Chapter 71 – Escapism

“Ha…”

A sigh comes out of nowhere. Fighting with words somehow ended up having sex. Dogs hate sex. She’s really just a little bit, but her guilt rises up in her chest. When she should have given her a carrot, she gave away the whip. Now is the time to be a little more self-respecting.

I think about what I said back then. Yeah, to be honest… Mostly bluff.

If that ‘picture’ spreads on the Internet-I can’t be sure if Jee-ga takes care of it and spreads it. No, people with the nameplate of the Null Group are basically getting the attention of the media.

The same goes for Iain. I don’t know what will happen if something happens. It is true that most media outlets are friendly with Lee Je-ga, but not all of them are like that.

“Whoa…”

Lie down on the bed and sigh deeply. Now all you have to do is get close to the dog and nothing else… It’s not easy.

If you are lying in bed and spending time without doing anything.

Ugh-

Cell phone rings.

– So when are we going to have sex?

Is a boyfriend

Ah… Yes, it was. I said I’d think about it after the artifact arrived. She completely forgot about it because she was having sex nonstop. A short sigh comes out.

– Later.

Send a text. I can’t now. Even if you do, you have to do it later. Because the dog is in pain.

– What?
– Do you do it later?

Woo-woo-woo- My phone vibrates. I got a call.

[Are you kidding me?]

My boyfriend asks in an annoyed tone.

“Let’s do it later. The puppy needs a little attention.”

Say over and over again Can not help it.

[What? Mr. Haa… Can’t you see that you’re at your limit now? I’m tired of the video now. And what? Nerve? Doesn’t your boyfriend care?]

…Nerve?

“…Huh.”

[What?]

“No.”

[Ha… That’s okay. So when are you going to do it?]

Think carefully. When do you do it

“When would you like to do it?”

[Tomorrow.]

What? Do you want to do it tomorrow?

“No.”

Puppies need rest, but tomorrow is hard.

[Ha…]
[Then two days later. It cannot be postponed any longer.]

Looking at the tone, it’s sincere. I’m going to say I hate that too… Manda. If you put it off any longer than this, it might really explode.

“Okay.”

Pop.

Hang up right away

“Ha…”

Now, when I see my boyfriend, my heart cools down and only ashes remain. Now… I don’t know. I feel like my boyfriend is getting smaller in my chest.

Love grows cold On the contrary, the puppy grows in the heart… Without rest.

Suddenly, her face turns red.

Burying her face in her pillow, she let out another deep sigh.

“Ha…”

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Fuck.

There was no chin for ‘masturbation’.

“Ha…”

Let out a sigh. I hoped, but I really didn’t know it wouldn’t work. The small hopes I had are shattered. Seol-ah doesn’t answer when I contact her, and when I approach her, she only blushes and avoids her. When this Arin sees me, she grabs her breasts and runs away, and Han Ye-rin is considerate of me to the point of being burdensome.

It feels like everything is twisted from one to ten.

Class time now. When I quietly rest my chin on her chin and listen to class, Han Ye-rin taps my arm.

“…Puppy.”

When she turned her head and looked at Han Ye-rin, she strangely twisted her body. Fuck. I don’t know why.

“Yes?”

“…No.”

Han Ye-rin turns her head. Her face is strangely flushed, and when she looks at me, she averts her gaze. Once again, Han Ye-rin touches her arm.

“Byeoldongdae, you said you wanted to go, right?”

Han Ye-rin hands me a notebook. What?

“Take it. It’s a notebook with only the essentials.”

She puts the notebook in my hand. Suddenly? Chararak- When I open the notebook, the letters filled with letters fill my eyes. A well-organized notebook that could be called obsession. Give this… Suddenly?

“No, why is this…”

“Just take it. I can help you with this much.”

Han Ye-rin smiles.

“If you want, you can just keep it.”

“Yes?”

What?

A cold sweat runs down your forehead. No, has Han Ye-rin ever helped me to this extent? No, do you have any plans? These days, even if I sing a song that’s so strange, it’s so strange, it’s over the limit.

Han Ye-rin meets her eyes. Those eyes are ‘seriously’. Yerin Han is really trying to help me!

I hurriedly pull out her phone and look at her calendar. Fuck it’s not April Fool’s Day yet? Is today the time of human extinction that the Mayans said? Scratching her head in embarrassment.

“I-I don’t really need it. It’s all already in my head, so don’t worry too much.”

No, I’m not worried…

“Oh, and take this too.”

