Episode 188

Ian sighed as he looked at Gail's back.

'I'd rather go mad with vengeance this time too.'

Ian knew. The reason Lucerne went crazy now was because of Elisha. As she was gone from her side, her venomous snake began to harm itself with her own venom.

'But you're self-employed!'

At first, when Lucerne lost her temper, Ian found out that her Lucerne had imprisoned her under the pretext of recuperating. Ian really thought that Lucerne would end after a week or two.

'But it wasn't…….'

Really Lucerne had nothing to say even if Elisha divorced her.

Lucerne regularly submitted requests for visits to Elisha, but none of them were accepted. Each time Lucerne became more and more silent.

Lucerne smoked cigarettes instead of meals. He overdosed on the mauritiana flower hallucinogen, to the point of worrying Ian, who inhaled mauritiana flowers. He did his job accurately, but in private he became increasingly reticent.

Anyway, Ian also served Lucerne for a long time. However, it was the first time I was truly worried about Lucerne's condition. He really was a man who wouldn't die even if he killed him.

Lucerne and his men were closely intertwined, which earned him much resentment on all sides. Lucerne should not have collapsed.

'The madam isn't there, so why are you shutting yourself in that room?'

Ian sighed.

Lucerne stayed in Yurif's secret room. It was a safe house that Lucerne had bought a long time ago, where Elisha was confined and stayed. Lucerne had long since sent Sophie away. Seeing him locked up in the basement like that made Ian even feel fear.

'No, if I'm going to do this, I'd rather pray for the lady.'

But that wouldn't happen. Ian knew Lucerne all too well, and he knew the plight of his people. Even if she was Lucerne's wife, it was the same. She had the same predicament that was his possession.

No matter how much Lucerne she is going crazy like an outcast child. Ian foresaw a future where Elisha would soon come to Lucerne's side.

However, when he thought of Elisha's misfortune, he became a bit sullen. Because she also thought that she was a woman who wanted to see the smiling face of the mistress. However, as always, the family members were not allowed to think much.

'Right now, I'm calm because of various things. It's scary how he'll change once he recovers his sanity, but that monstrous person.'

Ian was watching Lucerne nervously. And the scariest thing is that Lucerne is perfectly handling external affairs. A person festering from the inside is more terrifying to see from the side.

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However, contrary to Ian's expectations, Lucerne did not go crazy.

Lucerne was lying on the sofa in the light room on the first floor of the hiding place where Elisha often rested and spent time.

“General. Are you really okay?”

Lucerne slowly opened her eyes to the sound of Ian shouting outside the door.

“I'm listening, so stop talking.”

Lucerne muttered languidly. Ian, who had been banging on the door, fell silent.

'I'm tired.'

He really felt tired after years. He wasn't a physical problem. It was a mental problem.

His world has collapsed and his foundation has been shaken. He, too, was a helpless human being. A time he couldn't even remember. The time he spent with his biological mother was once glorified in his memory.

'Okay. It was a bit strange for some reason.'

He had a good memory. The woman she believed he was her birth mother. Open Nose Epi. She took care of Lucerne with utmost sincerity, but she was naturally a woman who lacked something.

But she, that mild-mannered woman, would sometimes look at Lucerne with eerie hatred. At first, she thought it was a false memory. But she wasn't like that. Lucerne now understood the meaning of those eyes.

'Anyway, you are not really my child. You're not Jacob.'

But she was a woman who was stupid and couldn't get her insides. Perhaps she had come to love Effie like his own child. It was the only affection he remembered in his life. He had a really crazy life. I felt like laughing.

Being so sentimental made me goosebumps and offended. In any case, such weak feelings did not suit him.

No, actually, that was good.

All that suffering was incomparable to Elisha's absence. Elisha left him.

Lucerne gave her all to buy her life.

The first time Elisha left him and fled to the Sanctuary, he became enraged, destroying everything in her room. That moment is still not well remembered by him.

'She is mine.'

I must burn the sanctuary. I'll have to pull her out of her. She'll have to protect her better next time. Don't let her run away I'll have to tie it down…….

