Chapter 69 – We Have to Take Proper Measures…!

“I don’t like it.”

Huh?

Although he spoke straight with correct pronunciation, his voice was so firm, concise, and cold without any warmth that for a moment I thought I had heard wrongly.

However, I couldn’t just pass it off as a mishearing, because the answer I just heard was clearly replayed in my head over and over again, and it didn’t make sense to mishear an answer that was only two syllables, so I had no choice but to admit that Stay had rejected my offer. 〈 Br〉

······Uh huh. Uh, huh?

Immediately after acknowledging reality, what filled my mind was not the question ‘Why did you reject my offer?’ But a terrible anxiety about seeing something I shouldn’t have seen.

The lingering effects of the treatment and the pressure surrounding my entire body must have made me feel warmer than ever, inside and out, but for some reason, the moment I heard the answer, all that heat lost meaning and only a painfully cold chill penetrated my heart.

If the body were in a situation where it could normally project the influence of the mind and soul, I would have been shaking like an aspen tree. An anxiety that I had never felt before in my life consumed my whole body.

Sis, I don’t like it. Stay said he hates me now. I asked him to stay by my side even after the treatment was over, but he just said it without the slightest thought… As if it was an offer that didn’t even require consideration.

As my thoughts grew longer, my naturally happy imagination began to deteriorate and change under its influence.

Are stays disappearing? When the treatment is over… When the treatment is over, and I open my eyes, will you leave me?

The reason why the imaginary future I drew while intoxicated with warmth was so happy that I couldn’t help but smile was because Stay was there.

When I left for work, Stay gave me a hug to tell me I had a good trip, and when I came home from work, Stay gave me a hug to ask if I had a good trip. This was the biggest reason why I wanted my imagined future to become a reality.

The warmth of others that I learned for the first time through Stay made it impossible for me to go back to the times when I did not know that warmth and when solitude was natural.

But now that I heard the answer from his mouth, ‘No.’, I could no longer imagine a happy future like before.

Imagination is just imagination, and reality always so easily overwhelms imagination.

Ah, ah… Ugh, ugh…

In the face of the reality that Stay rejected my offer, that imagination could not even maintain its original form.

After the imagination that had blurred my vision was consumed by reality, what emerged naturally was another reality that I had forgotten in my delusions and that I unconsciously wanted to forget.

Come to think of it, I made a contract with Stay.

The reality I wanted to forget was the contract I made with Stay face to face on the first day he arrived.

The moment treatment ends, this relationship ends.

The story was that everything that happened in this hospital room would become nothing and that the moment the treatment was over, we would become strangers to each other.

To the point where I realized deep in my heart why I wanted to forget it, even if subconsciously, just imagining the contents of the contract gave me a terrible feeling of falling into an endless abyss, clutching my heart.

So when the treatment is over, you won’t be able to feel this warmth? Will I no longer be able to hug Stay? Are you going to become someone else? Are we going to become strangers? Are Stay and Dain Adamas disappearing from each other’s lives?

Terrible thoughts about the future that made me feel nauseous came rushing in, trying to swallow me up.

No. I hate that much. I don’t like it. Furthermore, I don’t want to be able to feel this warmth. Furthermore, I absolutely hate not being able to be hugged by Stay…!

In a state where only the mind remains, the mental strength becomes horribly weak, and in this situation, mental collapse leads to irreversible results.

The moment I clearly imagine a terrible future, the aftermath will hit me, making it impossible to even maintain my sense of self, which cannot even be compared to the helplessness I felt for a month after becoming a vegetable.

Since something like that shouldn’t happen, I was able to quickly find the cause of this problem and come up with an appropriate solution.

The answer is.

Yes, if it hurts this much because you’re worried that Stay will leave, you just have to make it so that Stay can’t leave…

“Dine.”

‘Oh?’

A warm voice that tickled my ears, not the cold and icy kind that made me have a hard time, but the voice of Stay, the voice I knew and liked that I always heard and always wanted to hear, cut off my thoughts.

