Chapter 131 – Kim Seon-Ha 2

“I am the youngest. Don’t go out for a while and rest. I’ll call you when it’s quiet.”
“… Yes.”

It was, in effect, a notice of dismissal.

I can’t help it.
Even if there was a problem with the actor, the actor is absolutely Gap and the staff is absolutely Eul.
And that’s because the youngest Alba did that to the lead actor.
Even if you get fired, it’s natural.
I’m just glad I didn’t have to pay for it.

If there’s one thing I regret, is that I can’t see that manager oppa anymore?
If I had known it would be like this, I would have even heard the name.
Also, the phone number.

… What about my subject.
You should dream moderately.
Shall we look for the next part-time job?

But three days later.
I was on set again.

“Don’t worry, little one. Joo Jung-hwan is a continuous punk, so now it’s almost like being buried.”

Shocking fact.
Joo Jung-hwan said he was a punk for three days in a row after that day.
So what’s going on? What about the drama?

“It will work out somehow. We only need to do what we are told to do.”
“No one here is blaming you, so hold on to your worries.”

The prop team members were carefree.
Isn’t the drama overturned because of me like this?
Ugh sore throat

“Hey, you’re the youngest. Go and say hello.”
“Yes?”

Where her sister pointed was the manager’s brother.
Actress Hwang Soo-ah, who happened to be there, was also called into the conference room.

“No. Me like that…”
“Ruler. Hurry.”

Another sister brings her coffee and puts it in her hand.

Not used to men, I was forced to go to my manager brother by my older sisters.
… What are you going to say?

“Hey, have a coffee.”

I held out coffee to my manager oppa with a lot of tension.
What if I told you not to eat common people’s food?
What if you only drink high-end chain coffee?

“Ah, thank you.”

Fortunately, coffee was accepted.
Phew.

“Ah. At that time.”

And I found out who I was.
I would have been sad if I hadn’t known.
I nodded my head.

“Sorry. I did something stupid back then.”
“No. I lived thanks to that. Really.”

Ah. Thank god.
If I had been scolded for doing something stupid, I would have never seen your face again.

“But it seems like you’re not coming out because of me.”
“No way. Absolutely not. That person is a strange person. There is no need to blame yourself.”

The content was the same as what the older sisters said, but even if they said the same thing, the feeling of accepting it was different.
A feeling of relief to the depths of the heart.
I thought I could understand what the older sisters said about being good looking.

“I hope you come soon. I hate to see you.”
“Iknow, right. I hate to see you.”

Then we looked at each other and laughed.
Even though we didn’t say a few words, it felt strangely friendly.
As if you were possessed by something.
Is this the magic of appearance?

“My name is Jin Seon-hu. I came as Hwang Soo-ah’s manager.”

The manager oppa introduces himself.

After Jinseon.
Older brother
Although they had different surnames, they had the same name as their dead brother.

“Ah, yes, I am Kim Seon-ha, who came to the set part-time. I’m a senior in high school.”

I took off my hat and bowed my head deeply to hide my bewildered face.
The long hair hidden inside the hat falls down and covers the face.

Is it a coincidence?
Or is it fate?
Why do you have to be a senior and a younger brother?
It’s not a very common name.

Hiding my embarrassment, I had a conversation with my manager brother.
As we talked, he was the same age as my older brother.
If my brother had been alive, he would have been this age.
But dying at the age of only 6?
I felt like I was going to cry out of sadness.

“Then please. Good.”
“Yes. Before and after the older brother.”

That’s how I succeeded in starting a conversation with my manager oppa as an older brother.

Older brother
Just calling it like that fills my heart with joy.
It was like finding a piece of a lost heart.

My older brother was soon called to actress Hwang Soo-ah, but a warm candle was lit in my heart.

“How is it? Are you friendly?”
“… Little bit.”

When I went back to the prop team unnies, the unnies teased me excitedly.

“Oh my gosh, look at him. I just fell in love It’s gone.”
“‘Someone who is too handsome~.'”
“‘Even if I’m ugly, I’m a nice guy.'”

Like the older sisters teasing me, they imitate me.

