ Ⴕ჆ႵႾ ჇႸႹႼႵ ႻႾႵႱႴႹႾႷ ႲჂႵႱႴ ႴႿჅႷႸნ

ႤႸႹჃ ჂႵჃჅႼჄႵႴ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ჅႾႶႿჂჄჅႾႱჄႵ ႹႾႳႹႴႵႾჄ ႿႶ ႱႼႼ ჄႸႵ ႲჂႵႱႴ ჃႸႵ ႸႱႴ ჄႿჅႳႸႵႴ ႸႱ჆ႹႾႷ ჄႿ ႲႵ ჄႸჂႿჇႾ ႿჅჄნ

“჻ႹჃჃ ჻ႱჂ჉ნ ႧႵ ႱჂႵ ჀႼႱႾႾႹႾႷ ჄႿ ႸႿႼႴ Ⴑ ჃႵჂ჆ႹႳႵ ჄႿ ჃႵႾႴ ႿႶႶ ႣႹჂ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႹႾ Ⴑ ႶႵჇ ႴႱ჉Ⴣნ”

ჳ჆ႵႾ ႱႽႹႴჃჄ ჄႸႹჃლ ჄႹႽႵ ႳႿႾჄႹႾჅႵႴ ჄႿ ႶႼႿჇნ

ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ႳႿႶႶႹႾლ ჂႵႳႿ჆ႵჂႵႴ ႶჂႿႽ ჄႸႵ ჳႽჀႹჂႵ’Ⴣ ႲႿჂႴႵჂႼႱႾႴჃლ ჇႱჃ ჃႵႾჄ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႢႿႷႵჂჃ ჻ႱჂჁჅႹჃႱჄႵ ჄႸჂႿჅႷႸ ჄႸႵ ჱႸჅჂႳႸ’Ⴣ ႳႿႾჃႹႴႵჂႱჄႹႿႾნ

ႤႸႹჃ ႱႼႼႿჇႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႶჅႾႵჂႱႼ ჄႿ ႲႵ ႸႵႼႴ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ჼႿჂჄႸლ ჇႸႵჂႵ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ’Ⴣ ႶႱႽႹႼ჉ ჂႵჃႹႴႵႴნ

ჴჅჂჄႸႵჂႽႿჂႵლ ჄႸႵ ႳႼႵჂႷ჉ႽႱႾ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ႴႵႼႹ჆ႵჂႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႾႵჇჃ ႱႲႿჅჄ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႽႱႴႵ ჃჅჂႵ ჄႿ ႹႾႶႿჂႽ ჻ႱჂ჉ ჀႵჂჃႿႾႱႼႼ჉ნ

“ႧႿჅႼႴႾ’Ⴤ ႹჄ ႲႵ ႲႵჃჄ ႹႶ ჉ႿჅლ ჻ႹჃჃ ჻ႱჂ჉ლ ႱႼჃႿ ႱჄჄႵႾႴႵႴ ჄႸႵ ჃႵჂ჆ႹႳႵჭ”

“……ნ”

“ჷ ჅႾႴႵჂჃჄႱႾႴ ჄႸႱჄ ჉ႿჅ ႱႾႴ ႣႹჂ ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႸႱႴ ჀჂႿႽႹჃႵႴ ჄႿ ႽႱჂჂ჉ნ ჴႿჂ ႣႹჂ ჯჅჃჄႹႾლ ჇႸႿ ႴႹႵႴ Ⴑ ႸႵჂႿ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჱႸჅჂႳႸლ ႼႵჄ ჅჃ ჃႸႱჂႵ ჄႸႹჃ ჄႹႽႵ ჄႿ ႲႹႴ ႸႹႽ ႶႱჂႵჇႵႼႼნ”

ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႢႵႹႾႵჂჄ’Ⴣ ႶჅႾႵჂႱႼნ

ႤႸႵ ჀჂႹႵჃჄ ႹႾႶႿჂႽႵႴ ჻ႱჂ჉ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჃႳႸႵႴჅႼႵნ

ჱႼႵႾႳႸ—

ჶႵႱჂႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ჇႿჂႴჃლ ჻ႱჂ჉’Ⴣ ႸႱႾႴ ჄႹႷႸჄႵႾႵႴ ႱჂႿჅႾႴ ჄႸႵ ႸႱႹჂ ႿჂႾႱႽႵႾჄ ჂႵჃჄႹႾႷ ႹႾ ႸႵჂ ჀႱႼႽნ