Such a desire intensified.

But Lucerne realized.

It didn't make any sense…….

Elisha is strong, clever, and she has never been defeated by him. She will run away even to her death if you lock her up again. She was such a woman

It was the woman who drove him mad. She was the woman he loved.

Undine was the most precious woman in the world. Even a woman like that would be ruined if she became involved with the Cartier family.

Elisha was superimposed on her miserable death by suicide.

Yeah, she admitted. She couldn't bear to see Elisha broken. If she becomes like Undine, Lucerne will also be destroyed. That was the magic Elisha cast on him.

'I'm going to ruin her life.'

His bloodline is cursed. Even if men from the Cartier family love women, they ruin them in the end.

He had to go to the sanctuary immediately and lock himself up so he wouldn't catch Elisha. He glanced at his blue ribbon-tied blond hair when he felt he would lose his temper sometimes.

However, every day without Elisha came to him like a debt with huge interest.

He couldn't bear the longing to see Elisha. So Lucerne began to interrogate himself.

His henchman, alter ego, and guardian god, the Shadow God.

It was able to burrow into a person's mind and bring out the deepest memories hidden inside. Lucerne asked the shadow to interrogate him in order to see the vision.

Wandering through the depths of his memories, he saw all the hells his life had passed through.

I also remember seeing it unintentionally. It was the day Effie died. It was the most intense memory of four-year-old Lucerne's life.

'Effie, I can't take you if you act that way. Cover Lucerne? That's not the real child of you and me. You want to continue living here with Lucerne? What do you think you could do without me It doesn't change that you're mine even if I let you go for years. I can't forgive anyone but me for taking things to heart. Okay. I'll set you free if you want. Who would benefit from taking you, a lowly citizen?'

And Stevan said he would abandon you to Effy.

He said that he would never be able to meet Lucerne or Jacob. Stupid Effie believed that. Since Effy grew up being tamed by Stevan since childhood, his words were gods and absolute trust.

'Sorry, I can't lie anymore. I miss Jacob. If I'm alive, Lucerne will be unhappy too. Is it all because I'm low?'

Stevan intended to scare him back a bit, but Effy couldn't stand it any longer and committed suicide. In the first place, the life Stevan gave Effie was not something she could handle.

'Effy? Come to your senses. Epi? It's my fault. Epi……. Effie, I'm sorry I don't come too often. Let's go back together, Effy?'

Stevan is almost out of his mind.

'Effie, I was wrong. No. This wasn't what I wanted Now Rozhin is dead too. I was going to give you Rosie Heen's life. You and I could have lived alone as long as we took care of Lucerne. Everything I say is a lie. I'm just lying epi. As always, I was going to come back in a few hours and pick her up. You always cheated Why why, why…….'

Stevan held on to Effy's body and continued to mutter. He looked at Lucerne with a chilling hatred.

But at the time it happened, Lucerne was too young and didn't even know what was going on. Maybe he didn't even know that Stevan had played a trick. There are also memories from when I was three years old, but the memories of that day were incomplete.

But all of that was meaningless now. After that hellish memory disappeared, I finally saw Elisha.

The deepest part of him. There was Elisha on the floor. Lucerne used to be immersed in the illusion of the shadows.

'Lucerne.'

Said Elisha.

'Please divorce me. I don't want you.'

The woman in her fantasy was colder, colder, and more beautiful than she remembered.

Now Elisha didn't smile even in her fantasies.

'It's terrible.'

Lucerne sighed and opened her eyes. He rubbed his eyebrows.

Trapped inside, did Elisha go so crazy? Gradually, she seemed to know her heart.

In the end, Ian lost that day as well. Ian gave up and went back to Lucerne after a few hours.

Lately Lucerne has had several days of not being able to sleep. Then, that night, she succeeded in falling asleep briefly. I don't know why, but right before she fell asleep, she remembered what Elisha had said to her before.

'What if I were a really ugly woman?'

'Why do I have to imagine that?'

