Episode 168
Elisha felt that her eyes would get wet.
“Do not cry.”
Lucerne asked.
“You cry like a child who has been deprived of something. Even I am suffocating and desperate.”
“After meeting you.”
Elisha whispered.
“There are so many things I want to cry about.”
However, each of those tears had a different meaning, and they were tears that permeated too much during her two lives.
“Then you lived laughing in Jacob's laundry?”
“Nobody could break my heart there.”
Elisha said calmly.
“The body was broken, but everyone suffered equally.”
“Okay? Too bad. You are my wife At least your body will be comfortable, so you won't feel unfair. Those women are still Jacob's slaves, so they work without a penny.”
Lucerne did not budge.
“Besides, are you hurt?”
Elisha knew Cartier's true nature. If you answered yes, Lucerne seemed to be happy with that too.
Just as Lucerne possessed Elisha with little mercy in her past life, Jacob and his wife possessed Elisha with pain. Slaves give their all to their masters in pain and fear. And the Cartiers are more accustomed to such possessions.
“Sick.”
Said Elisha.
“Even though you are resentful. Right. I also have a lot of resentment towards myself.”
“…….”
“You may be right. I might have been overconfident about your favor.”
Elisha let out a short sigh.
“But I think it is too much to do this right away just because I was a little overconfident. I will have to live with a tattoo on the nape of my neck for the rest of my life.”
Elisha added quietly.
“But what does that matter? You are right. I……. It's just your property.”
Lucerne looked at her for a long time, as if guessing Elisha's intentions. Then he spoke in the dark.
“You became rational again, it's you.”
Elisha raised her eyes in the dark. I don't like him, and I won't love him anymore. It was also a fence she had to overcome and one of her prisons.
So from now on, Lucerne had to know the extent of her heart towards her. She had to find something available from him.
“You tried to run away, Elisha. I feel good.”
Elisha pursed her lips.
“It's strange that you're such a person that you don't want to run away. Usually a man will not imprison his wife for having a little misunderstanding with her.”
“What does that matter?”
“…….”
“I will be the only man in your life for the rest of your life. Comparisons are made when you have options.”
Elisha turned her head. Her hatred for him flared up, but she was also very guilty right now.
“What's the matter.”
Lucerne asked.
“Tell me what you think.”
Elisha shook her head.
“What about the seeds? Did anyone get hurt?”
“There is no such thing.”
Lucerne answered briefly.
“They are strong. And you too.”
Only then did Elisha look into Lucerne's eyes.
“What are you curious about?”
“…….”
“You are on good terms with my seeds. You suddenly disappeared, so they're looking for you from behind. Are you curious about that?”
“It is not up to expectations. I wonder what a good excuse you came up with.”
Elisha calmly sarcastically said,
“Some guys doubted me. I said you were sick and in recuperation.”
“…….”
“But not to the point of disobeying me and wandering around looking for you.”
“I guess so.”
Elisha was convinced. Anyway, Sid was Lucerne's men. It was only natural that Lucerne's orders were their highest priority.
“I didn't want anyone to get hurt. You too.”
Lucerne was suddenly silent. Elisha raised one corner of her mouth cynically and continued.
“What will I do if you leave me here and die on the battlefield? If I forget like this, I will be locked up here and starve to death. Isn't it?”
“No way.”
Lucerne replied.
“Of course, I have a workaround.”
“The next best thing? Ah, if you die, will I be buried with you?”
Elisha tried to be rational. Still, I couldn't help but feel a sudden rebellion.
Lucerne's numbers were unfortunately coming close. It was true that he wanted to see a little bit. Elisha set up more thorns. Even so, if she didn't protect her pride, it really seemed like something would be ruined.
“That's fine too. Anyway, without my protection, you are in danger too. Wouldn't it be better if we went to Hell together?”
Lucerne also sarcastically. Soon, Lucerne turned his eyes first.
“But don't worry. I'm used to fighting, so that won't happen.”
“Thank you very much for that.”
Elisha shut her mouth. She was silent.
“Are you going to let me live?”
“Sounds stupid.”
Lucerne cut it off.
