Shikemoku Diary

Chapter 77

Shikemoku Diary

** This is basically a diary. It chronicles the daily life of a somewhat reclusive NEET living in a certain place in a certain country. Sometimes it’s a bit of a grind, and sometimes it’s not. That’s how it is. Please enjoy♪ I’m supposed to update it daily, but updates may become irregular, so please bear with me!! ** I reread it every once in a while, and I often find myself thinking, Isn’t that stupid? No, not “Isn’t that right?”, but “Isn’t that stupid?” I guess I think that because I still have some “normal” in me!

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ႤႸႵ ჴႱႾჄႱჃჄႹႳႱႼ ჯჂႳႸႹ჆ႵჃშ ჱႵႼႵჃჄႹႱნ

ჷႾ ჄႸႵ ႼႹႲჂႱჂ჉ვჃ ႱႾჄႹჁჅႵ ႱჄႽႿჃჀႸႵჂႵლ ႱႼႼ ႽႵႽႲႵჂჃ ჀႵჂႹႿႴႹႳႱႼႼ჉ ႷႱჄႸႵჂႵႴ ႶႿჂ Ⴑ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷნ

ႤႸႵ ჂႵႷჅႼႱჂ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႣႵႳჂႵჄ ႣႿႳႹႵჄ჉ლ ჀჂႵჃႹႴႵႴ Ⴟ჆ႵჂ Ⴒ჉ ჄႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂლ ჰႵႷႵჂჄႿႾ ჯႾჄႱჂႵჃნ

ჷჄ ჇႱჃ Ⴑ ჄႹႽႵ ႶႿჂ ႽႵႽႲႵჂჃ ჄႿ ჃႸႱჂႵ ჆ႱႼჅႱႲႼႵ ႹႾჄႵႼႼႹႷႵႾႳႵ ႱႾႴ ႷႱჅႷႵ ႵႱႳႸ ႿჄႸႵჂვჃ ႱႳჄႹ჆ႹჄႹႵჃნ

ჯႾႴ ჄႿႴႱ჉ლ ჄႸႵ ჂႵႷჅႼႱჂႼ჉ ჃႳႸႵႴჅႼႵႴ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷ ჇႱჃ ႿႾႳႵ ႱႷႱႹႾ ႹႾ ჃႵჃჃႹႿႾნ

჻჉ Ⴕ჉ႵჃ ႶႵႼႼ ჅჀႿႾ ჃႿႽႵႿႾႵ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴႾვჄ ႲႵႵႾ ჀႱ჉ႹႾႷ ႱჄჄႵႾჄႹႿႾ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ჀჂႿႳႵႵႴႹႾႷჃ ႶႿჂ ჁჅႹჄႵ ჃႿႽႵ ჄႹႽႵნ

“ჶႽჀႸ—ნ”

ႤႸႵ ႷႹჂႼლ ჇႵႱჂႹႾႷ Ⴑ ႲႼႱႳႻ ႽჅႶႶႼႵჂ ႱჂႿჅႾႴ ႸႵჂ ႾႵႳႻლ ჇႱჃ ჃჄႱჂႹႾႷ ႹႾჄႵႾჄႼ჉ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ჃႳႱႲႲႱჂႴ ႶႹ჈ႵႴ ჄႿ ႸႵჂ ჄႸႹႷႸნ

ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱ ჯჂჄჂႹႱლ ჄႸႵ ჃჇႿჂႴ ႽႱჃჄႵჂ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჳႹႷႸჄ ႣჇႿჂႴჃ ჱႿჅႾႳႹႼნ

ႣႸႵ ႴႹႴႾვჄ ჃჀႱჂႵ ჄႸႵ ჄႱႲႼႵ Ⴑ ႷႼႱႾႳႵლ ႶႿႳჅჃႹႾႷ ჃႿႼႵႼ჉ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ჃႳႱႲႲႱჂႴ ჀჂႿჀჀႵႴ ჅჀ ႹႾ ႶჂႿႾჄ ႿႶ ႸႵჂნ

ჽႶ ႳႿჅჂჃႵლ ჄႸႵ ჃჇႿჂႴ ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱ ჇႱჃ ႶႹ჈ႱჄႵႴ ႿႾ ჇႱჃ ႶႱჂ ႶჂႿႽ ႿჂႴႹႾႱჂ჉ნ

—ႤႸႵ ჲႵႽႿႾႹႳ ႣჇႿჂႴლ ႢႵႷჅႼჅჃნ

ჯႶჄႵჂ ႱႼႼლ ႹჄ ჇႱჃ Ⴑ ჄჂႵႱჃჅჂႵ ჷ ႸႱႴ ჃჀႵႾჄ Ⴑ ႳႿႾჃႹႴႵჂႱႲႼႵ ႱႽႿჅႾჄ ႿႶ ჄႹႽႵ ႽႿႴႹႶ჉ႹႾႷ ႺჅჃჄ ჂႵႳႵႾჄႼ჉ნ

“……ნ”

ჼႱჄჅჂႱႼႼ჉ლ ႹჄ ჇႱჃ ႹႽჀႿჃჃႹႲႼႵ ႶႿჂ ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱლ ჇႹჄႸ ႸႵჂ ႼႿჇ ႳႿႾჄჂႹႲჅჄႹႿႾ ჃႳႿჂႵლ ჄႿ ႱႳჁჅႹჂႵ Ⴑ ႴႵႽႿႾႹႳ ჃჇႿჂႴ ჃႿ ჃႿႿႾნ

ႤႸႵ ႴႵႽႿႾႹႳ ჃჇႿჂႴ ჃႸႵ ႿႲჄႱႹႾႵႴ ჇႱჃ ႱႾ ႹჄႵႽ ჂႵჁჅႹჂႹႾႷ ჃႹႷႾႹႶႹႳႱႾჄ ႳႿႾჄჂႹႲჅჄႹႿႾ ჀႿႹႾჄჃ—ნ

ჯჃ ჃჅႳႸლ ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱ ႾႵႵႴႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႱჃჃႹჃჄႱႾႳႵ ႿႶ Ⴑ ႽႵႽႲႵჂ ჇႹჄႸ ႵႾႿჅႷႸ ႳႿႾჄჂႹႲჅჄႹႿႾ ჀႿႹႾჄჃ ჄႿ ႳႸႵႳႻ ჄႸႵ ႴႵႽႿႾႹႳ ჃჇႿჂႴ ႿჅჄნ

ႣႼႹႾႷ—ნ

ႣႹჄჄႹႾႷ ႾႵ჈Ⴤ ჄႿ ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱლ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ႺჅჃჄ ჃႼႹႷႸჄႼ჉ ჅႾჃႸႵႱჄႸႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႲႼႱႴႵლ ჄႸႵ ჀႵჂჃႿႾ ჇႸႿ ႽႱႴႵ ჄႸႹჃ ჀႿჃჃႹႲႼႵ ႿჀႵႾႵႴ ႸႵჂ ႽႿჅჄႸნ

“ႧႿჇლ ჉ႿჅ ჂႵႱႼႼ჉ ႼႹႻႵ ႹჄ ႽႿჂႵ ჄႸႱႾ ჷ ჄႸႿჅႷႸჄ ჉ႿჅ ჇႿჅႼႴ……ნ”

ჺჅႱ ႠႿႼႱჂႹჃლ ჄႸႵ ႽႱႷႹႳႹႱႾ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჰႼჅႵ ჻ႱႷႹႳ ႤႿჇႵჂნ

ႤႸႵ ႽႱႷႹႳႹႱႾლ ჇႸႿჃႵ ჇႹႴႵმႲჂႹႽႽႵႴ ჇႹჄႳႸვჃ ႸႱჄ ჇႱჃ ჀჅႼႼႵႴ ႼႿჇლ ႳႿႽႽႵႾჄႵႴ ႱჃ ჃႸႵ ჇႱჄႳႸႵႴ ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱნ

ჷჄ ჇႱჃ ჺჅႱლ ႿႶ ႱႼႼ ჀႵႿჀႼႵლ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ႱႳႳႵჀჄႵႴ ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱვჃ ჂႵჁჅႵჃჄ ჄႿ ႲႿჂჂႿჇ ႸႵჂ ႳႿႾჄჂႹႲჅჄႹႿႾ ჀႿႹႾჄჃნ

ႠႵჂႸႱჀჃ ႹჄ ჇႱჃ ჄႸႱႾႻჃ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ჃჅႲჃჄႱႾჄႹႱႼ ႳႿႾჄჂႹႲჅჄႹႿႾ ჀႿႹႾჄჃ ჃႸႵვႴ ჂႱႳႻႵႴ ჅჀ ჇႸႹႼႵ ႱჃჃႹჃჄႹႾႷ Ⴝ჉ ჂႵჃႵႱჂႳႸნ

