Chapter 83 – Different Forms of Love

‘Among our members, is there someone you like?’

This is what Miso asked me during a date before.
At that time, I replied, ‘you, smile’, but in fact, there was someone who came to my mind before a smile.

Seah.
He is the leader of Spring, an idol group that Miso belongs to.

Of course, that doesn’t mean I like Sae Ah more than Miso.
It was so natural that I liked a smile, so I didn’t even have to think about it.

Se-ah, real name Han Se-ah, is 22 years old, one year older than me.
Se Ah has many nicknames.
She’s an idol since birth.
Three: The best child in the world: Idol.
Miss Perfect.

Just by looking at those nicknames, you will be reminded of what kind of person Sae Ah is.
Singing, dancing, appearance, talk, self-management, mental. Etc.
Se Ah is a perfect idol in every way.

If Miso is a regular hexagonal idol with her stats evenly distributed on all sides, Sae-ah is a full hexagonal idol.
To put it simply, it can be said to be a superior compatibility of a smile.
That’s something that not only Miso’s fans have to admit, but also her family, Nara.
The smile is cuter because it lacks a bit.

She has no interest in other idols, but since she is a member of the group Miso belongs to, she tends to watch her spring performances as much as possible.
At that time, Sae Ah was shining at the center of her stage.
I was a fan of such a perfect idol Se Ah.
In my view, who was lacking in all aspects, Sae Ah, who was perfect in all aspects, was a dazzling existence.

Literally my idol (idol).
I was secretly cheering for Sae Ah.
She had a smile, though she couldn’t show it like that.
Isn’t it okay for her to cheer inwardly?
She’s not avoiding anyone.

Since I was a fan of Sae Ah, I might have been even more angry about ‘that thing’.
At the thought of tainting my idol.

“This is Han Se-ah. I want to meet you because of what I said yesterday.”

Early in the morning, I received a text from Sae-ah.
If it were me a few days ago, she would have been happy enough to dance.
But now I wasn’t as happy.
It was heavy and stuffy, as if her chest had been filled with cement.

I still have to meet you.
For the sake of Miso’s future, I had to talk to these people.

Share her text message with Sae Ah, and make an appointment today.
A bit early for lunch.
The place is the same Hotel EFL as yesterday.
Today, the president and Sae-ah are said to be coming out together.

I wonder if idols can make appointments at hotels.
It won’t be a problem for me to worry about.
I think I stayed at that hotel yesterday too.
And Sae-Ah said that he and the president had a relationship like that.
…
I didn’t really want to know.
What is the idol’s private life like?
I always wanted to leave a clean and beautiful image.
If I didn’t know, I would have been happy all along.
Phew.

Noon with bright sunlight.
Today I went out on time.
I left 30 minutes early yesterday, but I didn’t feel the need to do that today.

The two were waiting at a table in the hotel lounge.
Sae-ah wears a white suit, and the president wears a black suit.
It felt like a contrast between an angel and a devil.

I will now have a conversation with the devil who corrupted my angel.

“Hello.”
“Thank you for coming.”

The president and Sae-ah got up and said hello.
I say formal greetings and sit down.

It’s kind of a strange feeling.
It seemed that the rapport relationship had changed.
I feel awkward with myself for showing a proud and arrogant attitude.

“I’m sorry I told you something that could cause misunderstandings yesterday.”

Was it really a misunderstanding?

I thought about it all night last night, but no matter how much I thought about it, there was no other choice.
I turn my gaze to Sea.
She is still looking at the table.
What are you thinking?

“First of all, let me tell you again about my relationship with Sae-ah. We are dating seriously. This is a story that other members of Spring know.”

I already knew the smile.
I took their side without knowing it.

Could Sae-ah and Mi-so be fooled?
What do you like about this uncle?
Is it for money? Do you have any debt?
If only I had money…

No. It’s just my imagination that Sae Ah has a debt.
You have to listen to the story to the end.

“What I will tell you from now on is a story that even the members do not know. It’s a story that only the three of us here know, so if it leaks out, I have no choice but to doubt Jin Seon-hoo.”

Are you keeping a secret?
You’re subtly threatening me.
But is there a bigger secret than the fact that the president of D.S. Is in a relationship with Han Se-ah?

“Actually, I… I can’t do my job as a man.”

…
It was such a crazy story.
I honestly never imagined that such a story would come out.
You said you were dating Han Se-ah?

“I don’t know if Seon-Hoo Jin knows, but I have a history of divorce. It’s a story from when I was younger than now, more than 10 years ago… At the time, my wife was having an affair. With a young man, at my house.”

Wow.
The story suddenly turned into a drama.
Why are you telling me this story?

“I got a sense of her strangeness from her wife, so I installed a camera in her house and watched the recorded video of what her wife and a young man were doing in my house. Shocked, I parted ways with her wife right after that.”

It’s so scary.
How does it feel to watch such a video in person?
Even though I’m weird, I shouldn’t install a camera.