'If I were an ugly woman, I'd be angry at the slightest mistake, and I'd be very ashamed of being your wife, right?'

Yes, Elisha had asked that question before. At the time, she thought nothing of it.

And Lucerne had a very strange dream that day.

He was watching a woman from afar. The woman was crying. I wondered if I was looking at my memories of Effy again. But she was a faded blonde.

It was difficult to see her face because she was in the rain, but it soon came into focus.

Elisha?

It was definitely Elisha. But she looked thinner and smaller than she knew, and she looked shabby again. She was wearing an old, tattered dress. For some reason, Lucerne knew that her dress was Carola's discarded dress.

Then he noticed that half of Elisha's face was distorted by her ugly burn scars. She was distracted by her crying and found it long after.

'What is this?'

Lucerne thought. Lucerne was watching her from somewhere far away. She's obviously watching her secretly.

Elisha was hiding in the shadows behind the castle, doing something of her own. Okay. She was sobbing and burying something of her in the ground.

It was a sad cry that made the viewer's heart throb.

Gradually Lucerne recalled herself in her dreams.

His personality in the dream was similar to what it is now. But he was more lonely, lived a more intense life, and lost more. He was still an illegitimate child, and this was years in the future.

He was even temporarily blind in one of his eyes. He had been poisoned with a terrible ancient poison, which he said would get well soon, but it was on his nerves.

In the dream, he lived his whole life in betrayal and hurt. Stevan and Merha fragmented and scarred Lucerne's childhood. Lucerne, who had not learned anything from watching, had no choice but to follow their traces on the sculpture and became similar.

Of the two sons of the head of the household, Stevan and Michelan maintained their reputations even after their deaths, as each was a clever and handsome man.

However, Lucerne became a little more fierce and meticulous to survive. Eventually, people called him that.

'The grandson of the family head who looks like Michelan and looks more like Stevan than anyone else.'

Several of Stephen's sins at that time came to the surface after his death. So Stevan's notoriety increased.

Lucerne felt disgusted and disgusted with himself. But he could do nothing but look at Elisha from afar.

Lucerne in the dream has been watching Elisha for a long time.

He loved Elisha dearly, her face distorted by burn scars, but she didn't know it.

He denied her that feeling every time he saw Elisha. In doing so, she acted as if she was making fun of Elisha, and she pretended to be angry.

But Lucerne knew. He couldn't stop liking her from the first time he saw her.

Why the hell is it you?

For Lucerne, she was the worst choice. She was known as Jacob's henchman and lover. Lucerne instinctively realized.

His mind will make the life of a woman with half her face distorted from burns even more hellish. Besides, it was futile and disgusting. He didn't want that feeling. So he had been ignoring Elisha for a long time.

Luckily he wouldn't have been caught by anyone. Till now……. He was known as a man with a cruel heart.

The Elisha in the dream was a shabby woman nobody wanted.

But he often reminded her of her. And every time she appeared in front of him.

She asked for something of her own and then staggered away after sitting in the rain for a while. Her dress was all messed up.

Lucerne slowly approached it and dug up what she had buried. It was an old, worn-out locket necklace.

Dalgak. He opened the locket. Inside was an ancient gold coin he had received from Lystralpo when he was a child. He looked at it for a long time.

No one knew about the secret. Why did he give this to that lowly woman? The secret to it…….

The moment Jacob and Carola know Lucerne's heart, they will try to use that woman. She will probably be taken hostage, used horribly, and eventually die a miserable death.

So it couldn't be done.

But he put the rocket in his bosom well. It was a really stupid move. But couldn't stop.

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Lucerne opened her eyes. It was a very strange dream and an unpleasant dream. He pressed his forehead.

Unknowingly, he searched his arms, but this time, what was in his arms was not an old locket dug out in the rain, but a silk pouch that Elisha had left for him.

Lucerne smiled.

'Reality is better than dreams.'

Rather, Elisha was safe now, and something could change depending on what he did.

After that day, Lucerne began to ponder that point.