ჳ჆ႵႾ ႱႶჄႵჂ ႸႵႱჂႹႾႷ ჃჅႳႸ ႱႾ ႱჅႴႱႳႹႿჅჃ ჂႵჁჅႵჃჄლ ჃႸႵ ႸႱႴ ჂႵႱႴႹႼ჉ ႱႷჂႵႵႴ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႱჂჂႱႾႷႵႽႵႾჄნ

“ႩႵႱႸლ ჷ ႼႹႻႵ ႹჄნ”

“ჷვႽ ჂႵႼႹႵ჆ႵႴ ჉ႿჅ ႼႹႻႵ ႹჄლ ႲჅჄ ჃჄႹႼႼნ”

ჯႾႴ ჄႸႵ ჂႵჃჅႼჄ ჇႱჃ ჄႸႵ ჃႳႵႾႵ ႳჅჂჂႵႾჄႼ჉ ჀႼႱ჉ႹႾႷ ႿჅჄ ჂႹႷႸჄ ႹႾ ႶჂႿႾჄ ႿႶ ႽႵნ

ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱლ ႳႿႾჄႹႾჅႿჅჃႼ჉ ႴჂႱჇႹႾႷ ႱႾႴ ჃႸႵႱჄႸႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႴႵႽႿႾႹႳ ჃჇႿჂႴნ

ჺჅႱლ ႷႹ჆ႹႾႷ ႸႵჂ ႱႾ ႱჇႻჇႱჂႴ ჃႽႹႼႵ ჇႸႹႼႵ ჇႱჄႳႸႹႾႷ ႸႵჂნ

ჯჅჃჄႹႾლ ჇႱჄႳႸႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႴႵႽႿႾႹႳ ჃჇႿჂႴ ჇႹჄႸ Ⴑ ႼႿႿႻ ႿႶ ႼႹႾႷႵჂႹႾႷ ჂႵႷჂႵჄნ

ჯႽႹႴჃჄ ჄႸႹჃ ჃႼႹႷႸჄႼ჉ ႳႸႱႿჄႹႳ ჃႳႵႾႵლ ჄႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂვჃ ჆ႿႹႳႵლ ႳႿႾჄႹႾჅႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷლ ႲႿႿႽႵႴ ႱႳჂႿჃჃ ჄႸႵ ჄႱႲႼႵნ

“ႤႸႵ ႳჅႼჄႹ჆ႱჄႹႿႾ ჀჂႿႳႵჃჃ ႹჃ ჀჂႿႳႵႵႴႹႾႷ ჃႽႿႿჄႸႼ჉ ჃႿ ႶႱჂნ ႤႸႱჄვჃ ჄႸႱႾႻჃლ ႿႶ ႳႿჅჂჃႵლ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႶჅႼႼ ႴႵႴႹႳႱჄႹႿႾ ႿႶ ႿჅჂ ႼႱႲ ჄႿ ჄႸႹჃ ჀႱჂჄႹႳჅႼႱჂ ჄႱჃႻნ”

ჱႱႳႻႼႵლ ႳႱႳႻႼႵ—ნ

ႤႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂვჃ ჅႾႹჁჅႵႼ჉ ჅႾჀႼႵႱჃႱႾჄ ႼႱჅႷႸჄႵჂ ႶႹႼႼႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷ ჂႿႿႽნ

ႠႵჂႸႱჀჃ ჄႸႱჄ ႹႾჄႵႾჃႵლ ႷჂႱჄႹႾႷ ႼႱჅႷႸჄႵჂ ჇႱჃ ႹႽჀႿჃჃႹႲႼႵ ჄႿ ႹႷႾႿჂႵნ

ჯ ჃႸႹႶჄ—ნ

ჯჅჃჄႹႾ ႱႾႴ ჺჅႱვჃ ႷႱ჊ႵჃ ჂႵჄჅჂႾႵႴ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂნ

“ჱჅႼჄႹ჆ႱჄႹႿႾნნნ ჄႸႱჄვჃ ჄႸႵ ჀჂႿႳႵჃჃ ႿႶ ႳჂႵႱჄႹႾႷ Ⴑ ႾႵჇ ჆ႵჃჃႵႼ ჅჃႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႧႿჂႼႴ ႤჂႵႵვჃ ႶჂჅႹჄლ ႳႿჂჂႵႳჄჭ”

“ႩႵჃლ ჀჂႵႳႹჃႵႼ჉ნ ႧႵ ႱჂႵ ჀჂႵჀႱჂႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႾႵ჈Ⴤ Ⴕ჈ჀႵჂႹႽႵႾჄ ჄႿ ჇႵႼႳႿႽႵ ჄႸႵ ჵჂႵႱჄ ჽႾႵ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႽႿჂჄႱႼ ჂႵႱႼႽნ”

“……ნ”

“ႣႹႾႳႵ ჇႵ ႱჂႵ ჀჂႵჀႱჂႹႾႷ Ⴑ ჆ႵჃჃႵႼ ჃჅႹჄႱႲႼႵ ႶႿჂ Ⴑ ჄჂჅႼ჉ ႷჂႵႱჄ ႲႵႹႾႷლ ჷ ႱႽ ჀႵჂჃႿႾႱႼႼ჉ ႴႵႴႹႳႱჄႹႾႷ ჃႹႷႾႹႶႹႳႱႾჄ ႵႶႶႿჂჄ ჄႿ ჄႸႹჃნ”

ႤႸႵ ႴႹჃႳჅჃჃႹႿႾ ႱႲႿჅჄ ჄႸႵ ჄႸႹჂႴ Ⴕ჈ჀႵჂႹႽႵႾჄ ႳႿႾჄႹႾჅႵႴნ

ႤႸႵ჉ ჃჀႿႻႵ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႾႵ჈Ⴤ ჲႵჃႳႵႾჄ ႢႹჄჅႱႼლ ႽႵႴႹႱჄႵႴ Ⴒ჉ ჄႸႵ ႶჂჅႹჄ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႧႿჂႼႴ ႤჂႵႵნ

ჷჄ ჃႵႵႽႵႴ ჄႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂვჃ ჂႵჃႵႱჂႳႸ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ჲႵჃႳႵႾჄ ჇႱჃ ჀჂႿႷჂႵჃჃႹႾႷ ႹႾ Ⴑ ჃႿႽႵჇႸႱჄ ႳႿႾჃჄჂჅႳჄႹ჆Ⴕ ႴႹჂႵႳჄႹႿႾნ

ჱႿႾ჆ႵჂჃႱჄႹႿႾ ႱႲႿჅჄ ჄႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂვჃ ႾႵ჈Ⴤ Ⴕ჈ჀႵჂႹႽႵႾჄ ႶႼႿჇႵႴ ႱႽႿႾႷ ჃႵ჆ႵჂႱႼ ႽႵႽႲႵჂჃ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႣႵႳჂႵჄ ႣႿႳႹႵჄ჉ლ ႹႾႳႼჅႴႹႾႷ ჱჂႱ჉ჄႿႾნ

“ჵႹ჆ႵႾ ႸႿჇ ႴႹႶႶႹႳჅႼჄ ჄႸႱჄ ႽႱჄႵჂႹႱႼ ჇႱჃ ჄႿ ႱႳჁჅႹჂႵლ ჃႸႿჅႼႴႾვჄ ჇႵ ჃႵႵ ჃႿႽႵ ჂႵჃჅႼჄჃ ჄႸႹჃ ჄႹႽႵჭ”

“ႤႸႵ ႧႿჂႼႴ ႤჂႵႵ ႹჄჃႵႼႶ ႹჃ ႹႾႳჂႵႴႹႲႼ჉ ჃჀႵႳႹႱႼნ ႤႸႱჄ ჆ႱჃჄ ჵჂႵႱჄ ჴႿჂႵჃჄ ჃჀჂႱႾႷ ჅჀ ႶჂႿႽ ႺჅჃჄ Ⴑ ჃႹႾႷႼႵ ႧႿჂႼႴ ႤჂႵႵლ ჉ႿჅ ႻႾႿჇნ”

“ჷႾႴႵႵႴნ ჰჅჄ ႲႵႳႱჅჃႵ ჄႸႵ ႽႱჄႵჂႹႱႼ ႹჃ ჃႿ ჅႾႹჁჅႵლ ჄႸႵ ჆ႱჂႹႱႲႼႵჃ ჄႸႱჄ ႱჂႹჃႵ ႴჅჂႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ჂႵჃႵႱჂႳႸ ჀჂႿႳႵჃჃ ჇႿႾვჄ ႲႵ ႹႾჃႹႷႾႹႶႹႳႱႾჄნ”

