Anxiety (1)

“Seohyun. How do you feel? Has the pain decreased?”

Celica asked me with a voice full of worry.

No matter how much she poured out her divine power, Black Flame’s wounds did not heal.

Permanent injury. A debuff that cannot be erased forever unless you delete the character.

No matter how much Celica did, the game system could not be changed.

“Cerica. This is enough. Let’s stop.”

“No. “I can have a little more strength.”

No matter how much I tried to stop Celica, she didn’t stop.

Before I knew it, I was drenched in cold sweat and concentrating on treatment.

In the end, I turned my back and held on to Celica’s hand.

“Are you okay. That’s enough.”

“Still… “

“Don’t worry. “I’m slowly getting used to the pain.”

The wound has become so established that there are days when I forget about the wound on my shoulder.

Of course, there are times when I clench my teeth or wake up when the black salt is strong.

“Sorry. No matter how much I think, I can’t find a way… “

Celica lowered her head with a truly disappointed voice.

Even though I was the one who was actually injured, I was suffering.

I wanted to feel comfortable that little.

In a dark room, Celica illuminated by the light of a chandelier.

Since I couldn’t open the curtains, the face I looked at by candlelight was full of sadness.

“Why…? Is this level of power not enough?”

No matter how much you become a demigod, you cannot change the game system.

It was heartbreaking, but I had to accept reality.

After adjusting my top properly, I hugged Celica gently.

“Ugh…”

Celica was held in my arms making a strange sound.

Just like Tyria a little while ago, her expression immediately relaxed.

“Sorry. Would it be okay to stay like this for a little while?”

Have I really gained the ability to be liked by other people?

Celica entrusted herself to me without any resistance.

While we were close together, I quietly checked Celica’s status window.

Name: Serica

Age: 19

Gender: Female

Class: Demigod

Level: 38

HP: 2150/2150

MP: 3660/3660

Strength: 26/100

Stamina: 23/100

Agility: 29/100

Magic attribute: 39/100

Wisdom: 53/100

Luck: 34/100

The class changed into a half-human and half-god, and the stats also increased significantly.

In particular, wisdom increased to 50 and magic power also increased significantly.

Although he had the lowest level among his colleagues, he could actually be said to have reached the peak as a healer.

‘Celica has also suffered a lot in the meantime.’

While he complied with my unreasonable demands, he never said a word of complaint.

Because I was grateful for her feelings, I hugged Celica deeply.

After a while, we slowly fell and the heat subsided.

Celica takes a deep breath in a calm atmosphere.

His expression seemed a little brighter than before, perhaps because he was comfortable.

“Seohyun. Thank you.”

“No. I am more grateful. I’m glad you followed along.”

What would it have been like if Celica had not been with us?

It was obvious that even more hardships than now were coming.

If it weren’t for her, neither Kayla nor I would have been safe.

Erina may have been even more rampant than she is now.

“Do you remember? “At first, I rejected Seohyun’s offer.”

“Okay. “I remember.”

How could I forget my first meeting with her?

She was preaching on the streets of Helen Village.

Even though I was ignored and ridiculed by people around me, I was praying.

At that time, he rejected my offer because he couldn’t leave the monastery.

Now we have become indispensable colleagues.

“If it weren’t for the director’s advice, I would have rejected Seohyun’s offer.”

That was right. With the help of the abbot, I was able to change Serica’s mind.

However, I don’t think I would have given up on Celica.

Perhaps he would have found another way to change her mind.

Of course, Erina and Kayla were opposed to Celica joining, so we don’t know what would have happened.

“I’ve thought about what it would have been like if I had rejected the offer until the end.”

“…”

“Obviously they couldn’t maintain the monastery and take care of the children.”

If it hadn’t been for my help, I wouldn’t have wandered away from Helen Village right now.

Serika would have taken care of the children by any means necessary, but it would not have been so smooth.

“Seohyun. Thank you so much. “You helped me so much.”

“I also received a lot of help from you.”

“No. “My help is just blood for new feet.”

Then, Celica looked into my eyes with a nervous expression.

I instinctively knew she had something to say.

“Seohyun. “There is one question I would like to ask.”

“Okay. I’m listening.”

“Why did you make this suggestion to me?”

Unfortunately, this is a question that cannot be easily answered.

Not only did he not know the truth like Kayla, he couldn’t tell it to him.

That’s why a lie was necessary.

“Actually, I’ve heard rumors about you.”

“Rumors…?”

“Okay. “There is a truly faithful nun in the village.”

Of course, there were no such rumors.

In fact, the bad reviews about Celica were even worse.

There was no way Celica didn’t know that fact.

