Chapter 102 – Convergence

The desire to grow to become one by merging monsters. Some criticize the monster’s behavior as ‘a moth on fire’.

When it fuses, the one with the weakest magic stone loses consciousness.

The one with the stronger magic stone takes the lead in the ‘ritual’. It merges with other monsters and increases its strength. This is the basis of ‘fusion’. The absorbed side resists but can’t. Even if they are conscious, the result is the same. It is a fire moth in the true sense.

I’ve never cared too much about this ‘fusion’.

Because the magic stone is strong. Regardless of whether the magic stone is strong or weak, the monsters first combine and look at it. I, as a monster, feel this feeling—I live my whole life feeling it. When I meet a monster on the road, I naturally have the thought of ‘wanting to merge’. Still, I’ve never felt ‘fear’ in my life.

Except for that grayish-white flesh at that time.

The rest of the monsters are all weaker than me. Every time we meet, I feel a sense of reluctance to say that we are just a little merged, but nothing more.

Still, just in case. A little insecurity always follows me.

“…If.”

A monster with stronger magic stones than me. If you want to merge with me.

…What should I do?

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September 29th.

Dinner.

Following the sidewalk block, the two head towards the villa village.

I acted normally.

My heart was torn to hear that there was already an owner, but I didn’t want to lose Tae-ho, so I approached him as usual. Perhaps it was because of Han Ye-rin, Tae-ho put his relationship with me first above other people. He took care of me to the extent that I could feel his sincerity through my skin.

“Ha…”

At least the corners of my mouth twitched at the thought of putting me first. After I realized again that my top priority was not as a member of the opposite sex, but as a friend. Those feelings faded.

Still, I’m happy.

Because I’m always by Taeho’s side. Because you don’t have to leave Taeho’s side. I was happy with that alone. But…

Lack.

I want to feel more love, but it would be nice if Taeho loved me. The desire to be by Taeho’s side as a ‘girlfriend’. It comes up slowly and encroaches on my heart.

I should be by Taeho’s side.

I knew the name of my girlfriend. Note He is now in the house, USA, and has been in love with Taeho for a long time.

For a long time.

“Huh…”

My heart hurts.

We were already making love long before I was taken away by my father and conscious. Even if you reach the tip of magic with all your might, and make a magic formula that is theoretically strong enough to turn back time. Impossible.

Even if I turn back time and come to your side, I will only be killed. Because I am a monster

Same as Fenrir. Because it’s a monster.

Something happened in the middle.

The friend next to me who was closest to me while attending the academy. Arin stood at her official statue and revealed the ‘truth’.

She says she gaslighted Han Seok-ho and that’s why they fell out. So, stop criticizing Han Seok-ho. He told the truth in front of the whole people, no, the whole country. As a result, Arin was driven to the edge of a cliff in an instant… In the end, she was kicked out of the family. An article is up.

“Just a little more to go…”

“Yeah, thank you, Seol-ah…”

I glance back slightly. Arin is slowly following me.

I genuinely wanted to help. Even if she did something bad, she was the first friend I approached when I was at the academy and will always be my friend. I didn’t want to lose my precious friend.

Losing one love is enough.

If Arin didn’t suffer, she did. So… She asked her dad. Dad said this was an opportunity.

Connection.

If there is a connection between us in the huge family called Ijega, then in the future, if I’m found out that I’m a monster. She decided to bring Arin into our house because she might get help. Aside from being good at public opinion battles, the fact that Lee Chun-hwa, the head of the household, was a famous daughter-in-law even outside of the country, played a part.

Even if it turns out that I am a monster, she will definitely be happy when she hears that I helped her. It’s embarrassing, but I said I would.

Use a friend for me

This was the big picture Dad wanted. In the end, it all goes round and round, but it’s all for me. I can’t erase the uncomfortable feeling. After all, you are using it. I was worried that I would not be disappointed after knowing the truth later.

Arrive in front of the house

So… With a promise.

“Ah… Here it is…”

Point your finger at the villa complex. Just before entering the front door, it stops. The saliva goes down.

“I’ve explained everything to my dad, so don’t worry…”

“Arina…”

“Did I say there was a ‘reason’?”

“Uh, yes…”

“I just need to do this one thing…”

Promise.

Please don’t abandon me

Promise.

I turn my head and look at Arin.

“Just… Uh, be my ‘best friend’…”

“Uh, huh?”

