Chapter 80 – It Seems Like My Life Was Ruined as Soon as I Started Anew.

“······But what should I do now?”

When the long, long journey ended, I found myself in a situation where I didn’t know what to do.

Opening a café in a quiet countryside and enjoying the leisure and freedom of everyday life is my biggest goal and a dream that must be achieved, but it was not something I could achieve right now.

“If you want to open a café, you first have to get money from May Ruina…”

Since I was passed out from the aftermath of my climax and I didn’t know when I would wake up, all I could do right now was wait.

“······Well, I feel too good right now to just wait.”

However, the tension that had risen to the point where I could not sit still and wait next to the three people who had fainted as usual now that I had achieved the greatest feat of my life, the curse of ‘Eternal Prison’.

Still, it’s a situation where something has to be done.

But it’s such an awkward situation that there’s nothing we can do right now…

“Ah. Right. “I need to pack up.”

I thought about it for a while because I had nothing to do, and surprisingly, I thought of something to do.

What I need to do is empty out the room I stayed in when I was working as an emergency room attendant.

In fact, since I worked in the emergency room longer than I stayed at home, the only luggage I had at home was a blanket, a pillow, toothpaste, and a towel, but I still needed to pack up my luggage.

“I even received a call asking me to vacate my room within this week.”

Because I have to move out soon.

It wasn’t like the rent was behind, or the landlord was abusive. It was planned because when I started treatment, I contacted the landlord saying I would be moving out of the room within the next month.

Even if the treatment doesn’t end for more than a month, you can sleep in a room that is much better than your home, and when the treatment is over within a month, you can receive money from May Ruina and move to a quiet place where she can make her dream come true.

Therefore, moving out of the room I was originally living in was decided from the day I signed a contract with the three people, and the treatment for the three people was completely completed today, so now was the perfect time to pack up.

“Then, would you like to go and visit?”

Since I don’t have much luggage, I could buy a large box from the post office and put it in there.

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“·····Phew.”

After organizing the luggage, there was just enough to fill one box.

“And more than half of the box is filled with blankets. ······What has my life been like?”

When I thought that the small amount of luggage contained in this box was something I had accumulated over the past four years, I felt a cold wind blowing through my heart.

“I worked so hard and sweat so hard. ······It’s so light.”

Not only was the box containing my luggage light, but my bankbook, wallet, and clothes were all extremely light.

Of course, it was all my fault that I ended up like this, and if I received the compensation and severance pay that I had promised to Ruina May, I would have the foundation to pursue my dreams again, so there was no problem with my current situation.

However, when I thought that this was all I had left after working my body and mind for four years, it was inevitable that my heart would become empty.

No, it’s not that it’s empty because this is all that’s left… It’s that I feel this way when I face the reality that I was ignoring.

While treating Mei Ruina, Dain Adamas, and Mir Ryuin as their caregiver for about a month, I never stopped by this house even for a single day.

The contract signed with the Central Intelligence Agency involves working as a caregiver until the three people wake up from the hospital bed on their own.

In fact, my becoming a caregiver was just for show, so I was just confined to a special ward, and it didn’t matter if I just left work when it was time to leave.

In fact, all of their health care was taken care of by a bed-shaped artifact that three people were lying on.

However, until their curse was completely lifted, I did not go home from work, and stayed in the night room of the special ward, providing all of my food and lodging there.

“Because I didn’t want to come back to this shitty room.”

A life where you fall down as if you fainted in a room so small that your head touches the wall when you fully stretch out your feet, and then get up and go to work as if you were struck by water.

That was the reality I had experienced for the past four years, and the despair I so desperately wanted to escape.

Therefore, caring for three people over the past month was an escape from reality for me, and an escape from despair.

Like humans who are creatures of forgetfulness, I spent a month with three people who were different from me as human beings, so I momentarily forgot about the four years I had spent, but after facing this, the reality I had forgotten hit me again, and I was shocked and left empty. .

“Was I actually relying on those three people?”

Just as the three people were waiting for my treatment day, just as they relied on and clung to the only day in the world where I could communicate, I actually relied on the three people…

“······Well, no matter how much I think about it, that’s not true.”

There is something else to rely on, not other people, but I rely on those three? Those character destroyers?

