Chapter 105 – A New Morning Has Dawned

Early morning.
I woke up when I heard the alarm sound.
My eyes don’t open well.
I still had to get up.
It’s outdoor shooting from today.

I’m tired.
My body ached all over.
Maybe it’s because I did a lot of exercise yesterday…

“What?”

Did I exercise yesterday?

Think while warming up with simple gymnastics.
Filming until late yesterday.
I come home and have a party with my family.
And then you drank the alcohol your sister brought?

How are you?
Why was I sleeping naked?

… Hmm.
I can still smell alcohol from my mouth.
I guess this is what the film cuts off.
Did you drink too much
Let’s take a shower while we’re naked.
Get ready to leave soon.

“Ouch.”

My back hurt when I got cold water.
When I checked in the mirror, I saw that there were scratches with my fingernails.
It’s pretty clear too.

“What?”

Did you scratch in your sleep?
Weird.
I tried to touch it, but I couldn’t reach it.

“?”

I can’t reach it, so how did you scratch it?

Hmm.
Yes.
Should I ask my mother to apply some medicine?
I took off my clothes as an excuse to apply medicine, and the mood just got better…

… No
If mom sees it, she may misunderstand.
Because it looks like it was scratched by a woman.

What is the medicine
It’s nothing serious.
Let it be.

After taking a shower, I go out to the living room.
A sound was heard from the kitchen.
When I went to the kitchen, my mother was at the counter and my sister at the table.

“Mom. Good morning.”
“Did you sleep well before and after?”
“Huh. My sister woke up early too.”
“…”

A mother who warmly greets you.
And my older sister, who glanced at me.

Mom must be tired too, but she’s preparing breakfast so early.
Admirable.

Get some water out of the fridge and drink it.
I suddenly felt her gaze and turned her head to see my sister sitting at her table, staring at my face.
Did you put anything on my face?
I’ve been washed clean

“… Why?”
“You can’t remember anything?”
“What?”
“Soyoung.”

A mother who scolds her sister.

“Huh?”

The atmosphere was somehow strange.

“Ha~.”

My sister sighs until the ground disappears.

What a sigh since morning.
Be blessed

“It’s okay.”

Noona seems to be dissatisfied with something.
Should she ask?
But I also don’t have much time today.

“Sit before and after. Have breakfast and go.”
“Huh.”

I didn’t have much of an appetite.
Is it because I drank too much last night?
But I’m going to eat what my mother prepared for me.

“Ah. Sister. Did I do something weird when I was drunk yesterday?”

As she sat down, she asked her sister.
I was wondering if you were that annoyed.

“Ha~.”

But my sister only sighed again.

Isn’t this
Probably not
If that was the case, I would have been hit several times even if I had already been hit by my sister.
So, do you have any other concerns?

“Sister. If you have any concerns, just tell me. They say that just talking to others about your worries can improve a lot.”
“… OK. Please don’t.”

My sister looks at me as if she is dumbfounded.
Did it sound presumptuous?
I may not be trustworthy in my sister’s eyes, but I sincerely want to help her with anything if she has a problem.

“Eat a lot.”

He helped set the table and sat down at the table again.
Breakfast was clear bean sprout soup.

“Thank you for this food.”

Eat the broth with a spoon.
It’s good.
It was the familiar taste of mother’s hand.
And this feeling of being relieved.
This is why people are looking for Haejangguk.

“Hi mom. Hello brother and sister.”

A smile has already happened.
Early today–

“Pu-huh!!”
“Ah. Softly.”

My sister was annoyed, but now was not the time for me.

“Smile, you, Coke.”

I tried to say something, but my cough prevented my words from coming out.

Smile was naked.
Completely. Not wearing a single thread.
Her breasts, ass, and pussy were all exposed.

“Huh?”

A smile looks at me curiously.
As if you don’t know what the problem is.

… Are you not sleeping well?
No, even if I didn’t wake up, how could I come out naked?
I don’t know if I’m alone, but I have my mom and my sister.

“Gin Miso. What are you doing?”

My sister laughs and says.

“Huh? Aren’t you okay now?”

Smile asks as if he doesn’t know why.
It’s me who doesn’t know English.
I don’t know what the heck is going on.

“Look, Mom. Because it doesn’t work.”

My older sister said to my mother as if to look at it.
And this time, Mom sighed.

… What is this reaction?
I thought my mom and sister would jump up and down.
I was accepting it as if it was nothing.
Even if it’s between taking a bath together.
I’m walking around the house naked.

Weird.
I feel a strange sense of alienation.
Did you ever wake up and change your common sense?
Is it natural for women to go around naked, or something like that?

“… Come wearing a smile too. Have breakfast.”
“It’s annoying~. My brother wraps it inside when I sleep, so I have to wash it from the inside out to put on clothes. If you don’t wash it right away, it won’t come off well.”
“Would you like to talk dirty while eating? Do you want to be beaten with a spoon?”

Confusing.
What the hell are you talking about
Talking was a mess, and my listening brain was also a mess.

“Smile, what the hell…”

While talking, the puzzle in my head is put together.
Fragments of memories that have sunk deep in consciousness come to mind.
Sparsely, blurry.