“I have a few friends…”

As if nothing was wrong as much as possible, smile bashfully. I’m sorry for using… Even if you know the truth later. Please don’t abandon me

“Hey, let’s go in…”

Grab Arin’s wrist.

Go inside.

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October 1st.

Lunch hour.

‘Aww… Gee, I’m really going crazy…!’

Even though she knew that she had a girlfriend, she vowed that she would not approach Tae-ho in a ‘reasonable’ way as much as possible, and that she would remain her friend. It’s easier said than done, it’s crazy. In the end, because I love Taeho no matter what. Even if you try to be detached, your whole body refuses. I said I would stay as usual, but my heart wants more than that.

Being sexually captured from the position of a monster.

From a human point of view, I was captured by love, but how can I hold on!

The only way left is to leave Taeho’s side and forget about it altogether. Absolutely not. Not as much as that. I have already become a body that cannot live without Taeho. Impossible.

It’s hard to hold on to the desire that fills my heart. I just wanted to be content with being by Taeho’s side and live my life. That ‘greed’ doesn’t leave me alone.

“What are you doing here…?”

There is no choice but to approach Tae-ho. As a result, again. Sitting side by side next to Taeho and opening lunch has become a daily routine. Can not help it.

“Lunch box?”

“Yeah, I made it with Arin…”

I made it with Arin. Arin often tries to help her with housework, but her father is conscious of Lee Jega and takes away all her work. You look pitiful, I wish I could give you something. We made a packed lunch together.

“Do you have a lot of rice cakes?”

“Yeah… I really like rice cakes…”

The texture is chewy, so there is nothing more delicious than this. A cool breeze comes out and wraps around Taeho. Again, my heart is pounding. Even if you know you shouldn’t do this, you won’t stop.

It must be… It’s like a dream. Even though I know she has a girlfriend, she’s always by my side.

I don’t want to wake up from my dream

“Come to think of it, how about Iarin?”

“I’m resting on the roof…”

“Hmm…”

After hearing the news that Arin was taken into our house, the head of the family, Lee Cheon-hwa, came to visit my father. As soon as I saw her bowing in sincere thanks, her dad handed me the credit. It’s all thanks to my daughter that I brought her home. She said her daughter could help by speaking first.

Such burdensome eyes… I’ve never seen them in my life.

After the conversation, the fathers even exchanged phone numbers with each other, asking them to let me know immediately if there was anything they could help with.

“Is it bread today?”

I look at Taeho’s hand. It’s sweet red bean bread again.

“Huh.”

“Eating only bread is bad for your health…”

He looks at Tae Ho worriedly. Feelings of wanting to help and love are intertwined and resonate. My heart is pounding, and I want love again and again. Then. If you can’t love me

Can’t I just give you love?

Cheeks slightly reddened I don’t know.

“Thank you for your concern.”

Taeho shoves the bread into his mouth.

“Hmm, um, Taeho…”

“Hmm?”

“My lunch box… Do you want to eat it together?”

The mouth opens by itself. Go, I want to eat with you! I want to share a lunchbox with Taeho. I want to feed him the lunch box I made, no, made with Arin. Because I want Taeho to be healthy. Together… No.

I.

I want to feed you.

“Nuh, eup, whoa… What?”

Tae-ho is confused. That, right? Is it natural to be upset?

“No, that uhm… Hey Taeho, we’re ‘friends’ ah… Even if we eat together, uhh… Uhhhhh…!”

Taeho looks at me. My face turns red, and the fever rises. When I realized what I had said, an indescribable feeling of shame came over me. He stomps his feet and catches his beating heart.

“Are you okay.”

Both eyes light up.

“Ugh, sssss, sssss, are you okay?”

Gee, are you really okay? Is it okay if I… Feed him? A faint smile forms on his lips. His hands tremble at the beat of his heart. Hey, I have a girlfriend…! Is it okay to do something like this…?! I hurriedly pick up a piece of tteokbokki with my chopsticks.

“That, that, that, that… Umm, umm…”

Feed me, my, I… If you feed me…!

“Um, uh, uh… I, that, eat, uh… Uhh!”

“What?”

“That, hmm, uh, ah, no!”

‘Yeah, I don’t think it will work…!’

“Mi, my wife, I’ll go first?”