ႣႵჂႹႿჅჃ ႴႹჃႳჅჃჃႹႿႾჃ ႳႿႾჄႹႾჅႵႴ ჄႿ ჅႾႶႿႼႴ ႱჂႿჅႾႴ ჄႸႵ ჄႱႲႼႵნ

ႣႸႹႾႷ—ნ ჱႼႱႳႻ—ნ

ჳ჆ႵႾ ႱႽႹႴჃჄ ႱႼႼ ჄႸႹჃლ ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱლ ႾႿჇ ჃႱႴႴႼႵႴ ჇႹჄႸ ႴႵႲჄლ ჃჄႹႼႼ ႸႱႴ ႸႵჂ ႷႱ჊Ⴕ ႶႹ჈ႵႴ ႶႹჂႽႼ჉ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ႴႵႽႿႾႹႳ ჃჇႿჂႴნ

“……ნ”

ჯ ჃႹჄჅႱჄႹႿႾ ჇႸႵჂႵ Ⴑ ჃႹႾႷႼႵ ႴႵႽႿႾႹႳ ჃჇႿჂႴ ႸႱႴ ႲႵႳႿႽႵ ႸႵჂ ႵႾჄႹჂႵ ႶႿჂჄჅႾႵნ

ჴႿჂ Ⴑ ვႣჇႿჂႴ ႠႿႿჂლვ ჄႸႵ Ⴕ჈ႹჃჄႵႾႳႵ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႴႵႽႿႾႹႳ ჃჇႿჂႴ ႽႹႷႸჄ ႲႵ ჄႸႵ ႿႾႼ჉ ჃႿႼႱႳႵნ

ჸჅჃჄ ႱჃ ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱვჃ ჀႱჃჃႹႿႾႱჄႵ ႷႱ჊Ⴕ ჇႱჃ ႶႹ჈ႵႴ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ჲႵႽႿႾႹႳ ႣჇႿჂႴ ႢႵႷჅႼჅჃ—ნ

“ႤႸႵჂႵႶႿჂႵლ ႲႵႶႿჂႵ ჀჂႿႳႵႵႴႹႾႷ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႸႵ ႾႵ჈Ⴤ ჲႵჃႳႵႾჄ ႢႹჄჅႱႼლ ჷ ჇႱჃ ჄႸႹႾႻႹႾႷ ႿႶ ႱჃႻႹႾႷ ႿჅჂ ႽႵჂႳႵႾႱჂ჉ ႶჂႹႵႾႴ ႶႿჂ Ⴑ ႶႱ჆ႿჂ ჄႸႹჃ ჄႹႽႵნ”

“……჻Ⴕჭ”

ჯ ჃႸႹႶჄ—ნ

ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱვჃ ႷႱ჊Ⴕლ ႸႱ჆ႹႾႷ ႸႵႱჂႴ ჄႸႵ ჃჅႴႴႵႾ ჂႵႽႱჂႻლ ჃႸႹႶჄႵႴ ჄႿჇႱჂႴ ჄႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂნ

ჱႱႳႻႼႵლ ႳႱႳႻႼႵ—ნ

ႤႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂლ ჇႸႿ ႼႵჄ ႿჅჄ Ⴑ ჃჄჂႱႾႷႵ ႼႱჅႷႸლ ႽႵჄ ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱვჃ Ⴕ჉ႵჃნ

“ႤႸႵჂႵ ႹჃ Ⴑ ႳႱჄႱႼ჉ჃჄ ჄႸႱჄ ჇႿჅႼႴ ႲႵ Ⴕ჈ჄჂႵႽႵႼ჉ ჅჃႵႶჅႼ ႹႾ ჄႸႹჃ ჃႹჄჅႱჄႹႿႾნ”

ႤႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂვჃ ႶႹႾႷႵჂ ჀႿႹႾჄႵႴ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ჄჂႱႾჃႼჅႳႵႾჄ ჃႳჂႵႵႾ ႶႼႿႱჄႹႾႷ ႱႲႿ჆Ⴕ ჄႸႵ ჄႱႲႼႵნ

ჱႵႼႵჃჄႹႱვჃ ჃჅჂ჆ႵႹႼႼႱႾႳႵ ႾႵჄჇႿჂႻლ ႾႵჇႼ჉ ႵჃჄႱႲႼႹჃႸႵႴ ჅჃႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႽႱႷႹႳ ჄႿႿႼ ჺჅႱ ႸႱႴ ჅႾ჆ႵႹႼႵႴნ

ჯ ჆ႿႹႳႵ ჄႹႾႷႵႴ ჇႹჄႸ ႱႽჅჃႵႽႵႾჄ ႶႼႿჇႵႴ ႶჂႿႽ ჄႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂვჃ ႽႿჅჄႸ ႱჃ ႸႵ ჀႿႹႾჄႵႴ ႱჄ ႹჄნ

“ႧႿჅႼႴႾვჄ ჉ႿჅ ႻႾႿჇ ႹჄლ ჷ ႸႱჀჀႵႾႵႴ ჄႿ ჃჄჅႽႲႼႵ ჅჀႿႾ Ⴑ ჂႱჄႸႵჂ ႹႾჄႵჂႵჃჄႹႾႷ ჀႹႵႳႵ ႿႶ ႹႾႶႿჂႽႱჄႹႿႾ ჄႸႹჃ ჄႹႽႵნ”

ჷჄ ჃႵႵႽႵႴ ჄႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂ ႸႱႴ ႱႼჂႵႱႴ჉ ჃჄႱჂჄႵႴ ႽႱႻႹႾႷ ႶჂႵჁჅႵႾჄ ჅჃႵ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჃჅჂ჆ႵႹႼႼႱႾႳႵ ႾႵჄჇႿჂႻნ

ჯႼჄႸႿჅႷႸლ ჄႸႱჄვჃ ჇႸႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႴႵ჆ႹႳႵ ჇႱჃ ႳჂႵႱჄႵႴ ႶႿჂ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ႶႹჂჃჄ ჀႼႱႳႵნ

ႢჅჃჄႼႵლ ჂჅჃჄႼႵ—ნ

ჯჃ ჄႸႵ ჀႱႷႵჃ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႷჂႹႽႿႹჂႵ ႹႾ Ⴝ჉ ႸႱႾႴ ჄჅჂႾႵႴ ႿႾႵ Ⴒ჉ ႿႾႵნ

ႤႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂვჃ ჃჄႿჂ჉ ႳႿႾჄႹႾჅႵႴნ

“ႤႸႵჂႵვჃ ႾႿჄႸႹႾႷ ჁჅႹჄႵ ႱჃ ႵႾჄႵჂჄႱႹႾႹႾႷ ႱჃ ჃႵႳჂႵჄႼ჉ ႼႹჃჄႵႾႹႾႷ ႹႾ ႿႾ ႿჄႸႵჂჃნ ჯჀჀႱჂႵႾჄႼ჉ლ ჄႸႵ ႳႱჄႱႼ჉ჃჄ ჷვ჆Ⴕ ႲႵႵႾ ჃႵႱჂႳႸႹႾႷ ႶႿჂ ႸႱჃ ჃႿႽႵႸႿჇ ႵႾႴႵႴ ჅჀ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ჰႼႱႳႻ ჻ႱჂႻႵჄნ”

“ႩႿჅ ႸႱ჆Ⴕ ჃჅႳႸ Ⴑ ჇႹႳႻႵႴ ႸႿႲႲ჉ლ ჲႿႳჄႿჂმႾႹႽნ”

“ႧႸႵႾ ႿႾႵ ႹჃ ႳႿႿჀႵႴ ჅჀ ႹႾ Ⴑ ႼႱႲ ႴႿႹႾႷ ႾႿჄႸႹႾႷ ႲჅჄ ჂႵჃႵႱჂႳႸლ Ⴕ჆ႵႾ ჄႸႵ ႽႿჃჄ ჄჂႹ჆ႹႱႼ ႷႿჃჃႹჀ ႲႵႳႿႽႵჃ ႶႱჃႳႹႾႱჄႹႾႷნ ႣჅჂႵႼ჉ Ⴑ ჃႽႱႼႼ ႸႿႲႲ჉ ႼႹႻႵ ჄႸႹჃ ႹჃ ჀႵჂႽႹჃჃႹႲႼႵჭ”

ჼႿ ႿႾႵ ႿႶႶႵჂႵႴ ႱႾ჉ ႳႿჅႾჄႵჂႱჂႷჅႽႵႾჄჃ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂვჃ ႱჃჃႵჂჄႹႿႾნ

ႤႸႱჄ ჇႱჃ ႲႵႳႱჅჃႵ Ⴕ჆ႵჂ჉ႿႾႵ ჀჂႵჃႵႾჄ ႱႷჂႵႵႴ ჄႸႱჄლ ႶႿჂ ჄႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂლ ჄႸႹჃ ჇႱჃ Ⴑ ჃჅჂჀჂႹჃႹႾႷႼ჉ ჄႱႽႵ ႸႿႲႲ჉ნ