“When did I do that!”

I was embarrassed, but I didn’t feel bad.
I was rather happy.
If the unnies hadn’t pushed me, I wouldn’t have been able to talk to them.

There are a lot of like-minded people in this part-time job, like my older brothers and older sisters.
Sun-Hoo oppa is actress Hwang Soo-ah’s manager, so we can’t talk often, but it was nice to see him from a distance.
Hwang Soo-ah is the lead actress, so you can always see her when you come to the set.
If possible, this part-time job should stick around for a long time.

“Yes? Your older brother was selected as the lead actor?”

A few hours after that, rumors spread around the set.
I couldn’t believe it. Are you a manager?
But suddenly starring in a public TV drama?

“I know. I must have been there as a replacement member from the beginning.”
“You’re an actor, but you said you were a manager? It’s funny.”
“How do you do? The distance has gone further.”
“Even when I was a manager, I had no hopes, right? Give up.”
“What about our youngest? It seemed like a possibility.”
“Arthur. Don’t cheat on the kid.”
“Why, is it good? A love story between a lead actor and a part-timer on set?”
“What drama is this? Get some reality.”

I think while listening to what my older sisters are saying.

Why didn’t you tell me
In fact, he’s not a manager, he’s an actor, just let me know a little bit.
Even if you think so, who am I? I thought.

After all, the world we live in is different.
It felt like fate because I had the same name as my late brother.
I’m just dreaming what is this

Well, it didn’t even fit in the first place.
What is love for my subject?
I have to do something.

But the next day, at the outdoor filming set, the unnies pushed me on the back again.

“Ruler. I’m the youngest. Coffee delivery.”
“Yes?”
“Excuse me. Come quickly.”

In the direction her sister pointed, there were her older brothers.

“No, I do not want. I’m not going.”
“Uh huh. Listen to adults You still have potential.”
“Even if it’s a leading role, it’s still before it’s popular, so you have to catch it now.”
“You said you were a high school senior? Men die of high school girls just because of that?”
“Okay. It’s different when you become a college student, so you have to work now.”
“High school girls fighting!”

Is it really like that?
Wouldn’t the wall be too high for you to believe that you’re a high school girl?
It seems that Seon-hoo oppa is on good terms with actress Hwang Soo-ah.
Compared to Hwang Soo-ah, I’m…

“I, actor Jin Seon-hoo. Have your coffee.”

For some reason, I couldn’t call him ‘oppa before and after’ like yesterday.
‘I’m sorry, but can you stop pretending to be friendly?’
If you come out like that, you won’t be able to come to work tomorrow.

“Uh? Are you good? What’s wrong, awkward.”

Fortunately, it seems that Seonhu oppa did not change a person overnight just because he became a leading actor.
Rather, he rebuked me, who became awkward.

I was the only one who cared about being the lead actor.
The title of elder brother was also returned, and she also received the first autograph in her life.
When I was talking with my older brother, I laughed spontaneously.
It was the first time in my life that I felt like this.
The autograph should be kept as an heirloom for life.

“How was it? Like a blue light?”
“Just.”

When I went back to work, my older sisters were making noise.

“Look at him smiling. Funny.”
“Look at that. Because high school girls are invincible.”
“It’s a good time~.”
“Next time, please accept my autograph.”
“Yes. When the opportunity arises.”

I accepted the pleasant teasing of my sisters with a smile.

A few days after that.
My older brother is the lead actor in the drama, and I am a part-timer on the set, and we greet each other every day.

As much as we came to work, we didn’t talk often.
At most, one or two words a day.
But I just liked that.
It felt like floating on a cloud every day.

Before and after, my older brother always pretended to know me whenever our eyes met, and my older sisters teased me whenever that happened.
Every little thing like that made me happy.

Okay.
I was happy.
It seemed like flowers were blooming even in my dry life.
It is said that the living elder brother planted happiness in the life left to me by the deceased elder brother.
I’m happy, I thought.

Until I saw that shocking promotional video.

“Actually, it’s because I came from an abused child protection center. I was entrusted to the center when I was 6 years old, but now I am adopted by my mother, actress Im Im-hye.”