Trembling hands. The tteokbokki falls to the floor. The vision is bathed in light. Couldn’t be restrained Hey, I have a girlfriend…! Obsessed with greed, I did things to Taeho that I would have done with a boyfriend! Not even a boyfriend!

‘What if Tae-Ho doesn’t like it…?’

I’m embarrassed.

“Uh, huh?”

“Yes, I have a girlfriend…!”

“What?”

“Oh no! I’m going!”

Dig-

Run away home Do something stupid…!

“Ugh… Ba, fool, fool, fool…!”

To somehow forget my shame, I dive into the bed. As it is, Dongdong stamps his feet and struggles.

“Why, why did you say that…!!”

I have a girlfriend why! Why would you say that…! Wow, that’s weird… Me, I’m not even a girlfriend!

With her face buried in the pillow, she rolls around.

“Ugh, uhhhhh…!”

I can’t help but see your face I don’t have the confidence to go back to the academy again. Boo, you must think it’s strange, right? You’ll think it’s weird Seriously… Oops, fool, fool, fool…!

A text comes, but I try to ignore it. No, turn off the power altogether.

“Huh…”

My, tomorrow’s academy… Can I go?

Ugh…

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Did not go.

I did that to someone who had a girlfriend, so I didn’t even leave the room, let alone the academy, out of shame. Arin kept asking me what was going on, and she just evaded that she was not feeling well.

Later, the academy was half-destroyed because of retired knight Chun Soo-ah. When I heard that Taeho blocked it. I thought her heart would break. She kept asking me on the phone if I was hurt or if I was okay. Feeling guilty, she vowed not to run away.

“Ha…”

When I went to the mart to run errands. I met Taeho. Just like her sister.

Taeho’s younger sister and… I get along better than I imagined. She babbled, unaware of the passage of time. After she returned home, she spoke to Taeho on the phone. Let’s play at the amusement park together in a week.

In part, time was pushed back. Because it’s the birthday party for the daughter of the chairman of Sungkwang Group. Looking for a discount She didn’t want to burden her. One failure is enough. Just, she was trying to focus on now.

Enjoy crazy bumper car racing. Eating hamburgers together… I came to my senses before I knew it. Taeho and I are riding a duck boat together. When she came to her senses, she was playing with Han Ye-rin at the game room.

‘Han Ye-ri…’

It was a sudden intrusion. She sticks right next to Taihu – making her magic ceremony. She said that there are many eyes around her, and recklessly rushed to ask her to do it if she wanted to. She didn’t do anything

“Is this… A black card?”

I glance at Taeho. She is admiring the black card. She honestly surprised me too. I’ve only been told she’s a black card. Because this is the first time I’ve actually experienced it.

It is certain that Han Ye-rin hates me. Because she would turn on the light in her eyes and stare at her as soon as she approached Tae-ho. But, she’s just staring. She doesn’t bother me I’m honestly embarrassed.

‘You need this? Please wait.’

If you need anything, bring it right away and help with everything with a smirk. Again, I feel burdened. Are you doing it out of concern for Taeho’s gaze? I don’t know.

“There will be a parade soon.”

It’s already 6:00 PM.

Han Ye-rin looks at Tae-ho and smiles. When she glared at Han Ye-rin, she scratched my insides with an expression of what to do.

‘Today… I thought we were going to play together…!’

When Han Ye-rin suddenly intervenes, she is very embarrassed. I also look at Taeho with a smile. Han Ye-rin is glaring at me. Do you think Han Ye-rin likes Tae-ho too?

‘I can’t stay still like this.’

Han Ye-rin chews on what she said. Can’t you stay still?

Slowly stick to Taeho.

“Tae-ho. Look over there. The parade is starting…”

Han Ye-rin’s eyes light up. Come on, no way… Really?

Do you really like Tae Ho?

Both of her eyes light up.

“Oh…”

“Let’s go quickly, puppy.”

At the same time as Han Ye-rin, he grabs Tae-ho’s wrist. Ugh, on the subject of treating Taeho as a dog… Do you like Taeho? No, do you love me? I can’t believe it…

‘Ugh…’
‘Eww…’

Judging by the atmosphere, it seems right. Gritting my teeth, I glared at Han Ye-rin next to Tae-ho. Sparks fly when our eyes meet.

Taeho is… Mine.

No, he has a girlfriend, but… Ugh… My, I’m next to my girlfriend!

I won’t let Han Ye-rin take it away.