“Her wife cheated on me, too. Because I didn’t do my job properly as a man. There was no mental excitement even if I took the medicine that forced me to do it, so it was like labor to me. Her wife must be tired of being unilaterally demanding of her husband, who doesn’t find her interested in her night out. Because her wife was a young and attractive woman. Even if you leave for a young man who loves you more, you really have nothing to say.”

Not being aroused by his young and attractive wife.
For me, who is an exciting adventure every day, I couldn’t understand such a president.

“After divorcing her wife, my libido has subsided even more. I don’t know if it’s natural because I’m old. The problem is that I became a man only when I watched the video of her wife. That was the only moment I was excited about.”

Ah.

“Do you believe Jin Seon-hoo? The story of a physically healthy man who doesn’t get excited in front of the woman he loves, but only gets excited when he sees her being hugged by another man.”
“… No.”

Can not understand.
Reproduction is a male instinct.
The boss’s story was a story that went against human nature.
It was a physiologically repulsive story.

“I couldn’t believe myself either. Such dirty talk, I couldn’t tell anyone. I thought I would live my life alone without meeting anyone and killing my sexual desire for the rest of my life. In order to shake off such a dirty me, I became even more obsessed with work.”

“Then I met Se Ah.”

“Se Ah approached me seriously. At the time, she was young, and she must be at the age to dream of love with an adult, so I refused. I didn’t have the time or mental space to hang out with the kids playing with fire.”
“But Sae-Ah didn’t give up, and I had no choice but to admit Se-Ah’s serious attitude. So I told my story. The story of this perverted wall. She made Se-ah give up on me. Because you can’t fall in love with me, no matter how close you come, there’s nothing you can do.”
“Even so, she did not give up. Sae-ah accepted me as well, saying that we should think about it and solve it together. How could Jin Seon-hu not love a woman like this?”

The president’s words reminded me of my mother for some reason.
A mother who loves everything about me. And I love my mother like that.
An existence that embraces all worries.
To the president, Sae-ah might be that kind of person.
It was the same that it was an abnormal relationship and a relationship that could not be accepted by the world.

“I fell in love with Sae Ah and her. And I promised. Sae-ah becomes an adult and becomes the best idol, but if she doesn’t change her thoughts. Then she said let’s date seriously.”
“And as promised, Sae-ah became an adult and the best idol, but her thoughts did not change. We officially started dating. Of course, it is a relationship that cannot be disclosed to the outside world.”

Sae-ah is now 22 years old.
According to the president, she has been dating for two years.
Since then, Sae-ah has already…

“It was my final stubbornness as a man that I did not tell all of this to Jin Seon-hoo yesterday. As a result, I thought it would be fine for Jin Seon-hoo and Se-ah to sleep together. As a bonus, it would be perfect if Jin Seon-hoo signed a contract with our company using that as an excuse. But I didn’t expect that to be the result… It was a mistake on my part not to think about how seriously Mr. Jin Seon-hoo takes smile.”

“… Why are you folding?”

There are also agency idols.
Outside of the company, if you have connections with the president, there will be plenty.
There must have been any number of men who wanted to spend the night with Han Se-ah.

“Just because I have this weird temperament, I can’t make Sae Ah be hugged by just about any man. A man who hangs out with Sae-ah, can keep secrets, and must not hold back. There must be no possibility of harm to Seana or the company.”
“In that sense, Seon-Hoo Jin was an ideal opponent. After meeting Jinseonhu, Jinyi praised him dryly. He’s jealous as a man. Even though Jini looks like that, her eyes looking at men are accurate. He doesn’t carelessly praise men. A man that Jini recognized. And he has a deep relationship with Miso, and he has secrets to keep.”

A secret to keep.
What does this man know about me?

“My theory is that men who have many things to keep don’t take other people’s secrets lightly. That’s why I chose Seon-Hoo Jin. A man who suits Sae Ah.”
“… If. What if I seriously seduce Se-ah? So, did you ever think that Sae-ah might like me?”
“I believe in SeAH. Still, if Sae Ah turns around, it must have been destined to happen. I respect Sae-A’s choice.”

The boss had dark, lonely eyes.
He felt as if he were looking into the depths of the sea where no light could shine.

The boss puts the same key as yesterday on the table.

Scary.
With what resolution is this person saying this?
He might give the woman he loves to another man and eventually take it away.
He says he will accept it no matter what.

What if it was me
… No. I don’t even want to imagine.

“… Se-ah, are you okay?”

What kind of mind did Seah have been doing this until now?
Sleeping with an unspecified man for the man he loves.
How did she feel about accepting this?

“Because I love a boss like that.”

That love was much heavier and darker than the love I knew.

I grabbed the key the boss gave me.
And holding Seah Han’s hand, she stood up.

“Jin Seon-hoo. Please take good care of Sae-ah.”

The boss speaks behind my back as I hold Se-ah’s hand and head to the guest room.
I didn’t look back.