When I heard that an official promotional video had been released, I searched for it.
In a publicity interview, the older brother was telling an unbelievable story.

Abused children.
Adopted at age 6.

Everything fit me and my brother.
The older brother was the younger brother.
It was Seonhu Kim, not Seonhu Jin.
He changed his last name when he was adopted.
Before and after, oppa was my real brother.

I thought you were dead.
Apparently, the center teacher said that my brother died.
Was it a lie
Why do you lie like that?
Do you think I will visit you?

In the midst of chaos, the interview continued.
My brother kept bragging.
He knows how much he is loved by her mother and how much he loves her mother.
How happy he grew up.

“I am… I’m living so hard…”

I was lonely every day, so I cried and agitated because I missed my brother.
I did, but I was thrown into such a difficult world, and oppa was living so happily alone?

It seemed that the whole world I believed in had been denied.
I believed that you became a star in the sky because you protected me.
I thought I had to live hard because it was the life my brother left behind.

I’m stuck in this gutter.
Brother is…

“… I want to quit that job.”
“Uh? Suddenly? Why?”

I quit my job at the broadcasting station without saying anything to the unnies who asked why.
The older sisters stopped me, but nothing changed my mind.
Because I couldn’t possibly be in the same space as my older brother.

“Under. Should I look for a new part-time job?”

I thought I would do it for a long time this time.
Thinking like that, I can’t even go for a few days and quit.

“What about my subject.”

Maybe it will be a good relationship as it is.
I also thought that I might become Cinderella like the older sisters said.
I try to substitute myself for a female lead in a drama.
I even had romantic fantasies about going on a secret date with my older brother who became a popular actor.

But reality is more bizarre than fiction.
Could it be that the elder brother was the biological older brother whom he separated from when he was young?
A drama is a drama, but I didn’t want a drama like this.

“Your brother probably doesn’t even remember me.”

Even after hearing her name, Kim Seon-ha, her brother did not mind.
I didn’t change my last name, nor did my face change.
There was no existence of me in my brother’s head.

Besides, speaking of people who are the new family of the adopted house.
Her mother is actress Lim Im-hye. Her older sister is professional golfer Jin So-young. Her younger brother is Jin Miso of the idol group Spring.
Well, if you were adopted into such a family, it would be natural for you to forget about me. I will try to forget even if I force myself.
Because the existence of me must be a stain on my brother’s life.

“I have a new brother now.”

In particular, there is a new sister named Jinmiso.
She is the woman who took the place of her brother’s younger sister, which was originally my place.
You’re so pretty, cute, and have big breasts that you can’t even compare to someone like me.
There was nothing I could win against.

There is only a year difference in age, but I have already achieved things that I could not achieve even if it took me a lifetime.

“Ah, I hate it.”

I hate this.
Comparing myself to others, I constantly complain.
I hate myself for being clingy with a sense of entitlement and an inferiority complex.

My rational mind knew that even if I resented my brother, the number was wrong.
My older brother and I were just separated by adults.
The fact that he was adopted alone was not his choice.
My brother didn’t abandon me, the world made me that way.
Neither I nor my older brother were children without any power.

Like that, even though I know it’s not something to resent my brother.
I knew it rationally, but I couldn’t accept my feelings.

Wouldn’t it be better to tell my brother the truth?
I think about it several times a day and regret it.
Even so, I don’t have the courage to go to the broadcasting station and tell them.
Just like that, several days passed.

After I quit my job at the broadcasting station, my self-esteem plummeted and I was depressed all day at school and at the center.
Either way, life goes on.
I found a new part-time job.
This time it was a convenience store.
Convenience store work is convenient.
I’ve done it a lot, so there are tips, and there was nothing difficult except for the fact that there are occasional customers.

But… Is there any point in continuing to live like this?
Before, I thought I had to live for my brother who died first.
My older brother, whom I thought was dead, was alive and well.
I’m living happily enough that it’s absurd.
Am I the only one who needs to live so miserably?

“Calculation.”

I raise my head to the voice of the guest.
There was an older brother there.