He dragged Tae-ho forward and did not let go of the tension. Who are you, arm in arm with Taeho? This… Is something only I can do…

‘Yeah, except for my girlfriend…’

It’s something only I can do!

…On the topic of female cats.

“Wow…”

Tae-ho admires it. I hurriedly loosen my expression and look straight ahead. A long line. It’s a parade Some people are out on the roadside filming the parade. Then.

Rattle.

“Huh?”
“…Yes?”
“Hmm?”

The three look down at the same time. For a moment…

The cells of the whole body resonate.

“…Fuck!”

Tae-ho comes out and carries Han Ye-rin on his back and leaves the seat. The field of vision begins to narrow rapidly. I can’t see anything. Only ‘it’ hidden under that manhole is out of sight.

“Ugh, uh, go, puppy!?”
“Ahhh…”

At the same time.

Kuguagaga River-!!

Manholes soar into the sky like cannonballs.

“Ugh, ah, ugh… Ah… Ah…”

Dark.

I can’t see anything. All I see is a monster.

All my nerves, will, thoughts, and ego are focused on that ‘monster’. No, not exactly-

“Ugh… Eh, uh… Uhh…”

To the ‘grey-white flesh’ inside the body. All will is taken away. Ah, i’m sure that monster. Why did that humanoid monster come here? Only one.

Fusion.

“Hey, hey, a humanoid!?”
“Humanoid! Fuck humanoid! Who, who…!”
“Eh, run away, damn it!!”
“Ahh… Ah, ah… Ah…”
“Where is the knight, ki, knight…!”
“Call, why can’t I…!”

Screams are muffled. He tries to use magic by moving his body somehow, but he doesn’t even move. All wills refuse to kill that monster. Even with all your might, it is impossible. The cock hiding under the flesh takes my mind. I feel like I’m going to pass out just like that, mixed with fear and excitement.

If you continue like this, you will be fused. Everything is put together and eaten by that monster.

Resist desperately If it is eaten as it is, the ego resets. It’s no different from that monster. No, that monster completely takes shape, and everyone dies as it is.

Extreme fear.

“Whoops, whoops, whoops… Whoops, whoops…”

Face turns red All I can do now is cover my face with both arms. I feel like I’m going to lose my mind I resist the monster with all my might. The monster looks this way. Even if you don’t see it, you can feel it. Clearly, very clearly, he desires fusion with me.

A magic stone stronger than me. However, instability. If eaten, it’s over.

Eyes meet with the monster.

Ah.

The mind is driven to the point of collapsing. He clenched his teeth and barely endured it. My whole body desires it intensely, longing to become one with that monster. Unite, may the ego disappear. Wanting endlessly An overwhelming wave of instinct. Get eaten by the waves

There is only one way left for me.

You have to run away. Attack is also impossible. If you stay still like this…!

No resistance whatsoever

Get eaten

Light rushes all over the body.

“Hey, hey, hey…!”

Dig-!

Light bursts

The scenery changes.

As soon as he gets home, he collapses. The resonating cells are slowly dying.

“Ha… Ha… Ha…”

In front of such a strong monster, he ran away. Everyone is in danger of dying, only me. Ran away As the waves subside, another wave hits me. Crawling on the ground as it is, sobbing.

“Don’t run away…”

I said I wouldn’t

Ran away The pride of a knight, the friendship of a friend. All of them ran away

Run and run, all I have left is despair.

Even if I wipe the flowing tears again and again, it does not stop. I’m sorry and I’m sorry again, even if I squeeze my chest. It doesn’t stop. Flowing and flowing tears run away from me, even if they run away and run away again. Tears flow endlessly, they don’t stop.

The mind is driven to the end.

When combined, everyone dies. However, even if you run away… The result will be.

Ah.

Ah…

“Huh, uhhh, uhhh… Ah…”

Even if he returned, he could not attack, and all his will was deprived. Only fused. Incompetent, unable to do anything.

You gave me hope

I am giving you despair

It breaks my heart. Moan in pain Even so, I despair at the reality that I can’t do anything. Even so, even so… I can’t help but do something.

Pick up your cell phone and call It’s fed up. It works but it doesn’t Again, despair. Grinding his teeth, he ran out into the street, took a coin, and called the public phone to inform the driver of the current situation. Notify the police too.

The only answer that comes back is ‘don’t talk bullshit’. Still called. Keep going until you hear me say yes.

