Episode 120
“Elisha.”
Lucerne whispered softly to her, waking her up. He felt a sense of antinomy. He wanted to wake her up and hear more of what she had to say about her. Then she caught him in her sleep and clung to him.
“Forgive me, please don't hate me…….”
Said Elisha.
“You…… I'm sorry for that. I ruined everything…….”
Elisha tightened her arms around him and she murmured in her confusion. Lucerne couldn't move because his body stiffened.
He felt like he had been hit a few times in the stomach by someone and had been struck by lightning from the top of his head. Elisha's small hands gripped Lucerne's collar roughly. She desperately dug into him, even in her sleep.
Even though he was a body that had been hugged several times. Even so, her body is too small……. It was soft and delicate.
His heart beat so loud that his lungs ached. It was the first kind of pain he had ever experienced. Elisha's body fell down. She let out a hot breath.
At that moment, Lucerne couldn't even breathe deeply.
* * *
Elisha opened her eyes slowly. She felt the silk blanket wrapped around her body. She was Lucerne in the palace and she was the room where she stayed. Elisha turned her head. Lucerne was sitting in her chair.
“Are you out of your mind?”
He asked. Elisha cautiously nodded her head. She slowly rose from her seat and sat down. The first emotion Elisha felt was fear.
'In her previous life, Lucerne saw those names and went mad. Maybe this time…….'
May die I felt such fear. Elisha reflexively placed her hand on her neck.
However, the situation was different from her idea. Lucerne was looking down at her indifferently.
Elisha's throbbing heart slowly sank. Elisha was conscious of the position of her eyebrows. She frowned, she straightened her brows and made her usual calm expression. She slowly raised her body.
“Did I fall?”
“Yes.”
Lucerne answered quietly. It was the first time Elisha had seen him in such a state. He just……. He was silent He had no expression, like someone who had no emotions. Elisha tried to read the emotions in his gaze.
That happened in her past life. The memory of trembling at the club that became a sea of blood was what Elisha remembered with the most fear. So, she took a break for a moment. Because the heart is not steel. At moments like these, she would realize that she was helplessly imperfect.
“Fury…… Did you wake up?”
Elisha asked quietly. She looked into Lucerne's eyes.
“I wasn't so mad with jealousy. There could be a guy writing a love letter to you.”
Lucerne lightly clenched and loosened her fists, she said. Elisha felt as if there was more anger than he could have imagined behind his calmness.
“That's not a love letter.”
“Know.”
Lucerne answered briefly.
“That you're not stupid enough to have chosen such a clumsy love letter writer for adultery. How demanding you are.”
“…….”
Lucerne didn't say that he believed you wouldn't commit adultery. Lucerne stood up. He lifted the letter from his table.
“You seem to know who this name is.”
Elisha flinched. She realized it was too late to let go of her pretense.
“…… I overheard it by chance.”
“Are you a little ghost again? Hearing the right information. Are Jacob and Carola so talkative?”
“…… When they are alone in the office, they talk a lot. I used to overhear it from behind a secret passageway.”
Lucerne only raised the corner of his mouth slightly. Her eyes were still not smiling.
“When.”
“Yes?”
“When exactly did you hear that? Last year?”
“Last year……. No. It was around this time last year. I overheard it by chance while wandering around the secret passage.”
Elisha said calmly. She knew he was scooping her up. Around this time last year, the head of household took Jacob and his wife to a resort.
She was picked up by the head maid while sewing clothes for Carola's resort. Besides, when they went on a trip to the provinces, the entire mansion would noisily prepare women's clothes.
Elisha thought she was very fortunate that she had a good memory.
“Okay. I see. Around this time last year, me, the family head, and the Jacob family met in Yurif.”
Lucerne was convinced. Elisha wanted to sweep her breasts.
“Lucerne you……. He said he felt bad at this time. And he said he was having a seizure……. Just hear their names.”
Elisha muttered quietly. And it was true. It was about the year following my previous life that I overheard exactly that story.
'At this time they died, Lucerne is in a bad mood. Just hearing that name gives me a seizure. We have to encourage the family head to collide with the Lucerne of this period. That kind of thing is Carola's specialty, so I can do it well.'
It was a passing word she heard. At the time, she didn't know what she was talking about. The exact meaning of the word was again discovered years later. The day Lucerne killed everyone at the Red Club.
“What were you so afraid of? It's okay.”
Lucerne clicked her tongue.
“Was it enough to pass out?”