However, in a situation where my mind was so preoccupied, being called by just my name was nothing more than peeing on my feet, so I started again to make a plan to prevent a terrible future from coming, which is much more important than just calling me that name.

“Dain, can I just sleep here today, holding you like this?”

‘Really?! ‘Why, why?’

You suddenly say something like this? Why, why? No, it’s not important why you’re doing this now. I will understand first. Let’s first answer that we understand. If I stop, they might think you don’t like it and leave! Wow, I can’t believe you sleep with Stay. Usually, I always show myself falling asleep and waking up alone, but this time I can see Stay sleeping? Of course, you can’t be considered a vegetable, but you can still hear Stay’s breathing while he’s sleeping! Wow, that sounds really fun! I want to do it right now!

‘Joe, great! I love it! Huh! There’s nothing you don’t like about me! ‘Come on, come in here!’

I quickly accepted his offer, putting off asking the reason for a moment in case it would shake Stay’s heart.

“I’m already hugging you, but you’re coming in. Why are you asking me to come in again?”

‘Uh? Ah, well… If I just say I understand, it looks kind of boring…’

“Haha. In my life, I have heard jokes like that from you.”

Did you smile just now? In my words?

It was very short, but what came out of Stay’s mouth was definitely laughter.

I can’t believe Stay laughed after hearing my joke, I can’t believe Stay laughed because of me, I can’t believe Stay was happy because of me!

Since I’ve always lived surrounded by the smiles and compliments of countless people, I shouldn’t have anything to worry about when someone smiles because of me, but for some reason, the moment I heard Stay’s short laugh, a greater sense of satisfaction hit my heart than ever before. 〈 Br〉

Ugh, ugh. Why, why? Why do I feel so good? We just talked like normal. I feel perfect just because Stay smiled at me…!

Another way to make you feel deeply in your heart that you are not alone, different from the physical warmth that comes from physical contact.

The name of that means was conversation, and now I was feeling deep in my heart that I was not alone through the means of conversation.

‘Ehehe······.’

The conversation with Stay and the silly jokes made me feel so good that I couldn’t help but laugh like an idiot.

“Well, I’ve heard jokes like that from you. Should I join in on the joke?”

‘Uh? Huh?!’

However, unlike me, who was somewhat satisfied with discovering the joys of conversation, Stay was not satisfied yet, so she turned my body the other way and buried her face in her chest.

‘Okay.’

“Now, when you’re lying in the same bed as this, isn’t it better to hug face to face rather than back hug?”

At the same time, he wraps his arms around my back and the back of my head, hugs me tightly, puts his whole body in close contact, and whispers in my ear. I was already laughing before that, but there is only one thing I can do.

‘Ugh♥ Jeaaaaa♥’

I was just melting with happiness.

Ahhh, it’s warm♥ I love it♥ I want to stay like this for the rest of my life♥

So soft that I can’t even remember what I was thinking earlier.

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[Subject faints. The connection will be disconnected.]

Drop.

With the notification that I had fainted, I felt a disconnection in my heart.

It was a familiar notification and sensation now, but it was more welcome now than ever.

“Whoa…”

Because the fact that this notification popped up meant that Dain Adamas could no longer think those scary and terrible thoughts.

I carefully removed Dyne Adamas’s arm from her claws and slowly, with minimal movements, slipped out of her bed, like a snake shedding its skin.

Immediately after, with my free hands, I turned off the phone call that was probably still connected to the speaker mounted in the other two people’s hospital rooms, and without even making the sound of their footsteps, I quietly left the hospital room and entered the night room.

Crash.

Even though she closed the door to the night room and knew that there was nothing around, she was able to let out her true feelings only after looking around a few times.

“Wow, you really almost got ruined…!”

Dain Adamas’s self-talk, like the fear of the abyss, started as soon as he heard my rejection.

Just thinking about it gave me goosebumps and shivers, and as I trembled like an aspen tree, I made a firm decision.

“We have to take proper measures…”

Current time: 1:00 AM.

“A plan to escape from that terrible future!”

So I started a desperate emergency response committee that would only get results after consuming a full 6 hours.