Chapter 123 – Sorry

One.

“So if I apologize, you leave. Even if I die, I will not apologize.”

Scar said so in a trembling voice. That was the reason.
The reason he hasn’t apologized to me since the day he got rid of the orphanage and forced me into the academy 8 years ago was the paradoxical reason that he didn’t want to break up with me.
Not apologizing for what he did because he was afraid of the end of the relationship was an idea that went far beyond common sense.

“You might as well insult me. You can hate it. You don’t have to love But… You can’t leave.”

But I can understand Scar. It’s a relationship so bad that anyone can say it’s a bad relationship, but it’s still 15 years. Scar and I have been together for 15 years.
It wasn’t difficult to understand that person if you’ve been by one person’s side and not been separated for 15 years.

“Pastor, I knew you were obsessed with my apples since your academy days. Until you joined the guild and mastered the rabbit hole, you knew that receiving my sincere apology was one of your goals in life.”

Even knowing that, Scar didn’t apologize to me.
The moment I achieve my goal of receiving an apology from Scar, the reason to stay by Scar’s side also disappears. Because I don’t have to be tied down to an apology anymore.

“So I couldn’t do more. When we were 16, Pastor, you did that, right? You and I are not in the same class. People should get along with each other, and you and I shouldn’t hang out. Your existence will be nothing but a nuisance to me.”

Clearly it was.
On a winter night when I was 16 years old, when Scar told me that I was leaving for the academy next year, I said that I would also go to society and put an end to our relationship.
At the time, she didn’t even know Scar had feelings for me, and she didn’t want to see her caught up in her sympathy and her presence as her first friend, me. Did
Until then, Scar had thought of her as a close friend even though she was a bit spiteful.
I was able to say that for my friend without expressing my regret.
However, at that time, Scar liked me as her opposite sex, and she ended up having the terrible result of her forced admission to the academy and the demolition of the orphanage.
Since then, a gap has formed between me and Scar that cannot be easily filled.

The gorge was so deep that it was difficult to even put an apology in your mouth.

“So. I won’t apologize no, I can’t So you won’t leave me.”

His voice trembled, his gaze avoided me, but his will was firm.
No matter what I say here, Scar won’t believe it.
Even if she said that she would forgive her and that it was okay, she wouldn’t touch Scar.
Because she herself knows how great the wrong she has done to me is.

“…Now I understand.”

After hearing Scar’s words, I definitely understood.

“But, I understand.”

Really, I just got it.

“······What?”

Scar’s bewildered face came into view.
There was only one letter difference between the sentence “I understand” And the sentence “I only understand”, But the difference in meaning was huge.
And I chose the latter.
Scar could understand in her head why she hadn’t apologized to me, but her heart couldn’t accept it.
That he couldn’t apologize because he was afraid of my departure, that he wouldn’t apologize if I did, all sounded nothing more than a threat with an apology as a hostage.

To sum up Scar’s words now, ‘I do apologize, I know what I did wrong, but if I do, you’ll leave me. So don’t do it.’
Apologies are not like that.
Saying that you can’t apologize because you’re afraid is just an excuse.
If the heart to apologize in the first place truly filled your heart, you would have to apologize even for my departure.
But Scar didn’t.
Because she said that her anxiety and fear of me leaving were greater than her sorry for me.

“Before I came here, I told everyone. You are horribly selfish.”

Scar’s eyes trembled anxiously, as if he had predicted what she would say next.
Before I could speak, Scar reached out and grabbed my wrist as if she wouldn’t let go, but I didn’t mind.

“By the way Scar, looking at it now, you are the same. He said grandiose things like that he couldn’t help it, that he had no choice but to do so. In the end, what I heard was, ‘If you tell me, I will leave, so I won’t apologize.’ It’s for filthy selfish and personal reasons.”
“Ugh, uhhhhh.”

Scar’s face twisted.
Tears welled up in her eyes as she heard my annoyed voice, probably afraid she would leave.
Her weeping ska, biting her lower lip as she lay under me, was a little too cute to say in this situation, but it was very cute.
After realizing my sincerity that I didn’t know, looking back, Scar only looked cuter.
There, she shed tears and even cried, so her cuteness doubled and hot blood circulated all over her body.
Yes. Actually, I didn’t hate Scar. Rather, I liked it.
Because I was buried in her inferiority complex and her delusion of persecution, and buried in the wrong that Scar had done to me, I did not recognize her sincerity that was deep in my heart.
However, thanks to the indiscriminate bombing of virgin sex that recently made my self-esteem soar from the ground to the sky, I was able to get rid of the inferiority complex and paranoia that had blinded me.
And just now, I realized myself obsessed with Scar’s apple and why I was so obsessed.

I wanted to get closer to Scar, to get closer to my childhood friend, who was the only witness of my childhood, to get rid of the obstacles of past mistakes.

So I could have forgiven Scar for being so mad at her, for being so fucking selfish as she is now.
Yes, as long as you apologize.

“So. Now I can’t help it either.”
“Uh?”
“Scar, aren’t you going to apologize after all? You clearly said so with your mouth. Then I have no reason to follow you around to get your apology, right?”
“······Uh? Green onion, Paster. No. No.”

