Chapter 279 – I Love You (1)

One.

“Heh,hehe…”

Aimé, who was completely stretched out and talking in her sleep with happiness, was so cute, pretty, and lovely even though she was older than me, but I couldn’t help but feel uncomfortable seeing her so happily asleep.

Is it really right to do this?

In the name of holding on to Emme’s leash, I did this until I became a child, and I said vulgar and insulting words and actions that I would never do voluntarily. .

“・・・・・Whoa.”

When I thought of what I had done for my convenience earlier, I let out a sigh of relief, and soon after, a flood of embarrassment came over me and I covered my face with both hands.

“…”

I avoided it not because of the sage time that came after sex, but because of the psychology of compensation for the misfortunes I had suffered up to this point and the selfishness of feeling comfortable with myself.

“Fuck.”

If the two people in front of me heard it, dirty, filthy, and sticky curse words would come out of their mouths to the point of shivering.

However, even if I spit out such a sincere curse, I did not feel comfortable at all, and the feeling of shame and self-loathing that had grown to the point that I could not ignore it now opened its mouth to swallow me.

If you stay still in this state, you will be swallowed up in a sense of shame and self-loathing.

But it didn’t work.

Being swallowed up in self-loathing means that you won’t change yourself that you hate, and that means you’re giving up on change.

So, while feeling the pain of self-hatred and self-loathing, I shouldn’t have been swallowed up by that terrible monster of emotion.

As long as I knew that I was wrong, I had to change myself, and I had to change myself.

In order to do that, you have to admit what you have to admit.

I forced myself to swallow the bubbling shame and looked down at Emme and Scar, who were sleeping happily.

Then, the cute, lovely, and pretty parts of the two people that I hadn’t known before, or didn’t want to know, began to come into view at a glance.

My heart beats just by looking at them and a smile blooms on their lips. To insult them and to see them sadistically excited was definitely heart-trembling and cock-forced, but it wasn’t right.
Until now, every single person has been making sadistic remarks or actions under the pretext of repaying what I suffered because I like to do this.

However, whenever that happened, the more moments I overlapped with them, the more the feelings built up in my heart grew.

And in the end, I reached a level where I couldn’t turn away now, and I learned that these things are not right.

No matter how much the parties liked it, no matter how much they did it to increase excitement during sex, and even if they went back to being sweet after it was over, this wasn’t it.

The moment I used insulting and sadistic sex as a means to hold Aimee’s reins, all of this became unacceptable as long as sex became a means rather than an end. So now that you’ve admitted you were wrong, it’s time to make things right.

In order to do that, I had to admit my sincerity that I hadn’t decided until now, that I had been forcibly ignoring and avoiding even though I knew everything. It started there.

‘Because if you make up your mind, you won’t be able to handle it’, ‘If you choose one person, everyone else will have a hard time’, ‘Because everyone likes it even now’ Rather than becoming an unchanging human being, it was better to just shake off all these trivial reasons and make the right, albeit harsh, choice.

So I made up my mind with courage and confidence in my heart and a sense of responsibility in my heart.

Okay, I’m trash with no excuses. It’s a fact, and it’s a fact that needs to be pointed out. But I love this country to the point where I can’t live without it. So, now is the time to choose.

Obviously, I have suffered a lot from them, and I have also suffered a lot.

But the reason they had no choice but to do that was because they all liked and loved me so much, and because I didn’t accept their feelings.

In the past, ‘So what? I know they like me on their own, but why do I have to accept that feeling?”

Now I love all the girls who love me.

I already knew this fact, and it was something I always felt myself.

However, the reason I have never been able to say that I love you out of my mouth is because I did not have the courage to take responsibility.

But now, because I decided to walk the thorny road to be proud of myself, and because I carved the courage to take responsibility into my heart, I was able to say these words out of my mouth.

“Buy······.”
“Yes······.”
“Ughhh!?”

I was going to say it in a romantic whisper while I was sleeping, but Scar, who was clearly sleeping soundly until just now, frowned and made a sound as if he was about to wake up from a good night’s sleep.

I was going to practice talking secretly when I was sleeping, and gradually try to talk face-to-face when I was awake, but it was embarrassing to wake up so suddenly.

“Paster…?”

Scar called out as she looked at me, who had frozen in embarrassment, with open eyes, and her half-closed, pretty red ruby-like eyes contained such a bewildered look of me.

“Why are you looking at me like that…? What did you put on my face?”

Scar also wondered if I was looking at her with her strange face, so she tilted her head, then was surprised, and as if she was embarrassed, she put her pressed down hair behind her ear and licked her saliva. I wiped the corner of her mouth and looked into my eyes.

It’s already been 17 years since I met Scar, and the time when I felt ashamed for showing her awake had already passed in the old evening, but Scar’s face was blushing.

That blush stemmed from shame, and Scar’s blush was full of complicated emotions, such as liking being in front of me when waking up, but being reluctant to show a defenseless figure awake.

“Ah, if you ask me something, say something, but you’re just staring at something. It’s embarrassing for no reason…”

And I think Scar’s blush is so cute and lovely.

“······I love you.”

Unbeknownst to me, on purpose. She spoke her true feelings, which she had never told anyone.

“······Uh?”
“Oh.”

Scar was surprised by those words, and she and herself were surprised, but she was more surprised than anyone else.

“What?”

It must have been a while since she fainted, but for some reason, she looked healthier than usual, but her eyes were terribly cold.

When a person is surprised to the point of extreme, they can’t react at all, but the current eme was exactly like that.

“…”

Reflexively speaking only one syllable, ‘What?’, Aime held me in her eyes as she stood firm like a stone statue.

The moment she met her, her eyes were so cold that her heart would freeze, and her eyes were directed at me, and even though she didn’t say or do anything, her mouth went dry.

“Flaw.”

But I know the reason why Emma is looking at me like this and urging me to explain with her eyes alone, and that is clearly due to her misunderstanding, so she smiles and puts her hand on Emme’s head.

I never thought I’d say it this way, but I can’t help it. Rather good

Width.

And as I affectionately stroked her heart with the feelings I had for her Eme, this time I opened her mouth towards her on purpose and not by mistake on her part.

“The same goes for Emma. I love you, Ame.”
“To? ······Eh heh?!”

Eme’s eyes, which were obviously like ice thorns, melted at once, and even that was not enough, and her eme’s face turned red as if it would boil at any moment.

That’s how she melted Eme with one sentence, but this time, Scar, who was chewing hard on my words next to her and wondering if she heard it wrong, started.

“What!? Hey!”

Scar, who was triggered like that, tried to start an armed protest by clenching his fists with tears of betrayal in his eyes, but this was also expected.

Rather than confessing my true feelings when six people are in the same place, it’s better to say these words now that there are only two of us, so I encircle the trembling Scar with one of her arms and pull her towards me.

“Huh?!”
“OMG?!”

At the same time, Emme, who was on the other side of her, was also pulled into her arms, and she put her heart into her arms that wrapped around the two of them, hugging them tightly so that they were close to me, and conveyed her feelings as if whispering.

“I love you both. I love you so much that I can’t even measure it, so I can’t give up on anyone. No, even if I could, I would never give up. So.”

The sincerity, which seemed so hard to say, poured out as if the water was bursting as the water was opened, and the two people who were hugged tightly in their arms forgot to even breathe, and all of them were blushing and waiting for my next words.

In those lovely eyes, I sincerely thought that I had done well to do this, and ended the confession that had been cut off for a while.

“Both mine. Then I’ll do yours too.”