Chapter 62 – The Story of a Whore

When I was young, my dream was to become a professional golfer.
To be precise, it was not my dream, but my parents’ dream.
Still, I put my parents’ expectations on my back and tried my best.

When he was in elementary school, he played an active part as a golf junior and entered middle school as a golf special student.
Among children of the same age, I thought I had a pretty good prospect.
Until I met him.

Jin So-young.
She is now a living legend in the golf world.

However, Jin So-young also had her junior days.
When I was in my third year of middle school, Jin So-yeong came in as her freshman junior two years younger than me.

Jin So-young was overwhelming.
Even though she is 2 years younger than me, her distance and sophistication did not compare to mine.

Ah. These kids are going to be pros.
I knew it on my own without anyone telling me.

Frustrated with Jin So-yeong, the children of her age quit golf one by one.
But I couldn’t quit.
I wanted to quit, but my parents wouldn’t let me.

Even when I was in high school, I played golf.
I already knew my limits, but I had no choice but to continue.
Because my parents made me do it. And because I didn’t know what else to do.

I only have bad memories from high school.
Around that time, my parents were fighting every day.
As her father’s company faltered, her living expenses declined, and her lavish lifestyle angered her mother.
Meanwhile, I played golf.

Golf was my escape.
As long as you play golf, you don’t have to worry about anything else.
As long as you play golf, you don’t have to do anything.
So I just played golf.

Even if the mother who was angry every day leaves her house.
Even if my father’s company goes bankrupt.
Even if she sells her house and moves into a rented room.
I kept playing golf.
Because that was all I had.

I didn’t know it, but at this time my dad was paying me to play golf.
Golf is a sport that costs money.
Clothes, supplies, golf course fees, and caddy fees.
Money went in every time I moved.

Perhaps there was a possibility of knight revival.
If, like Jin So-yeong, she had become a professional in high school and made a fortune.
Then maybe he could have saved his father.
Perhaps that was Dad’s last hope.

But I never became a pro.
And my dad committed suicide.
I stopped playing golf.

Ironically, it wasn’t until I quit golf that I got a sponsor.
Not as a sponsor as a golfer.
Kim Eun-ha was the sponsor for the woman.

Someone from a company who had noticed me since I was a student made an offer.
Deal with a man once a week.
Then I will give you a place to live and money.

I accepted the offer.
Having played golf all my life relying on my parents, I did not know how to stand on my own.
After my parents left, all I had left was a woman’s body.
I gave up her name, Kim Eun-ha, and got the stage name Seul-gi.

After that, I was hugged by a man every week.
There were high-ranking people in companies, business partners, and sometimes even politicians.
Most of them were men of my father’s age or older.

1 year, 2 years like that.
As time passed, problems arose with the sponsoring company.
All kinds of corruption, including the sexual entertainment I did, broke out.

The parent company went bankrupt and the sponsor was cut off.
Until then, I was still young.
I had money saved up, so it must have been the right time to wash my hands and start anew.
But I was still a woman with nothing but a body, nothing to do or learn.

The next place I drifted into was an officetel.
It was a brothel.

There I dealt more often with various men.
Since I already had experience, the job was not difficult.
I was used to dealing with men, and there were minimal rules here.
It’s over if you compliment me moderately with words and deal with it with your body.
Rather, I was able to earn more money than when I was sponsored.

There was also a man who tried to approach me sincerely.
But in the end, the relationship that started with the body.
I didn’t trust anyone

Another year, two years like that.
One day when time passed.

“Senior Eunha!”

I knew it just by hearing your voice.
It was Jin So-young.

We met on our way to work early in the morning.
In the middle of the street, riding a bright red Ferrari, Jin So-young called out to me.

I was puzzled.
She didn’t know how to meet Jin So-yeong, she didn’t know how Jin So-young recognized me, and she didn’t know how to pretend to know me.

The only time I was in the same world was in middle school for a year.
Why do you still call me senior?
Now that you’re a resident of another world, why are you pretending to know?

“Sorry, senior, I’m busy right now. Just give me a number.”

I heard someone say, “This is Jin So-young.”
I accidentally dialed my number on Jin So-yeong’s cell phone.

“I’ll call you later!”

And the bright red Ferrari disappeared in an instant with a loud sound.

