Chapter 252 – Pillow Talk 2

Why do mothers react so emotionally?
Because of menopause.

My mother is now 4 years old. She was obviously at an age that was not unusual even considering menopause.
It was natural for her to think of menopause first if she stopped taking ovulation control pills and then menstruated even once.

“I’m sorry, Seonhu, I’m sorry I couldn’t keep my promise.”

I didn’t know what to say to my mother who was leaning over me sobbing.

The immediate thought that pops into my mind is, “Could it be pregnancy?”
But my older sister forbade me to mention that possibility. Even now, he was glaring at me with bitter eyes.

I can understand your sister’s thoughts.
If there are two possibilities in front of each person, everyone wants to believe in the more advantageous of the two. If you bring up the story of pregnancy for no reason, your mother will also expect it.
Then, if it turns out that she is really menopausal, the mother will be even more shocked. My sister was concerned about that.

Although she is grieving now, she is accepting the reality of menopause for now. It might not be good for her to open up her worthless possibilities to her mother, as her older sister thought.
After putting it down, if it’s pregnancy, it’s good, and if it’s really menopause, it’s unavoidable.

I comforted her mother as she endured the itchy feeling in her mouth.

“Mom. Don’t be so heartbroken Because everyone goes through…”
“Ughhh… !”

She tried to comfort her, but her mother cried even louder.
Lasers shot from my sister’s eyes. I guess you didn’t like my comments.

Hmm… To be honest, no matter what I say as a man, I think it would be NG. To be honest, I also thought, ‘Isn’t it good because it’s comfortable when I don’t get my period?’
As a man in his 20s, there is no way I know the psychology of a woman who has gone through menopause. I guess I’d better just keep my mouth shut.

My older sister, who couldn’t see me burning, came this way.

“Yes mom. What is she crying about? After Jin Seon, you don’t have to listen childishly.”
“Soyoung…”
“What the. Even if she is stupid because she is Jinseonhu, did your mother really intend to give birth to a child after Jinseonhu? How old is her mother She is dangerous.”
“Still…”
“Go to sleep anyway, just don’t care. Oh wow, that’s better A little brother at this age. What do you say to others because you’re shy? Just forget it, Mom.”

And next I took over her baton from my sister and comforted her mother.

“I’m sorry, Mom. Because I put a burden on you.”
“Seonhu-ya…”
“Are you okay. Even if I don’t have children, my love for my mother won’t change. Is your mom like that too? I am the same.”

Facing her mother’s face wet with her tears, my heart felt like it was going to break.

I was talking nonsense. I was greedy for nothing.
It’s true that I wanted to have a mother and her child, but I didn’t want to have her to the point of making her mother sad. The most important thing to me is the happiness of my mother and myself.

“Still… I also wanted to give birth to a mother. She wanted to have a son before and after.”
“Mom…”
“I wish I had made up my mind sooner. Mom should have gone first. She hesitates and regrets wasting her time.”

The reason my mother is so sad is not just because she couldn’t keep her promise to me. She wanted her mother too. My child.

But she said her mom wanted to have her child, so she wasn’t in a position to have it easily. There were many barriers in front of my mother and me.
The immature me who grew up behind the windshield of my mother all my life, the restrictions I didn’t care about. There was a world where society’s gaze pointed at the blade at the slightest gap.

Considering that my mother would be labeled as a “Pregnant mother in her 40s,” My request might have been too immature.
She had been on the forefront of the media for decades, and it was a matter of knowing how much trouble a mother who had been bullied by the media had to make the decision to have a child of her own.
Anyway, at least the world won’t see the mother’s pregnancy as beautiful. There will be people who don’t know who the father is, and maybe write vulgar novels out of suspicion about the relationship between her mother and me. And it’s even more problematic because this isn’t fiction, it’s fact.

And by the time her mother decided that she would have a child despite all the restrictions, the time limit had already passed. How could she not be sad?

However, even though she never had children, she did get something instead.

“No, Mom. It’s a bit late, but that’s why she didn’t have children, but she got something more precious than that, right? She’s a mother, because if she had retired earlier and had kids, she wouldn’t be doing a drama with me. I’m just happy that I was able to film a drama with her mother.”
“Black… Huh…”

It might be overkill to consider that drama instead of my child, but it was clear that the drama she co-starred with her mother meant a lot to her.
I quietly hugged and comforted her until her mother calmed down.

… Then, her older sister, who was listening next to her, made a bombshell statement.

“Mom. Are you okay. If it’s a senior child, I’ll give birth to you.”
“Soyoung…”
“… Sister?”

Sister… Pregnancy?
I can’t even imagine. The sight of that older sister stroking my belly when she was pregnant with my child.
‘My son must be strong!’ All I could think of was the sight of her dropping her newborn baby off a cliff.

“Mom did everything she had to do with me and Jinmiso. Leave her behind to us.”
“Yes mom! Leave it to us! Are we half moms too? If we give birth to one child, it is as if the mother gave birth to one child!”

Miso also came here to help.
It was a ridiculous theory, but that’s why there were things that touched my heart even more.

“Soyoung… It’s a smile… !”