“Do I have to tell you that you can't run away from me even if you die?”
“When the necessary utility is exhausted, it will die. Like the dead mimosa you used as a double agent.”
Lucerne unexpectedly responded calmly.
“Mimosa can't do her job, so she's dead. She told me to be a double agent, and she hid that Pansy got her rose poison.”
“…… Are you Mimosa?”
“Okay. Maybe she hated you like Mimosa was her master. So she paid for the crime of almost hurting mine.”
Elisha was stunned. She tried imagining Mimosa's intentions, but no matter how much she thought about it, she seemed to have no good intentions. She was also intertwined with the Cartier family, and poisons were scattered like traps.
Such thoughts gave me a momentary mental fatigue. Elisha just decided to drop her conversation.
“I feel sleepy.”
Elisha said quietly.
“If you don't want to do it right now, I'll sleep.”
Elisha turned her back and closed her eyes. She said she was being cocky, and she was worried that he would grab Elisha and beat her up all at once. Fortunately, Lucerne did not.
* * *
And another similar day passed.
When Elisha became more or less compliant, Lucerne gave her the prize. Through Sophie, she told Elisha to get whatever she wanted.
Elisha asked for her pen, paper, and book. She was reading a book, making tea, or writing something on a piece of paper, so at least Elisha was able to breathe.
As she had more time, many memories of her past came to mind. The same was true of her past life memories.
Elisha in her previous life was almost insane right before her death. It was strange that she hadn't already. Considering what she had done to the Cartier family, she must have gone mad a few times already.
She had a lot of hate and pain. She had an obsession with life. But she ended up with nothing left…….
Except for her heart for Lucerne.
Lucerne gave her her attention once, but it was over. Left alone in the world, Elisha thought she would not live long.
In the end, either Jacob and Carola win and clean up her Elisha, or she gives up her life herself.
No matter how insignificant she is, or even an insignificant creature. Before she dies, she will try her best. But she didn't always push herself in the right direction.
Elisha did. Elisha from her previous life, who was stupid, started obsessing over Lucerne.
'Look at me just once. I was wrong. I didn't know anything. I didn't mean to upset you…….'
It was an out of reach word. She told Elisha that one day she wrote him a letter of her apology and she thought that she was so fleeting. Elisha struggled to keep her sane while burning her letters.
So at that time, Elisha constantly made ledgers. Even when she let go of her mind, her calculations were not wrong.
135, 515, 13521, 321535.
1 gold coin. 2. Three…….
The current Elisha was really bored, and this time, as a way to keep her spirits up, she started calculating. She created an imaginary ledger and did countless calculations.
“What are you doing?”
Lucerne was looking at Elisha. Elisha lowered her hand from writing her number. She lowered her eyes.
“I was going to be a fool.”
Lucerne looked over Elisha's calculations.
“You're not wrong at all.”
“You learned from Miss Rosaria. He is also an excellent mathematician.”
Elisha calmly replied. And shut her mouth.
“What about meals?”
“I did.”
Elisha reluctantly answered. Although her portion size has decreased, she is still eating regularly.
Lucerne said that if Elisha did not eat her meal, she would immediately shack her up and keep her tied up on her bed. She then said she wouldn't let her do anything until her next meal.
So she said, as for Elisha, when it's her turn to eat the next meal, she has to eat at least a little bit. She was really crazy. He knew how to tame people. He even wondered if he had done it many times before.
“Are you sleeping? It looks like you couldn't sleep last night.”
“It's okay.”
Elisha answered nonchalantly. In the end, she couldn't overcome her irritation and she was sarcastic.
“Are you free? My breeding situation is going very well, so don't worry and go to work. There are many people out there who need you.”
Lucerne laughed briefly at her words.
“It's cheeky. But even then it looks pretty.”
Elisha lowered her eyes, not wanting to mix her up.
“But. If you have a temper, I will go into heat.”
And Lucerne grabbed Elisha's hand and raised her up.
“Sick.”
Elisha frowned and said.
“Time to stretch your legs against your husband. Follow.”
Elisha glared at him. But that meant nothing.