Chapter 96 – After Passing the Audition Number 1

My life has been a series of acting.
From childhood, when I realized that even if I cried, they would not forgive me.
One action, one expression,
Your voice, your way of speaking, your gaze, even your breathing.
Everything in my life was acting.

To survive.
As a good son.
As a younger brother who listens well.
As a good brother

As a poor abused child, as a sick patient, as a cute student, as a good neighbor.
As an attractive man.
He never missed a moment’s delay.

You cannot create something out of nothing.
I can’t bring out a part of me that doesn’t exist at all.
In order to play a good son, I had to have at least a part of me that was a good son.
So acting doesn’t mean everything is false.

Adding a little lie to the truth.
It is to maximize and show what the opponent wants.
That was my acting

Everyone in the world lives by acting.
I was just a bit harsh on that.
To survive.
I have been acting in order to be loved.

There is nothing easier than acting for me.
Because I’ve been acting like I’m breathing.

Now, pretending to have a seizure, to the extent that it is possible to pass out.
To the point where I don’t even know what’s acting and what’s real.
Life is acting and acting is life.

Is the me who loves my mother real or acting?
Or is it a delusion that everything was acting?
I didn’t know anything.

But there is a truth that does not change even for me like this.

* * *

“I’ve been looking for a replacement actor!”

Sua opened the conference room door and raised her voice.
The attention of everyone gathered in the conference room was focused.

There are mothers, producers, actors, sponsors, people I don’t know, and so on.
Many people gathered.

“Hello! This is Jin Seon-hu, a substitute actor audition participant!”

Raise your voice so everyone can hear.

“Shin-hye’s son? How old are you?”

Director, Choi Tae-heon PD.
Was in charge of this position.
He remembered me saying hello once.

“Yes. Twenty-one years old, sophomore in college, only nineteen.”
“Jin Seon-hoo. Aren’t you too old for such pranks?”

Says with a slight smile.
However, the atmosphere is not very good.
At least the director in charge pretended to see it, but the others didn’t even pretend to hear it.

“Mr. Sua. What are you doing? Is it time to joke around like this?”

Mom scolds Sua.
She must be trying to move her target to Sua, not me.
But you don’t have to.
Because this is no joke.

“Teacher. The teacher knows the best about Seonhoo’s skills. Because she has been acting together ever since she was little.”
“Shin-hye, did you?”

Senior actor Kang Chang-jae shows interest.
However, her mother’s eyes were fixed on Sua.

“Mr. Sua. I don’t know what you’re thinking, but stop it right now. Sua-san, don’t sway the successors at will.”
“Mom. It’s not like that. This is what I want to do.”
“Before and after, you stay still!”

Mom screams loudly.
It was her full-body performance as her mother before being an actress Im Im-hye.
So that I don’t get hurt
To clear this place before accusations are directed against me.
She plays Im Im-hye, a cold-hearted woman who is not swept away by personal emotions.

But you don’t have to.
‘Cause now I’m sincere

“Mom.”

I ‘possess’ Hwang Jin-woo, the main character of this drama.
Hwang Jin-wooe, an unfinished product who has not yet become an adult, who can’t accept it as it is even if she knows that her mother is saying it for herself.

Who shook me?
It’s mom
My life is what my mother wants.
I only made her live according to the picture her mother drew.
Divide Sun-ah and me, and make her marry Shin Ah-young.
And even after that, he doesn’t leave me free even for a moment.
All for me?
Can you do anything for me?
Now I couldn’t stand it any longer.

“Please stop. Leave me alone!
I am not my mother’s doll.
I am a living human too!”

Thud.
The meeting room was in shock.

Not to mention mom
It’s her eyes wide open, her mouth open, her face in disbelief how could I.
This scene was also practiced with her mother, but she couldn’t think of her mother.

It hurts me too that she made her mother sad even for a moment.
Even now, I wanted to run to her mother and hug her and apologize.

However, this is the ‘direction’ necessary to achieve the purpose.
Let’s apologize after everything is over, at some time just the two of us.

Right now, I have to continue acting as ‘substitute actor audition participant No. 1 Jin Seon-hu’.

“This is the scene in episode 11 where Hwang Jin-woo rebels against his mother Kim Young-sun’s nagging.”
“Ah.”

Someone recalled the scene and exclaimed.
Anyone who didn’t know me would have thought that I was really against my mother.
But I wouldn’t dare go against my mother, would I?

Thanks to that ‘directing’, this time I got attention properly.

“Let me introduce myself once again. This is after Jin Seon.
I couldn’t prepare the documents because I was in a hurry to participate in the audition. Sorry.
As some of you may know, I am also the son of actress Im Im-hye here.
Actress Im Im-hye will prove my identity.”

Mom sat down in her seat with her face drained of her soul.
Actor Kang Chang-jae whispers something next to her, but her mother doesn’t answer.
Mom. Sorry.

