Chapter 27 – Mother’s Agony – Son’s First Sleepover

After the twisted relationship with his son, Seonhu, he had a lot of trouble.

The conclusion I came to after thinking about it was that it couldn’t be this way.
The relationship between me and my predecessor is a relationship that cannot be accepted in the world.
If it becomes known in any way, it will inevitably become news because of the name Lim Im-hye. Even if Mi-so or So-young, who are closest to you, find out, the whole family will be deeply hurt.
The souls of the predecessors are too weak to endure such pain.
So I had to stop right now. At this rate, it was obvious that we would all face destruction together in the end.

When she received counseling from actress Hwang Soo-ah, her junior, she thought it was a good opportunity.
A child with a radiant youth that I do not have.
When I looked at her personality and personality that I saw and felt when we worked together once, there was no part that fell apart anywhere. She was the kind of child she would want to be a good match for, if only she could, with the heart of being a mother.
So, we decided to set up a meeting place secretly. She might get angry if she didn’t tell her, but her mind will change once she meets the seonhu. Because Hwang Soo-ah is one of the most beautiful girls in Korea.

The seonhu was embarrassed as expected, but she quickly adjusted to her seat. Even though she was meeting her for the first time, somehow, Seonhu was talking and shaking hands with Hwang Soo-ah normally.
Seeing such an appearance before and after, my heart tingled for some reason.
It meant that her posthumous illness had improved. It’s definitely something to be happy about, but I felt a bit sad seeing the successors getting away from her mother’s arms.

I guess this is what good men and women are like. The two got along very well objectively.
She is still young and may seem lacking in seonhu, but she thought that if the seonhu could fill the unique deficiency of a young actress, she was a couple with enough potential.
With a suitable story, a bridge was built between the two, and this mother was going to fall out. As initially planned, the two became close easily, and in particular, Hwang Su-ah even seemed to cling to what she had discovered from her predecessor.

Okay. As initially planned…
But why does her heart grow heavier and heavier?

She couldn’t be happier for the child to leave her parent’s nest.
With her honest feelings, she hoped that she would remain in her mother’s arms forever. She wanted to be a poor son who couldn’t do anything without her mother.

But that’s just my selfishness. If it was really for my son, I had to let him go. In order to fly on her own, she had to support Seonhu, who flaps her own wings.

But I couldn’t.

“Mom can go alone. Let’s talk about the future with young people.”

The reason why such words came out so suddenly was because I couldn’t bear to see another woman being held in the arms of the lord.
I knew that such an action would make things difficult for me. And she also knew that the seonhu would come after her, prioritizing her mother over her Hwang Soo-ah.

It was a cowardly act. I prepared Hwang Soo-ah to distance myself from the seonhu, and in the end I couldn’t stand watching the two of them get closer.
In the end, the seonhu left Hwang Soo-ah behind and pursued me. Her little sense of superiority spread in her heart.

“My son, it’s a big deal still looking for his mother. Thank you for thinking of her mother, but aren’t you old enough to be independent from her mother?”

When she hinted at her refusal, the seonhu showed a defiant attitude for the first time.
Each of these actions before and after filled my heart with passion.
Ah. I also don’t want to let go. Why are the fruits of sin so sweet?

She was hugged by the lord and laid on her bed. The eyes of her predecessor looking down at me shone sharply.
What is the ancestor thinking? Her fears, expectations, and worries mingled in her head.
“Seonhu. I can’t do this…”

Verbal refusal. If I’m being asked to do so now, can I really refuse?
In the short time spent facing the seonhu up close, countless thoughts passed through her head.

“Mom. Love you.”

An honest confession without any embellishment comes and sticks in my heart.
I want to hug the seonhu right now. I wanted to whisper that her mother felt the same way, and that her mother also loved the successor.

But it was I who decided that she would distance herself from her predecessor. For the sake of the future, to protect her family.
As a mother, I made the right choice.

The ancestors left. She went to her Sua, whom she had forgotten for a while.
It was I who introduced her Sua to the seonhu. I was also the one who induced the two of them to get closer.

But there was me who later regretted it.

Suah Hwang. A child with youth and beauty that I do not have.
The difference between Hwang Soo-ah, who is having her brightest days as a woman, and me, who is in her twilight years as a woman, only widens as time goes on.
The gap never closes. Perhaps, once the successor is taken away, she will never be able to find it again.
The moment I handed out the name Hwang Soo-ah to fill my empty seat, my story was no different from the end.

