Chapter 77 – Chapter 6 – The Nightmare

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-Dagdak

After talking with the swordsman again, the boring carriage trip started to feel less boring.

It is not wrong to say that man is a social animal.

Even if we were in the same space, we couldn’t have a conversation and there was nothing we could do but stare blankly at the empty space, because it was really boring.

“You seem to enjoy talking to other people quite a bit.”

“Does it look like that?”

“I was almost in a dying mood until I refused to talk, but I’m much better now.”

“Hmm..”

Come to think of it, it seems so.

Do I have to say that I have a very lonely personality?

When I was on Earth, I didn’t feel particularly lonely even when I was alone, but these days, I think I was quite afraid of being in a situation where I was alone with no one around.

The reasons for this change are presumed to be…

First of all, when I possessed this body for the first time, the memory of dying alone with a dying body could have been a trauma.

Maybe it’s because I’ve lost my tolerance because I’ve been with Master for 10 years and I’ve rarely been in the situation of being alone.

Or else…

‘Maybe this body originally had that kind of personality.’

It is often said that the mind and body are separate, but in the end, the mind is also influenced by the body.

In the first place, the situation of being possessed by a body completely unknown to me, which is not my own, was something that could not be scientifically explained, but I do not think it would have any effect.

After all, the body is where the mind resides.

‘They say a healthy mind resides in a healthy body…’

I lowered my head and looked at my body.

Thanks to the large cloak, the shape of the body was not revealed, but I couldn’t help but sigh as I knew what kind of body was underneath.

If you have a body like this, I understand that you tend to be lonely.

Wouldn’t it be similar to herbivores that instinctively form groups to increase their survival from carnivores?

‘I deserve to feel lonely…’

When I thought about it, I understood why he had such a personality.

It’s like an instinctive defense mechanism.

“But did someone who knew that leave you alone without even talking to you?”

“I’m sorry..”

I pretended to be a bit pouty as a light joke.

It was just a joke that I made to tease a little bit, but surprisingly, the reaction of the swordsman was more intense than expected.

“Mi-I’m sorry. I had to think deeply for a while. If my actions hurt you somehow…”

‘Uh.’

I was also taken aback by how he reacted violently, even changing the color of his face.

“It’s not like that. It was just a joke. Can I just hurt that much?”

“Is that so?”

“Yes. Just continue to talk with us from now on. I like just talking with the swordsman.”

“I’m sorry..”

My face was still red as if the misunderstanding hadn’t ended yet.

“You remember I used to run a fortune teller in Shaanxi, right? I didn’t know then, but now that I think about it, I think it’s only true that I like talking to people.”

“…Ah.”

That day, for some reason, I couldn’t talk to the swordsman anymore.

-Rumble

Clearly the sky is clear

It was a strangely thunderous day.

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A story from when I had just met Master.

-Crash

“…”

Deep in the woods at night, where you can hear the cool breeze and insects.

I woke up with a dreamy expression.

“Master…?”

I habitually looked at the seat next to where I slept.

The place where Master used to be.

The spot, which always felt warm, was empty and filled with a cold chill.

“Master…?”

I called Master again and looked around.

However, Master was nowhere to be seen.

“…”

The cold chill of the night was encroaching on the inside of the house.

-Bussleuk

I got up from my bed and looked around the house, looking for Master.

But Master was nowhere to be seen.

I can only feel the chilly cold

I didn’t feel the warmth of anyone other than myself.

“…”

-Sreuk

At least I returned to the bed where my warmth still remained and covered myself with a blanket.

There was some warmth left, but it was very little.

The powerless warmth that will cool down again after a little while.

“…No.”

I curled up inside the blanket.

I remembered what had happened before I met Master.

Memories of dying alone in a back alley with a body that was almost dying, almost facing harsh things, but barely resisting.

In order to fall asleep, I had to rely on a piece of cloth I had picked up, and while I was asleep, I had to go to sleep thinking that someone might approach and do something strange.

When I woke up and realized that two street men were tying me up and moving, I struggled with all my might and screamed, so the attention of the people around me drew attention and the two abandoned me and ran away. It is a nightmare I will never forget.

