Chapter 70 – Confession (1)

“Haa… Haa…”

I was so focused that I was breathing heavily even though I didn’t move my body.

My vision was blurring, my heart was pounding so hard that my body was shaking, and the feeling of exhaustion that I felt just before exhaustion took away all my strength.

However, despite this, his mind was more intelligent than ever.

This was because the sense of elation of successfully coming up with a solution made the mind alert.

“Okay, this is it. There is no other way than this.”

The solution that was finally arrived at after a long struggle lasting six hours was so surprising that even after reviewing it several times, there was no disagreement.

It’s not perfect, but there’s no better way. This is the best I can do.

A plan to overcome the difficulties called life, which I can’t believe I came up with, and which seemed like there was no way out.

Just by thinking of this method, I felt like a big path had opened up in the previously dark road, and I opened the door to my nighttime room that had been tightly shut.

Crash.

“Then let’s go.”

It was just time to meet today’s treatment subject, May Ruina.

“Let’s do our best to survive.”

It was the best strategy to overshadow any disagreement, and the person who would become the first victim was May Ruina.

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‘······Is it late. It’s late! Do you know what time it is? What on earth are you doing?! As expected, Mr. Stay, there is a part of me that is being pricked, so is it because you don’t have the courage to look at my face that you are procrastinating like this?’

I felt as if my anger would go over the top of my head and break through. It was very difficult to feel this way after becoming a saint, but after becoming a vegetable, I spend every day filled with anger.

Still, should I say that it is fortunate that when I receive Mr. Stay’s treatment, the anger that seems like it will never melt like an ice cap melts away, and the empty space is filled with warm happiness and relief?

However, the very next day, when I hear Stay’s voice on the speaker whispering sweet words to a woman other than me, my heart burns with anger that is several times more angry than the anger that was resolved. It is a very big problem that will never be solved. 〈 Br〉

‘Exactly… Like now…!’

It’s a shame that I can’t move my body because I’m in a vegetative state. If my body moved normally, I’d be so angry that I’d be grinding my teeth right now.

The reason is because of an unprecedented incident heard through the speakers yesterday.

‘Discrimination goes to extremes… Why do you always favor Dain Adamas, give him special treatment, and pay attention to him? I tried to give in to everything else and let it go, but I could never get over what happened yesterday. Never, never! I will definitely be angry. Just for today, I won’t fall for that weird, fox-like tongue and atmosphere, and I’ll definitely get an apology!’

Words that should not be heard from the speakers yesterday.

Even though the treatment was over, Mr. Stay did not leave the hospital room, so he first asked Mr. Dain Adamas if he could go to sleep. The truly absurd thing happened in the next hospital room just yesterday.

Mr. Stay’s words made me doubt even my ears, which were trained not to miss even the slightest sound as I lived in the Vatican where there was a lot of scheming, ‘Dain, can I just sleep here today, holding you like this?’.

It was such a terrible word that the moment I heard it, my hair turned white, I couldn’t speak properly, and my heart felt like it was freezing.

‘You know so clearly that I’m listening… But you say something like that to another woman. I can never forgive you. If we don’t make sure this time, something similar will definitely happen after treatment is over. No? Something worse could happen. Because Mr. Stay is a libertine. Because he is a male dominated by the lower half of his body who, even with a person like me, immediately gives his attention to another woman… Yes, we need to fix Mr. Stay before he becomes a real enemy of women. This is something that only I, a saint, can do… We have to turn Mr. Stay, a libertine, into a normal man who only has eyes for one woman.’

In this way, the cause of saving Mr. Stay, who had a 100% chance of becoming corrupt the moment he went out into society after receiving treatment, was created.

If you use this cause as a guidepost and the anger that burns your heart as fuel, you will be able to overcome whatever tricks Mr. Stay tries and take the lead.

So far, we’ve had no choice but to be one-sided, but that’s only because there’s no reason to fight back. Now that I have a cause, there is no reason for me to lose.

‘Whew. Come quickly Mr. Stay. As a saint, I will do my best to fix your broken values! I will make you a normal man who only looks at one woman, thinks only about one woman, and loves only one woman!’

Crash.

‘And! You have come! Oh, no! You’re here… Mr. Stay.’

Wow-

With perfect timing, the moment I made my decision, the door to the hospital room opened, and at the same time, the feeling of being connected to something warm and always welcome seeped into my heart.

