Chapter 48 – Those Two People Can’t Do That.

[By the way, Dain Adamas… Objectively speaking, she has a gorgeous face. I think it’s much prettier when I see it up close like this.]

[Ha, you have a shit body and a pretty face. Is it possible for him to shine like this even though he is in a vegetative state and has lost all his strength? Well, if it’s unfair, it’s unfair.]

Slurp.

[······You’re pretty even with your forehead covered.]

[The hair is so fluffy and smooth that even the feel of stroking it feels good…]

When Stay was intoxicated with excitement after causing Dain Adamas to faint and was saying things he didn’t need to say.

‘You’ve never done anything like that for me… You didn’t even tell me I was pretty or pat me on the head…!’

Mei Ruina, in the hospital room next to her, was trembling as she listened to Stay’s voice coming from her speaker.

In fact, because she was a vegetative state and couldn’t even move a finger of her own accord, Mei Ruina’s body wasn’t even trembling and was just quiet, but her spirit was clearly trembling.

‘Why are you only doing that to Dain Adamas? Why don’t you do that for me? Why? Why? What’s wrong? Why are you being unfair to me?’

Every time Mei Ruina heard the sound of Stay stroking Dain Adamas’ head through her speakers, she lost her mind and let out her tantrums.

The only person in the world who could hear her was Stay, but since Stay was in Dain Adamas’ hospital room, not hers, she was the only one who could hear her voice right now.

‘······.’

An empty sound that merely echoes in the darkness where no light enters.

The most terrible thing that May Ruina has experienced in the month since she became a vegetable.

That was an empty sound with no answer.

‘I really, really hate it. But she thought she wouldn’t be lonely now that she could hear Mr. Stay’s voice. She thought it would get better… Instead, I just feel more frustrated and angry.’

The pain that Mei Ruina felt from being alone before reuniting with Stay and the pain she felt from being alone after reuniting with Stay were completely different types of pain.

If the former was caused by the loneliness of being left alone in this world, the latter was caused by the loneliness of not having anyone by her side.

That’s why May Ruina couldn’t stop listening to Stay’s voice through the speakers, even though she felt like it was not sweet at all and that it was painful because it wasn’t directed at her. Br〉

Now that she has put away her speaker, saying that it is painful to hear Stay’s voice directed at another woman, she will also feel the loneliness of the former that she was able to erase.

‘If you put the speaker away because it’s hard, she’ll start imagining things. You will be able to imagine what kind of treatment Mr. Stay is giving to Mr. Mir Ryuin and Mr. Dain Adamas, and what kind of sweet words he is whispering in their ears while giving such treatment.’

And since such imaginations are often more exaggerated than reality, the best May Ruina can do is maintain the status quo.

‘I can’t ask you to remove the speaker… Still, if I hear Mr. Stay’s voice, if I have the delusion that that voice is actually directed at me, I won’t feel lonely.’

In other words, being distressed by Stay’s voice coming from the speakers was the best that May Ruina could do at the moment.

‘······And. I’m sure other people besides me have also asked for speakers. Because the day I receive treatment from Mr. Stay, other people will feel the same pain as me. When I think like that, I feel a little more at ease.’

Knowing that I am not the only one who suffers is often a great comfort and consolation to humans, who are social animals.

Mei Ruina thought that she was not the only one suffering like this, and even though she was in pain, she felt comforted as she listened to the sound of Stay stroking Dain Adamas’ head.

‘······No, isn’t it? Mr. Mir Ryuin, don’t you want to do that? Maybe she doesn’t? No, it’s much more likely that you won’t!’

But even for a moment, Mei Ruina felt uneasy for some reason at the thought that Mir Ryuin could be suffering while listening to her Stay’s voice.

‘Well, Mir Ryuin is not a sociable person like me and likes to be alone… Also, Mir Ryuin, who is called the master of magic, can’t possibly feel this way because of an ordinary person like Stay. There’s no reason, right?’

Mei Rui is actually the world’s best healing power and is the 3rd most awakened person in the world’s hero rankings who are praised and called a saint, but she thinks that she and the Miryuin of her same level do not feel the same way as she does.

‘Stay’s touch is definitely warm and soft, mischievous yet very kind, but I feel that way because it’s me, and there are differences from person to person, right? And why would Mr. Mir Ryuin feel that it is good to be touched by Mr. Stay, who is only an F-class awakened person and a debt collector? ‘It doesn’t make sense.’

She continued to list the reasons why Mir Ryuin would not feel special feelings for Stay, giving numerous reasons that came to mind.