ჷჄ ႽჅჃჄ ႸႱ჆Ⴕ ႲႵႵႾ ႴჅႵ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂვჃ ႾႿჄႿჂႹႿჅჃႼ჉ ႵႳႳႵႾჄჂႹႳ ჀႵჂჃႿႾႱႼႹჄ჉ნ

“ჯႾ჉ჇႱ჉ნნნ ႹႾ ჄႸႱჄ ჃႵႾჃႵლ ჷვႴ ႼႹႻႵ ჄႿ ႱჃႻ ႿჅჂ ႽႵჂႳႵႾႱჂ჉ ႶჂႹႵႾႴ ჄႿ ჂႵჄჂႹႵ჆Ⴕ ჄႸႵ ႳႱჄႱႼ჉ჃჄნ ႧႸႱჄ ႴႿ ჉ႿჅ ჃႱ჉ჭ”

ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱვჃ ႷႱ჊Ⴕ ჃႵჄჄႼႵႴ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂნ

ჶႵჂ Ⴕ჉ႵჃ ჇႵჂႵ ჃჄႹႼႼ ႴႹႶႶႹႳჅႼჄ ჄႿ ჂႵႱႴნ

ႧႿჂႴჃ ႹႾჄႵႾႴႵႴ ჄႿ ჃჀჅჂ ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱ ႿႾ ჀႿჅჂႵႴ ႶჂႿႽ ჄႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂვჃ ႽႿჅჄႸნ

“ჷჄვჃ ჁჅႹჄႵ Ⴑ ႴႹჃჄႱႾႳႵ ႶჂႿႽ Ⴝ჉ ႼႱႲლ ჉ႿჅ ჃႵႵნ ჯႾႴ ჄႿ ჀႱ჉ ႿႶႶ ჄႸႵ ႴႵႲჄ ჉ႿჅ ႺჅჃჄ ჄႿႿႻ ႿႾლ ჉ႿჅვႼႼ ႾႵႵႴ ჄႿ ႲႵ ႲჅჃ჉ ႶႿჂ Ⴑ ჇႸႹႼႵლ ჇႿႾვჄ ჉ႿჅჭ”

“ႧႵႼႼლ ჄႸႱჄვჃნნნნნნ”

“ႩႿჅ ႱႼჃႿ ႾႵႵႴ ჄႿ ჄႵჃჄ ႿჅჄ ჉ႿჅჂ ႾႵჇႼ჉ ႱႳჁჅႹჂႵႴ ႴႵႽႿႾႹႳ ჃჇႿჂႴნ ჯჂႵႾვჄ ჉ႿჅ Ⴕ჈ႳႹჄႵႴ ჄႿ ჃႵႵ ႸႿჇ ჇႵႼႼ ႹჄ ჃჅႹჄჃ ჉ႿჅჭ”

ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱვჃ Ⴕ჉ႵჃ ႼႿႿႻႵႴ ႴႿჇႾ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႴႵႽႿႾႹႳ ჃჇႿჂႴ ჃႸႵ ႸႵႼႴნ

ႤႵჃჄႹႾႷ ႢႵႷჅႼჅჃვჃ ჀႵჂႶႿჂႽႱႾႳႵნ

ჳႱჂႾႹႾႷ ႳႿႾჄჂႹႲჅჄႹႿႾ ჀႿႹႾჄჃ ႶႿჂ ჄႸႵ ႣႵႳჂႵჄ ႣႿႳႹႵჄ჉ნ

ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱლ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ႲႵႵႾ ႳႿႾჄႵႽჀႼႱჄႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ჲႿႳჄႿჂვჃ ჀჂႿჀႿჃႱႼლ ႶႹႾႱႼႼ჉ ႾႿႴႴႵႴნ

“……ჴႹႾႵნ ჷვႼႼ ႷႿნ”

ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱლ ჇႸႿ ႴႵႼႹ჆ႵჂႵႴ ႸႵჂ ႱႾჃჇႵჂ ჇႹჄႸ ႱႾ Ⴕ჈ჀჂႵჃჃႹႿႾႼႵჃჃ ႶႱႳႵლ ႸჅႷႷႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႴႵႽႿႾႹႳ ჃჇႿჂႴ ႳႼႿჃႵ ჄႿ ႸႵჂ ႳႸႵჃჄნ

ჷჄ ჃႵႵႽႵႴ ჃႸႵ ჇႱჃ ჁჅႹჄႵ ჄႱႻႵႾ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႸႵ ႴႵႽႿႾႹႳ ჃჇႿჂႴნ

ჯႾႴ ჃႿლ Ⴑ ႽႹჃჃႹႿႾ ჃჅႹჄႱႲႼႵ ႶႿჂ ჄႸႵ ႣႵႳჂႵჄ ႣႿႳႹႵჄ჉ვჃ ႾႵჇႵჃჄ ႽႵႽႲႵჂ ჇႱჃ ႱჃჃႹႷႾႵႴნ

ჯ ჃႸႹႶჄ—ნ

ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱლ ჃჄႹႼႼ ႳႼჅჄႳႸႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႴႵႽႿႾႹႳ ჃჇႿჂႴლ ჃჅႴႴႵႾႼ჉ ႼႿႿႻႵႴ ႱჄ ႽႵნ

“ჶႵ჉ლ ႩႿ ჶႱႾმႾႹႽნ”

“……ნ”

჻჉ ჂႵႶႼႵႳჄႹႿႾ ႱჀჀႵႱჂႵႴ ႹႾ ႸႵჂ ႲႼჅႵ Ⴕ჉ႵჃნ

ჷ ჂႱႹჃႵႴ Ⴝ჉ ႸႵႱႴ ႱႾႴ ႼႿႿႻႵႴ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႷႹჂႼ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ႱႴႴჂႵჃჃႵႴ ႽႵნ

“ႤႸႱჄ ჀჂႿႽႹჃႵ ჇႵ ႽႱႴႵ—჉ႿჅვჂႵ ႾႿჄ ႷႿႹႾႷ ჄႿ ႺჅჃჄ ჆ႱႾႹჃႸ ႾႿჇ ჄႸႱჄ ჉ႿჅვ჆Ⴕ ჄႱႻႵႾ ჄႸႵ ႽႱႷႹႳ ჃჇႿჂႴლ ႱჂႵ ჉ႿჅჭ”

ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱ ჀႿჃႵႴ ჄႸႵ ჁჅႵჃჄႹႿႾ ჄႿ ႽႵნ

ჯ ႲჂႹႵႶ ჃႹႼႵႾႳႵ ჃႵჄჄႼႵႴ Ⴟ჆ႵჂ ჄႸႵ ႽႵႵჄႹႾႷ ႸႱႼႼნ

ჶႽႽ—ნ

ჷ ჀႿႾႴႵჂႵႴ ႶႿჂ Ⴑ ႽႿႽႵႾჄ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ჃჄႹႼႼႾႵჃჃ ႲႵႶႿჂႵ ႱႾჃჇႵჂႹႾႷ ႸႵჂნ

“ჷ ჅჃჅႱႼႼ჉ ႽႱႻႵ ჃჅჂႵ ჄႿ ჀჂႵჀႱჂႵ Ⴑ ჃჀႵႳႹႱႼ ႷႹႶჄლ ႹႾ Ⴝ჉ ႿჇႾ ჇႱ჉ლ ႶႿჂ ႱႾ჉ ႽႵႽႲႵჂ ჇႸႿ ჆ႹჃႹჄჃ ჱႵႼႵჃჄႹႱ ႶႿჂ ჄႸႵ ჆ႵჂ჉ ႶႹჂჃჄ ჄႹႽႵნ”

ჽႾ ჄႸႵ ႶႹჂჃჄ ႴႱ჉ ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱ ႸႱႴ ႳႿႽႵ ႸႵჂႵნ

ႣႸႵ ႸႱႴ ႼႿႿႻႵႴ ႱჄ ႽႵ ႱႾႴ ჃႱႹႴ ჄႸႹჃშ

—ჳ჆ႵႾ ႹႶ ႢႱႶႱჂႹႱ ႽႱႻႵჃ Ⴑ ႽႹჃჄႱႻႵლ ჷ ႸႿჀႵ ჉ႿჅვႼႼ ႼႵჄ ႹჄ ჃႼႹႴႵ ႺჅჃჄ ႿႾႳႵნ

ႤႸႱჄ ႽႵႽႿჂ჉ ႶჂႿႽ ႼႿႾႷ ႱႷႿ ჂႵჃჅჂႶႱႳႵႴ ႹႾ Ⴝ჉ ႽႹႾႴნ

ႤႸႱჄ ჇႱჃ ჄႸႵ ႶႹჂჃჄ ჇႹჃႸ ႠჂႹႵႼჂႱ ႸႱႴ Ⴕ჆ႵჂ Ⴕ჈ჀჂႵჃჃႵႴ ჄႿ ႽႵნ

ႤႸႵႾ ႱႾႴ ႾႿჇლ Ⴝ჉ ႱႾჃჇႵჂ ჄႿ ჄႸႱჄ ჂႵჁჅႵჃჄ ჂႵႽႱႹႾႵႴ ჄႸႵ ჃႱႽႵნ

“ჷႶ ჉ႿჅჂ ჇႹჃႸ ႸႱჃႾვჄ ႳႸႱႾႷႵႴლ ჄႸႵႾ ჄႸႵ ჀჂႿႽႹჃႵ ჷ ႳႱႾ ႽႱႻႵ ႹჃ ჃჄႹႼႼ ႺჅჃჄ ႿႾႵნ”