Elisha noticed Lucerne more honestly and nodded her head. Elisha winced when Lucerne held out her hand. But she didn't escape. He caressed her Elisha's head.
“Am I mad at you?”
“You didn't. But you seem very angry…….”
Elisha said quietly.
“You know. I……. That once I lose trust, it's over. That's between us……. If you get angry, I…….”
Elisha spoke frankly. Lucerne's pupils gradually sank.
Lucerne was reacting very strangely. He looked sad and seemed to have captured his suppressed anger. But more than that, he was focused on her. I could tell that she was Elisha.
Lucerne asked.
“Do you want me to leave this room?”
Elisha was very surprised that he cared. Lucerne has never been like this. Elisha was always there to be by her side if he wanted to.
“No, that's not it.”
Lucerne sat next to Elisha this time. Elisha clutched her bed sheet in her hand. As she was, she looked up at him. Lucerne's eyes wavered.
“I'm dying because of you.”
Lucerne's face was close. Elisha felt his firm hands gripping her own shoulders. She stayed still. Her nose brushed against the tip of her nose, and Lucerne kissed him behind his ear and on his cheek, caressing Elisha's back to soothe him.
“Have I ever been angry in front of you?”
“…… No. But from rumors……. They said that if you get angry, people will surely die.”
“Did you imagine that would be you?”
Elisha silently agreed. Lucerne removed her face and stared at Elisha.
“Okay.”
Lucerne said quietly.
“You are suspicious. Elisha. I am not stupid.”
“…….”
“But I'll take a look. You…….”
Because you cried Lucerne swallowed the words. One tear of hers would withhold her treatment and let Lucerne run her risk. To the extent that she lets her walk around in broad daylight as her weakness, which is her openness.
It was worth it.
“I do not know. So…… Put everything on hold.”
Even if this is the last hold. Even if it was the last chance he gave Elisha, it was the same.
“…….”
“I think the most important thing right now is that you don't get scared.”
Those words contained Lucerne's confusion.
Elisha would have been shaken if she hadn't dreamed of her past in her haze just now. She had a hunch. But she remembered her pain at being shunned by Lucerne.
She remembered herself as a shabby, ugly woman. If only she could taste that feeling once. If you get hurt twice by a man.
Even if she didn't do his fault, Elisha would collapse helplessly this time. It was a life she barely earned. She was her only chance once again. She didn't want to put herself on top of that sandcastle. Give her heart and everything will be over.
'It wasn't even love.'
Elisha thought. Even then, her terrible heart, with which her lucerne had harassed her, was only interested in him. She's more than Elisha owes him tons of money.
As long as she was a contract bride sold at a ransom, her love could not sprout.
“Elisha.”
Lucerne said languidly.
“Shall we go home?”
Elisha nodded her head. She looked like she was about to burst into tears. She leaned her cheek against Lucerne's arms.
But it's also very strange. Elisha thought. He was scared, but she, on the other hand, didn't want to get away from him.
* * *
The next morning, Elisha was back to her normal self. Lucerne and her party, including Elisha, decided to leave in the morning. It was early, so Ilione was the only one to see them off.
“Captain, you are going back so quickly. I'm really sorry.”
“If you take a break from training for too long, the knights will become useless.”
Ilione smiled.
'Elisha's condition is getting worse and she's going back.'
Illione had that level of attention. The love letter commotion last night had already spread in secret.
An aristocrat who fell in love with her Elisha went mad and wrote her love letters, saying that she passed out because she was too 'naïve', unfamiliar with her society.
So her Elisha's reputation got better. That's what makes her so cute.
* * *
Elisha looked around while Ilione and Lucerne were talking. It was not difficult for her to find the shadow behind the building.
'After committing a bad deed, we send reconnaissance. It's exactly Caroline behavior.'
Elisha stepped into the shadows. Her opponent turned her back as Elisha approached, as if she couldn't help it.
She said, “She's already too late to run away.”
“…….”
“Hello, Miss Mimosa.”
Elisha said calmly. Hiding in the shadows was Mimosa, Carola's handmaid.
“Should I call you Miss Mimosa de Gentel?”
“How can you say my name…….”
“I'm sorry I couldn't say goodbye yesterday. She was right before midnight, so it was yesterday.”
“…….”
Mimosa's eyes trembled.
“What the hell are you talking about?”
“I mean.”
Elisha said softly.
“I thought I might give you a tip.”
“Yes?”
Mimosa had a dumbfounded expression. Elisha took one of her gold coins from her bosom. It was a commonly used imperial gold coin.
“You should get this much. Mimosa has a big slope, right?”