I don’t want to let go…
My dear son my dear man
Our ancestors who raised me with all my might. It felt like her heart was being torn to pieces at the thought of having to be deprived of such an honor.

“Calm down, Im Seong-hye. Wake.”

I lifted my heavy body from the bed. He staggered like a sleepwalker.

We arrived at the dressing room.
I took off all my clothes and stood naked in front of a full-length mirror.

Still, but still a usable body. It was the result of decades of desperate management.
I have lived my life paying attention to even the smallest habits, so as not to sag, not to change color, not to have wrinkles.

However, lying about one’s age was no longer possible. Maybe two or three years at most. After that, no matter how hard you work out or use expensive cosmetics, you won’t be able to stop your body from withering away.

The flowers were about to fall.
I only have now. The only thing that can respond to the feelings of the predecessor is now…

Afraid. Going back to the normal hat. The fact that the seonhu don’t show interest when they see me.
Before that happens, at least once…

Just then, the phone rang in the pocket of the clothes I had taken off.
It was before and after.

“Seonhu-ya… Ah… !”
“Mom. I think I’ll be a little late today. Don’t wait, go to bed first.”

After reading the message sent by the predecessor, I collapsed on the spot.

It’s late tonight That meant that the seonhu would spend the night with Hwang Soo-ah.
It may not be strange that young people these days continue on the first day they meet.
But I couldn’t stand it.
She moved her trembling fingers and tapped the phone.

“No. Listen quickly」

But I couldn’t write the answer to the end.
It was because she felt so shabby that she tried to control her before and after by asserting her authority as her mother.

If you tell them to come back even now, the seonhu will come back.
But that doesn’t help anyone. Except to relieve my jealousy.

Her hands lose strength. The smartphone fell to the floor.
I am a mother. He is the one who should be most delighted with the growth of his ancestors. You must never hinder the growth of your ancestors and descendants.

“Seonhu-ya…”

Comes to mind The hand of the predecessor who stroked my chest. The way he kissed me on the mouth and was ashamed. A voice that groaned in pleasure.

“Ah…”

My hand moved naturally. Recalling the path the ruler’s hand had passed, he moved along it.

“Seonhu-ya…”

Carefully touches her chest as if she is afraid it will break.
The seonhu was agitated, but she did not lose her self-control. She put my feelings before her own pleasure. I could feel her affection even in the way she touched me. That was her merit before and after.

“Ah… Ah… ♡”

The body is hot. My hand went down from her chest to between her legs in an unwilling way.
Masturbation. I hadn’t done it once since I was in middle school.
But that was the only way to soothe my loneliness now.

“Oh… !”

Her fingertips touch the clitoris.
The long-forgotten joy of a woman. Just as a dry seed meets water droplets and sprouts, I recalled that pleasure through her before and after.

Ethics obsessed over her, and she was afraid of the eyes of the people around her, so she tried to distance herself from her predecessors.
But does that really matter? Is this something I should prioritize even more than my wish for success?

“Ha… Oh… ♡”

In this society, there will probably never be any recognition of the relationship with the predecessors. If known, the whole world would condemn it, and the family would collapse. There may be no place to set foot anywhere in Korea.

So, I was about to give up.
I thought it was best to protect her family, to protect her future.
So, I tried to introduce him to another woman and get him away from me.

But it was only after letting her go that he realized how big his heart and desires were. I never thought I’d regret this much…
Stupid woman.

“Before and after… After all… ! Alas!”

If the seonhu would open that door and come in, even now. I will tell you that I love you too, that I love you with all my heart.

“Ah… !”

Masturbation performed while remembering the memory of her being touched by the former. Sexual pleasure could be obtained even in an unfamiliar act.
At the end of it, I reached a small orgasm.

But this was not it.
The pleasure I got from communing with the predecessors was not like this. It was deeper, hotter, and ecstatic.
The pleasure of licking the surface of watermelon only left a sense of futility.
As if a thirsty person drank seawater, the thirst for the superiors only intensified.

“Ah…”

By now, the seonhu should be making love with a young woman.
When I thought so, I felt like I was going to cry in misery.

I made up my mind.
At this dawn, if the lord and lord come back, even if I seduce him first, she will be with him.

But that day, the seonhu did not return until the sun rose.
It was the first day the seonhu slept out for her.