Chapter 39 – Sister’s Confession – Actually I’m 3

Concours… ?
You bastard, were you preparing for something like that?
No wonder. A few days ago, my mother felt restless for no reason.

Until then, I hadn’t spoken a word to the former.
It’s because he was avoiding me from the beginning, and I was also avoiding her because I was embarrassed to see her face.

‘Don’t play the piano again. If I hear the piano in my ears one more time, I’ll cut off all my fingers. Okay?’

Every word I said to the seonhu came to mind clearly.
…
This must be because of me.

Mom cried.
She is a mother who never shows weakness in front of a smile or a smile, but to me, there were times when she showed her emotions like this sometimes.
I’d be sorry It was an opportunity for the poor successor to be recognized by people for her long-awaited efforts.
What about my ears… That sounded pretty good, so what was the expectation of her mother, who was an idiot for her son?

But her mother thought that she couldn’t play the piano because she was too nervous.
I guess I didn’t tell her mother what I said.
… Guilt is no joke.

“Hey, Jinseonhu!”

The next day, I stormed into her room after my mother was out of her house.
I didn’t need to knock to enter the room before and after. Conversely, if you enter my room without knocking, I will kill you.

“Who, sister?!”

The lord sat quietly at her desk. Were you studying?
Joy. Selling is good too.

I stood quietly with my arms crossed and glared at her.
The seonhu was looking up at me with her nervous expression.

I am… What did you come to say?

“You…”

I opened my mouth once, but nothing came to mind.
I just kept making eye contact with her for a moment.

And before and after… Even as I was looking at it, my eyes were slightly going down.
It’s his chest

“… What you looking at? Do you want to die?”

Surprised by my words, the sergeant turned her head away.
My mom is doing that because of me, but she’s a bastard! Are you really going to lose?

… No. She didn’t come for that.
She apologized honestly and tried to say that she could play the piano from now on.

But the words of sorry didn’t come out of her throat even in death.
If you think about it, I said ‘I’m sorry’ a lot, but I’ve never said the word ‘I’m sorry’ since I was born. Except in dreams and delusions.

“Joy.”

In the end, I couldn’t say anything I wanted to say and just left the room.

Returning to the room, I rolled over on the bed.

Frustrated. I’m angry.
Why do I have to worry about this? On the topic of antecedents.
Again, I resented the successors.

I can’t help it.
I decided to look for a way on the internet.

Q. I want to reconcile with my family, but I can’t say I’m sorry. What should I do?
A. Write a letter when it is difficult to express in words. You can honestly write down the things you are sorry for and the things you are grateful for and put them where you can see them.

As soon as I read the reply, I bought the letter set.

“Okay…”

But writing the letter wasn’t easy either.
I wrote and erased it several times, and even after writing it all, I didn’t like it and crumpled it.

Why do I have to worry so much about a letter I’m going to give to someone like that?
Aren’t we supposed to be thankful if we just get a blank piece of paper?
In the end, I wrote the last remaining piece of stationery and put it in an envelope.

I sneaked into the room after the election with the letter in my hand.
Where… Should I leave it on my desk? Or in a drawer?

Suddenly, the picture frame on the desk caught my eye.
It was a picture of the seonhu and the smile drawing a V sign side by side and laughing.
The seonhu’s face hardened a little, but at least she smiled more naturally than when she was with me.
Her smile was so wide that it was ridiculous.

What. Brothers and sisters taking pictures like this.
Besides, decorate the picture frame. Disgusting.
I covered the frame so that it was not visible.

Unknowingly, power went into my hands.
The letter he was holding in his hand was already crumpled.

Okay. A smile has aegyo and cuteness.
Since that’s also an older brother, he follows me well, so it’s only natural that he’s closer than me.
Of course… Of course, I didn’t know why I was so angry.

I stomped out of the room before and after.
Then he burned the crumpled letter with a gas fire.
The leftover corner was put in the toilet and flushed.

All traces of my writing are gone.
I just wasted my time I’ll go to the gym or something.

Look in the bathroom mirror
A pitiful face was reflected.

* * *

A year has passed.
I am a sophomore in high school, and Seonhu is now a middle school student.

The seonhu spent her dark elementary school days showing off her keuty personality without regret.
It’s not once or twice that her mother has been called to school.
Fool. Why is a guy with no limbs getting beaten up?
I couldn’t understand it because no one touched me at school.

At least in middle school, he said he would change and did something like gym.
To me, it’s at the level of child’s play, but it seems that Mom and Mi-so are cheering for me.
It’s stupid. If my angular personality can be corrected through exercise, then I won’t suffer like this.

There were times when I ran into Sun-Hoo in the fitness room, but when she saw me, she ran away as if she had met a lion.
It’s not like anyone’s eating it.
If I speak first, I will answer. But the conversation doesn’t work properly.

I can’t even talk about the piano gun yet.
I was annoyed that I was the only one who cared so much.
My stomach is bubbling over.

