Chapter 5 – As Expected, You Are Full of Thoughts of Revenge!

May Ruina, a saint with silver hair.

When touched by her fingertips, even her severed arms grow back, and her prayers can cure any disease.
A person with healing abilities who appears for the first time in hundreds of years and has the qualifications of a saint. That was May Ruina.

Therefore, when she revealed her own abilities to the world with the Holy See on her back, the whole world couldn’t help but go crazy.

Those with healing abilities were very precious even among the awakened, and the appearance of a saint with a different approach among those with precious healing abilities meant that the number of casualties could be greatly reduced.

Therefore, both inside and outside the Vatican, May Ruina was revered and respected by everyone and enjoyed everything she could as a saint.

Wealth, fame, power.

As a human being, May Ruina achieved all three of her life’s goals as soon as she began her career as a hero.

But she also had one big complaint that she couldn’t ignore.

That’s right.

Ugh! I feel like the corners of her mouth are going to cramp up. When will she be able to go home and rest?

As long as you have the name of a saint, you must live like a saint.

All of Mei Ruina’s accomplishments were achieved because she was a saint, so in order to maintain everything she had accumulated, she had to live as a saint.

In order to live as a saint, you must always maintain a gentle smile, show dignity in all your hand and foot gestures, and show mercy without showing your emotions even when faced with any irritating situation. Unless you are born with it, you must maintain a life that is bound to lead to mental illness. I did it.

In that respect, May Ruina could be said to be half-natural.

Because she was a natural actor.

Her image of the saint that the Vatican and the world wanted her to be was so clear, and her qualities as an actress were so outstanding that it was very easy for her to play the saint that the world wanted her to be.

However, no matter how talented you are at acting, in the end, acting inevitably consumes your acting and mental energy.

Ah. Ahhh! It’s annoying! Why, why do I have to live like this? My cheekbones and the corners of my mouth hurt from forcing myself to smile all day!

In the end, Mei Ruina’s patience gradually reached its limit.

Huh, no, no, Mei Ruina. I have to endure it. If there is even the slightest disruption, everything we have built so far will collapse.

However, despite this, Mei Ruina was a person who naturally chose the former when it came to ‘living as a saint and enjoying everything’ VS ‘living according to Mei Ruina’s nature and giving up everything she had achieved.’

Because, as much as she had natural talent, she also had a greater desire for material things, fame, and power than an ordinary person.

As her remaining mental strength reached its limit and her greed prevented her from letting go of what she had, she continued her hero life without being able to express any of her accumulated emotions.

On the half-year anniversary of her appearance as a hero, Mei Ruina suffered her first injury during her gate attack, as her mental strength reached its limit and her concentration also fell.

Although she was not seriously injured, she was poisoned by a type of poison that Mei Rui could not treat at the time, so she was quickly taken to the national public awakened emergency room.

And there, May Ruina met Stay.

Of all the people May Ruina has ever seen in her life, she works the hardest at the lowest position and has a literally ruined life.

She is a person who does not lose her dreams and stubbornly tries to survive as best she can despite the worst options, even in a life so desperate that it would not be strange at all to choose suicide.

That was Mei Ruina’s first impression of Stay.

If that person… If it’s that person, it’s definitely…!

Yes, that kind of Stay is the person May Ruina has been looking for.

If you have the will to survive even if your life is ruined like that, you definitely have the will to survive! There will be no problem at all if I use it as an emotional trash can!

It fit perfectly with the look of a person who would not have any problems even if he just used it.

Of course, she would have to use her money and power to completely silence her, but that wasn’t much.

Because she already had tens of thousands of times more money and power than everyone else had made her life’s goal.

In this way, she ordered Stay, whom she met for the first time, to become her emotional trash can, and before any complaints could come out of his mouth, she blocked his mouth with money and power and began to forcibly use him as her emotional trash can.

A day to release old emotions that have been stuck for half a year.

Her refreshing sense of freedom, which she could not feel no matter how much money she spent, made her the emergency room’s bamboo shoot, even though Mei Ruina herself was her best healer.

If Mei Ruina was even the slightest bit annoyed, she would immediately rush to the emergency room and call her stay. She would really make her do her little things and not miss even the slightest blemish, grabbing a book and scolding her to relieve stress.

It’s been about a year and a half since she used her stay as an emotional trash can…

[Stand, stand, stand, are you Mr. Sussssstay?]

“Wow, I’m truly honored that May Ruina remembered my name. Yes, the world’s one and only Mei Ruina’s emotional trash can. “It’s an emergency room janitor’s stay.”

