Chapter 156 – Bruises

That’s not enough.

Two days passed.

It’s not enough to stick close to you, because you’ve been so far away from Taeho… This alone isn’t enough.

I’m not relieved even if I’m by your side. I need a little more, a little bigger. Locking them in the basement of my house… No, no… Then, then Taeho will suffer. I don’t want to see Taeho struggling. I don’t want to threaten you now, so I’m forcing it… But it’s impossible.

I’m afraid I’m going crazy

When my girlfriend comes back… Everything is over. Don’t want to fall Like my heart… I want to be by your side for the rest of my life.

“Ha…”

Class time.

The sound of the clock ticking by. I hold Taeho’s hand tightly with my left hand, but it doesn’t fall off. Still anxious Looking at Tae-ho, he is fiddling with his bag.

My heart is beating fast as I hold his hand. Happy. But anxious Even though he knows full well that running away is impossible as long as he catches and threatens his girlfriend. After all, I can’t kill my girlfriend, so when I come back, everything is over.

Tick ​​tock like that second hand on a clock. The indescribable anxiety never ceases.

It’s not just this that worries me.

Taeho, who had been forced to smile until just yesterday, hardened his expression again. Expressionless even if they cling to you, expressionless no matter what you do. Just like the last time, I’m on the verge of going crazy with an unresponsive figure.

Even if they cling to each other, they just say ‘Please don’t do this’ without saying anything.

After class, I run to the bathroom for a while.

Even though I’m by your side, I’m still anxious. When that happens, I always bring things out.

“Wow…”

I look at the artifact Taeho returned. I carefully read the text I had with Taeho.

Over and over again… Over and over again, over and over again.

“Rather… I rather liked this time.”

The happiest time since entering the academy. Warms my heart again As I am sensitive to Taeho’s every single action, his unique ‘suffering’ expression is no different from rat poison.

“I don’t want to see Taeho’s painful figure…”

It feels like there’s a hole in my chest. Not satisfied What I wanted… It’s not like this.

We wanted each other to laugh, to be happy with each other, and to love each other. It’s just painful. Just holding out for a while now.

“I just wanted to love you…”

I just chose the lesser evil than the worst.

…If you can’t win Taeho’s heart for the rest of your life. It’s a desperate attempt to physically get closer. Yeah, this is just a joke But… That outburst made Taeho suffer. I feel like my heart will be torn apart, so every day is painful. But still.

Because it’s better than falling again like that time.

“There is no other way than this…”

‘I was scared for a moment… But, since Taeho is back, I’ll say it again. Don’t touch it, because if you do, the Null Group and you will be burned together.’

Last night, the witch called me and threatened me. Her forgotten fears are crushed. Completely fed up, but not backing down. Of course, I didn’t back down either.

‘Do you think I’m joking too? If you even lift a finger… I’ll spread it all, all. I recommend that you do not open your mouth. I will regret it for the rest of my life.’

Even if Lee Je-ga backed off, Seol-ah Han constantly bit me and confuses me. It’s because they say that they will eradicate null groups in Korea casually.

This guy also feels how sincere he is towards Taeho. A tough opponent

Anxiety that you might be taken away by a competitor.

Anxiety about not knowing when your girlfriend will come back.

Insecurity in the relationship itself.

Anxiety overlaps and overlaps like layers and rolls like a snowball.

I take a deep breath, step out of the bathroom, and find Taeho waiting nearby.

If you stay away this long… You can run away. Be sure to stick by my side.

Even though I love you so much, I can’t get your heart for the rest of my life.

Even like this.

“…Tae-ho.”

As I forced myself to smile and sighed next to her, I naturally tried to push me away.

“Don’t push me away. Girlfriend, if you don’t want to see me die.”

Taeho hesitates, then puts her hand down. She looks at me from the front and purses her lips.

“…Now, can we stop?”

“Yes?”

At the first defiance I heard after the threat.

My expression is distorted like an idiot, in bewilderment.

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Finish it today

A cold sweat runs down your forehead.

Being nervous is one thing.

In the end, one goal.

Overall reduction of Han Ye-rin’s sudden behavior and aggression. Nothing but this

I know that her mind is focused on the edge. So, she knows all too well that her stimuli are to be avoided. If you think of common sense, it would be good for your girlfriend’s comfort and for your mental health to listen to her without touching her… But it can’t be like this forever.

I feel it instinctively. You can’t run away from Han Ye-rin. If he had to, he would join the detached unit, but it was impossible to get out of it as long as he was in the academy. He’ll probably try to stay by your side at all costs.

If so, you should be safe, at least for that period.

“I beg your pardon?”

