Chapter 92 – Violet’s Unconsciousness #03

“Hunaat?!”

Damn! As I slapped her on the ass with a jaunty sound, Al’Miraj grabbed his ass and looked at me in amazement.

“Why, why are you hitting me!”
“You thought you wouldn’t get along after looking at your past in front of people and saying shit about it?”

Maybe it’s because he’s a devil, and he can’t seem to get enough etiquette education, but etiquette education accompanied by appropriate violence is the only way to educate the rude.

“I’m sorry.. I was so surprised that I was rude..”

Fortunately, unlike Unicor in his heyday (?), Al’Miraj seemed to have the intelligence to realize his mistakes with his with just one training session. I decided to put off the additional training for the honey night, which I had been preparing without Al’Miraj’s knowledge, for later.

“Well, at that time I had just completed the first round of regression, so I was very lacking in sociability. People didn’t trust me either. I can’t even trust my family, so who can I trust?”
“What? Aren’t there many people around Artin-nim right now?”
“..Well, that’s right. Xiaomei and Violet helped me a lot, especially Zorba.”

I want to deny the last part…But honestly, if I deny it, I’ll become a horo bastard.

I still remember. During the first playthrough, when he returned to the Ludwig family unable to accept the sudden change in circumstances. Even though it was not the human Yang Hee-min’s family, but the family of Artin Ludwig, what happened in the family that went back expecting the fence of family for the first time.

If Xiao Mei hadn’t come a few months later out of concern for me, her first episode her would have been a suicide due to depression due to her pessimism about her own situation her.

‘… Ugh, fuck. Let’s not even think about the first playthrough.’

Anyway, right after the 2nd playthrough, I locked myself in my room for a whole month and relied on my vague memories from a few years ago to sort through the developments and events that took place in the novel.

That I have to survive alone, even if it means being selfish and betraying everyone, I will survive alone by monopolizing every opportunity.

‘Thinking about it now, right after the second playthrough, I was really mentally unstable.’

Well, in a way, it’s natural.

In reality, the guy who was cheated by the only friend he believed to be his best friend his, ignored as an orphan, and lived a life of abuse, came to this world and was treated like a bug in the house, but who can you trust?

The reason I met Zorba, who had come to pick me up at the time, wasn’t because of my modest knowledge of the original work. It was because of the compliments that Xiaomei, who was one of my few lights in the first round, had told me about Zorba and the letters he had sent me.

‘In her letters her, she always boasted about herself and talked about it, but whenever something good happened, she would send me a letter and tell me how I was doing.’

So, when I first saw Zorba, I was curious as well as puzzled by the human power that radiated from her appearance her like a naked, tanned bully, as stated in the article. What kind of person is this guy really? And I also wanted to see Xiao Mei.

‘And, we met for the first time there.’

Violet, my dearest friend and colleague. And a cute witch who was unrequitedly in love.

“Since Miss Violet wiped the black tea and cleaned up with magic, Artine became the face that even decided the name of her grandson her in the past .. Ah! I-I didn’t mean to be sarcastic!”
“Well, that much is fine, actually, I felt a crush on Violet from then on.”

It’s hard to imagine with Violet’s current appearance of her, but Violet was always a dependable person who took care of others around her diligently and took care of her confidence and self-esteem of her.

In the original work, it was Violet, not Cayenne, who helped awaken some of the heroines around Cayenne, and her always kind and hard-working appearance of her set an example.

“I became stronger because of Violet in a way.”
“Yes?! Are you saying Artin-nim became stronger because of Miss Violet?”
“Right now, she’s wandering a bit, but at that time, Violet was confident while working hard. She was like the sun supporting someone.”

As if he couldn’t believe my words, Al’Miraz looked at Violet from the past, who cared for the awkward past me and talked to him diligently.

“Studying myself must be difficult, but for me to adapt myself, he studies for three hours a day, bandages himself for me who was injured from swordsmanship training, and gave me potions to cheer me up… “

So, during the 2nd playthrough, I had a crush on Violet for the first year. Still, he couldn’t confess. The same goes for Xiaomei.

Why didn’t you confess? It was simple. Because I was mistaken that Xiaomei or Violet liked Zorba or Cayenne. Especially in the 2nd episode, it was difficult to do anything related to dating because of Cayenne and Unicor’s persistent interference.

“But it’s strange. Why did someone who used to be so confident now become so timid and lacking self-confidence?”
“Well, since it has entered the subconscious, you will be able to recognize it. There doesn’t seem to be Violet around here either. Let’s go inside a bit more.”
“All right! On the way, please explain what regression is!”

I stared at the four fresh faces of the past for a moment, nodded, and started walking down the road with Al’Miraj deeper into the unconscious. To find Violet who might be at the end of this road.

**

When Violet came back to her senses her, she couldn’t see Olga Beatrice belittling her.

Instead, Artin was there. Seeing the familiar figure wielding a sword with bandages wrapped around both wrists, Violet ah. And exclaimed.

“That is Artin, who was learning swordsmanship from Professor Urban Helic..”

In fact, the time when Violet first met Artin. It was Violet who suggested Artin, who was always dark and wary of people, to learn the sword.

