Chapter 38 – Chapter 4 – Anhui

“Thank you for your hard work, Master. Thanks to you, I think I’ve come this far.”

“Thanks to you, I came here comfortably.”

“Me too.”

After the long carriage ride was over and he said goodbye to the merchants, he began to figure out where he was.

“Um… So… Here it is…”

“We are here now.”

“Aha.”

I felt cute every time I saw his little flaws, as if the pods were properly used in his eyes.

“It’s just that the route you told me about yesterday overlaps with the plan to some extent. The person I’m looking for is also nearby, so I’ll go wherever you want.”

“You weren’t in a hurry?”

“I’ve been waiting for 10 years, but it must be that hard to endure just one more day.”

He seemed convinced that the man in Anhui was the one I was looking for.

That would be natural for him.

I said that the meeting I was looking forward to would come soon.

But it wasn’t my position.

-Thumping pounding

‘..The mind is still ready..’

To be honest, I think that the person next to me is more likely to be Dan Yuseong than the man in Anhui.

I don’t know how much the man in Anhui overlaps with Dan Meteor, but he didn’t think it would overlap more than the one in front of him.

There is a past where he was betrayed by a woman, and there are traces of learning the martial arts of the Volcano Sect, and now the Danjeon is broken.

In addition, considering that he trained in the mountains for 10 years, it is understandable that he had not been able to find it in the meantime.

No matter how bright Hwasan’s eyes were, it was impossible to search into the deserted mountains of the vast central plains.

‘..I’d rather not.’

But in my heart I hope that he is not monotonous.

Rather, I hope that the man in Anhui is Dan Yuseong.

If that’s the case, at least he wouldn’t have committed a wrathful act of harboring feelings for someone he needed to atone for his whole life.

“..Lead the way. As promised, I’ll go as you ask.”

I kept thinking and thinking, but I still couldn’t come up with an answer.

If he is right, how the hell should I react.

Through the heavenly note he had read, the possibility that one of them was Danyuseong had increased, so there was no place to back down.

It was natural to have to atone for the rest of my life, and more concrete measures were needed.

And what worries me the most is his reaction after he finds out that I am So-yeon’s teacher.

It hurts my heart just to think of the scene where he showed disgust at me and pushed me away.

I couldn’t say anything because I was choked up at the thought of telling myself if I had been deceiving myself all this while.

Really disgusting

He said he wanted to atone

There was a woman here who did not want to be hated by him.

-Gasp

“Sojeo. What are you doing? There are many things to see over there.”

His hand felt warm and soft to the touch.

He took my hand and pointed to the men performing tricks in the street.

“…”

“Sozer?”

“I’m sorry… Really…”

Even thinking like this

Even when I hate myself

The hand holding him now

The pure feelings he sends me now

I want to have it so much I just can’t let go of my hand.

‘Please allow me a little more…’

I fooled myself.

I forcibly suppressed the self-hatred rising from within.

“I-I don’t have anything to apologize for with that expression.”

“Oh, no.. I’ll go soon.”

Please

I hope that the rest of today will remain as a good memory.

* * *

There is a saying that good times pass quickly.

As if to prove that, the time with him passed very quickly.

In Hanam, I had visited the sacred water with him, but it was difficult to enjoy it properly because there was a commotion at that time, and it was also a time when my heart toward him was confused.

After that, he was sick and couldn’t go out.

“Sojeo! Look at that waterfall! I can’t see the end!”

I couldn’t help but feel that this moment was so precious.

“The jeon here is delicious. As expected, there seems to be a reason for all famous places.”

In fact, it was the last day I could have pure enjoyment with him.

“It’s your favorite drink. It’s only made in this area, so it’s probably quite new.”

“Ohhh…!”

I wanted to give him the best memory possible.

“It was a little difficult, but it’s worth climbing the mountain. I’m glad I didn’t miss the time.”

“..In the middle, it seems like I dragged it.”

“If it wasn’t for Sojeo, I would have boldly abandoned this schedule.”

The sunset seen from the mountain was also really beautiful.

[How is it? Didn’t I say that even though it was difficult, it would be rewarding?]