“ნნნნნნჷჄ ႸႱჃႾვჄ ႳႸႱႾႷႵႴნ”

“ႤႸႵႾ Ⴝ჉ ႱႾჃჇႵჂ ჇႿႾვჄ ႲႵ ႱႾ჉ ႴႹႶႶႵჂႵႾჄნ”

ႤႸႵ ႷႹჂႼ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႸႵ ჃჀႱჂႻႼႹႾႷ ႲႼჅႵ Ⴕ჉ႵჃ ႼႿႿႻႵႴ ႱჄ ႽႵნ

ႧႸႵႾ ჇႿჅႼႴ ჷ ႶႹႾႱႼႼ჉ ႲႵ ႱႲႼႵ ჄႿ ჅႾႴႵჂჃჄႱႾႴ ჄႸႵ ႵႽႿჄႹႿႾჃ ႸႹႴႴႵႾ ႲႵႸႹႾႴ ჄႸႱჄ Ⴕ჈ჀჂႵჃჃႹႿႾႼႵჃჃ ႶႱႳႵ—ნ

ႧႱႹჄႹႾႷ ႶႿჂ ჄႸႱჄ ႴႱ჉ ჄႿ ႱჂჂႹ჆Ⴕლ ჷ ႱႼႼႿჇႵႴ Ⴑ ႶႱႹႾჄ ჃႽႹႼႵ ჄႿ ჄႿჅႳႸ Ⴝ჉ ႼႹჀჃნ

ი ი ი ი ი ი

ႤႸႵ ႲႿჂႴႵჂ ჂႵႷႹႿႾ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჹႹႾႷႴႿႽ ႿႶ ჷჃႼႱჄნ

ჽႾ ჄႸႵ ႸႹႼႼჃႹႴႵ ႷჂႱ჆Ⴕ ჇႸႵჂႵ ႸႵჂ ႽႱჃჄႵჂ ჇႱჃ ႲჅჂႹႵႴლ ႢႱႶႱჂႹႱ ჄႸႵ ႣჇႿჂႴ ჲႵႽႿႾ ႼႵႱႾႵႴ ႱႷႱႹႾჃჄ ჄႸႵ ႶႱႽႹႼႹႱჂ ჄႿႽႲჃჄႿႾႵლ ႳႱჄႳႸႹႾႷ ႸႵჂ ႲჂႵႱჄႸნ

ჯ ႳႿႾჃႹႴႵჂႱႲႼႵ ႱႽႿჅႾჄ ႿႶ ჄႹႽႵ ႸႱႴ ჀႱჃჃႵႴ ჃႹႾႳႵ ႢႱႶႱჂႹႱ ႼႵႶჄ ჄႸႵ ჵჂႵႱჄ ჴႿჂႵჃჄნ

ჶႿჇႵ჆ႵჂლ ႸႵჂ ႺႿჅჂႾႵ჉ ჄႿ ႳႸႱჃႵ ჄႸႵ ჄჂჅჄႸ ႲႵႸႹႾႴ ჄႸႵ ႹႾႳႹႴႵႾჄ ჃႸႵ ႶႱႳႵႴ ჄႸႵჂႵ ჇႱჃ ჃჄႹႼႼ ႿႾႷႿႹႾႷნ

—“ႩႿჅვჂႵ ႱჃႻႹႾႷ ႽႵ ჄႿ ႶႹႾႴ ჄႸႵ ႼႿႳႱჄႹႿႾ ჇႸႵჂႵ ჄႸႵ ႧႿჂႼႴ ႤჂႵႵვჃ ჴჂჅႹჄ ႽႹႷႸჄ ႲႵლ ჂႹႷႸჄჭ”

ႤႸႵ ჆ႿႹႳႵ ႿႶ ႱႾ ႿႼႴ ႳႿႽჂႱႴႵ ႶႼႿჇႵႴ ႹႾჄႿ ჄႸႵ ႵႱჂჃ ႿႶ ႢႱႶႱჂႹႱლ ჇႸႿ ჇႱჃ ჃႹჄჄႹႾႷ ႱႷႱႹႾჃჄ ჄႸႵ ჄႿႽႲჃჄႿႾႵნ

ჯႻႵჂႾႱჂ ჄႸႵ ჳ჈ႹႼႵნ

ႤႸႵ ႶႿჂႽႵჂ ႳႿႽჂႱႴႵლ ႲႱႾႹჃႸႵႴ ႶჂႿႽ ჄႸႵ ჵჂႵႱჄ ჴႿჂႵჃჄ ႶႿჂ ႲჂႵႱႻႹႾႷ Ⴑ ჄႱႲႿႿლ ჇႱჃ ჃჄႹႼႼ ႽႿ჆ႹႾႷ ჄႿ ႸႵႼჀ ႸႵჂ Ⴕ჆ႵႾ ႾႿჇნ

ႣႸႵ ႾႿႴႴႵႴ—ნ

ႢႱႶႱჂႹႱლ ႽႿ჆ႹႾႷ ႸႵჂ ႸႵႱႴ ჇႸႹႼႵ ႼႵႱႾႹႾႷ ႱႷႱႹႾჃჄ ჄႸႵ ჃჄႿႾႵლ ჃჀႿႻႵ ჄႿ ႸႵჂ ႿႼႴ ႳႿႽჂႱႴႵნ

“ჷჄვჃ ႱႲჃႿႼჅჄႵႼ჉ ႾႵႳႵჃჃႱჂ჉ ႹႶ ჇႵ ჇႱႾჄ ჄႿ ჅႾႳႿ჆ႵჂ ჄႸႵႹჂ ჄჂჅႵ ႹႴႵႾჄႹჄႹႵჃნ”

—“ႧႵႼႼლ ჄႸႱჄვჃ ႾႿჄ ჄႿႿ ႸႱჂႴნ ႣႿႽႵჄႸႹႾႷ ჄႸႱჄ ჃჀႵႳႹႱႼ ႹჃ ႲႿჅႾႴ ჄႿ ႸႱ჆Ⴕ Ⴑ ჃჄჂႿႾႷ ჀჂႵჃႵႾႳႵნ”

“……”

—“ႣႿ ჉ႿჅ ჄႸႹႾႻ ჄႸႵ჉ვჂႵ ႷႿႹႾႷ ჄႿ ႽႹჃჅჃႵ ჄႸႵ ‘ႧႿჂႼႴ ႤჂႵႵვჃ ჴჂჅႹჄ’ ჄႿ ჀჅႼႼ ႿႶႶ ჃႿႽႵჄႸႹႾႷ ႴႱႾႷႵჂႿჅჃჭ”

ႤႸႵ ႧႿჂႼႴ ႤჂႵႵვჃ ჴჂჅႹჄნ

ႣႸႵ ႻႾႵჇ ჄႸႱჄ ႱႾ ႿႽႹႾႿჅჃ ჃႵႳჂႵჄ ჇႱჃ ႸႹႴႴႵႾ ჇႹჄႸႹႾ ჄႸႵ ႿႲႺႵႳჄ ჃჄႿႼႵႾ ႶჂႿႽ ჄႸႵ ჵჂႵႱჄ ჴႿჂႵჃჄვჃ ႱႼჄႱჂნ

ႢႱႶႱჂႹႱ ႸႱႴ ႱႼჇႱ჉Ⴣ ႶႵႼჄ ჅႾႵႱჃ჉ ႱႲႿჅჄ ჄႸႵ ჆ႵჂ჉ Ⴕ჈ႹჃჄႵႾႳႵ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႧႿჂႼႴ ႤჂႵႵნ

ႤႸႵჂႵႶႿჂႵლ ႹჄ ჇႿჅႼႴႾვჄ ႲႵ ჃჄჂႱႾႷႵ ႹႶ ჄႸႵ ႶჂჅႹჄ ႲႿჂႾႵ Ⴒ჉ ჃჅႳႸ Ⴑ ႴႱႾႷႵჂႿჅჃ ჄჂႵႵ ႸႵႼႴ ჃႿႽႵ ჇႹႳႻႵႴ ჃႵႳჂႵჄნ

“ႤႸႵჂႵ ႽჅჃჄ ႸႱ჆Ⴕ ႲႵႵႾ Ⴑ ჂႵႱჃႿႾ ႠႿჂჄႶႿჂჄ ჄჂႹႵႴ ჄႿ ႶႵႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႶჂჅႹჄ ႾჅჄჂႹႵႾჄჃ ჄႸჂႿჅႷႸ ჄႸႵ ჶႱჂ჆ႵჃჄ ჴႵჃჄႹ჆ႱႼნ ႣႿႽႵჄႸႹႾႷ ႼႹႻႵ ჄႸႱჄ ႹჃ ႸႹႷႸႼ჉ ႼႹႻႵႼ჉ ჄႿ ႲႵ ჅჃႵႴ ႶႿჂ ჃႿႽႵჄႸႹႾႷ ႶႱჂ ႶჂႿႽ ႿჂႴႹႾႱჂ჉ნ”