My golf grades plummeted because of my irritation.
At the beginning of the year, I took a pro test, but I couldn’t even get into the top 30, so I was eliminated from the preliminary round.
I thought it would still be difficult. Still, I didn’t know that I wouldn’t even pass the preliminaries.
It’s the wall of the pros, and I fell because I was too bad.

It was frustrating.
Why can’t I play like this?
It seemed that my skills were gradually deteriorating. Confidence also fell.
Even in the days when I played purely by feel, my grades were better than now.
In elementary school, the kids I didn’t even notice were hitting better than me now.
I’m in a slump

*

As time went by, an incident occurred.

“The seonhu sexually harassed you?”

I thought I heard wrong
It wasn’t. It wasn’t that I was molested, it was that I was assaulted.
Also for girls. As a group.

“How about a woman?”

I’m not as weak as when I was in elementary school.
After working out so hard

It was absurd at first.
However, after knowing the contents, he was furious.

Taking advantage of the fact that the seonhu are weak against women, they attack as a group.
It was a planned and organized crime.
I took a video and turned it around, and even threatened with it.

It was vicious.
Had the men and women changed, the country would have been turned upside down.
However, he said that the perpetrators were juveniles under the age of 14, so they were not subject to legal punishment.

Expulsion, suspension, school transfer, or service.
It wasn’t just a matter of ending it like that.
But he said there was no other way to punish him.
Because Chokbeop boys are invincible in this country.

I was so angry that I felt like my guts were about to turn.
I was that much, but what a mother who was hoping for her son.

But her mom said she never did anything and she begged me.
Does mom think I’ll be able to swing a golf club like I used to?
I am no longer a child. I know how to differentiate that much.
My mother is also patient, but I can’t be bothered.

*

Of course, they do nothing to the perpetrators.
But not for the antecedents.

“Hey. After Jinseon. Come out.”

Knocking hard on the door
But again, there was no answer.

After that incident, the seonhu locked herself in her room.
When I call, they do not answer, they do not come out, and they do not eat.
3 days already.
It might be a bit dangerous.

But mom only rolls her feet.
She didn’t think to open the door and force it out.

Even my mom didn’t seem to know what to do at a time like this.
She still believed that the successors would overcome on her own and she would come out on her own.

If she had thought that the seonhu would commit suicide, she would have forced her mother to break through as well…
The seonhu was just quietly crouching in her room, and there was no harm to her life.
For some reason, there was a CCTV in the room after the election, and I could monitor it in real time with a smile cell phone.
Mom seemed relieved to see that.
But smile you, that’s a crime.

“… Chit.”

I couldn’t hide my frustration because of the succession of the secluded.
The reason why seonhu is especially weak to girls.
No matter how you think about it, I was the cause.

It can be said that the weakness of an adult man is because of the abuse he suffered as a child.
However, there are three women in the family, so there is no reason to be weak to women.
Because mom and smile both cherish the seonhu.

She is the only woman in her family who has a hard time.
It’s me
The cause is guessed. ‘Cause there’s something I’ve been doing

It was also my fault that the successors became like that.
So she thought I had to do something.
I felt a sense of responsibility.

“Hey, Jinseonhu! Open the door! Don’t you answer? Do you want to die?”

I knocked on the door of the seonhu with her smashing force.

“If you don’t open it within 3 seconds, you will really die! One! Two!”

Click. I heard the sound of a lock opening.

What. You can open it
I proudly opened the door and stormed into the room.
The sage was sitting crouched in a corner of the dark room.
I forcibly pushed the paper bag I had brought into the arms of the lord.

“Take that and follow me.”

I took the lead, but the seonhu didn’t think to move.

“Come out. Hurry.”

I grabbed the seonhu by the collar, forced him to stand up, and dragged him outside.
Even though they stumbled, they were led by me and followed me.
Holding the paper bag I gave you.

The place where I took the seonhu was the fitness room.

“What are you doing? You too.”

I stepped on the mat on the floor and put on my protective equipment.
Inside the paper bag were headgear and open finger gloves.
It is a mixed martial arts equipment.

But the seonhu is just standing there holding an envelope stupidly.
It was the face of a person who had given up on life.
I was annoyed just by looking at it.

“I can’t. Only this time, noona is doing something special for you.”

I forcibly put her headgear on the head of the electorate and put the glove on her hand.

At some point, the seonhu became the same height as hers. She might be quite tall for a middle school student.
It wasn’t that she didn’t look quite manly because her muscles were also caught.

But she’s only grown up in her appearance.
The content was still a timid child.

Even after putting on her equipment, she just stood there dumbfounded.
Like it or not, I decided to start on my own.

“No time limit. Until the opponent collapses or abstains. No rules, no foul play. Do you understand?”

Joy. With a stupid face
Let me wake you up
I bumped my fist and replaced the ball.

“Then, start!”

Puck!
At the same time as the start, I screamed a straight line in the face of the seonhu.
The seonhu stood still, hit by her fist, and collapsed backwards.
It was like he didn’t even know what had happened.

“What are you doing? Wake up soon.”