“I have not appeared in any work before, and this is my first audition.
So, I think it’s natural for ‘Actress Im Shin-hye’ to be worried.”

It’s not just mom.
Everyone here must be of the same opinion.
No predecessors Skills not proven.
It was the biggest stumbling block to overcome in order to pass this emergency audition.

“But since I was young, I have been dreaming of becoming an actress while watching the acting of her mother, actress Im Im-hye.
I have been practicing acting with her mother since I was in elementary school, and in this drama, I have been practicing with actress Hwang Soo-ah.”
“With senior Sua? Wasn’t she just a manager?”

It was actress Shin Ji-hye who asked the question.
Actress Shin Ji-hye is young, but she is the heroine of this drama.
She was also one of the important interviewers with her say.

“Yes. Before she became an actress, she said she was learning the field, and actress Hwang Soo-ah helped.”
“I see. Somehow, he brought in a manager he didn’t use. I also thought you were Sua-senpai’s girlfriend.”

Laughter bursts out here and there at actress Shin Ji-hye’s joke.
It seems that there were many people who thought she was similar to actress Shin Ji-hye.
The atmosphere in her seat softened a little.

It’s a lie, but the only people who know the truth are me and Sua.
If everyone who knows the truth tells a lie, the lie becomes the truth.

“Like that, I memorized all the scripts for this drama while practicing acting with actress Im Im-hye and actress Hwang Soo-ah. Even if you go into filming right now, you can act right away.”

A man raised his hand and said.

“This is Youngwoong Kim from Production Support. Are you sure you are memorizing the entire script?”
“Yes. You can try it if you are curious.”

As soon as I finished my answer, someone raised his hand and rose from his seat.
It was Na Seung-hee, a child actress who played the role of Soo-jeong.

“Dad! I drew a picture at school yesterday! Do you want to go home and see me?”

Suddenly start acting
But it worked out rather well.
Let’s talk about it for a hundred days.

“Sujeong-ah. Daddy’s driving. I told you not to talk while driving.”

The scene is in a car.
Na Hwang Jin-woo is on his way back after going out with his family out of a sense of duty.
Soo-jeong was excited about going out after a long time, but Mom and Dad had firm expressions the whole time.
In order to somehow change the atmosphere, Sujeongi deliberately speaks more lively.

“Huh? Dad~ The teacher also praised me. I said I drew the best in my class. Would you be surprised to see your father?”
“See you mom. Daddy is tired.”

However, Hwang Jin-woo is just annoyed by his cute daughter’s aegyo.

“Blood. Dad says he’s always tired.”

Here, her wife Shin Ah-young (Hwang Soo-ah) also joins the conversation.

“Honey. Don’t do that, look at Sujeong together. It’s not difficult.”
“Sorting is your opponent. I’m leaving right away. I have a job.”
“What happened? Is she that girl again?”
“You said it was work!”

Soo-jeong looks at her mother and father alternately with a look of helplessness.
The atmosphere in the car instantly becomes chilly.

Sujeong suddenly starts singing there.

“… Ahhh, the shark, it’s sooooo~.”

When Sujeong was much younger than now,
This is the song I used to sing in the car with my mom and dad.

“Cute~ In the sea~ Baby shark~.”

When I sing this song, my dad says ‘Daddy Shark’.
The mother plays ‘Mother Shark’ and sings along.
They sang songs together and laughed happily.
It is a memory of a happy family that remains in Sujeongi’s memory.

So, both mom and dad will remember that time when they sing this song.
That I would stop fighting her and sing a song with her.
She thought so, so she sang this song.

“…”

But both Dad and Mom kept their mouths shut.
They turn their heads and don’t even look at each other.
He pretends not to hear Sujeongi’s song.

“… Mother~ shark~ pretty~ in the sea~ mother shark~.”

Sujeongi couldn’t stand it and called her back, but
There was no cheerfulness in Sujeongi’s voice like before.

“Dad~ shark~ strength… In the sea… Ugh.”

The song gradually turns into crying, and finally Sujeongi bursts into her tears.

“Ahh~.”

Sujeongi cried sadly, shedding tears like chicken droppings.
But Dad only cares about driving with a disapproving expression.
Her mother is also only looking out the window opposite her.
No one pays attention to the crying daughter.

“Crying! Huh! Ugh!”

The meeting room was filled with Sujeongi’s cries.

“Hey Seunghee, let’s go. Sorry.”

Unable to see Seung-hee like that, Seung-hee’s mother carries her out.
Seunghee’s cries fade away.

After Seunghee left, the conference room became quiet.
Some breathed a sigh of relief, while others wiped away tears.
Seunghee’s tearful performance drained the souls of everyone here.
Seunghee Na. Enfant terrible.

“Can I try it too?”

There was one person here who wasn’t swept away by such an atmosphere.
Shin Ji-hye was an actress.

“Yes. Please.”