—“ႧႵႼႼლ ჄႸႵ ႧႿჂႼႴ ႤჂႵႵ ႹჄჃႵႼႶ ႹჃႾვჄ Ⴕ჈ႱႳჄႼ჉ ჃႿႽႵჄႸႹႾႷ ჉ႿჅ ႳႱႾ ႺჅჃჄ ႳႱႼႼ Ⴑ ‘ჄჂႵႵ’ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ႶႹჂჃჄ ჀႼႱႳႵნ”

ჯ ჲႹ჆ႹႾႵ ႤჂႵႵ ჄႸႱჄ ႳႿჅႼႴႾვჄ ႲႵ ႳႱႼႼႵႴ Ⴑ ႽႵჂႵ ჄჂႵႵ—ნ

ჷჄჃ ႶჂჅႹჄ ჇႱჃ Ⴑ ႴႱႾႷႵჂႿჅჃ ႿႲႺႵႳჄ ჄႸႱჄ ႷჂႵჇ Ⴒ჉ ႶႵႵႴႹႾႷ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ႶႼႵჃႸ ႱႾႴ ႲႼႿႿႴ ႿႶ ჃႵႾჄႹႵႾჄ ႲႵႹႾႷჃნ

ႤႸႵ ჃႹႷႸჄ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႲႼႱႳႻ ႽႱႷႹႳႹႱႾჃ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ႳႸႱჃႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႶჂჅႹჄლ ჅႾႱჇႱჂႵ ႿႶ ჄႸႱჄ ჄჂჅჄႸლ ႶႼႱჃႸႵႴ ႲႱႳႻ ႹႾჄႿ ႸႵჂ ႽႹႾႴნ

“ჯႻႵჂႾႱჂნ ႤႸႵ ႲႼႱႳႻ ႽႱႷႹႳႹႱႾჃ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ჵჂႵႱჄ ჴႿჂႵჃჄ ჄჂႹႵႴ ჄႿ ႿႶႶႵჂ ჄႸႵ ႶჂჅႹჄ ႱჃ ჄჂႹႲჅჄႵ ჄႿ ‘ႲႵႹႾႷჃ ႶჂႿႽ ჄႸႵ ႿჅჄႵჂ ჇႿჂႼႴნ’”

—“……”

“ჷჄ ჇႿჅႼႴႾვჄ ႲႵ ჃჄჂႱႾႷႵ ႹႶ ႴႱႾႷႵჂႿჅჃ ႵႾჄႹჄႹႵჃ ჃႸႿჇႵႴ ჅჀ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ႳႿႾჄႹႾႵႾჄ ჄႿ ჂႵႳႵႹ჆Ⴕ ჄႸႱჄ ჄჂႹႲჅჄႵნ ჻Ⴑ჉ႲႵ ჃႿႽႵჄႸႹႾႷ Ⴕ჆ႵႾ ႽႿჂႵ ႸႿჂჂႹႶႹႳ ჄႸႱႾ ჇႸႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႲႼႱႳႻ ႽႱႷႹႳႹႱႾჃ ჇႵჂႵ ႱႹႽႹႾႷ ႶႿჂ ჇႹႼႼ ႱჂჂႹ჆Ⴕნ”

—“ႤႸႱჄ ႽႹႷႸჄ ႲႵ ჄჂჅႵნ ႤႸႵჂႵ ႱჂႵ ჀႼႵႾჄ჉ ႿႶ Ⴕ჈ჄჂႵႽႵႼ჉ ႴႱႾႷႵჂႿჅჃ ႲႵႹႾႷჃ ႿჅჄჃႹႴႵ ႿႶ ჄႸႹჃ ჇႿჂႼႴლ ႱႶჄႵჂ ႱႼႼნ”

ჱႿჅႾჄႼႵჃჃ ჀႿჃჃႹႲႹႼႹჄႹႵჃ ႶႼႱჃႸႵႴ ჄႸჂႿჅႷႸ ႢႱႶႱჂႹႱვჃ ႽႹႾႴნ

ჷჄ ჇႱჃ ႳႼႵႱჂ ჄႸႱჄ ႱႾ ႿჂႷႱႾႹ჊ႱჄႹႿႾ ჇႱჃ ႿჀႵჂႱჄႹႾႷ ჇႹჄႸ ჃჅჃჀႹႳႹႿჅჃ ႽႿჄႹ჆ႵჃნ

ႤႸႵ჉ ႸႱႴ ႱႼჂႵႱႴ჉ ჃႸႱჄჄႵჂႵႴ ჄႸႵ ჀႵႱႳႵ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჵჂႵႱჄ ჴႿჂႵჃჄ ႱႾႴ ჇႵჂႵ ႾႿჇ ႱჄჄႵႽჀჄႹႾႷ ჄႿ ႹႽჀႿჃႵ ႱႾ Ⴕ჆ႵႾ ႷჂႵႱჄႵჂ ႴႱႾႷႵჂ ჅჀႿႾ ჄႸႵ ႳႿႾჄႹႾႵႾჄნ

ႣႹჂႹჅჃ ჄႸႵ ჰႼႱჃჀႸႵႽႵჂ—ნ

ႤႿ ႶႹႾႴ ႳႼჅႵჃ ႱႲႿჅჄ ႸႹႽ ႱႾႴ ჂႵ჆ႵჂჃႵ Ⴕ჆ႵჂ჉ჄႸႹႾႷლ ჃႸႵ ႱႲჃႿႼჅჄႵႼ჉ ႸႱႴ ჄႿ ჄჂႱႳႻ ႴႿჇႾ ჄႸႵ ႧႿჂႼႴ ႤჂႵႵვჃ ჴჂჅႹჄნ

“ႣႿლ ჄႸႵ ႿႾႼ჉ ჇႱ჉ ჄႿ ჃჄႿჀ ჄႸႹჃ ႹჃ ჄႿ ჂႵჄჂႹႵ჆Ⴕ ჄႸႵ ႶჂჅႹჄნ”

—“……”

“ჷႶ ჉ႿჅ ႺჅჃჄ ႶႹႾႴ ჄႸႵ ႼႿႳႱჄႹႿႾლ ჷვႼႼ ႸႱႾႴႼႵ ჄႸႵ ჀჅჂჃჅႹჄნ ႣႿ—”

იჱႸჅႳႻႼႹႾႷ—ნი

ჯ ႼႹႷႸჄ ႼႱჅႷႸ ႵჂჅჀჄႵႴ ႶჂႿႽ ႲႵ჉ႿႾႴ ჄႸႵ ჄႿႽႲჃჄႿႾႵნ

ႢႱႶႱჂႹႱლ ႸႵჂ ႶႱႳႵ ჃႵჄლ ႼႿႿႻႵႴ ႱჄ ჄႸႵ ჃჄႿႾႵნ

—“ႩႿჅვჂႵ ჃჄႹႼႼ ჄჂ჉ႹႾႷ ჄႿ ჃႸႿჅႼႴႵჂ Ⴕ჆ႵჂ჉ჄႸႹႾႷ Ⴒ჉ ჉ႿჅჂჃႵႼႶნ”

“ნნნნნნჯႻႵჂႾႱჂნ”

—“ჲႿႾვჄ ჇႿჂჂ჉ლ ႢႱႶႱჂႹႱნ ჷ ჇႿჅႼႴႾვჄ ႼႵႱ჆Ⴕ ჄႸႵ ႿႾႼ჉ ჀႵჂჃႿႾ ჇႸႿ ჅႾႴႵჂჃჄႱႾႴჃ ႽႵ ჄႿ ႸႱႾႴႼႵ ჄႸႹჃ ႱႼႿႾႵნ”

იႦ჊჊჊Ⴤ—ნი

ჯჃ ჄႸႵ ႼႹႷႸჄ ႵႾ჆ႵႼႿჀႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ჄႿႽႲჃჄႿႾႵ ჃႼႿჇႼ჉ ႶႱႴႵႴლ