At first, I just thought it would be better to move my body lightly. It would not be bad to learn martial arts with Xiao-Mei, but I thought that I would feel intimidated in front of the genius Xiao-Mei, so I went to the dean of students, Mr. Urban Helic, and asked for it.

Of course, the teacher readily agreed. No, he was delighted to hear that Artin, who had been refusing to go to school for a month, was gradually opening up and moving.

I wonder if such a teacher and her own feelings have come into contact. Artin grew brighter day by day. Even though residual scars increased on her body, the wounds in her heart that she had n’t shown to others seemed to be healed, and Violet gained strength from Artine’s appearance in her.

‘I always applied herbs, changed bandages, and made potions for you. I’ve heard a lot of people asking if they’re helping out with the unnies…’

Violet sat there and watched Artine diligently swinging the sword. Even at that time, she skipped a few reports because she watched Artine practice like this, but while watching Artine, she was faithful to her academy life her. Could.

When he turned his head to the side, Artin was there too. Unlike the previous rounds, Artin in the 3rd round chose to assist and help others. He learned magic, necromancy, and alchemy from himself, and learned politics from Zorba.

‘Whenever I accidentally get hurt while experimenting with alchemy, I always apply herbs to my fingers…’

When I was closest to Artin, she helped me a lot and we spent a lot of time together. At that time, Artin was full of confidence, and he felt a lot of favor from the opposite sex because he always depended on him.

“That’s…The 4th episode.”

Next to him, a scarred, muscular giant named Artin caught his eye his. It reminded me of making a potion for Artin, who was suffering from muscle pain at that time, and making it for three days and nights at the request of the elixir.

“…Really, you’ve been together for a long time.”

Weird. I don’t remember anything else, but the fact that only the memories with Artin remain vivid in my heart, reminding me of it as if it were yesterday.

It reminds me of going on a picnic with Artin in the second playthrough. The dim sum made by Xiaomei was very delicious.
It reminds me of the memories of watching the sunset on the beach with Artin in the third episode. If Cayenne hadn’t come all of a sudden, wouldn’t she have kissed her that day?
It reminds me of the memory of seeing off Artin who was leaving for the Devil Castle in the 4th episode. In the end, the memory of comforting Agnes by her side her, who burst into tears, is also vague, but it comes to mind as well.

All the memories are clear, beautiful, sad and missed. Is that why? Every time she recalled the end of all those memories, Violet’s heart felt like it would explode.

When he heard that Artin, who had left for the Underworld in the second playthrough, had died along with his other colleagues his, he stopped eating and drinking out of sorrow over the loss of his closest friends his.

After Artin was burned to death in front of his eyes in his in the 3rd playthrough, he eventually had to destroy the things Artin wanted to protect with his own hands his. He shed bloody tears as he watched the inquisitors burn to death.

In the 4th episode, when the candle announcing Artin’s life flickered dangerously, he was frustrated with the reality of not being able to do anything and had to pray to the God he hadn’t been looking for his entire life. When the candle finally went out, what expression did I make?

‘…I, I really… Can’t be of any help to Artin?’

Whenever Artin was in danger, Violet couldn’t stay by Artin’s side.

Always helpless, he prayed for Artin’s safe return, and whenever Artin died painfully, he was of no help and had to stand by.

The joy immediately after the memory of Artin came to mind was no longer there. All memories of Artin were a history of tragedy for Violet, and only a sad ending remained.

-Haha! You too!”-

..Beside Artin in the dream, people other than himself are standing.

Lucy Valentine in the second playthrough, Olga Beatrice in the third playthrough, and Agnes Ermengart in the fourth playthrough.

He was always by his side his first, but before he knew it, someone else was taking his place his. He, who was kind like an idiot, always stepped back and gave up his place for his for Artin’s happiness his.

The bandage I had bandaged was replaced by a bandage gift from a woman from the Underworld.

In the place where I applied herbs and had a conversation, only the image of the saintess smiling kindly and healing her wounds her with her holy power her lightly remained.

In the seat next to me where I laughed at the sunset together, the princess is sitting with her head leaning on Artin’s shoulder and whispering her love to her.

“I don’t like it… I don’t like this anymore… I, I’m always helpless… I can’t do anything…”

Violet stumbled and hurriedly turned her head to look elsewhere in order to get out of this spot.

However, there was no place for Violet even there. As the landscapes of memories of every moment and every happy moment unfolded in front of my eyes, the person next to Artin was replaced by another person.

Shao Mei, Agnes, Lucy, Olga, Unicor, Cayenne, Zorba. Artine’s expression, which looks happy with everyone, is a situation where Violet herself is one step away from cheering.

The whole situation was terrible. Violet sat down on the spot and hugged his head in a terrible nightmare, as if her ego was melting.

“Thanks to you, I was able to win! Thank you for cheering me on——”
“Thank you for treating me, I can train hard tomorrow too. Right——?”
“Hey, there’s something I want to tell you. In fact, I… “

He was nowhere to be found. Not the sound of laughing at himself, but the happy laughter of Artin, at least at this moment Violet felt like a nightmare.

And that fact itself was making Violet feel even more miserable. To think that the laughter of a loved one is painful is such a selfish thought.

“… I’m sorry, Artin. I’m really sorry…”

——A true nightmare isn’t just about revealing pain. Violet still didn’t notice that even the good and happy memories were turning into sadness and pain, a true nightmare.