Han Ye-rin forcibly clings to my arm with her arms crossed. I get goosebumps by itself, but I try to ignore it.

“Literally. Enough-“

“Mmm, stop. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.”

Han Ye-rin is embarrassed and covers my mouth with her hand. She’s a little tight so it’s hard to breathe. Han Ye-rin, who has barely relaxed her hands, bites her thumb nails carefully with an anxious expression on her face.

‘I’m really scared to death, really, fuck…’

It’s a gamble. If you fail, there is no turning back. It only makes me more desperate and anxious, but the cold sweat doesn’t stop.

“It’s lunchtime now, so let’s eat together. Don’t think about leaving.”

“…”

All you have to do is pop it in the middle. She only needs to amplify her anxiety that she might fall again, throw her into despair, and throw her solution at the end.

‘… Taeho. What are you looking for? No, it’s in Ijega… But you’re trying to use it on me?!’

…I got something from senior Socheon. At a price that makes you dizzy just by hearing it, it’s such an expensive item that she thought about quitting for a while. It’s in my bag now. And… The other one. Two items are enough.

“Taeho liked chicken breast. He studied hard… Please. Please don’t skip it.”

Han Ye-rin cries a little and she looks at me. When she opens the lunch box, various kinds of food come out.

“First of all, think while eating. Yes?”

She smiles awkwardly and holds a piece of chicken breast to her lips. She puts the fork away, slowly. Refuse again and again

“No it’s okay.”

Han Ye-rin makes an expression full of despair.

Wait a bit bitch

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“Haha…”

To have a headache.

It’s time for a funeral.

For the first time.

Despite threats, he refused me.

This fact was enough to drive me crazy. Even after threatening me like that… Ah. Did you hear that you don’t intend to kill? All sorts of thoughts overflow and mess up your brain.

It is the first time in my life that I have had such an uncomfortable meal. Even though he hurriedly emptied his lunchbox and stayed by Taeho’s side from beginning to end. Anxiety did not dissipate in the slightest.

‘…Can I stop now?’

Those words keep ringing in my ears. In a relationship that is endlessly unstable even though you are holding on strongly. I keep looking at Taeho’s expression.

Wouldn’t it be far away again?

I hate it as much as that.

Never, never, never, never, never, never Even if I die, I won’t fall. Not as much as that Never, no… I will stay by Taeho’s side. Love, I love you… I don’t want to leave… But I’m anxious. I’m afraid I’m going crazy

Just one word.

The fact that the threat didn’t work properly, I think I’m going to lose my mind. Just like that, I think I’m going to die.

The feeling of getting farther and farther away. This feeling drives me crazy.

After the closing time, the students stand up one by one and go home. Let’s try to stand up along with Taeho.

In anxiety, I hurriedly clamped my hand tightly. Strong enough to hurt.

“Now, wait…”

“Cow, don’t let go of my hand. I can’t.”

Tae-ho tries to let go. No, no. No way…

Always, always have to stick by your side. To fall off? Tea, rather kill me. Won’t fall Keep going like this-

Here it will be…

After the closing ceremony, the students stand up one by one and leave the classroom. As Tae-ho tries to stand up, he forces him to sit down and whispers in his ear while looking at him with desperate eyes.

“…Don’t move.”

Girlfriend, I’m going to kill you.

Never move

Taeho swallows dry saliva and meets his eyes. No, no… Don’t move.

This time, Tae-ho sat quietly in his seat, as if his sincerity had been communicated. Waiting for all students to leave. Soon after, the professor leaves the classroom and the academy becomes hostile. Taeho, who had kept his mouth shut, looked at me. Rising tension. At that time.

“Han Yerin.”

“Yes?”

“Stop, let go.”

Taeho forcibly untied his hands.

Ah.

Even though my hands were only loosened, a soggy despair obscured my vision. My heart beats like a drum, making a hum. Tae-ho, who is about to stand up and leave the classroom, feels far away.

This relationship cannot be maintained. In this way, it can never be maintained.

Now, this method doesn’t work. Let’s realize that…

The mind that was driven to the end is broken little by little.

Ah.

No.

Go back to then

“…Tae, is it Taeho?”

“…”

Tae-ho shakes his wrist and gradually moves away from me. No, no. Please don’t…

An empty classroom after school.

He forcibly grabs Taeho’s wrist.

Anxiety that it might disappear forever.

This insecurity drives the mind to the edge.

“Taeho, don’t go back home. Don’t go back, stay by my side. If you move… I’ll really, really, kill my girlfriend…!”

The tears that seemed like they were going to spill any moment made my vision blurry. My ears keep buzzing. Her body is drenched in cold sweat.

I think my heart will be broken

It doesn’t work.

