Chapter 185 – My Senior

After a commotion, Class time.

He held on to his heart that was about to explode and calmed his rough breath.

“Ha ha… Ha… Whoa…”

When a senior kicks two male students out of the auditorium. When she kept me in the air. When you calm me down in a panic. When you do everything perfectly without panicking. All of those actions and appearances keep lingering in my mind. It feels completely different from when I think of Joo Hyuk.

A little thicker, sticky, and dense feeling.

The senior pushes Joo-hyeok out of his chest, and it keeps getting bigger and bigger. He is pushing Joo-hyeok, who occupied the center, into the corner by growing in size and growing to the point of far away. Before long, the senior reaches the ceiling.

‘No, no no…! I, originally, like Joo Hyuk…’

Turn one’s head left and right the person closest to me. Joo Hyuk, I like Joo Hyuk…! Strange.

Weird.

Whenever I think of seniors, the most intense emotions keep knocking on my heart.

“…I’m not sure. Now, I’m not sure…”

For me, the best has always been Joo Hyuk. He’s the only one who gave me hope. Even when it’s dangerous. Even in difficult times, he was always by my side to protect me. Virtually all of life.

My love too my mind too. My body too.

Everything belongs to Joo Hyuk. I don’t know if Joo Hyuk loves me or even likes me. At least to the extent that I think Joo Hyuk is everything in my life. I love him he loves…

Gradually, that feeling fades.

Painted in different colors

Covered by other ties.

To the senior.

Pass over

Fall out melt away blow up My heart beats.

‘I, I originally like Joo Hyuk…!’

It becomes different.

“…”

Tick ​​tock.

The clock hands are moving. The professor’s words are drowned out by a hum and I can’t hear a single word. Strongly, the two collide. My desire for Joo-hyeok and my desire for a senior are fighting, but I can’t focus on studying.

‘I… I… Love Joo Hyuk…!’

I like it, I love it, I adore it, I adore it, and the one I love most, most, and most is Joo Hyuk…! Why, why are you doing this? What the heck, why… Seriously, I like senpai too, but… But still. I like Joo Hyuk the most… He’s the most precious…

Glance.

Eyes are felt

“…”

With his head down, he stared at his major books without hesitation. Raise your face slowly. Joo Hyuk was hoping for this.

“…Sobbing.”

I instinctively turn my head.

When our eyes meet once, my heart beats. But.

As much as when he thought of his senior, he didn’t pound as loudly.

Not a thump like it would explode, but a weak vibration.

It stayed just like that.

“…Ah.”

Let’s catch our breath

The break time bell strikes.

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It will be fine.

It will be fine.

I pick up my cell phone and call Seok Joo-hyeok. It’s just rain I’m just a passing relationship for a while.

It’s just nonsense because I’m out of my mind. What? Well? No no. It should be no.

– Why, senior?
– Try it next break
– You like it?
– Blanket

Oh I don’t know

Okay. Run it once Still, since entering the academy, he has always been by my side. There’s no way that would happen just because I intervened.

…Couldn’t it be?

Now I think I know why Seol-ah kept trying to drop it.

Now I just pray.

Please accept my confession, I just pray.

Tick ​​tock.

The second hand flows.

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Break time after class.

I find my senior from afar.

Just looking at the senior makes her heart flutter. Now it’s hard to even make proper eye contact, it’s like I’m going to take my breath away just being nearby. Like a kind of stun state, the whole body freezes on the spot.

“…Haaaaa.”

Banging her chest with her fist. Feeling a little better.

As I was wandering the hallway without thinking, sweeping my chest with the palm of my hand, Joo-hyeok appeared from the side.

“What are you doing here? Siyoon.”

Eyes meet. My heart beats the same as my senior, but… I’m weak. I… I like Joo Hyuk. Weak. Weakened has become weak

Weird.

“Uh, huh? No, I’m not doing anything…”

Laughing awkwardly, no, forcing a smile and covering it up. Suh, I can’t say I was looking at senpai…!

“Is something wrong? Her face is kind of red.”

“No no no…! Nothing, that, nothing…”

“Then do you have a minute?”

“Uh, huh? Uh huh…”

I nod clumsily, and Ju-hyeok grabs my wrist. He was startled for a moment, but his shoulders shrunk.

‘…Uh?’

The heart that was pounding as usual goes somewhere, and only silence is full.

‘Uh… Huh? Uh?’

At least this time, it’s normal to be pounding.

There is no feeling. It’s just quiet.

“Can you follow me for a minute? I have something to tell you.”