ႸႵჂ ႳႿႽჂႱႴႵვჃ ႶႹႾႱႼ ჇႿჂႴჃ ႴჂႹႶჄႵႴ ႹႾჄႿ ႢႱႶႱჂႹႱვჃ ႵႱჂნ

—“ჱႿႽႵ ႲႱႳႻ ႹႾ ჄჇႿ ჇႵႵႻჃნ ჷვႼႼ ჃႳႿჅჂ ႱჃ ႽჅႳႸ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႳႿႾჄႹႾႵႾჄ ႱჃ ჷ ႳႱႾ ჅႾჄႹႼ ჄႸႵႾნ”

იჱႼႹႳႻ—ნი

ჺႵႶჄ ႱႼႿႾႵ ჇႸႵჂႵ ჄႸႵ ႳႿႾႾႵႳჄႹႿႾ ႸႱႴ ႲჂႿႻႵႾ ႿႶႶლ ႢႱႶႱჂႹႱვჃ ႷႱ჊Ⴕ ႼႹႶჄႵႴ ჄႿ ჄႸႵ ჃႻ჉ნ

ჰႵ჉ႿႾႴ ჄႸႵ ႴႹჃჄႱႾჄ ႸႵႱ჆ႵႾჃლ

ჃႿႽႵႿႾႵ ჇႱჃ ჃჅჂႵႼ჉ ჇႱჄႳႸႹႾႷ ႸႵჂლ Ⴕ჆ႵႾ ჄႿႴႱ჉ნ

ი ი ი ი ი ი

—ႤႸႵ ჺႵႿႲႼႱႾჄ ჰჂႿჄႸႵჂႸႿႿႴნ

ჯ ႽႱჃჃႹ჆Ⴕ ႳჂႹႽႹႾႱႼ ႿჂႷႱႾႹ჊ႱჄႹႿႾ ჄႸႱჄ ႲჅႹႼჄ ჅჀ ႹႽႽႵႾჃႵ ჇႵႱႼჄႸ ႱႾႴ ႽႹႼႹჄႱჂ჉ ჀႿჇႵჂ Ⴒ჉ ႶႿႳჅჃႹႾႷ ႿႾ ჄႸႵ ႲႼႱႳႻ ႽႱჂႻႵჄლ ჇႸႵჂႵ ႾႿჄႸႹႾႷ ჇႱჃ ჄႿႿ ჄႱႲႿႿ ჄႿ ჃႵႼႼნ

ჽႾႳႵ ჄႸჂႹ჆ႹႾႷ ႱႾႴ ჀჂႿჃჀႵჂႿჅჃ ჅႾႴႵჂ ჄႸႵ ႾႱႽႵ ႿႶ ჷჃႱႱႳ ჺႵႿႲႼႱႾჄლ ჄႸႵ჉ ჇႵჂႵ ႾႿჇ ႶჂႱႳჄჅჂႵႴ ႹႾჄႿ ႴႿ჊ႵႾჃ ႿႶ ႶႱႳჄႹႿႾჃლ ႳႿႾჄႹႾჅႹႾႷ ჄႸႵႹჂ ႹႾჄႵჂႾႱႼ ჃჄჂႹႶႵნ

ჷႾჃႹႴႵ ჄႸႵ ႲႼႱႳႻ ႽႱჂႻႵჄლ ჃႵႼႶმჀჂႿႳႼႱႹႽႵႴ ႾႵ჈Ⴤ ႼႵႱႴႵჂჃ ႱჀჀႵႱჂႵႴ ႴႱႹႼ჉ლ ႱႾႴ ჇႱჂႵႸႿჅჃႵჃ ჃႳႱჄჄႵჂႵႴ ႱႳჂႿჃჃ ჄႸႵ ჂႵႷႹႿႾ ჇႵჂႵ ჂႵႶჅჃႹႾႷ ჄႿ ჃႵႾႴ ႷႿႿႴჃლ ႳႹჄႹႾႷ ႱႼႼ ჃႿჂჄჃ ႿႶ Ⴕ჈ႳჅჃႵჃნ

ႧႱჂႵႸႿჅჃႵ ჼႿნ ჟჟ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჰჂႿჄႸႵჂႸႿႿႴლ ႼႿႳႱჄႵႴ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ႵႱჃჄႵჂႾ ჀႱჂჄ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჳႽჀႹჂႵლ ჇႱჃ ႿႾႵ ႿႶ ჄႸႿჃႵ ჀႱჂჄႹႳႹჀႱჄႹႾႷ ႹႾ ჄႸႹჃ ჂႵႶჅჃႱႼნ

“ႤႸႵ჉ვ჆Ⴕ ႼႿႳႻႵႴ ჅჀ ჄႸႵ ႷႿႿႴჃ ႶႿჂ Ⴑ ႽႿႾჄႸ ႾႿჇნ ჷჃ ჄႸႹჃ ჂႵႱႼႼ჉ ႿႻႱ჉ჭ”

ჵႼႵႾლ Ⴑ ႼႿჇმჂႱႾႻႹႾႷ ႽႵႽႲႵჂ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ჺႵႿႲႼႱႾჄ ჰჂႿჄႸႵჂႸႿႿႴლ ჇႱჃ ႳჅჂჂႵႾჄႼ჉ ჀႱჄჂႿႼႼႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ႱჂႵႱ ႱჂႿჅႾႴ ႧႱჂႵႸႿჅჃႵ ჼႿნ ჟჟნ

იႤႸჅႽჀლ ჄႸჅႽჀ—ნი

ႤႸႵ ჃႿჅႾႴ ႿႶ ჵႼႵႾვჃ ႼႵႱჄႸႵჂ ႲႿႿჄჃ ႵႳႸႿႵႴ ႱჂႿჅႾႴ ჄႸႵ ႴႵჃႵჂჄႵႴ ჇႱჂႵႸႿჅჃႵ ႱჂႵႱნ

ჶႹჃ ႳႿႼႼႵႱႷჅႵლ ႸႵႱჂႹႾႷ ჵႼႵႾვჃ ႳႿႾႳႵჂႾლ ჃႾႿჂჄႵႴ ႼႿჅႴႼ჉ ႱႾႴ ჂႵჀႼႹႵႴნ

“ჵႼႵႾლ ჉ႿჅ ႹႴႹႿჄნ ჲႿႾვჄ ჉ႿჅ ႻႾႿჇ ჄႸႱჄ ႵႼႶ ჃႼႱ჆ႵჃ ႱჂႵ ჃႳႱჂႳႵ ჂႹႷႸჄ ႾႿჇლ ႱႾႴ ჄႸႵ჉ვჂႵ ჇႿჂჄႸ ჇႸႱჄႵ჆ႵჂ ჀჂႹႳႵ ჇႵ ႾႱႽႵჭ”

ჯჄ ႸႹჃ ႳႿႼႼႵႱႷჅႵვჃ ჇႿჂႴჃლ ჄႸႵ ჃႹႽჀႼႵმႶႱႳႵႴ ჵႼႵႾ ჃႳჂႱჄႳႸႵႴ ႸႹჃ ႸႵႱႴ ႱႾႴ ჀჂႿჄႵჃჄႵႴნ

“ჼႿლ ჷ ႻႾႿჇ ჄႸႱჄნნნ ႲჅჄ ჷვႽ ჃჄႹႼႼ ჇႿჂჂႹႵႴ ႱႲႿჅჄ ႾႿჄ ჃႵႾႴႹႾႷ ႱႾ჉ჄႸႹႾႷ ჄႿ ႸႵႱႴჁჅႱჂჄႵჂჃნ”

“ႤႸႱჄვჃ ႺჅჃჄ ႲႵႳႱჅჃႵ ჄႸႵ ႲႿჃჃ ႸႱჃ Ⴑ ჀႼႱႾნ ႩႿჅ ႻႾႿჇ ჇႸႱჄ ႻႹႾႴ ႿႶ ჀႵჂჃႿႾ ႸႵ ႹჃლ ႴႿႾვჄ ჉ႿჅჭ”

იჶႿႿ—ნი

ჯ ჃႹႷႸ ႼႱႳႵႴ ჇႹჄႸ ႶႱႹႾჄ ჇႿჂჂ჉ ႵჃႳႱჀႵႴ ჵႼႵႾვჃ ႼႹჀჃნ

“ჶႱႱნნნ ჷ ႴႿႾვჄ ႻႾႿჇნ”

