Anxiety (5)

“Uhm… “Let’s discuss it again later.”

Simon stood up with an awkward smile.

A situation in which further discussion became meaningless due to Celica’s unexpected behavior.

Still, it was fortunate that we were able to push back the pressure from the Vatican.

However, as the gaze pouring on Celica becomes increasingly harsh.

“Ugh…”

Celica lowered her head with her face as bright as blush.

“I will formally invite you to the Holy See later. I would appreciate it if you would consider the proposal until then.”

Of course, Simon realized it was a lie and tried to leave room for it, but even that was meaningless.

Since Celica had already clearly expressed her will, there was no need to change her mind.

Since Rene had no intention of stepping down from her position as a saint, there was no justification for the proposal.

As the members of the Vatican left, Rene sighed heavily.

“Shit… Why did people who normally lie down in the Vatican come all the way here?”

His voice was lowered, perhaps because he had not gone far yet, but his anger was evident.

‘It looks like there is politics within the Vatican as well.’

Is there any place where people gather and there is no struggle for power?

However, the situation just now was clearly heterogeneous.

Anyway, you can’t believe he openly approaches Celica in Renee’s presence.

From Renee’s point of view, it was strange that she wasn’t angry.

But Rene first apologized to us.

“Ha… Sorry. “I got caught up in something useless.”

“I don’t care. From the looks of it, it was going to happen someday.”

“Okay. Simon or other priests may have sent an invitation sooner or later.”

I decided to consider myself lucky that they didn’t storm into the mansion.

“Anyway, if you guys aren’t interested in the offer, you’ll give up quickly.”

“Is that really true? I don’t know if I’ll give up easily.”

“They are old-fashioned people, so if I refuse a few more times, they will quit out of pride. It’s obvious just by looking at it.”

I was concerned that there would be friction if the Vatican pushed for the proposal, but I felt relieved after hearing Rene’s words.

Honestly, I didn’t want to get into trouble with the Holy See.

They could not ignore their status and power, and there was no reason to make enemies.

‘Honestly, if I wanted to, I could destroy the Holy See.’

In fact, there was an episode in the game that caused a conflict with the Vatican and led to the collapse of the Vatican.

Even if Yeriel, the symbol of the Vatican, is rescued, wouldn’t the Vatican be turned upside down?

“Anyway, if you’ve said everything you wanted to say, you can go back. “I have nothing more to say.”

“Okay. “I’m sorry again.”

“No. In the end, I also caused a nuisance. Let’s just pretend it never happened.”

It was fortunate that Rene also accepted the apology and the misunderstanding was resolved.

Then he looked at Celica and spoke softly.

“Cerica… Is it okay if I call you that?”

“Oh, yes!”

“I apologize for the rude words I’ve said so far.”

“No. “Don’t worry.”

Then Celica smiled and shook her head, and Rene also dropped her blunt tone and talked comfortably.

“Honestly, as a fellow priest, I think it’s amazing. I will ask you to continue to take good care of me.”

“Yes. “I also have many things I want to ask the saint.”

After that, Rene and Celica started talking happily.

The atmosphere became softer as we discussed topics we could share as fellow priests.

But Rene couldn’t spend much time because he had work to do.

With a brief conclusion, we both stood up.

As we came out of the saint’s room, the priests were approaching from afar.

From the looks of it, they were people trying to secretly spy on the room.

They bowed their heads and apologized to us, and I calmed them down, saying it was no big deal.

Just before going to do his job, Rene left his last words.

“I will have to come to the Holy See at least once in the future. It would be nice to see you then.”

“Okay. I’ll see you then.”

Lastly, before parting ways, Rene looked at Celica and waved.

And he spoke in a voice so low that it was barely audible.

“Cerica. “I hope your wish comes true.”

“Ah…”

“See you later then.”

Rene turns his back and goes back with the priests.

Celica nodded with a subtle expression.

“Yes…”

Perhaps Renee didn’t hear Celica’s last words.

***

“Erina. “Let me go now.”

“…”

Even after arriving at the mansion, Erina didn’t let go of my arm.

After Celica’s public confession, Erina kept her mouth shut.

Rather than getting angry or acting unexpectedly, there was no sign of anything.

On the contrary, I became anxious because I was too quiet.

Kayla, Tyria, and Celica even walked apart.

It wasn’t until we finally headed to the bedroom that Erina finally let go of my arms.

Soon he was held tightly in my arms and did not fall.

“Erina. “Wait a minute… “

I tried to push it away due to stronger pressure than usual, but my hand stopped.

“Huh… Black…”

Erina was crying with tears in her eyes.

When I saw that, I couldn’t throw her away.

Because I know how much you like me, I quietly accepted the hug this time.

How many minutes passed like that?

When my back slowly started to go numb, Erina pushed me away.

“Huh…?!”

Erina climbs up onto my body while lying down on the floor.

He just leaned over and brought his lips to mine.

A kiss after a long time. It was more extreme and rough than before.

It was closer to emotional skinship than affection.

“Erina. Stop now…!”

Erina stopped speaking and covered her lips again.

It didn’t even stop with a kiss.

