Chapter 130 – Crybaby Empathy and Understanding

Bruises and visible wounds will disappear if you are healed by the priests of the church who are always on standby in the practical class.

It is not that mental fatigue or exhausted endurance and energy are recharged.

I heard that there is a person from the church that can do that, but there is no reason for such a great person to be in the academy, and there is no way Chloe, a mere cadet, has ever met him.

“Whoa…!”

Chloe, who had been lightly supported by Rike and Seria and returned to the knights department lecture room, couldn’t afford to get up again the moment she sat down.

In a situation where there are still classes left, the embarrassing situation of exhaustion in the actual class without thinking about the future.

The moment she closed her eyes and lowered her head, she was in a state where she seemed to fall into sleep as if she were fainting, but like a coincidence, she remembered the potion her sister prepared for breakfast.

Click-

She unbuttoned the bag and put her hand in it.

Deep in the bag, a glass bottle wrapped in cloth and stored along with medicine is caught.

‘I heard it’s related to the condition. Is it some kind of vitality potion?’

Although I briefly learned basic knowledge about the types of potions through textbooks. The appearance of the potion her sister gave her was always something she had never seen before.

The glass bottle, which has a gold lid embossed with splendid decorations, is likely to catch the eyes of the cadets the moment it is taken out.

After putting both hands inside the bag and removing the lid, she turned her head and drank the potion at once.

Klopp- Klopp-

“Puha!”

After handing over the small contents, Chloe was troubled when she saw the empty bottle in her hand.

‘Should I take this… Again?’

I know that potions sold on the market have standards set for each type to make it easy to distinguish.

This gorgeous bottle even feels like a luxury item, so you can feel that her sister’s position is unique here.

The empty bottle was wrapped in a cloth again and put in her bag. After a while, I felt the effect of the potion on my body.

“…!”

I don’t know how great the potion my sister prepared is, but I already knew that it wasn’t an ordinary item.

The soma that was heavily placed on the eyelids recedes, and the mind that was thickly covered with fog and dark clouds awakens.

The floor of energy, which had dried up without a single drop left, began to return with moist and soft moisture.

It was fortunate that I would not fall asleep in class thanks to my improved physical condition.

So, while waiting for the next lecture, she was able to review what happened in the practical class.

The answer to the problem he brought out in the fight with his brother in today’s actual class was an area close to private counseling.

She coolly scratches the part she was missing and was confused through a unique metaphor.

Even for the part of her unconscious that was turning her eyes due to her low self-esteem, she gently warned her not to hurt herself, avoiding the aggressive tone.

In a situation where there is no disagreement even when reprimanded, I have received comfort and a solution… Even in class, there is a certain sense that I have been favored compared to other cadets.

‘I have to express my gratitude and apology to my older brother…’

It was a great harvest and progress for her to gather up her courage and make an appointment.

Beginning is half done.

I haven’t set an exact date, but since I’ve been given permission, all I have to do now is organize my thoughts.

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After finishing her academy and returning to her mansion, Chloe confirmed through her servants that her sister hadn’t returned yet, and returned to her room and closed the door.

After quickly changing into comfortable clothes, I sat down at my desk and took out the book that was not in the library that day.

An adult romance novel sandwiched between camouflage books. Starting from the first page, I moved my eyes once again to read the text.

Sharak- Sharak-

“…?”

As she turned the pages of the book with concentration, Chloe had a completely different impression than when she first read the novel.

Because you know the ending and the resolution of the conflict? No.

Because it’s not late at night when the emotions are deepening, but in the afternoon when the sun rises? No.

I kill excitement as much as possible and go out with a calm mind in my eyes.

It is no longer a dialogue that erupts with bizarre illustrations, naked moaning, and desire.

Each other’s body is natural. The description of the feelings of allowing and opening one’s heart to others without a drop of blood caught my eye and deeply penetrated my heart.

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The time spent with Rebecca, who lives with freedom in her arms, brought me the catharsis of ’emotional release’.

Due to the nature of a knight who has to maintain dignity, I always felt heavy on my shoulders even though I couldn’t lament others- The time I spent with Rebecca made me forget all the restraints that entangled me and feel true happiness.

The leash of being the eldest son of a prestigious aristocratic family and a promising knight of the empire always kept me from moving comfortably.

Contrary to the evaluation of others, I was really weak, so it was difficult to live with only my body.