“What the. Even if the minimum human level was achieved through a major operation to rewrite the crazy bitch, those three are still those three. It’s not that the fundamentals have changed. But do I rely on those three people? “It doesn’t make sense.”

After thinking about something so ridiculous, my senses returned, and I began to see reality, which had been darkened by the shadows of the past, clearly.

What I’ve accumulated so far is only the size of a box, but that doesn’t mean my future is dark.

In fact, a life so brilliant and happy that I could not even compare it to what I had been waiting for was waiting for me.

People who dwell on the past can never progress.

Now, I am not the F-class awakened person who did not know the topics and fractions of the past, but I was a small citizen who clearly knew my class and status and the limits of what I could do.

There is no need to throw your life away because you are blinded by groundless expectations.

“Yes, I have changed. I said I grew up. Now I understand the topic well, and I don’t dream about an excessive future. “I will only do what I can do, just what I can handle.”

When I thought that there was nothing to fail anymore and that the four years I had thrown away were the foundation for the next 60 years, my empty heart was filled, and my shrunken shoulders straightened.

“Let’s go out. As I carry my luggage and leave, I say goodbye to the past. The stay until now is different from the stay from now on. A new beginning in the true sense of the word! Okay! Good! “I was born again today!”

Let’s go to the hospital room, say goodbye to the three people, receive the money from May Ruina, and then look for a place in the country to open a café!

With that thought, I left my foolish past behind in this house, picked up the box containing my belongings, and grabbed the doorknob of this dirty, narrow room.

Wow!

An old, rusty and creaky doorknob that cannot even be compared to the soft and silent doorknob of the special ward.

It seemed as if it showed the difference between me and the three people I cared for.

“······Haha.”

Now that I think about it, what happens with those three?

Looking at the expressions the three people said to me during treatment, it seemed like it was a relationship that would never end.

In particular, Dain Adamas seemed to have special feelings for me, to the extent that she asked me to continue working for her as if she were confessing it.

Of course, this was most likely just a fleeting feeling that arose naturally since I was the only one the three of us could talk to at the time of the curse.

When they were cursed, they were in a vegetative state, unable to even lift a finger. From the moment the curse was lifted, those three people would become the world’s greatest heroes again.

Can I really be a special person to those three people who have wealth, power, and power that I can’t even imagine?

“Of course it’s not like that. “It doesn’t make sense.”

One of the things I am best at is self-objectification, and this extreme level of self-objectivity taught me that the difference between me and those three people was so great that I couldn’t even dare to measure it.

But just in case… If those three people don’t want to break off their relationship with me even after they return to their daily lives, I…

“······Well, it would be okay for us to just remain acquaintances. Because it was a huge operation to rewrite the crazy bitch for that purpose.”

Anyway, it hurt my pride to know that the maintenance of the relationship was entirely up to them and not me, but the difference in status between them and me made it natural in the first place.

Of course, too much had happened in the past four years to make me feel serious about something like this, so I just smiled and opened the door.

Now, it’s a real new start! My life starts from here…!

“Ah, you came out. He was talking a lot to himself, so I just waited. Of course, if it had lasted five more minutes, I would have forced the door handle and gone in, but fortunately, that didn’t happen.”

“······Huh?”

Why is this person here?

“It’s rude to look at a person’s face and make that kind of expression, Mr. Stay. And it’s a sphere, right? Then, isn’t there something you should say other than making such a surprised expression?”

“Uh, what…”

“Ha. Is it so. Before I say anything to Mr. Stay, I should practice it first. Nice to meet you, Mr. Stay.”

Looking at me, who had stiffened, she smiled and greeted me.

She held out her hand to say hello and shake my hand, but I couldn’t take her hand.

“Is this your first time seeing me 39 days ago?”

Because the person who is reaching out to me now is the person I most wanted to meet, who forced me to take care of three people.

It was because he was Nice, an agent belonging to the Central Intelligence Agency of the Awakened Association.

“Anyway, the ‘treatment’ you gave Mei Ruina, Dain Adamas, and Mir Ryuin was very good… Sigh. Is it so. I enjoyed it very much. It’s so sad… No, no. “It was truly spectacular, wasn’t it?”

It seems like my life was ruined as soon as I started anew.