A wound on the back.
‘No, Seonhu! No!’
‘No way! Soyoung, Miso, don’t look!’
The memory of forcibly attacking her mother in front of my sister and Miso, and the memory of my mother scratching my back under me.

Muscular pain for no reason.
‘Hey! Jinseonhu! Loose! Won’t you release it right away?!’
‘Take it out, take it out…’
‘Aaaaah——!!’
The memory of forcibly handcuffing and raping my sister who resisted.

Semen inside the smile vagina.
‘Huh… After…’
‘Perverted bastard. Is it okay to do that to my sister who is sleeping?’
It reminds me of the memory of sleeping with a smile.

“Ah.”

… What did I do
The spoon falls down the table.

With Tang.

Memories of last night that come to mind one by one.
Each and every one of them was a crime that could not be washed away even after death.

It is said that alcohol brings out a person’s true nature.
My dirty nature I didn’t want to know.
Yesterday’s blood flowed from ‘that real parent’, and this was my true self, mad with sexual desire.

“Do you remember anything now? Are you a piece of trash?”

My sister’s words pierce my heart.
Trash…
Garbage that cannot be collected separately. No, it’s nuclear waste.
I have to apologize to the crap.

“Jin So-young. What are you talking about to your brother?”
“What about my brother? Should I count it as a younger sister to eat my mother’s older sister’s younger sister?”
“Ugh.”

There was nothing wrong with what my sister said.
He didn’t deserve to be treated as a human being, let alone a younger brother.
The line was already crossed long ago, but yesterday I was really less than a beast.

“Brother. Can’t you wash me? Because my brother got dirty.”

A smile sits on my thighs.
Even though I suffered such a thing yesterday, Miso calls me oppa.
What did I do to such a kind brother?

“Seonhu. Don’t mind what your sister says. I’m ashamed to do that for no reason. And smile you come down too. Oppa is busy in the morning.”
“Tooth.”

Even her mother’s consolation doesn’t enter her head now.
It passed through my ears like the wind and escaped.

How should I apologize
To the family I hurt.

I got down from my chair and knelt on the floor.

“What? Put on a show, put on a show.”

My sister deserved the blame.

“Sister, sorry. Mom. Sorry for the smile Yesterday I was too drunk… I know it’s not something that can be passed on as an excuse to be drunk, but I was really crazy.”
“So? Forgive me?”
“If I could be forgiven… I will do anything.”

I wanted to be forgiven.
I know that is absurdly selfish.
Even so, I wanted to be forgiven and go back to my original family relationship.
I didn’t want to let go of this happiness I had in my hands.
I hate being abandoned.
I hate being far away.
So I wanted to be forgiven no matter what I did.

“The bride and groom meet!”

A smile prostrates itself across from me.
… After all, if I’m serious, I think it’s funny.

“Hey. After Jinseon. Did you say you were going to do something?”

My sister stepped in between me and a smile.
And he stood proudly with his arms crossed.
Looking down at me with the eyes of a strong man.

“… Anything, I’ll do it.”

It’s not ‘if I can’.
Do what you can’t do
I was really thinking about doing anything.

“Joy.”

My sister smiled as if satisfied with my answer.

“Then you succeed.
Incredibly successful, to the point that no one would say anything even if he had three or so women with him.
The three of us, including my mother and I, are successful enough to confidently say, ‘We are the women of Jin Seon-hu.'”
“Sister…”

My sister’s words were great.
It was so great that I couldn’t see the destination.
Like a tower with no top, like a sea with no end in sight.

What must be successful to make that possible?
Even if I became the president of the United States, I would not be able to say such things confidently.

My mother squatted down next to me, devastated.
And she takes my hand and says

“Seonhu. Mom wasn’t angry from the start. So, there is nothing to apologize for, and nothing for my mother to forgive.”
“Mom…”

Her mother’s hands, her words, and her eyes were warm.
I wanted to shout out that I love you right now.

“Brother me too! No, I will forgive you if you take a bath together!”
“It’s a smile…”

Can I be this happy?

“Sister. I will succeed. I don’t know if I will succeed and proudly say that he is my man, but I will be successful enough to proudly boast that he is my younger brother.”
“Oh~ Seonhu Jin, isn’t it cool?”
“Mom. Thank you. I will do better so that I don’t disappoint my mother from now on.”
“As long as the mother and queen are healthy and happy, that is enough for her.”
“Smile. Let’s go and take a bath together. I’ll wash you clean.”
“Must be. Promise.”

Smile and promise to hang her little finger.

Okay.
To my mother, to my sister, to my smile.
To become a man not to be ashamed of.
So that I can become a son, younger brother, and older brother that I can be proud of.
Whether privately or publicly, I work harder and do better.
As much as the happiness my family gave me, let’s give back to my family.

You don’t have to look too far.
First of all, let’s focus on the work in front of us.
It’s an outdoor shoot starting today.
What I have to do now is to show off good acting as an actor.

Let’s make the best performance in the work in front of our eyes every moment.
Then success and happiness will follow.