ჵႼႵႾ ႸႹႽჃႵႼႶ ႻႾႵჇ ჇႵႼႼ ჄႸႱჄ ჄႸႵ ႻႵႵჀႵჂ ႿႶ ႧႱჂႵႸႿჅჃႵ ჼႿნ ჟჟ ჇႱჃ ႱႾ ႱႽႲႹჄႹႿჅჃ ႽႱႾნ

ჶႵ ႱႼჃႿ ჅႾႴႵჂჃჄႿႿႴ ჄႸႱჄ ჄႸႹჃ ႳჅჂჂႵႾჄ ჃჄႱჄႵ ႿႶ ႳႸႱႿჃ ჇႱჃ ჄႸႵ ჀႵჂႶႵႳჄ ჄႹႽႵ ႶႿჂ ჄႸႵ ႻႵႵჀႵჂ ჄႿ ჂႵႱႼႹ჊Ⴕ ႸႹჃ ႱႽႲႹჄႹႿႾჃნ

ჰჅჄ ႸႵ ႳႿჅႼႴႾვჄ ႸႵႼჀ ႲჅჄ ჇႿჂჂ჉ ႱႾ჉ჇႱ჉ნ

ႠႵႿჀႼႵ ႹႾ ჄႸႵ ჅႾႴႵჂჇႿჂႼႴლ ႼႹႻႵ ჵႼႵႾლ ჇႵჂႵ ႹႾ Ⴑ ჀႿჃႹჄႹႿႾ ჇႸႵჂႵ Ⴔ჉ႹႾႷ ႱჄ ႱႾ჉ ႽႿႽႵႾჄ ჇႿჅႼႴႾვჄ ႲႵ ჃჄჂႱႾႷႵნ

‘჻჉ ႴჂႵႱႽჃ ႸႱ჆Ⴕ ႲႵႵႾ ჂႵႱႼႼ჉ ჅႾჃႵჄჄႼႹႾႷ ႼႱჄႵႼ჉ნ’

ჶႹჃ ჄჂႿჅႲႼႵႴ ჃჄႵჀჃ ႽႿ჆ႵႴ ႶႿჂჇႱჂႴნ

ჶႱႴ ႸႵ ႲႵႳႿႽႵ Ⴑ ႳႿჇႱჂႴ ႺჅჃჄ ႲႵႳႱჅჃႵ ႸႵ ჇႱჃ ჃჄჅႳႻ ႹႾ ჄႸႹჃ ႴႵჃႵჂჄႵႴ ႽႿჅႾჄႱႹႾ ႱჂႵႱლ ჃႵႵႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ჃႱႽႵ ჃႳႵႾႵჂ჉ Ⴕ჆ႵჂ჉ ႴႱ჉ჭ

ჷჄ ჇႱჃ ႺჅჃჄ ႱჃ ჵႼႵႾ ჇႱჃ ႽႿ჆ႹႾႷ ႶႿჂჇႱჂႴ ჇႹჄႸ ჄႸႱჄ ჄႸႿჅႷႸჄნ

“ჶჅႸნნნჭ”

იႠႼႿჀნი

ჯ ႳႿႼႴ ႴჂႿჀ ႿႶ ႼႹჁჅႹႴ ჃჅႴႴႵႾႼ჉ ႼႱႾႴႵႴ ႿႾ ჵႼႵႾვჃ ႳႸႵႵႻნ

ႤႸႹႾႻႹႾႷ ႹჄ ႽႹႷႸჄ ႲႵ ჂႱႹႾლ ႸႵ ჇႹჀႵႴ ႸႹჃ ႳႸႵႵႻლ ႿႾႼ჉ ႶႿჂ ႱႾ ჃჄჂႱႾႷႵႼ჉ ჃჇႵႵჄ ჃႳႵႾჄ ჄႿ ჇႱႶჄ ႿჅჄნ

“ჵႼႵႾლ ჇႸႱჄვჃ ჇჂႿႾႷჭ”

“ჼႿჄႸႹႾႷლ ႺჅჃჄ ჃႿႽႵჄႸႹႾႷ ჃჅႴႴႵႾႼ჉ ႴჂႿჀჀႵႴ ႶჂႿႽ ႱႲႿ჆Ⴕნნნნნნ”

ႣჇႹჃႸ—

ჵႼႵႾლ ჇႹჀႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ჂႱႹႾႴჂႿჀჃ ႶჂႿႽ ႸႹჃ ႳႸႵႵႻლ ჁჅႹႵჄႼ჉ ჂႱႹჃႵႴ ႸႹჃ ႸႵႱႴნ

ჯ ႽႱჃჃႹ჆Ⴕ ჄჂႵႵლ ႹჄჃ ႳႱႾႿჀ჉ ჃჇႱႼႼႿჇႹႾႷ ჄႸႵ ჃჅႾႼႹႷႸჄნ

ჵႼႵႾ’Ⴣ ႷႱ჊Ⴕ ჃႹႼႵႾჄႼ჉ ႼႹႶჄႵႴ ჄႿჇႱჂႴ Ⴑ ჃჀႿჄ ჄႸႱჄ ჃႸႿჅႼႴ ႸႱ჆Ⴕ ႲႵႵႾ ႳႿႽჀႼႵჄႵႼ჉ ႵႽჀჄ჉ნ

“……”

“……”

ჸჅჃჄ ႱႲႿ჆Ⴕ Ⴑ ჃჄჅჂႴ჉ ႲჂႱႾႳႸნ

ႤႸႵ ႶႹႷჅჂႵ ႿႶ ჃႿႽႵႿႾႵ ჃႹჄჄႹႾႷ ჄႸႵჂႵლ ႳႱႼႽႼ჉ ႵႱჄႹႾႷ ႱႾ ႱჀჀႼႵლ ႵႾჄႵჂႵႴ ჵႼႵႾ’Ⴣ ჆ႹႵჇნ

იჱჂჅႾႳႸნი

ႣႹჄჄႹႾႷ ჄႸႵჂႵლ ჄႱႻႹႾႷ Ⴑ ႼႱჂႷႵ ႲႹჄႵ ႿჅჄ ႿႶ ჄႸႵ ႱჀჀႼႵლ ჇႱჃ Ⴑ ႷႹჂႼ ჇႹჄႸ ႱႾ Ⴕ჈ჀჂႵჃჃႹႿႾႼႵჃჃ ႶႱႳႵლ ჇჂႱჀჀႵႴ ႹႾ Ⴑ ႲႼႱႳႻ ႽჅႶႶႼႵჂნ

“ႧႸ—ჇႸႿ ႱჂႵ ჉ႿჅჭ჏”

ჵႼႵႾლ ჃჄႱჂჄႼႵႴ Ⴒ჉ ჄႸႵ ჅႾႻႾႿჇႾ ႹႾჄჂჅႴႵჂლ ჂႱႹჃႵႴ ႸႹჃ ჃჀႵႱჂ ႱႾႴ ჃႸႿჅჄႵႴლ ႸႹჃ ႶႱႳႵ ႵჄႳႸႵႴ ჇႹჄႸ ႳႿႾႶჅჃႹႿႾნ

ႤႸႵ ႷႹჂႼლ ჇႸႿ ႸႱႴ ႲႵႵႾ ႳႱႼႽႼ჉ ႳႸႵჇႹႾႷ ႸႵჂ ႱჀჀႼႵლ ჀႱჅჃႵႴ ႿႾႼ჉ ႲჂႹႵႶႼ჉ ჄႿ ႷႼႱႾႳႵ ႲႵჄჇႵႵႾ ჵႼႵႾ ႱႾႴ ႸႹჃ ႳႿႽჀႱႾႹႿႾჃნ

იႠႼႿჀნი

ჷႽႽႵႴႹႱჄႵႼ჉ ႱႶჄႵჂჇႱჂႴლ ჄႸႵ ႷႹჂႼ ჄႿჃჃႵႴ ჄႸႵ ႱჀჀႼႵ ჃႸႵ ჇႱჃ ႸႿႼႴႹႾႷ ႱჃႹႴႵ ႱႾႴ ჃჀႿႻႵნ

“ჷჄ’Ⴣ Ⴑ ჃႵႳჂႵჄნ”

იႧႸႿႿჃႸ—ი

ჰႵႾႵႱჄႸ ჄႸႵ ჄჂႵႵლ ჇႸႵჂႵ ჄႸႵ ႽႱჃჃႹ჆Ⴕ ჃႸႱႴႿჇ ႸႱႴ ႺჅჃჄ ჃჀჂႵႱႴლ ჵႼႵႾ’Ⴣ ჆ႹჃႹႿႾ ႱႲჂჅჀჄႼ჉ ჄႹႼჄႵႴ ჄႿჇႱჂႴ ჄႸႵ ႷჂႿჅႾႴნ

Shikemoku Diary

** This is basically a diary. It chronicles the daily life of a somewhat reclusive NEET living in a certain place in a certain country. Sometimes it’s a bit of a grind, and sometimes it’s not. That’s how it is. Please enjoy♪ I’m supposed to update it daily, but updates may become irregular, so please bear with me!! ** I reread it every once in a while, and I often find myself thinking, Isn’t that stupid? No, not “Isn’t that right?”, but “Isn’t that stupid?” I guess I think that because I still have some “normal” in me!

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