To give you any strength.

Continue.

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Tae-ho was seriously injured.

My whole body is broken, and it’s dangerous.

I ran right away without looking back.

Run away, sorry I just said I was sorry and fixed Taeho’s body. That’s the best I can do right now.

Full body.

The whole body is a rag to the extent that it is doubtful how he is alive. Still, no matter how many hours it takes, keep going. He stayed by Tae-ho and treated his body.

Sobbing, I felt sorry for Taeho. Keep talking I’m sorry. I’m sorry. Continue.

My mind was driven to the end and I repeated the return.

The guilt of driving a loved one to the brink of death consumed me.

After returning home, I stayed in my room for a while. I don’t answer all the incoming calls, and I’m alone in the corner of the bed. Didn’t do anything.

It’s clear that Tae-ho hates me.

Because I’m sure you’ll hate me for running away with your friend in front of you. Clinging to the body. Don’t come out of the room

“Seo, Seol-ah?

Arin sticks close to me.

“Mi-I’m sorry… I’m sorry…”

“No no no Seol-a! No, it’s okay?! Isn’t that why you ran away for a reason? I don’t really care…”

“No… Ugh, heh, Mi, I’m sorry… I was wrong-“

“Seol-ah! Seo-Seol-ah, you know what? Tae-ho wants to see you?”

“Uh, huh…?”

‘Uh, why…?’

I wipe the tears that trickle down with the back of my hand.

“Look at this! They said they miss Taeho. Shouldn’t you just explain why and why you ran away?! I’m really worried about Seol-ah… I can rely on you when things get tough… Huh? I don’t get angry…!”

Arin holds her cell phone at me. Text record. Taeho and Arin are talking about me in a really worried tone.

“Why, why are you doing this…? I-I ran away…!”

I wanted to be your best friend

It’s your best friend’s disqualification. I ran away…!

“I’m worried because you ran away.”

“Ah, huh…?”

“Seol-Ah isn’t someone who would run away from that situation, right? But since she ran away, there’s no way she wouldn’t be worried! Now, Seol-A? Seol-A!? !”

“Eww…”

“You’ve been very close with Taeho. As much as you’ve been close with Taeho, Taeho is also worried about you. So, if something happens, tell your friend. If you make a blank paper, they say it’s over, right?”

“…”

“Uh, so should I say Seol-ah…? Are you taking a break? When you calm down… Please come back. I’m really worried about you…”

Arin falls from her side. She gets up and goes out of the room.

‘Tae, Taeho wants to see me…?’

Also, are you worried about me?

They fought so fiercely that their bodies were in ruins, but they couldn’t get angry. Are you worried about me?

“How…”

How nice.

…I can’t stand still. You can’t worry your friends. Both Taeho and Arin.

If so, there is only one way left for me.

Telling the truth.

Forcibly build up the mind that was driven into a predicament.

Take heart

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Can’t reach

Obsessed with the thought of not being forgiven, even if I see Taeho. Hiding behind him, he sits on a bench and sighs, only rolling his feet. Then.

“…You have to stand.”

“Huh!? Uh, Tae, Tae-ho…”

Tae Ho is approaching. The guilt of hitting the critical point immediately moves the mouth on its own.

“Mi-I’m sorry… Oops, if I ran away then, it’s too bad… Hehe…”

“Are you okay.”

“…Yes?”

…Are you okay?

‘Wait, how good are you…?!’

My heart is pounding.

“Are you okay? The condition is not a word…”

Tae-ho is worried. Seriously too. My heart is beating wildly. Really, it worries me. Even if you’re angry, it’s not enough. Worried about me My hands tremble with the guilt of turning such a kind person into a bouncer. Don’t blame me

Only worry

The beating doesn’t stop.

“I-I’m fine… Taeho. You don’t care…? I, too, ran away…”

“…Are you okay.”

“…I’m sorry.”

Seriously.

It’s okay, reassure me.

Are sincerely sorry for me Seeing that, he catches her heart. Like Arin Ichi, you have to confront him head-on. Because that’s the only way to explain the situation. With Dad… I’ve already finished the conversation. It’s okay. It’s good to talk… He said.

“So, why is this…”

“…Tae-ho.”

“Huh?”

Wiggle your fingers Now it’s your turn to decide. He raises his head and meets Tae-ho’s gaze.

“After school today… Is there any time?”