However, his unsuitable talent and position as the eldest son forced him to climb a steep mountain, pushing his back.

An endless climb.

As I continued to walk down the hopeless road, not knowing when I would be able to reach it, I had a foreboding and accepted that the moment my heart would break, whether today or tomorrow, would come.

Maybe to let go of the many things you’re carrying by breaking your mind.

It may have been waiting for a good excuse to buy sympathy from others.

A heart on the verge of being torn apart that I can’t even show to my parents who gave birth to me because they have expectations for me.

Ironically, the only one who can reveal that and evoke the spirit on the verge of being destroyed is in front of an adventurer without a drop of blood.
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Why didn’t I feel it when I first read it?

Only this one page seemed to represent her sister’s inner thoughts.

“…”

Because he cries a lot as a crybaby.

Although there were countless times when I read novels and empathized and cried in my room alone. The emotion that made her tear glands break down now was of a completely different texture.

It’s not sympathy or emotion for the character, but the times her sister must have been struggling with.

Although she knows her sister must have had a hard time. How difficult it must have been for her was because she hadn’t even been able to draw and conjure herself.

“Black- Heh…”

Tears welled up in drops and ran down my cheeks.

Today, through my brother, I realized the comforting warmth and power of empathy and understanding.

As her sister, she wants to sympathize with and understand her older sister’s exhaustion, but she doesn’t even allow that.

“Sister…”

Paeng-!

After wiping away the tears with her handkerchief and wiping the clear fluid from her nose, Chloe took out her notebook so as not to forget Rike’s advice.

Through Rike’s story, I also understood that there was no need to be impatient for the next few days.

With the mindset of studying, she neatly wrote down the conversations she remembered and the things she had to do in the future.

*****

“Brother~ I got a letter from you!”

Rike called me in the yard swinging Gleipnir and watching.

I know that Éclair and Rique are exchanging quite a few letters. Calling me that a letter has arrived means that Eclair has sent it to me!

“Let’s go inside for a minute.”

Cheolleuk-!

As I spoke while gently stroking Gleipney, the chain that heard my words pierced the air and quickly hid itself.

‘Have we become quite close now…?’

It would be nice if intimacy could be seen as a number… Gleipnir’s feelings are conveyed subtly, but it’s hard to give a definite answer if you ask if there’s any progress between them.

He didn’t ask for anything from himself yet, he was happy when he was petted, and he was satisfied with his current role as a weapon.

Is this just listening to you because you like the feeling of being stroked?

It has not yet been clearly determined whether he listened to me because I developed a level of intimacy or trust.

“Whoa-“

I put her jacket loosely over her shoulder and went home. Rike approached her with a rifle, handed me her letter, and held her in her arms.

I buried my head in my chest, sniffed, and laughed at the itchy sensation of licking my skin with my tongue.

“Would you smell it because you were sweating?”

At my words, Rike lifted her head, showing a glimpse of her pink tongue and drawing a smile on her eyes.

“So good.”

While stroking Rique’s head, who buried her face again, he opened her letter and read it, filled with Eclair’s unique handwriting.

“Hmm…”

As I drool, Rike raised her head again and asked.

“What’s wrong? I got a letter from my sister. Does it look sad?”

“It’s not a personal thing… They said we should meet at the Adventurer’s Guild since we’ve decided on an additional reward for working together the other day.”

Rather than a letter offering material rewards. It was a little disappointing because I am at an age where I prefer letters with personal and special feelings.

‘Still, it’s important to be able to meet like this.’

Although it is regrettable that the letter does not express affection, the opportunity to meet has arisen, so it makes my heart flutter.

Rike, who knows my personality well, pokes me at an important point with a mischievous smile.

“Isn’t there a letter saying I love you?”

“No~”

I showed regret at Rike’s words with a playful tone.

“Eclair unnie is really shy. That’s why she’s cute.”

Seeing Rike who genuinely regards Eclair, her older sister, as cute, it makes me feel good too, as the relationship between the two seems to be quite close.

“Isn’t it? It’s a shame, so I’ll have to meet and hear it myself.”

“Listen a hundred times and come.”

I lowered her hand slightly and grabbed Rike’s bottom with one hand, who was licking my body like a cat, and she let out a pleasant moan.

“Huh…!”

“Let’s listen equally to Rike a hundred times today.”