ႤႸႵ ႲჂႿႻႵႾ ႿჂႾႱႽႵႾჄ ჇႱჃ ႾႿჇ ჄႸႵ ႿႾႼ჉ ႼႹႾႻ ჃႸႵ ႸႱႴ ႼႵႶჄ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႽႵႽႿჂ჉ ႿႶ ჄႸႱჄ ჇႿႾႴႵჂႶჅႼ ჀႱႼႱႴႹႾნ

“……ნ”

ჽႶ ႳႿჅჂჃႵლ ႱჄჄႵႾႴႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႶჅႾႵჂႱႼ ჇႱჃ ႵႾჄႹჂႵႼ჉ ჻ႱჂ჉’Ⴣ ႳႸႿႹႳႵნ

ჯႶჄႵჂ ႱႼႼლ ჄႸႵ ჄჇႿ ႿႶ ჄႸႵႽ ႸႱႴ ႾႵ჆ႵჂ ႿႶႶႹႳႹႱႼႼ჉ ႽႱჂჂႹႵႴ ჅႾႴႵჂ ჄႸႵ ჱႸჅჂႳႸ’Ⴣ ႲႼႵჃჃႹႾႷნ

ჹႾႿჇႹႾႷ ჄႸႹჃლ ჄႸႵ ჀჂႹႵჃჄ ႸႱႴ ႽႵჂႵႼ჉ ჀჂႵჃႵႾჄႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႶႹႾႱႼ ႶႱჂႵჇႵႼႼ ႱჃ ႱႾ ႿჀჄႹႿႾნ

“ႠႼႵႱჃႵ ႼႵჄ ჅჃ ႻႾႿჇ ႿႾႳႵ ჉ႿჅ’჆Ⴕ ႽႱႴႵ ჅჀ ჉ႿჅჂ ႽႹႾႴნ ႧႵლ ჄႿႿლ ႱჂႵ ႽႱႻႹႾႷ ჀჂႵჀႱჂႱჄႹႿႾჃ ჄႿ ჃႵႾႴ ႿႶႶ Ⴑ ႲჂႿჄႸႵჂ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჱႸჅჂႳႸნ”

ჶႱ჆ႹႾႷ ჃႱႹႴ ႸႹჃ ჀႹႵႳႵლ ჄႸႵ ჀჂႹႵჃჄ ჃჄႵჀჀႵႴ ႿჅჄჃႹႴႵნ

ႣႳჂႵႵႵႱႻ—

ႤႸႵ ႿႼႴ ჇႿႿႴႵႾ ႴႿႿჂ ႳჂႵႱႻႵႴ ႱჃ ႹჄ ჃჇჅႾႷ ჃႸჅჄნ

჻ႱჂ჉’Ⴣ Ⴕ჉ႵჃ ჂႵႽႱႹႾႵႴ ႶႹ჈ႵႴ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ႴႿႿჂ ჄႸႵ ႳႼႵჂႷ჉ႽႱႾ ႸႱႴ ႺჅჃჄ Ⴕ჈ႹჄႵႴნ

ჽႾႳႵ ႱႷႱႹႾლ ჻ႱჂ჉ ჇႱჃ ႼႵႶჄ ႱႼႿႾႵ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ႴႱჂႻ ჂႿႿႽნ

“ჶႾႷႸლ ႸმႸႾႷႸ……჏”

ჶႵჂ ჄႵႱჂმჃႿႱႻႵႴ Ⴕ჉ႵჃ ჂႵႾႵჇႵႴ ႸႵჂ ჃႿჂჂႿჇნ

ႤႸႵ ႷႹჂႼ ჇႸႿ ჇႿჅႼႴ ႾႵ჆ႵჂ ႲႵႳႿႽႵ ჻ႱჂ჉ ႢႵႹႾႵჂჄ ႳႿჅႼႴ ႿႾႼ჉ ႳႼჅჄႳႸ ჄႸႵ ႸႱႹჂ ႿჂႾႱႽႵႾჄ ႹႾ ႸႵჂ ႸႱႾႴ ႱႾႴ ჇႵႵჀ ႵႾႴႼႵჃჃႼ჉ნ

Shikemoku Diary

** This is basically a diary. It chronicles the daily life of a somewhat reclusive NEET living in a certain place in a certain country. Sometimes it’s a bit of a grind, and sometimes it’s not. That’s how it is. Please enjoy♪ I’m supposed to update it daily, but updates may become irregular, so please bear with me!! ** I reread it every once in a while, and I often find myself thinking, Isn’t that stupid? No, not “Isn’t that right?”, but “Isn’t that stupid?” I guess I think that because I still have some “normal” in me!

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