Han Ye-rin takes something out of her pocket. A shiny thing… An artifact?

“You recently went to Ijega and did an awakening test, didn’t you?”
“Yes? How is that…”
“If you do it now, it’s a superpower, of course. Have you awakened?”

I nodded lightly.

“What ability is it?”

What ability is it? He, fuck… He hesitated and said nothing before opening his mouth.

“It’s a reserve ability.”
“Not bad. Take this.”

Han Ye-rin puts two artifacts in my hand. One is that 150 billion artifact… And the other one is unknown.

“It’s an artifact that raises ‘efficiency’ regardless of any psychic power.”
“Yes?”
“Get it. It will be useful.”

As she said that, she turned her head to look at her blackboard. I am dumbfounded. Why the fuck are you doing this all of a sudden Go through your notebook slowly. If you look closely… Every single thing I would have missed is highlighted with a highlighter and a red pen.

I open my notebook and compare. Mine is formidably dense, but the parts that are rarely missed are all filled in in the notebook Han Ye-rin gave me.

“Ummm…”

This should be more than enough to fill the gaps. It’s good, obviously, but it’s also a bit embarrassing. It is awkward. You didn’t do this in the first place. Ha. Let out a short sigh. If you sit still and listen to class… The bell rings.

Get up, let’s go to Seol-ah first. Running away feels the same as back then, feeling déjà vu.

When you go out to the hallway and search here and there for Seol-Ah… Ia-Rin approaches her. When she opens her mouth to ask what she’s looking for, she runs away.

Fuck… Why the hell are you doing this…

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I thought about it all day. She says she loves Taeho…

Is it worth it to me?

I thought about it all day long.

Like a nightmare, the words Han Ye-rin said stir her brain. A love as big as the bottom of a plate. A crazy bitch who leaves her boyfriend alone… No, ruins people and finds another love.

Looking back and thinking about the past, she only sees a self-assertive side. Even if you acknowledge the past and regret it, nothing comes back. Maybe this isn’t an escape from reality, she kept thinking. So, she tried to get closer to Tae-ho – to feel the ’emotion’.

“Ha…”

My heart reacts like an idiot. I can’t stand her blushing. I despise myself for spoiling a person and shamelessly switching to a new love. But, again and again… My heart is pounding.

A crazy bitch like me, a ‘crazy bitch’ who is more dangerous than anyone else in front of ‘love’.

Trying to fall in love again Dangerous thoughts keep knocking on my heart.

Take Taeho away from his ‘girlfriend’. Keeps beating me up I want to feel that feeling again, pushing me. But, I love to do it.

The weight of that sin is too heavy.

It’s like my mind is being torn apart. I can’t do anything and wander around. If that’s the case, at some point the lagoon will be caught in the blind spot. Even if you approach me like an idiot and say that you are truly sorry, even if you try to kneel down. Ignore me I’m just saying don’t do that.

Not forgiven should not be forgiven

It’s just a burden I’ll have to carry for the rest of my life. That’s it.

…Tae Ho.

Can I love you Do I have enough ‘value’ to love you?

You gave me pain too.

Sit down on the bench as if collapsing. I take out my phone and look at the picture. A blackmailing photo that was aimed at Han Ye-rin.

…This is the only picture I took. Look at Taeho’s expression in the picture. Even looking at his chin, his embarrassed expression and the sweat dripping down his forehead explain the whole situation.

At first, I had no idea. I saw nothing but sex. But, once you know. I am acutely aware of what I have been doing.

It’s just annoying. This. Taeho, I have a girlfriend.

It’s no different than rape.

Bow one’s head down

“Ha…”

Not worth it to me Han Ye-rin is not the only one whose relationship has fallen to the ground.

Because I am included.

I let out a long, deep sigh. Now I know everything Possibility… I don’t see it. But, still, over and over again.

The feeling of ‘love’ eats me up.

I can’t deny this feeling…

There’s nothing I can do now other than let out a deep sigh. I can’t erase this sin as I just live ‘roughly’ like an idiot. It should not be erased either.

I can’t change

“…Ah.”

No.

I do not know. Not yet.

At least now if you know I’m a ‘crazy bitch’.

It will be different

“…Ha.”

Know. That it couldn’t be easier said than done. Even though I’ve ‘failed’ all my life… But, forever and ever ‘overlapping’ everything in this way – never.

Because this isn’t something like that.

Get up slowly

Now, escapism is over.

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I found Seola!