[This is the best, Master!]

“…”

Seeing a scene I saw 10 years ago in the same place again made me think a lot.

I could have avoided it, but I didn’t.

‘Cause it’s the sin I left behind

It is my natural duty to face this.

“I’m going to have to go back to the inn soon. Other people are going back too.”

“..I guess.”

It was a good time.

Before returning to the inn and ending the day, I found an old man holding a small plate and a brush.

He is probably the one who makes his living by drawing pictures.

“I..”

He looked at him and opened his mouth, but quickly closed it.

Would it be meaningful even if he left a picture of him and me now?

After all, he must have been unaware that I was his enemy.

“…For now.”

“Would you like a picture?”

I tried to close my heart and go back, but he immediately recognized my feelings.

“No.. Just because it’s amazing..”

“Well, since we’ve come this far, it wouldn’t be too bad to leave a picture behind.”

Even though I had been able to dry it enough, my body was dragged by him powerlessly.

I was able to receive the painting right away, as if the skill of the old man was good.

A picture of him wearing the same bloody clothing as me covering his body with a bloody clothing, but completely covering his face.

It looked oddly funny.

“Would you like to have Sojeo?”

“Are you okay?”

“I’m a wanderer right now, so I don’t have anywhere to hang it.”

He did not refrain from speaking.

After revealing my identity to him, if this painting were in his hands, it would probably have been torn or burned.

[…Clear everything. Entire..]

“..Thank you. I’ll keep it.”

I felt disgusted with myself, but I wanted to live a little selfishly for today.

It was also true that I had lived a stoic life all this time.

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“..Sozer? Now I don’t think I’m sick enough to need nursing care…”

Last.

Before he goes to sleep

When I made up my mind to be selfish now, there was something I wanted to say.

“..You might..”

My mouth was closed while I was talking.

It was a hard word to say even now, no matter how hard you put a steel plate on your face.

“..Do you?”

“..What do you think of me?”

Finally said

I was sure.

I will regret having said this.

But… It was something I could only say now.

Being able to live with him like this

Because today will be the last time I don’t break down in a sense of shame.

-Gulp

I waited for his mouth to open.

His eyes focused on his lips, and time passed slowly.

In this case, the higher realm was rather poisonous.

Because the waiting time felt so long.

“I think you’re a good person.”

And the answer from him is

It’s absurdly simple, but

“..Is it.”

Rather, it was the words that helped me to support my heart when I was on the verge of cracking.

“But why do you ask that?”

“..No. Just..Please consider it a whim.”

You may regret not pushing further at this time.

But

I’ve already had enough regrets in my life.

There was nothing painful about growing more.

* * *

“Then are you going to find him today?”

“..I’m going to. He probably won’t be sleeping by now.”

“I hope that the person he is looking for is right. I hope my point does not go astray. He said that he waited for 10 years, so God of Heaven and Earth will be considerate.”

He seemed to be left alone in an inn.

“..Would you like to go with me?”

“Yes?”

“When I go to see him… Please stay outside the door. I beg you.”

“Well… I understand.”

I think he thought I was feeling anxious about going to see him alone.

Actually, it was true to some extent.

This is also the drainage that I hit myself.

Now, even if the man is not a meteor, she has nowhere to run.

‘Whoa… Whoa…’

I tried to calm my still shaking heart and headed for the man’s house.

It wasn’t very big, but it wasn’t small either. It was the size of a normal family home.

With a trembling voice, I called out to the person inside, and after a while a man carefully opened the door.

“..I live alone in this house.. But may I ask who you are, if you’re not going to excuse me?”

Resembles.

I don’t remember seeing it much, but it was an appearance that made me wonder if the boy would grow up like this if he grew up strong and became a young man.

“…”

After moving his lips for a while, he finally opened his mouth.

“Do you know the name Han So-yeon?”

A name that is hard to come up with.

I could see it the moment I brought up this name.

The man’s expression suddenly grew wary and disgusted.

“…Who are you and do you know her name?”

“…Could it be you…”

“Come in first. I have no desire to talk about her outside.”

…

Maybe this guy is short-tempered.