“But I never showed you my healing miracles.”

“That’s…”

“Could you please be honest…?”

I couldn’t deceive her with a clumsy lie.

Also, even though I knew I was in trouble, I continued to ask questions.

Normally I would have overlooked it, but this time I didn’t back down.

Did you really want to hear my sincerity?

Until now, Celica has never asked for anything.

They just silently followed what I said. I have never expressed an opinion.

So, I knew how sincerely Celica wanted an answer.

I had no choice but to remain silent.

“I’ll tell you later.”

“Can’t you listen now? Is it that difficult?”

“Okay. “Can you wait a little while?”

Then he quietly looked at me with a disappointed expression.

However, he soon seemed to have given up on his feelings and smiled.

“All right. But can you answer just one thing?”

“…Okay.”

“Does Seohyun like me…?”

I couldn’t avoid the answer this time.

Even now, Celica was smiling fakely.

If I refuse to answer this time, I might actually shed tears.

“Okay. “I like you.”

“As a colleague… “You mean?”

“Okay.”

Silence that lasts for a moment.

Celica paused, lost in thought.

During this time, a thousand thoughts passed through my head.

‘No way, Serika too…’

I didn’t hope. There has never been a single sign of affection.

What would happen if Celica came in with Tyria already in a distraught mood?

Although Celica hasn’t confessed yet, I have a strong feeling.

It was clear when I looked back on what had happened so far.

“Cerica. Let’s talk later.”

“Wait a minute…”

I tried to escape, even if it was clumsy, but I got caught.

Of course, I could have done it if I was forced to, but I couldn’t treat him that harshly.

“Can you just stay like this for a moment?”

A request to just stay still.

Knowing that I could listen without any hesitation, she asked me to do it.

Celica was different from other people.

I didn’t crave affection as recklessly as Erina.

Like Kayla, he didn’t just look at me and wait.

He wasn’t as naively honest as Tyria.

That’s why I had no idea how to deal with Celica.

The moment when such a difficult situation continued.

“Hey, is it okay for a moment?”

A sudden knocking sound on the door.

Then Celica quickly moved away from me and adjusted her posture to sit down.

The sound outside the door was Mark’s voice.

Even though I sent the kids out, I knocked on the door, saying I had something to say to Serika for a moment.

After realizing that it was definitely not a big deal, I opened the door myself.

“Okay. Mark. What’s going on?”

“That is…” A guest came.”

You’re a guest. Did Catalina or Julia come to play?

To say that, Mark had an expression of confusion and fear.

I noticed something strange and asked Mark again.

“Someone came to visit.”

“Well… The saint came to visit.”

What a saint. Are you really talking about Rene?

For what reason did they come to my mansion?

At best, we only had a brief argument in the banquet hall, but even that wasn’t a good memory.

“Mark. “Can I ask you to prepare to welcome guests?”

“Yes. “I think it would be best to go to the front gate quickly.”

Mark heard me and immediately ran to the children.

Meanwhile, Serika, as if she had heard the story, tidied up her nun’s clothes and came out.

“Cerica. “Did you hear?”

“Yes…”

A voice full of regret. I definitely felt it too, but I didn’t mention it.

I’m sure Celica wanted to continue talking, but I didn’t really want to.

I felt sorry for Celica, but we will have a chance to talk later.

I hoped she would wait until then.

“Let’s go to the front gate first. Rene is definitely looking for you and me.”

If you think back to what happened at the banquet hall, it was natural.

I didn’t know why Rene came to the mansion, but I was certain that Celica and I had business.

As I went out to the front door with Celica, I noticed that there was a commotion going on at the front door.

The guards guarding the door were also standing awkwardly as if they were in trouble.

The person standing in front of them was a woman wearing a pure white nun’s uniform.

When I saw him arguing with the guard in a nervous voice, I couldn’t watch him.

“Lene. “What brought you here?”

“What? Ah…!”

Renee turned her head in an angry voice and made eye contact with me.

Then, his expression suddenly changed and he smiled.

An expression full of impure intentions.

Just by looking at it, it didn’t seem like it would sound good.

“You. “You plan to subdue the Demon King in the future, right?”

“Well, that’s right.”

Rene nodded as if it was obvious and crossed her arms in front of me.

Then he spoke with his voice raised.

“Then let me go with you.”

“What… ?”

“Didn’t you hear? “Let’s go to the Demon King’s Castle with me.”

Then, a single word came out from the mouth of Celica, who was still sitting next to her.

“Ah… ?”

A voice so cold that it’s hard to believe it came from Celica.

For some reason, I started getting chills behind my back.