[Hiyaaaaah!!!]

For Mei Ruina, the reunion took place in the worst possible way.

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Uh, why? Why is Mr. Stay here? I couldn’t move, but my five senses were intact, so I heard them say they would be moved to the hospital room, but why was the caregiver Mr. Stay…!

Mei Ruina was so embarrassed by this situation.

After becoming a vegetative state, she was unable to talk to anyone for a month, and was trapped in pitch-black darkness, swallowing loneliness, so even though she desperately wanted to interact with others, she reacted like this, showing the presence of Stay.
I was embarrassed.

Because Stay was a victim of Mei Ruina’s cruelty, using her as a trash can for all her emotions.

Of course, it was better for her to stay than to have her unknown pervert man become her caretaker and do dark and dirty things to her, but that’s just not the worst.

Stay Mr.······. Mr. Stay is the person who can hear my voice that I have been waiting for so long…! This is ridiculous…!

Mei Ruina, who had accumulated a year and a half worth of karma from Stay, was very afraid of his presence.

To be precise, I was very afraid of the anger and revenge he would send towards me.

Just like May Ruina did to her Stay, no matter what Stay did to her, she was in a state where she couldn’t even resist.

Ugh, for now. First, you have to hit it head first! I have to say I’m sincerely sorry, wiping out my tears and snot, so that I can somehow survive…! No, but I can’t even shake my head and I can’t even squeeze out tears or snot. What should I do with this? Will Mr. Stay recognize the sincerity in my voice?

Therefore, the only thing that May Ruina could do now was to apologize at the earliest opportunity.

Ugh, while you’re thinking about it, let’s start with apples! Because they say the sooner you apple, the better!

With her brilliant mind, May Ruina expressed her apology in hopes of reducing some of the vengeance and anger that Stei would express towards her.

[Hey, Stay, I’m really sorry for what happened so far!]

But her apology did not end.

“No, it’s okay. There is no need to apologize.”

[······Yes?]

Because the words came out of Stay’s mouth that she would not accept an apology.

“And that, I can hear everything that’s on your mind. I heard she was in big trouble because I was the caregiver, she made a fuss, apologized for being scared, and all that. Even if you apologize with that kind of heart, it doesn’t make much sense.”

And when she heard Stay’s words, Mei Ruina felt a sense of being fucked run down her spine and against the back of her neck, even in her vegetative state.

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[Hee, heeeeet······.]

When a diving person reaches their limit of breath and is grabbed by the ankle with just 30 cm of water left and is dragged back under the surface, wouldn’t they make that sound internally? A sound of despair was heard.

She probably said that because she thought that I, who had heard what she was thinking, would not accept her apology and would clearly express her anger.

[Well, I might end up here… It is certain that Mr. Stay, who is angry, will randomly express his anger and revenge…!]

Look at me. That’s right.

However, I had no intention of doing the kind of thing that Mei Ruina thought.

As I said before, I was a petty citizen who didn’t have the stamina or strength to do such a thing to the hero who saved the world.

In the first place, the desire for revenge isn’t as severe as Mei Ruina thinks.

There were so many truths about her while working in the emergency room that she must have put them all into her heart.

Of course, it’s not that I don’t have in mind what this bitch did…

“Hey. May Ruina. You don’t have to worry about that. “I have no intention of doing anything strange to you.”

[Yes, yes?]

“Of course it’s really upsetting to be forced into the emotional dumpster, but you saved the world, right? “I’ll hit it with that.”

Yes, I owe a debt to May Ruina.

The fact that she is a hero who saved the world means that she also saved my life.

So even though I was a little angry with her, I had no intention of taking revenge on her.

[S, Stay C······.]

When May Rui heard what I said, I don’t know if she was moved or relieved, but she called my name in a slightly watery voice.

It was the first time that this person’s name was called in such a voice, and it gave me goosebumps that tickled my heart.

Even though I wasn’t going to take revenge, I didn’t think it was a good idea either.

Okay, no more useless thoughts. Now that Mei Ruina seems to have calmed down, I guess I should get to the point.

[Okay, thank you. Really. If I knew Mr. Stay was such a good person, I wouldn’t have done something like that…]

I told Mei Ruina, who was talking such nonsense, why I wanted to hear her inner thoughts.

“Hey, it’s like that. “Can I inject my yang energy into your body?”

[······Woman, as expected, you are full of thoughts of revenge!!!]