Keep getting farther away

The feeling of losing everything. Only despair greets me. Taeho is getting farther away no matter what. No, no, I don’t want to be further away from you. If you miss it here, get away for life.

“Now stop threatening me.

Heart breaks

Taeho looks at me. Eyes meet each other. At the same time.

The emotions that were kept in his heart explode all at once.

“I know too…!”

“I know…! Taeho. I hate you when you do this… I know everything, everything…!”

“I still can’t stop. Even if I know I shouldn’t be like this. I can’t stop…”

“If you don’t do this, you’ll leave. To you, I’m a villainess, a crazy bitch, and trash you don’t want to be around.”

“That’s why I’m afraid. I’m so afraid. You can call me selfish. But still…”

“I love you as much as I am selfish.”

“I love you more than anyone else, as much as I am selfish. Now without you… If you disappear. I can’t stand it.”

“Every day without you is painful like crazy.”

“As much as I love you, because you hate me.

“Because I can’t get your heart even if I die.”

“No matter-no matter what happens. Because you can’t love me. This is only me- ‘half love’.”

“So, you can’t stop threatening. I don’t want to either…! The more I do, the more you suffer. Taeho.

“But I can’t stop. If I stop, you’ll leave me forever. So, I can’t stop this much. Compared to parting, this kind of pain is nothing.”

“Taeho. I love you…”

“Because I love you and I love you again…”

“Sorry.”

“Because I love you… I’m so sorry…”

“I’m so sorry… I’m sorry…”

“It’s okay if you don’t accept it. Just this one is all you need.”

“Let me be by your side.”

“…A little more.”

“Beside you.”

Just that.

It would be nice if I could be by your side.

With his head buried in Taeho’s arms, he sobs like an idiot. Please… Please let me stay by your side. I can’t stop. I love you, I’m sorry No, like that, I hate it so much, reject it, reject it… I have no intention of stopping.

‘Cause if you stop, you’ll leave

No… No, never.

As I sob and wet Taeho’s school uniform with tears, my hand is placed on top of her head.

“Huuuuu”

“…Okay.”

Taeho strokes my hair. As if determined, he looks down at me.

“I’ll keep you by my side.”

“…Yes?”

Eyes wide open. The shivering shoulders subside, and the sloppy tears stop in an instant. What did I, what did I hear?

It slowly falls from the tear-stained shirt. I can’t believe it, I ask again.

“…What, what?”

“I’ll be by your side.”

Did I hear it wrong?

“You want me to… Stay by your side?”

“Huh.”

This, this… It’s a dream, right?

It is not explained unless it is a dream. Until just now, please stop, stop, no…

“I’ll stay by your side. Now, I won’t even avoid you.”

“That’s a lie? Now, don’t play around… On purpose, on purpose…”

My heart is pounding. Just a few minutes ago, I was floundering in an abyss full of despair… But now it’s completely different. His expression is relieved by just saying that he will be by my side. Breathing becomes rough with rising emotions.

“No, I mean it.”

“Yes yes?”

“However, there are conditions.”

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My heart beats. I can’t control my beating heart. What, what… Why? Tae-ho, Tae-ho. To stay by my side…

He said there are conditions.

‘It’s probably good.’

As long as I can be by Taeho’s side, that’s fine. As long as I can continue to be by your side, I don’t mind anything. Everything… Everything doesn’t matter.

I would even sell my soul if I could stay by your side.

Open the familiar door and go inside. The place where I had sex with Taeho whenever I had a chance. The far end of the mansion. The subtle scent stimulates the lungs.

Tae-ho sits on the bed with his bag in one hand.

“…Han Ye-rin. I’ll tell you directly.”

Then, in the bag.

Get out the dog leash and the vulva stamp.

“Be my dog. Then, I’ll stay by your side.”

Ah.

Ah…

The heart that was drowning in joy cools down. More than that, a sticky feeling swirled in her chest. To be a dog?

Now, not the owner… Be the dog?

Humiliated and desperate

A bright red dog leash is waiting for me. Ah… It doesn’t matter already lost everything Taeho’s heart, nothing, nothing left. I don’t want to be further away If the vulva is stuck, there is no turning back. Ahh… Belonging. Is attributable

I belong to Taeho.

The uneasy relationship is back to a master-servant relationship. Also, I’m a slave and Tae-ho is the master…

In an inverted relationship.

“Haha…”

Kneel down slowly.

“If only I could be by your side like this… Hal, Crab…”

I am a puppy

Your… Puppy.

“I’m sorry, ha…”

As I put the bright red dog collar around my neck, the insufficiency and anxiety that had been bothering me for a while disappear like cotton candy drowned in water.

Slowly raise your head and look at the master.

“…Bruise.”