No, the nightmare was not a dream.

The expectation that when I wake up, I might be able to wake up in my room on Earth in a normal state, rather than living alone in a different world and a different body.

Even after a day, two days, three days, four days, and a week, the string of hope that I couldn’t let go of and the reality that that hope didn’t come true made it a nightmare.

Rather, the dream belonged to the sweet side.

Because I had a dream when I was on Earth.

“Ah… Ah…”

As the memory of that time came to mind, I felt my breath quicken and my body cold.

After meeting Master, the nightmare of the name of reality that I had barely forgotten was taking over my body again.

After I became this kind of body in this world, all the memories of being alone were nightmares.

“Master…Sir…”

It seemed like something was about to happen.

Even though it was deep in the mountain, it seemed that a monster or a monster would appear outside the house, and it seemed that someone would come out as the closet opened.

A panic state in which the field of view narrows, breathing becomes rapid, and the head does not roll properly.

-Shaking

My body kept shaking and tears began to come out.

‘It’s coming soon, it’s coming soon, it’s coming soon, it’s coming soon…’

I kept repeating those words in my head.

It was the only thing I could do now.

Self brainwashing to calm this body, to relieve myself.

In an instant, a hole was pierced in the wall that had been piling up with such uncertain words.

‘What if Master had left me?’

I don’t even know Master’s identity yet to say that he is not such a person.

The desire to believe otherwise was eaten up by the emotion of fear, leaving no trace.

“Don’t go..”

The only thing I could do was sob under the covers and say anything.

I won’t be able to hear it anyway. Those words that are just my hopes.

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– Jerking away

Footsteps were heard.

Human footsteps, not animal footsteps.

“Master?!”

As soon as I heard those footsteps, I got out of the blanket and ran out without even putting on my shoes.

“Why are you awake at this hour…”

– Warak

Before Master could finish talking, I was embraced by Master.

“Master.. Master.. Where have you been.. Don’t go..”

“…A disciple?”

“If there’s something I don’t like, I’ll change it. If there’s something I’m lacking in, I’ll change it.

– Cry crying

It was hard for me to speak through the tears already welling up.

But the last words I spat out

“Please don’t leave me alone…”

My true heart that I spit out relying on desperation in the name of courage.

After spitting out those words, I put more strength into the arms that embraced Master.

So as not to escape, so as not to escape.

I pressed Master’s body so tightly that I could hear Master’s heartbeat.

After barely uttering a word, I felt uneasiness seeing the teacher who didn’t say anything.

-Ssutdamssdam

“Okay..”

The emotions that were engulfing her body began to fade little by little from the soft touch she felt on her head.

“Was this master anxious that he might have abandoned you?”

“…Because he suddenly disappears without a word…”

“If I knew you would be so anxious, I would have told you beforehand and left.”

-Sueug

Master held out something he was holding in one hand.

It was a decently sized beast.

“This is food for tomorrow.”

“Yes..?”

“Didn’t you say that? You said you wanted to eat meat.”

“!”

Then, he remembered that he had complained to Master a few days ago.

It’s good to lie in the mountains, but isn’t it just too grassy? I want to eat meat too.

“Then… Because of me…”

“It’s not that difficult. It’s a small beast that can be caught on the way out to drink on a moonlit night.”

It was a fairly nimble beast to look at.

I don’t know how great Master’s martial arts is, but it didn’t look like he could catch it as easily as a horse.

“I… I…”

“Don’t be burdened. As a teacher, this is the right thing to do.”

Master finished stroking my hair.

“On the contrary, I’m sorry. I thought you were sleeping soundly and wouldn’t notice if you came back soon, but I never thought you’d wake up in that short time.”

“Oh, no. Master has nothing to be sorry about…”

“No. It’s my fault for not knowing that you would be so afraid of being alone on the subject of being a teacher.”

Master’s eyes met.

It was basically a cold impression, but I could feel warm emotions in those eyes.

“Let’s find out from now on. We have plenty of time.”