Just like me, Jin So-young knew nothing but golf and only played golf.
However, the destination was the exact opposite of mine.
Jin So-yeong is at the top of the world, and I am at the bottom of society.
The red Ferrari seemed to symbolize the class difference between me and Jin So-young.

He said he would call me later, but I didn’t think he’d get a real call.
I thought it was a greeting like ‘let’s eat sometime’ or ‘see you later’.
After all, I must be one of the many extras who passed through Jin So-young’s life.
But the call came. From Jin So-young.

『Senior, what are you doing?』

If you’re not busy, let’s meet.
It’s a comfortable way of speaking, as if we’ve always seen each other.

Okay. You were that kind of kid
My Way doesn’t care what others say.
Jin So-young did not change even with age.

I wondered what Jin So-yeong was calling me to do.
I made an appointment and met Jin So-young.

“What are you doing, senior?”

Of course, there is a recent story.

“Sell your body. I became a whore.”

What a stupid face. Haha.
I’m probably the only one in the world who’s seen Jin So-young’s expression like that.

“Uh, what happened?”

Since I asked, are you prepared to listen?
The great epic of lamenting my misfortune.

In high school, her father’s business is struggling, and her mother runs away.
After graduation, his father’s business goes bankrupt and his father commits suicide.
After receiving a sponsorship and selling my body, that company also went bankrupt.
After that, until now, she is doing prostitution in Opie.

How is it. Are you feeling relieved now?
Seeing the downfall of a woman who was a senior and shouted loudly?

“Senior. Why didn’t you contact me? At least if you let me know when my father passed away…”

I? To you? Why?

I was ashamed of my downfall, so she cut off all ties she had known until then.
I hadn’t been in contact with Jin So-young since graduating from middle school.

Of course, if I knew the contact information, I would have known.
But what if I contact you?
To ask for help? To an old junior who hasn’t even graduated from high school yet?
I can’t say that.
I’d rather sell my body dead if dead

“Senior is an idiot. Really stupid.”

Okay. I am stupid
If I had been smart, I would have died already.
I live like this because I’m stupid.

“If the senior succeeded and I failed and asked for help, wouldn’t the senior help?”

I? Can you help Jin So-young?
Even at home, I couldn’t imagine it.
But maybe it helped.
Poor juniors, proud seniors, must have helped.

“Do you want to continue doing that job? Or does she have anything else she wants to do?”

Why. If I say I’m opening a store, will you lend me some money?

“Listen to what the seniors say. If there is any hope.”

What I want to do
What can I do
I don’t know how to do anything other than sell myself.

The first thing that popped into my head was a waxing shop.
It wasn’t that I didn’t really want to do it before.
It just came to my mind yesterday after hearing about it from an older sister who works with me.

If you save up money, you’ll open a waxing shop, ask a decent man and get married.
It’s a plausible thing that even a woman who doesn’t know how to do anything can do.
So can I do it even if I can’t do anything? I just thought

“Good. I wanted to receive it too. Then get one. I will lend you the building.”

It was absurdly simple, so Jin So-young decided.
And she made a few phone calls, and she got the job done in no time.
Free rental for 3 years. Then re-contract.
Although there are few conditions, only her prostitution or similar acts are prohibited.
In the blink of an eye, I became a free renter of that expensive mall.

“… Why are you doing this to me?”
“Reason? When I was in middle school, my seniors helped me a lot.”

I also protected him from male seniors.
——I just did it because I was pissed at how men were chasing after female juniors.

I even got into a fight with a teacher who sexually harassed me.
——I was openly swearing at the teacher who openly showed favoritism.

He also told me about days when I was in good shape.
──’Soyeong, are you doing anything good? Why are you hitting so well today?’
I was dumbfounded because I hit it so well that I just said one word.
What does that mean?

“It may have been nothing to you, but I received a lot of help from you.”

It was an unexpected word.
Okay. Jin So-young. You were that kind of kid
No one around cares, only goes my own way.
You really haven’t changed at all.

But Soyoung, I have changed.
I’m not the senior you knew.

To the extent that even the pure kindness of his juniors was sarcastic.
To the point where I think you’re arrogant for helping me because I’m so successful.
To the point I’m jealous of you for having a happy family that I lost.
I don’t have anything, to the point where I resent you for having everything.
I am so miserable that I have changed to the point where I want to kill you and kill myself too.