Joo Hyuk looks at me as if he has made up his mind. He answers with an awkward nod of his head.

“Ah, uh, uh…”

Joo Hyuk grabs his wrist and drags me out of the building. Weird. It’s normal to at least avoid eye contact, be thrilled, and have reddened cheeks.

There is no feeling.

‘No way, no way… No way… For real…?’

I, senior…

Do you love

“…”
“…”

A quiet academy flowerbed with no one around.

Joo-hyeok is watching me silently. My heart beats, albeit weakly. But not intense

“Siyoon-ah. Siyoon-ah… Well, that’s… Hah. Give me a moment to think about it.”

“Uh… Uh… Ugh.”

Ju-hyeok looks up at the sky, then at the flowers in the flower bed, then lowers his head and glares at Gabby crawling across the sidewalk block.

The mood to say something important.

My heart is pounding. A faint mixture of joy, excitement, and love spread throughout the body. Then, before long, Joo Hyuk looks at me with his head raised.

“…”
“…”

Eyes meet. Ju-hyeok’s cheeks are red, he just looks at me and doesn’t say anything.

“…Joo, Joo Hyuk?”

“Wait, wait…”

Joo Hyuk covers his eyes with his hands and screams in silence. What are you trying to say…? Heart palpitations gradually increase. That time when I was concentrating my whole mind on Joo Hyuk.

“…Siyoon.”

Joo Hyuk opened his lips.

“Oh, I’ve liked you for a long time. Would you… Go out with me?”

Both eyes light up.

But that’s it.

‘…?’

“…”

My heart is pounding, I am not overcome with happiness, I am not running wild with joy, My cheeks are red, I do not shed tears of joy, I do not embrace you and embrace you, I do not hold your hand to say thank you, I do not kiss you to say I love you. .

Only the enemy who sat down caresses his chest.

“…Strange.”

For sure.

It must have been the confession I wanted so much.

It would have been the situation I wished for the most.

It would have been the happiest, such a confession.

“Siyun-ah…?”

Why.

Will there be any feeling?

The pulse goes out He caresses his breasts with her hand. Amazingly quiet Strange. It’s weird… I don’t do this when I’m with my senior…

Senior.

As soon as she thinks of her senior, a spark flies in her head.

“…Ah♡”

A heart that was calm like a lake.

Start pounding again.

That too.

Increasingly.

Increasingly.

Hard, hard, fast, ferociously, wildly, loudly.

Thump thump.

My face, which had been cold and empty, turned bright red.

Legs that had been standing upright staggered with excitement.

The calm breath begins to gasp steeply.

“…Siyoon, Siyoon?”

Ah…

I see

I am.

Senior, I loved you.

“Sorry.”

“Uh… Uh? What?”

“I’ll refuse… I’ll do it.”

“…Uh?”

“I, I… I’m just, gloomy… I don’t think I’m going to get along with Joo Hyuk. Mi, I’m sorry…”

I forcibly grabbed her pounding chest and left the flower bed. I hear a voice calling from behind. Just hum Forget it.

I, I… I…

I…♡

I was in love with my senior.

I was in love. I fully realized this through my recent experience. When Joo Hyuk confessed to me. Because I had no feelings. I like seniors.

In my mind, Joo Hyuk completely withdraws. No more tug of war. Senior has won. No, senpai won from the beginning, but I just didn’t notice.

“Haha…”

All that was forced was the body. It was the body that attacked because it could not control its sexual desire. It was her body that lowered her head whenever she saw her senior. All, all because of the body. I thought it was because of the senior’s cock.

“…No.”

Before that, there was the gentleness of the senior, the trustworthiness of the senior, and the heart of the senior.

Not just the body.

Even the mind.

All fell for the senior.

“Haa… Whoa…”

The foreshadowing had been there before. When my senior helped me for the first time. From the time I felt relieved and all the way before that. Because every time I see you, my heart warms.

The feeling of being pulled up from the abyss of despair.

I always felt that way whenever I was by my senior’s side. When you’re by your senior’s side, you’re at peace. Being behind a senior is trustworthy. Being in front of a senior… Feels good.

Senior, good

Senior, I love you

Senior, I fell for it.

Senior…

Senior, senior, senior, senior, senior…♡

When I think of you, my heart feels like it will burst. I smile when I think of my seniors. A natural smile, different from the one Joo Hyuk showed in front of him. My head is completely filled with seniors.

My savior.

My hero.

My senior

“Ahhh…”

…Now.

Can’t do without seniors.

If you don’t have a senior…

If you hate me…

If seniors don’t like me…

Maybe commit suicide