Normally, the moment our hearts connected, I would have thought I would just let the anger build up melt away and let it go, but today is different. I won’t let you go so lightly today!

“I’m here, May Ruina. How are you?”

I gathered myself together, became emotionally intense, and responded coldly to Mr. Stay, who was only greeting me warmly without even being able to understand the atmosphere.

‘No. She wasn’t doing well at all. It’s completely different.’

You don’t even call me May. You’re using polite language. She said that from now on she will call me by my first name only and informally. She’s done. I really don’t care anymore. Even if you cry and beg for help, he will get furious, so be prepared.

After bracing myself and preparing to get angry at Mr. Stay’s ridiculous attitude, I opened my mouth and spoke coldly.

‘Stay, do you have anything to say to me?’

I’m really, furious, so I wanted to vent all my anger on Mr. Stay right now, but I’m still a saint. Through this question, I gave Mr. Stay one last chance.

You will get angry no matter what is said, but if you say the right answer. ‘I’m sorry May. I won’t do that again next time. From now on, when I treat another woman, I will not call her by her first name or hug her. I will just treat her in a business-like manner. If you give the correct answer, ‘Please forgive me,’ I will still commute your sentence. So Mr. Stay, think carefully before answering.

As a benevolent saint, even in situations where I had no choice but to get angry, I showed mercy until the end and waited for Mr. Stay’s answer.

“What do you want to say? Well, it does exist.”

‘Ha, really? Then, why don’t you tell her with her open mouth?’

In response to Mr. Stay’s answer, which seemed to have something to say, she filled her emotions with sarcasm and guided her to answer.

It would not be an exaggeration to say that Stay’s fate today and in the future will be determined by what words come out of her mouth.

Stay is the one who decides her fate, but the person who decides that fate is me, so it was natural for me to feel nervous.

So, I nervously listened to Mr. Stay’s voice, and Ms. Stay opened her mouth towards me.

“I thought about it a lot without even sleeping, but I felt like I had to say this. I’ve been hiding it somehow until now. Should I say that there is no longer any reason to hide it?”

‘Soo, what are you hiding?’

The atmosphere was unusual, and despite my promise not to be swayed by the atmosphere created by Mr. Stay, my heart was shaken, and the tension pounded in my heart as if I had to swallow dry saliva.

“Yes, my heart that I was hiding. My sincere feelings towards May Ruina. “I will confess now.”

‘What what what what!?!! Go, go, go, go, confess?! So suddenly?!’

“Originally, confessions are sudden, right? Then…”

‘Wait a minute! Mr. Stay, wait a minute! Yes, prepare your mind! You need to be ready! Please wait a moment!’

“Yes what…”

However, the moment the word “Confession” Came out of Mr. Stay’s mouth, the pounding of his heart changed from tension to excitement, and the anger that had filled his chest melted away in an instant, and happiness quickly filled the empty space.

I promised myself that I would use my anger as a milestone for a good cause, but confession is more important than that, right? Confession! Oh my god! I thought I would get it someday, but I never thought I would get it so soon!

Was it really like that? Was yesterday’s ridiculous deviant behavior meant to reaffirm your love for me? It was a very bad behavior that really shouldn’t have happened, but after confirming and acknowledging his feelings, he returned to the place he needed to go, so I can’t be angry.

There is nothing more meaningless and foolish than getting angry about something from the past toward someone who has realized their mistake and started walking the right path. That’s just anger, it’s not something you truly care about the other person, right?

After washing away all the anger that filled my heart, I closed my mouth and prepared to receive Mr. Stay’s confession.

‘Oh, come!’

Obviously, if your body was in a state where it could be affected by emotions, you would have been distracted by the sound of your heart pounding.

Receiving a confession like that was heartbreaking, and my heart trembled in real time as I focused all my attention on Mr. Stay to receive his confession.

“May Ruina. In fact, I am May Ruina…”

‘Yes, yes…!’

Oh, here it comes! Come! Really, really get my confession! It’s been 1 day since today with Stay…

“I really hate it.”

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“From the day I first met May Ruina, for every moment, for every moment, I hated you.”

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“Suddenly using someone you’ve met for the first time as an emotional trash can, looking down on someone for being F-grade, being a benevolent saint to others but behaving like human trash with a ruined personality to me, are all things. I really hate it.”

······Huh?

“I truly hate you, May Ruina.”

Huh?

Uh oh…?