* * *

At Jin So-young’s recommendation, I stopped working at the office.
The manager dried it, but there was no problem. I don’t even have debt.
And while decorating the interior of the shop, he went to an academy to get a license.
The license was easily obtained. Because if you give me money, I’ll take it.

Open a shop, hire employees, and work moderately.
When I first started this job, I just wanted to give Jin So-yeong a shot.
But I didn’t know how to do anything, I didn’t know anything, and I couldn’t even think of what to do to give Jin So-young a shot.
A stupid woman with nothing but a body. Because that’s me

Anyway, to Jin So-young, I am like an ant.
I was walking down the street and saw an ant drowning in a puddle and rescued it.
That’s just about it.
Even if that ant bites her finger, Jin So-yeong won’t mind.

It felt like I was just living as I could, without any goals or motivation.

Then, an unexpected opportunity came.

“Senior, my younger brother is going. It can hurt a little, so make sure to pull it out.”

It was unexpected. Jin So-young deliberately called me for something like that.

It was a famous story among those who knew that Jin So-young had a younger brother who was an adopted child.
But until she was in middle school, she didn’t seem to care.
There was a man who approached her by using it as a subject for a story, but there was no reaction from Jin So-young.

But not now.
Jin So-young, who was talking about her younger brother, somehow felt good.
Jin So-yeong was also a person. There was minimal affection for her family.

I decided to manipulate her little brother.
The only thing left for me is using a woman’s body.

If this is the case, even an ant like me can hurt Jin So-young.
She can take away what Jin So-young values, who has everything.
I thought so.

“Hello. I made a reservation…”

Jin So-young’s younger brother was said to be Jin Seon-hu.
I understood the moment I saw it.
If you have such a cute little brother, even Jin So-yeong would be cute.

But her brother is also a man.
Man. Men don’t change.

Glance at her with meaningful eyes.
Peek around her breasts to show.
If you lightly touch her body.
That alone is what makes men think.
Ah. I want to do something with this woman.

This job, where you could legally see and touch a person’s body, was perfect for manipulating men.

Her brother’s naked body was wonderful.
Did you do mechanical gymnastics?
Unbelievable stuff there.
If he had been her boyfriend instead of Jin So-young’s younger brother, she would have been genuinely jealous.

But while she had such a body and such a thing, her sister was naive.
Too much too.
Maybe it was grown in a greenhouse.
For a moment, I doubted it was smoke.

She felt remorse.
From now on, I plan to seduce, trick, and squeeze this naive child to the marrow.
Against this child who sincerely believes in me as my sister’s close senior.

But I’m already a dirty rag-like woman.
There is no such thing as a conscience left.

I went ahead with my initial plan.
It wasn’t anything like cheating on such an innocent man.
I thought until the middle that the plan would succeed so smoothly.
However.

“I’m sorry. Thank you for your words, but there…”

I was shocked.
It was the first time I had such a reaction.
You say no? Why?

No, not yet.
I thought all men were the same, but there was a possibility that they weren’t men.
Gay or slutty.

But when I tried it by hand, it wasn’t like that.
Just doing it with his hands made the younger brother the happiest face in the world.
Semen came out just fine.

So what? Why did you refuse

“Just that. For some reason I don’t think so…”

Somehow I feel like that won’t work.
So you declined?
A man? Woman?

Haha. Okay.
Of course not.
Everyone knows that shouldn’t be the case.

But even if you know you can’t, how many serious men in the world can resist temptation?
At least I didn’t think there was one. Until this moment.
But there was. Here.

It was stupid.
Men are all the same anyway, I used to talk like I knew the whole world.
I felt like an idiot for dreaming of a strange revenge play while pretending to be the heroine of a tragedy alone.
What the hell have I been doing up until now?

The only innocence in the world purifies a dirty woman.
A rag is a rag even if you wash it. Still.
It’s okay to like things alone, right?

For the first time since I started selling my body, I introduced myself as ‘Kim Eun-ha’ instead of ‘Seul-gi’.
I wanted to be with him only as Kim Eun-ha, not Seul-gi, a prostitute.

“Come again. I will serve you well.”

That was the day the 26-year-old whore was born and fell in love with her for the first time.