As if the mother was thrilled, she hugged the two daughters.
Could there be another story so beautiful that daughters would give birth to their son’s child instead of their mother’s?
The bathtub was stained with emotion.

There, Seonha also came hesitantly.

“I-I’m half of my older brother…”

… You’re not good In the first place, that’s not what the older sisters say.
What’s more, you and Mom don’t mix a single drop of blood. There is also a genetic problem.

… No Is it okay to go up to 1?

“Thank you guys. Thank you very much.”

Mom hugs us four siblings at once.
But she didn’t have enough arms to hold four people. Instead, we hugged each other as if we were united in one place.

Bath time with the whole family passed warmly like that.
Although her mother showed tears, it was a time when her hopes for the future shined rather than her past sorrows.

* * *

After taking a bath
I spent the night alone with my mother in my mother’s room.

It’s not that I did anything naughty. We literally just spent the night together.

“Mom, do you remember that? The first time I came home holding her mother’s hand–“

Starting with an old story.
When I entered elementary school, when I first started playing the piano, when I started practicing acting.
The first time I did something dirty with my mother, the first time I had sex, or the first time I auditioned for a drama.
Lie in bed with your mother and share beautiful memories.

Of course, there were as many painful memories as memories, but I consciously avoided talking about them.
Because this night was too short to share beautiful stories.

I had no intention of doing anything naughty. I just wanted to share a story today.

But when you’re lying in the same bed like this, you naturally feel that way.
I can hear my mother’s breathing, feel her body temperature, and feel her eyes looking at me.

“… Mom. Do you want to sneak up on your sister?”

Whisper in her mother’s ear as if sharing her secrets. She has no one listening.

She dared to say, “Unbeknownst to her sister,” Because her sister asked her to trust her when she entered the room. Don’t think about doing naughty things, talk to your mom and go to sleep. My older sister was also very worried about her mother’s unstable psychological state.

Mom laughed at my words as if she was absurd.

“He is. Is that not enough?”
“I always fall short. I want to spend all day with my mother.”

But her mother did not nod her head.

“Since I’ve washed, I’m off to sleep for today. Mom is tired too.”
“Tooth.”
“And… From now on, love other girls more than your mother. Share her love for her mother with her older sister and younger siblings.”
“Mom does it again. It’s different from my older sister and a smile and good mother.”
“No. My mom said, just like she retired from acting, she’s now going to retire from women’s.”
“Mom.”

Lim Im-hye announces female retirement.
What is this scary word? Does your mother ever want to become a man?

“Mom, she will live only as a mother now. While taking care of Seonhu, Soyoung, Miso, Seonha, and my offspring, I will raise all four of them well before marrying and marrying them. She did all the things she couldn’t do as a mother until now. I will live the rest of my life only as a mother.”

Mom monologued like that, as if she had promised herself.

If she is a mother, if she is tired and doesn’t want to do it, she is very sorry, but she can respect her mother’s heart. What she used to do once a day she might put off to once every two days, to once every three days.
But she doesn’t do it because her mother doesn’t want to. Because with her menopause, she resigned herself to the end of her life as a woman.

“… Mom. Before that, let’s go to the hospital tomorrow.”
“Hospital?”

When she was told that she was in a hospital, her mother, of course, did not like it.

“Huh. You don’t even know if you really have menopause or if it’s a hormonal problem? And… It could be something else.”
“What else? Pregnancy?”
“… Huh.”

She didn’t expect her mother to talk about her pregnancy first. She did, but her mother, who is the party to her, couldn’t have thought of that.
Mom said with a small smile as if to help herself.

“I am not pregnant. Didn’t your mother have two pregnancies? She knows how it feels when she’s pregnant. It’s not that she’s pregnant.”
“Mom, have you ever used a pregnancy test?”
“I know even if I don’t use it. Not sure if she’s pregnant or not.”

Mom said she was toxic confident.
Like her mother said, she’s experienced it twice, so of course she knows better than me.
But don’t you know? You should check properly.

“But Mom, let’s go because there might be other problems. Huh?”
“Mom is embarrassing. What will people think?”
“Because it’s okay. I’ll go with you too. And if my mother doesn’t go to the hospital, I won’t go to the hospital anymore.”

Even though she was not a child, she wrote her life.
But the effect was great.
Mom sighed helplessly.

“Okay. I’ll go to the hospital. Instead, let’s sleep for today.”

Mom eventually accepted my words.
Actually, I wanted to use her pregnancy test to confirm it, but my mother wouldn’t want to do that.

… Could it be that she is pregnant? It would be nice if you were pregnant.
If not, if menopause really came, I would have killed my mother who was already depressed. I may have done something wrong again.
But, if you are pregnant…

That night, I couldn’t fall asleep because of the complicated thoughts.

* * *

Early the next morning, Mom and I went to the gynecologist.
Take blood, collect urine and submit.
10 minutes to wait for your turn with a nervous expression.

“Im Shin-hye.”

Finally her mother’s name is called.
I took her mother’s hand and walked into her office.

Mom and I sit side by side.
The gynecologist, who was clicking the mouse while watching the monitor on the desk, opened her mouth with a serious expression.

“Congratulations. I am pregnant.”

Power went into the hands of the mother who was holding it.