I kicked the side of the fallen seonhu and raised it up.
The seonhu stood up while staggering.
And then I look at her face that I don’t know why.

“I don’t know? It’s a fighting game. Isn’t it nice to have your sister play with you?”

While talking, I put a left into the stomach of the lord.
An uppercut to the chin of the reflexively crouching seonhu.
The seonhu was right there and fell backwards like a cartoon.

Hmm… Is it dead

“How long are you going to lie down? Wake up soon Noona is busy, so I don’t have much time to play.”

Kick it up and stand up like a zombie.
The eyes are stark and out of focus.
Really like zombies

“Are you going to keep getting hit like that? It’s a martial arts game, so you can hit it too. Or do you like being fit?”

Jab in the face
It’s like they’re trying to stop it, and they’re putting up guards.

“The body is empty!”

There I hit River.
The queen’s back bent and she groaned as if in agony.

“Come on, this time it’s the face. What should I do? You can’t stop them both.”

I hit myself in the face again.
Then, Sun Hu hides her face and runs away into a corner.

“What are you? How long do you think you can keep running away? Or, do you think your mother will come and save you?”

I chased after the fleeing seonhu, hitting it.

“Are you going to live like that for the rest of your life? And will you ask your mother to save you? Aren’t you embarrassed? Are you an asshole?”

The seonhu turned his back to me in the corner and crouched down.

I can’t. I didn’t want to do it this far.

“Hey, Jin Seon-hu. Your mother said she was pregnant?”

He patted her crouching leader on the shoulder and lowered her voice.
Because of my husky voice, I often imitated men in this way.

“When you come tomorrow, steal your mother’s panties. When I take a bath, I secretly take some pictures. How can you do it?”

I felt my back stiffen.

“And your brother is so cute? Please introduce yourself. I won’t bully you from now on, and I’ll play with your brother instead. Huh?”

He wrapped his arms around his shoulders and whispered softly.

It was a threat that the former ruler actually heard.
Before and after, she began to tremble.

“What are you going to do? Will you do what I ask you to do? Will you continue to suffer? Are you going to sell Mama and Miso too?”

Only then did the seonhu turn her face to me.
Her ugly face was distorted by her tears.

“Aaaaa!”

The lord shouted at her at random and swung her fists at her.
I quickly jumped back.

“Right, so…”

But my words did not carry on to the end.
After being tackled by the successors, I ended up knocking her on the butt.

“Ugh… !”

I was shocked as if I had been hit by a truck.

The seonhu got on my ship that had fallen.
I tried to get out somehow, but the seonhu who was holding me down didn’t budge.

For the first time in my life, I felt fear.

“Aaaaa——!!”

Seonhu strikes her fist down.
I raised both of her arms to protect her face, but the seonhu’s fists dug in like an awl and struck me in the face.

Puck! Puck! Puck! Puck!

I was only getting hit.
My arm, which was covering my face, also drooped.

The seonhu continued to hit my face, which was revealed defenseless.
The seonhu who completely lost their reason didn’t know how to stop.

Ah. Failed.
I may have been the one who was the most careless after telling my mother so proudly that the former and the latter were children.

*

I must have lost my mind for a moment.
When I woke up, the seonhu was kneeling next to me and weeping.

“… What… You can do it…”

I wanted to pretend nothing was wrong, but the pronunciation didn’t come out right.

“Sister, I’m sorry, I’m sorry…”

The lord apologized to her while crying.
Why are you crying after Ji beat you?

“… Don’t die like this Don’t cry, you bastard. Your ugly face will become even uglier.”

Every time I spoke, my mouth hurt and I felt like I was going to burst into tears, but I held it in.

“Ah~ Ah~. I lost to the ancestors. Embarrassingly I can’t say where I went. Don’t tell me either If you say it, it will kill you.”

Seonhu nodded her head eagerly while crying.

She didn’t mean to be beaten like this.
She also doesn’t know if she planted unnecessary trauma or not.

“Nuna will come after washing, so you clean up after yourself. Okay?”

The mat on the floor was covered in blood from my spills.
When mom sees it, she may faint.

I whipped my aching body and headed for the bathroom.

“This… Me?”

My face in the bathroom mirror was a mess.
His face was covered in blood, his eyes were crinkled, and his nose was bent in a strange way.
Funny.

“Ouch.”

Just taking off the headgear made the song sound natural.
I wanted to wash my face, but I wasn’t in the mood to do it because I was sick.
I just wiped the blood off with a tissue soaked in water.

… By the way, the problem wasn’t the face.
This time I’m really tired.
Did you fight out of fear, or did you fight while fainting?

“I am crazy.”

Do you know before and after? Got it?
The dignity of the older sister that has been piled up…
Under. Now that I’m embarrassed, how can I buy it?
I lamented while washing my urine.

On the way out to change clothes.
I bumped into my mother who had just returned home in the living room.

“Uh. Mom.”
“Kyaaaaac!!”

Mom saw my face and screamed, and she passed out on the spot.