Scar, who didn’t expect these words to come out of my mouth, began to tremble, as if he was preoccupied with the assumption that I would leave if I apologized.
Her hand, which held my wrist, gradually increased its grip, but she was still controlling it so that I wouldn’t get hurt. That was the cuteness point of Scar.
He shudders and growls like he’ll do anything, but he tries not to do me any physical harm.
Because I think that if I did something like that, I would be hated from the bottom of my heart.
So I was able to say this to Scar, who became unstable.

“No, what is it? So are you going to apologize? It’s not Why do I have to chase after someone who won’t even apologize?”
“That, that’s… Heeing…”

The tears welling up in her eyes seemed to have reached their limits and would drip at any moment.
When Scar starts crying once, he needs to be calmed down and calmed down by me gently, so her crying loudly would be a big hindrance to my future actions.
So I decided to stop teasing, and I decided to use the method I had no choice but to choose because I would not apologize.

“Scar, one last question. Are you willing to apologize to me? Do you think i’m sorry If I don’t leave, will you apologize?”
“Ugh. Uh, uh will do I want to. But, if I apologize, Pastor will leave me… So. So I am…”

It was sincere. Just like when he said he wouldn’t apologize to me earlier, Scar was saying it from the bottom of his heart.
So, when I heard Scar’s words, I couldn’t help but put on a deep smile on my lips.
If I could, I would like to sincerely apologize. Because Scar was telling me that now.

“Yeah, that’s enough. That’s enough.”
“What, what is enough? Pastor, this isn’t even a proper apology…!”

Dismissed! Paperweight!

With this, I thought I’d get an apology and run away, so I cut off the impatient Scar and went down the rabbit hole with my pants.
Then he took out his smartphone from his back pocket and said to Scar.

“From now on, I will hypnotize you. Hypnosis to sincerely apologize. Did I tell you the day I blew up my penthouse the other day? I’ve been playing with you for half a year with a hypnosis app.”
“Uh, huh?”
“At that time, you suddenly made a sudden rush and it was fuzzy, but you haven’t said much so far, so you’re saying you don’t really pay attention when I hypnotize you, right? Right? Don’t you hate that I hypnotize you and do everything to you?”

Immediately, a crazy sound that could be judged as insane came out of my mouth calmly.
But to my surprise, everything I said was true.
Because the fake hypnosis application I received from Ame itself was a product of shady desire created by the S-class Awakeners of Liar’s Trap to somehow mix with me.
So, even after talking so crazy now, Scar couldn’t say anything.
I just don’t understand my actions, so I’m just blinking my eyes.
I ignored the four messages from the three S-class Awakeners and Eme, launched the fake hypnosis app, and spoke to Scar one last time.

“Scar, from now on I will hypnotize you to apologize. Because I know you’ll never apologize with your sober mind, and if you don’t do this, I don’t think it’s going to happen until you and me marry me and have kids, and you have a reason to not fall that’s heavier than an apology. I can’t help it either.”
“Can’t we just apologize after we get married and have children?”
“You crazy bitch.”
“Eww…”

At the words of marriage and childbirth, Scar opened her mouth with her eyes shining for a moment, but quickly became quiet again in response to my strong response.

“Anyway, if you don’t apologize, I’ll make you have no choice but to apologize. Well, even so, it’s hard to say that it’s a true apology because it’s hypnotized and forced. As you said, until I receive a true apology, I will be obsessed with your apology, so there will be no separation from you.”
“Paster…”
“So. I will hypnotize you. I’ll make you apologize in a mess and comfort yourself. Finally. Scar apologized after 15 years. Got it? I’m going to do that, so now I’m hypnotized by looking at this hypnosis app. Scar.”
“······Yes.”

After saying that, I projected the pink and purple screen of the hypnosis app on Scar.
Then her ska’s eyes lost her focus, and I tenderly commanded her to be ready.

“Scar, please sincerely apologize to me. It’s an order.”

Before I knew that the hypnosis app was fake, I judged it meaningless and gave Scar a command that I would not have said.

“Ah, ahh… Uhhhhh…”

Hearing the command, Scar ran down his cheeks from the tears in his eyes, hesitated for a moment, then closed his eyes tightly and began to apologize to me in a watery voice.

“He, he, he, hee, hee, hee, hee, I’m sorry, Pastor.”

Sorry. The moment I heard those words from Scar’s mouth, I felt an electric current running through my body.
The emotions accumulated over 15 years from the orphanage and the hostility accumulated over 8 years from the academy quickly melted away.

“What are you sorry about?”
“Really sorry······. I’m sorry for everything I hurt you because of my pride. You presumptuously cut your future. I couldn’t let you go because of my selfishness. So, I took your life from you. It’s all my fault Paster. I’m sorry, I’m sorry…

I hypnotized him using a hypnosis application and forced him to apologize with an irresistible order, but no one here at this point thought it was wrong.

“I’m sorry, Pasteur… I was wrong… Aaaaa…”

Because, this hypnosis app was fake.

2.

“·····Hib. Whoa…”
“Have you calmed down?”
“Ugh, ugh.”

Scar, who was held in my arms and cried for a long time with an arm pillow, finally calmed down, was very upset.
In the first place, each other was naked to have sex, so it was natural for them to get tired.

There’s nothing you can do about it.

“Then let’s have sex, Scar. I’ll look forward to apologetic pussy sex.”
“Uh, huh? Yes······!”