“Ugh…?!”

A tingling pain burst through my lips, and the fishy taste of blood spread into my mouth.

Erina bit my lip with her teeth.

Since there was no sign of calming down, I had no choice but to use my strength.

As I forced myself up, Erina also used her strength to push me away.

Then, my balance lost and Erina and I both fell to the floor.

“Ha… “Stop it now.”

When I wiped my lips, red blood came out on the back of my hand.

It wasn’t a serious wound and would heal quickly, but the problem was elsewhere.

“Well… Hmm… “

Erina fell to the floor and couldn’t get up.

When I saw her panicked and out of breath, I quickly hugged her.

The cold expression that was always on my face and the warm expression that I only showed to myself have all disappeared.

She was just crying with a face full of upset.

“Certainly not…? “You don’t like people other than me, right… ?”

“Okay. No.”

“Then kick out those beastly b*tches right now…! Right now…!”

Erina screams as if she is having a fit.

I couldn’t do anything other than just hug her tightly.

It makes no sense to now expel my colleagues.

Erina also knew that it was impossible.

“Those b*tches are after you! “They are trying to steal you away!”

“…What Serika said was not sincere.”

“No! Why are you siding with that b*tch!!”

As I screamed with sincere anger, the room rang.

I was momentarily dazed by the loud roar that made my ears tingle.

The most angry moment I’ve ever had with Erina.

If things continued like this, it seemed like I would never calm down.

“No, I do not want…” Why is everyone trying to take you away… “

“…”

“You are mine…! I liked you first! “I am the one who loves you the most!”

He even began to beg me with tears streaming down his face.

My eyes became unfocused, my breathing became rough, my body became hot and I was even breaking into a cold sweat.

“Erina. “Please listen for a moment.”

“Huh… Hmm… “

“I really love you. I’m serious.”

“Me too…” I love you more than anything in the world… “

“I understand why you’re anxious. And I’m sorry.”

Then Erina shook her head with a messed up face.

“No. You did nothing wrong… Those damn beasts are the problem!”

I couldn’t help but criticize my colleagues in an angry tone.

I just hugged Erina and hoped she would calm down.

“I want to kill you right now… Everything…”

However, as the anger showed no signs of abating, they decided to take special measures.

When I tidied up his tangled hair and wiped away his tears, he calmly accepted my touch.

When I slowly helped him up, he leaned against me to steady himself.

“Erina. Let’s wash first. Let’s take a bath together after a long time.”

“Really…?”

“Okay. “If you go into the warm water, you will calm down.”

Fortunately, Erina sobbed and held back her tears as if it was effective.

When she took off the armor she was wearing and put on a white dress, she held my hand tightly.

As he followed me out of the room, the mansion was strangely quiet.

It seems like everyone read the atmosphere and hid inside the room.

The children who were running around the mansion were holding their breath quietly.

After heading to the bathhouse on the first floor and closing the door, Erina let go and took off her clothes.

I wrapped a towel over my body and entered the bathroom to find warm bath water ready.

As hot water was poured on her head, Erina took a deep breath and wiped her face.

As the tears were washed away from my swollen eyes, my red eyes returned to focus.

Likewise, the childish whining returned.

“Please wash my body too…”

“Okay. I understand.”

They lathered and washed my hair and even soaped my entire body.

Finally, I poured water from the bowl and this time Erina brought her hand.

It was clear that the purpose was to cling to my body rather than to wash it.

Still, I accepted it without saying anything, and Erina soon stopped touching me.

“It’s done…”

Erina finishes it off and pours water.

Even though we were taking a bath together, he didn’t seem to be in a good mood.

“Ruler. Let’s go in.”

As we entered the bath together and soaked in the hot water, Erina let out a deep breath.

He quietly soaked himself in the hot water and leaned against me.

He was still looking at me with a gloomy expression.

“Do you really love me…?”

“Okay. Erina. “Love me.”

“Really…?”

“Okay. I’m serious.”

No matter how many times she repeated the words, Erina’s expression did not get any better.

Eventually, he started tearing out his own hair.

“I’m anxious… I’m so anxious… “I’m afraid you might hate me… ” “

“That won’t happen.” Erina.”

My affection has never cooled while I was with her.

Because Erina is my ideal type and lover.

“Why?… I should believe you…”

But Erina was suffering even after hearing what I said.

Erina lied and I also lied.

It no longer mattered who did it first.

In a situation where each other was deceiving, it became a matter of who would be found out first.

There was no way Erina would have wanted this situation.

That’s why it got to the point where I even doubted my words.

Erina slowly fell from me.

And when he tried to untie the towel wrapped around his body, he quickly stopped him.

“Erina. “This is not possible.”

“Why…?”

I was speechless at Erina’s question.

Me and her are lovers. There were no problems.

I was relieved because Erina had never shown any s*xual desires until now.

Only now did I realize that Erina was just holding back.

“If you really love me…”

“…”

“Then please hug me…”

I still couldn’t put down the towel.

I had to hold on to what little string of reason was left.

Because if I had a relationship with Erina now, there was no turning back.

I had no choice but to block Erina’s request.