Like last time, we had a confrontation at the library. This time, he stayed in the library and studied awkwardly. It is normal to feel the joy of studying together, but it is difficult to wake up to the suffocating air.

It is awkward.

“Ah, this can be solved like this…”

Seol-ah slowly teaches me the formula. A complicated magic formula appears on Seol-Ah’s hand, and she kindly informs the components of the magic ceremony one by one. The progress is faster than I thought, so I’m out of breath even though I’m following. And if your hands accidentally touch each other…

“Huh!? Heh!?”

He gets startled and falls from the side. Should I stand?

Going crazy. I must have done something wrong again… Fuck. I don’t know. No, why are you doing this! I ask why, but he just shakes his head and says it’s nothing. No income

No, I don’t think this is anything. If I keep going like this, I think I will die of frustration. We have to relieve this suffocating atmosphere somehow.

“Ah, stand up.”

“Yes…?”

Seol-ah smiles awkwardly and looks at me. When her eyes meet she immediately averts and wiggles her fingers.

“Where do you want to go to play later?”

She asks with a grin as best she can. I don’t know anything else, atmosphere, atmosphere! I need to ventilate first. Of course, it’s not just the two of us, but we’ll just go to the lagoon and go together.

“Uhh, uhh, uhhh… Uhh, don’t laugh…”

Seol-A hides her face in embarrassment. What?

“Don’t laugh?”

My face is stained with shock.

“When I smile… Yup, it keeps coming to mind…”

Seol-ah twists her body. Covering her face, she lowers her head to avoid her gaze. Shocking. Hey, don’t laugh?

Seol-ah slams her face into her desk. Wrap her arms around her head and thump her feet. What did I really do wrong?

Rolling her head here and there, nothing comes to mind. Driving me crazy.

“I-I’m sorry to have to-“

“Oh no…! I didn’t do anything wrong…”

Seol-ah shakes her hand.

“It’s just… Ugh… I’m weird…”

Then, she slowly raises her head.

“Do you want to finish studying…?”

Seol-ah smiles softly.

“Uh… Yes.”

Seol-ah awkwardly picks up her book and begins to tell her about her magical blood. After studying for about 20 minutes, Seol-ah opens her mouth.

“…Did you ask where to go to play?”

Both of her eyes light up. Are you saying you don’t want to go or something like that? I don’t really know what it is, but anyway, I did something wrong. No? Going crazy.

As much as Seol-ah, no matter what happens, she doesn’t want to lose.

Make eye contact with each other.

“Amusement park… How is it?”

“…Huh?”

Amusement Park?

“I… I’ve never been to an amusement park with ‘a friend’… This time, I really want to go with ‘two’…”

Wait for a sec.

“But you have to stand up… Someone you like-“

“Uh, uh huh?! Huh? Eh, there’s none!?”

As soon as my mouth drops, Seol-ah frantically shakes her hand. Looking at her face, she looks like a red tomato. Now that I know, how can I calm down?

Paper hits

“I’m leaving now…”

Seol-ah quickly gets up and leaves her seat.

Really.

I don’t even know

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Sound flows through the artifacts.

Puppy. Later… Going to an amusement park with a witch?

“…”

Also, you can’t stop it. This is how it feels to look beyond her friends and beyond. It’s like… Like a lover.

“Ummm…”

I slowly chewed over what the witch said. What? Going to an amusement park with just the two of you with your dog?

It’s not serious.

It’s like being attached to a dog, and how ambiguous it is to see her as a friend.

“Eww…”

My heart beats little by little. No, I can’t. Something has to be arranged. Did she go to the amusement park? Then… Just.

I’m in the middle too… Shall we play together?

Crazy idea. If I did, it would be natural for the witch to break my arm without blinking. No, wait.

Is it a public place? Can you break it Think carefully. Is there a wall for the witch to break her arm in public? No, no Even if there is, it cannot. A matter of survival? I also have a face value.

Unstable. I don’t know why. As the witch tries to approach the puppy as ‘more than a friend’, she is a little bit, but her heart aches.

…I want to block it.

Even if your arm is broken. Want to block

I want to be by the dog’s side.

“Ha…”

Iarin’s words ring in my ears. The dog just hates being around you.

No.

Even if the relationship is at the bottom, you can pick it up again. When she received the artifact she gave her this time, she saw the dog’s expression.

Surprised expression.

This is how you approach it step by step. Still, it’s not entirely out of the question.

…Maybe.