It was an instinctive action to get rid of the anxiety that made her heart flutter as soon as she thought that Mir Ryuin might be feeling the same way.

She did something that I would never have thought of as someone who just said that she could find comfort when someone was suffering in the same situation.

Mei Rui didn’t bother to list the reasons why Mir Ryuin didn’t feel the same pain as she did.
Even she herself couldn’t figure out why she was doing this.

‘Is it so. It’s not anyone else, it’s Mir Ryuin, right? Mr. Stay gave Mr. Adamas a hug and hugged him tightly… And patted his head… And scratched! There is no way that you are suffering like this because of the enviable, or rather, special treatment that was not given to me. Is it so. That’s right, that can’t be right.’

These were the reasons why Mir Ryuin would not like her stay, even though she would not feel uncomfortable at all even if she were attached to him.

‘Never. Mir Ryuin can’t do that. ‘Never.’

However, Mei Ruina, who had no free time in her mind, did not recognize that fact, and she just repeated her thoughts that Mir Ryuin would not suffer like she did, without knowing why she was like this.

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‘······Yes, I feel unfair about Stay’s clear discriminatory treatment. When treating Dain Adamas, he gives me a sweet and warm hug, but when treating me, he just hits my butt so persistently. Of course, my breasts were also massaged… That doesn’t really matter. What’s important now is that Stay is discriminating against me, and I feel a great sense of injustice.’

Contrary to May Ruina’s wishes, Mir Ryuin was also frowning in real time at the sound of her Stay voice coming from her speaker.

Of course, because she was in a vegetative state, the actual Mir Ryuin’s eyebrows were not frowned, and she was just in a calm state. However, she felt that her eyebrows were frowning to the extent that she thought that her eyebrows were drawing three lines.

‘But May Rui I don’t think she will feel the pain of her injustice as I do. Because she’s a saint after all, right? She said that with all her image making and all, she still maintains the purity of a saint. Does Mei Ruina, who is so serious about protecting her nickname as a saint, feel as distressed as me by the discriminatory treatment of her only child, Stay? It doesn’t make sense.’

Mir Ryuin was thinking the same thing as Mei Ruina at the same time.

‘I’m the kind of person who needs to be thorough in even these things, so they inevitably didn’t do it for me… He only did it for Dain Adamas… Ha. What the. I’m still shocked. I only spank the butt and Dain Adamas hugs me tightly? Is it tight enough to fit your entire body? Are you sane? Does it make sense to discriminate so blatantly? No? It won’t work. That can’t be tolerated. Even if May Ruina tolerates it, I cannot. Okay, so on the next treatment day. When Stay comes to visit, I have to give him a warm shout-out. How can I wait two days? Do I have to endure the pain of Stay’s voice coming out of that speaker again tomorrow? I don’t like that. But I hate removing the speakers even more. It’s even more terrible. Ah, anyway, what was I going to say?’

As soon as she thought about the ‘full body hug’ she had given to Dain Adamas, Mir Ryuin got angry again and forgot what she was going to say and tried to let her anger boil over, but like the master of magic, she managed to control her emotions.

And then I continued with what I was thinking.

‘Yes, I am a person who inevitably feels unfair due to STAY’s discriminatory treatment, so I will make a protest at the next treatment date. Mei Rui I was going to say she wouldn’t do that. Because she is May Rui, and I am a saint. Because she is a saint with a high reputation, she would not feel this way toward Stay, who is only an F grade.’

With exactly the same thoughts as Mei Ruina, Mir Ryuin concluded that.

‘It’s clear. I’m being hugged by Stay right now… Phew. Dain Adamas, who is receiving treatment, just like May Ruina, will not feel the same discomfort as me when he hears Stay’s voice through the speakers tomorrow. She is a woman who lives alone in the world and has the ability to do so. You’re not even going to get speakers in the first place? It’s not anyone else, it’s Dain Adamas, right?’

The endless list of reasons to shake off her anxiety filled Mir Ryuin’s mental world.

However, no matter how many reasons he listed and denied that it would not happen, Mir Ryuin could not erase the feeling of anxiety that still remained in a corner of his heart.

Because the fact that she was feeling this way meant that there was a possibility that Mei Ruina and Dain Adamas, who were in the same class as her, were also feeling the same way.

‘Absolutely not. Those two people can’t do that. Yes, absolutely.’

However, it was obvious that if she acknowledged that fact, it would add to the pain of hearing Stay’s voice that was not directed to her coming from the speakers, as well as a clear anxiety that would never be resolved, so Mir Ryuin gritted her teeth and continued her denial.